Li Xunhuan and A Fei

In the chilly spring season, the grass and trees are still withered and yellow, and there is vitality hidden under the dry and cracked permafrost. When the sun shines on the earth, green eyes will appear everywhere.All the waiting is for growth, and all the desolation is for the beauty of the future. The mountains are silent in the cold morning air, and the bare trees stand quietly under the white snow.

Under the tree, beside the road, in the deepest part of the wild grass, the two sat on the ground, talking happily.

A Fei seriously finished his longevity noodles, even drank the soup. Li Xunhuan sat opposite him, chatting with A Fei while drinking.

Ah Fei drank the last sip of soup, and put down the bowl with some reluctance: "Longevity noodles are delicious, thank you."

Li Xun Huan took a sip of his wine with his neck back, and looked sideways at A Fei: "I wanted to make longevity noodles for you yesterday, but today, I set off before dawn, and I was the first one to buy noodles."

Ah Fei said: "Actually, you don't have to get up early to buy noodles for me."

Li Xunhuan smiled and said, "Didn't you say you wanted to eat when you were shopping that day? Of course I will buy what you want."

Ah Fei asked casually, "How long did it take you to reach the town?"

Li Xun Huan thought about it, and replied, "About an hour."

"Your kung fu is still better than mine."

"One day you will be better than me, you are still young, and there are infinite possibilities."

"Is my kung fu better than you in the last life?"

"Didn't you say you don't believe in past lives?"

"I believe it now."

After saying this, A Fei didn't know what to say, Li Xun Huan didn't say anything, the two of them suddenly shut up together.

There was a sudden silence.

It seemed that everything, everyone, and everything that could be thought of had been said, and there was no more word spoken between the two of them, just silent like this.

The mountains and rivers are silent with them, everything is silent, only the sound of insects crawling over the treetops, rustling, rustling, like the whisper of a lover by the pillow at night.

The two of them didn't feel much when they talked normally, but once they fell silent, there was an indescribable embarrassment and embarrassment, and they scattered quietly.

The early morning mist drifted over from the mountain side, enveloping Li Xunhuan and A Fei. Although the two were close at hand, it was difficult to see each other clearly.

They looked at each other and wanted to talk, but they didn't know what to say.Some words, although we know each other well, are still difficult to speak.

I don't know how long it took, the unbearable silence was broken by A Fei. After all, A Fei is a brave person, he spoke first:

"Didn't you go to buy longevity noodles last night?" Ah Fei lowered his head and looked at the empty noodle bowl with not even a drop of soup left. He didn't want to look at Li Xun Huan, fearing that if he saw Li Xun Huan, he wouldn't be able to hold back his tears. Do you really want to go?"

Li Xun Huan didn't know how to answer, an affirmative answer would be too hurtful, he never wanted to hurt others, and he couldn't lie to others, not to mention that the person was A Fei, and he couldn't deceive him, so Li Xun Huan would rather go drinking.

He picked up the jug, only to realize that the jug was empty at some point. Sooner or later, the wine will be finished. Sooner or later, people have to say goodbye. This is the law of the world, and no one can change it.He put down the jug resentfully, looked at the misty mist in the distance, his eyes were as blank as mist.

Different from Li Xun Huan, A Fei is a person who is not in a daze. He has always been clear about what he wants since he was a child. He is a direct person who never hides or beats around the bush. His second sentence immediately said: "How can I keep you from leaving?"

Under A Fei's aggressiveness, Li Xun Huan had no choice but to speak: "Maybe I shouldn't have come."

A Fei understands what Li Xunhuan means, if Li Xunhuan doesn't come, he can live well and grow up healthy by himself, but Li Xunhuan is here after all.How can those who have come be regarded as not coming?How can it be as if what happened didn't happen?He left a deep mark in his heart, can it be erased now with a light "I shouldn't come"?

Ah Fei has always lived in the dark, and all his mother taught him is the darkness of the world, and he could have endured the darkness—if he had never seen the sun.

At the age of 11, his mother died of illness, and Ah Fei grew up overnight. From then on, he lived tenaciously alone. He lived like a weed. right.He closed his heart and never opened his heart to anyone again. He thought that this way he would not be hurt and would not experience the pain of his mother's death again.

But Li Xunhuan came.

Li Xunhuan broke into his life, bringing him warmth, generosity, love, happiness...bringing him all the good things in the world.

People who have been in darkness for a long time will yearn for sunshine more than ordinary people.It's okay to never have the light, but if you lose it once you have it, it will be more uncomfortable than at the beginning.Up to now, A Fei can no longer bear to lose Li Xunhuan.

When A Fei was young, he also dreamed about what his father would be like. If he really had the honor of having a father, then it would be no better than Li Xunhuan.

But Li Xunhuan is not just his father.

Li Xunhuan said that the two of them were old friends from previous lives. When A Fei knew that even old friends could not be together every day and never be separated, A Fei began to think of Li Xunhuan as his wife.

