Li Xunhuan and A Fei

No matter how long the winter is, the winter will pass, but how cold the spring outside the customs is at the beginning, the spring will eventually warm up, and the first rain in spring will come as promised, which is very trustworthy.

It was a torrential rain, crackling and bean-like.There was still thunder at first, but then it gradually disappeared.The torrential rain, accompanied by the strong wind, added to its power, causing the leaves to fly up and down and the vegetation to sway.The spider web between the two branches was completely shattered the moment the rain fell, and the huge green spider was immediately hit to the ground by the heavy rain.

Li Xun Huan stood blankly in the rain, did not take shelter from the rain, did not make any movements, stood there, did nothing, and started thinking.

He just wants to.

He couldn't see the storm in front of him, couldn't hear the sound of the rain, he thought over and over in his mind, thinking carefully.

He thought about his whole life, including his last life.

He remembered many, many things that he thought he had forgotten, he remembered many, many details, he remembered Lin Shiyin and Long Xiaoyun.

Since Chonghuo I came to A Fei, he seldom thinks of Shiyin, and when he thinks of Shiyin, he no longer feels heartache. Even the portrait of his cousin that he always sculpted in the past has become a portrait of A Fei.Some things that he thought would accompany him for a lifetime seemed to be relieved in his brooding arms.

In his last life, he thought he was smart and self-righteous, and he decided to give Lin Shiyin to Long Xiaoyun, thinking it was good for the two of them, but it turned out that he was wrong.

Then, in the second life, what is the difference between the matter about Ah Fei and the matter about Lin Shiyin back then?

He is still smart and self-righteous, and made the decision never to see each other in the name of "for the good of A Fei". Is this for the good of A Fei, or to satisfy his desire to control?

He thinks it doesn't matter what A Fei's opinion is, A Fei is a child, and A Fei is not sensible.

But he is not A Fei, how can he judge whether A Fei understands or not?The child is not a fish, who knows the joy of fish?

Even if A Fei really doesn't understand what love is, even if A Fei will regret it one day, then wouldn't Li Xun Huan dare to gamble with A Fei?When did Li Xunhuan become so timid and cowardly, afraid to agree now because he was afraid of breaking up in the future?

A Fei is an extremely stubborn person. He never changes what he believes. He is more mature than his peers since he was a child. He may be responsible for his own decisions.

In his last life, he made decisions for Lin Shiyin and caused the three of them to suffer for a lifetime. Will he make the same mistake again in this life?Isn't the lesson from the previous life not enough?

Two lives, times have changed, Li Xunhuan finally had the opportunity to calmly recall Shiyin.

Long Xiaoyun was seriously ill back then, so he didn't think about telling Shiyin the truth and letting Shiyin choose between the two men. The reason why he didn't say it was because he knew that Shiyin's character would definitely not choose Long Xiao Yun, and must not even see Long Xiaoyun from now on.That would have killed Long Xiaoyun's life, how could he bear it?

The best way he could think of was to let Shiyin treat Long Xiaoyun Xu and the snake, even if it is perfunctory, as long as they don't break up suddenly, after a period of buffering, maybe the elder brother will fall in love with other women.After all, the best time for love is always when you haven't got it. Once the eldest brother has more contact with Shiyin, after getting to know Shiyin, he may not be so obsessed with it.

When he talked with Shiyin a little bit about asking Shiyin to take care of the sick Long Xiaoyun, Shiyin immediately refused.Shiyin's temperament is soft on the outside and strong on the inside, a bit stubborn. She will never do anything she doesn't like. In her relationship with Li Xunhuan, Li Xunhuan has always let her go. This time is no exception. Li Xunhuan can't tell the truth Xia (telling the truth Shiyin will definitely never see Long Xiaoyun) can't force Shiyin, so he can only drink away his sorrows in secret.

During those days when she was drinking away her sorrows, Shiyin not only failed to see Li Xunhuan's pain, but slightly blamed Li Xunhuan for only drinking and neglecting herself, thinking that the prodigal son may not be a good man at home.

Li Xunhuan was even more disappointed seeing Shiyin not being considerate to him.

It's hard to say whether he went to the brothel out of anger at first.

He might want to test it out, to see how much this cousin, who has been a pet since childhood, really cares about him. He forgot that human nature is the most vulnerable to temptation.

Shiyin has complained, hated, sad, and disappointed