I don't know when this thought started, maybe it was when Li Xunhuan danced his sword on New Year's Eve, maybe it was when Li Xunhuan bandaged the wound he was scratched by a tiger, maybe it was the first time Li Xunhuan helped A Fei with his hands, gently whispering in A Fei's ear. When I said "my little hooligan grows up", maybe, a little earlier, it was even the first time we met.

Feeling unacceptable, going deeper.

There are some things that Ah Fei cannot trace to the source, and there is no need to trace the source, just grasp the ending.The process is not important, what matters is the ending, and the ending is that Li Xunhuan must be with him.

"If you don't like it, I can never touch you, don't say those exaggerated things to you, and don't mention what happened last night." Ah Fei said these words very calmly, as calm as the night before the storm, "I can I will only be your friend for the rest of my life, and I will never deviate, and I will be whatever you want me to be."

"I don't want you to force yourself."

"It's not forced, it's my willingness." A Fei lowered his head and said with determination, "I will put away my feelings for you, we will remain the same as before, you stay."

Li Xun Huan withdrew his gaze from afar, and glanced at A Fei, he couldn't think that A Fei would do this to such an extent, the more A Fei was like this, the more uncomfortable Li Xun Huan felt - this showed that A Fei was deeply trapped and could not extricate himself.This recognition caused Li Xun Huan to feel a huge sense of guilt, which overwhelmed him immediately.

"I won't stay," he gritted his teeth, and still said hurtful words, "I once pushed my beloved woman to others and caused the tragedy of three people. I used to be self-righteous and smart, and I harmed many people. I I don't want to hurt you again, I don't want you to change the trajectory of your life because of me."

"I said that everything has changed since the day you came here." A Fei raised his head and looked directly at Li Xunhuan, "You told me that this world is warm, that people should have happiness, hope, and dreams , all my happiness and hope come from you, and the biggest dream of my life is to be with you. After you give me these, you take them back without mercy, have you ever thought about my feelings?"

A Fei's eyes turned red quickly, his voice trembled, he paused before continuing, "Is it really so interesting to play with people's hearts?"

"No!" Li Xunhuan couldn't help but get excited, "You are still young, you can't distinguish between love and friendship. In your last life, you liked a woman named Lin Xian'er, which shows that you are not born to like men. You will I am like this because you met me when you first fell in love, and you will know in the future that there are still many people worthy of your love in this world."

"But there is no second Li Xunhuan!"

"So what? You're just confused for a moment. Don't you know better about my two lives than you? You have admiration for me, and you treat me like a father and brother. You are only 16 years old. How do you know what love is?"

"Aren't you me? How do you know that I don't know what love is?"

"How do you prove it?"

A Fei paused, he really couldn't prove it.

"Do you want me to peel off my heart to show you?"

"Even if you die, I won't stay." Li Xunhuan stood up and said fiercely, "Men and men are against the laws of nature and human relations. You are my best brother. I want you to become a flying swordsman, not Being reviled by others. I know you have been stubborn since you were young, and you will never change your decisions, so I hope you understand," Li Xunhuan stretched out his right index finger, pointed at himself, and said loudly:

"I! Li Xunhuan! I have no affection for A Fei!"

"I will never agree to your request. I will never let you make the same mistakes again and again. I hurt you. I will pay you back in the next life. As for this life..."

"I will never appear in front of you again in this life!"

"In this life, in this life, we will never meet again!"

A Fei was stunned.

The wind picked up, and the mist gradually blew away. Li Xunhuan, dressed in white over the snow, stood in the strong wind, looking beautiful and miserable, as if he wanted to ride the wind back home.

Li Xunhuan's broken words came in the wind, the words "Never see each other" were like a flash of lightning, splitting A Fei's tiny hopes like dust in the wind, so all hopes became extravagant hopes, and there was no room for maneuver .

Ah Fei seemed to be stupefied by this sentence, he just couldn't move, couldn't speak, and didn't even roll his eyes.

He thought he would cry, but just now he couldn't help crying when he saw Li Xun Huan, but now he realized that when people are really sad, they can't cry.

Li Xun Huan suddenly coughed loudly, the cough was piercing, he wanted to cough up his heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys before he stopped.The wind was getting stronger and stronger, and Li Xun Huan's hair and clothes were blown backwards, and his whole body was tottering in the wind.He bent down, covered his mouth with his right hand, and kept coughing. His rickety body looked so fragile, and sad.

He felt a fishy sweetness welling up in his throat, and a taste of iron filings diffused in his mouth. He tried his best to suppress the blood, but he couldn't suppress it.

The blood poured out uncontrollably, he clenched his teeth tightly, and swallowed the blood back, not letting A Fei see any clues.

He felt severe pain in his chest. He didn't know if it was a heartache or a lung pain. This kind of pain was so familiar. In his previous life, he begged Lu Feng to kill Lin Xian'er first for A Fei. Li Xunhuan vomited blood.After being reborn in this life, his body was already in good shape after cultivation, but it was so unexpected.

Probably many things are like this, reincarnation makes people desperate, unchangeable, destined by God.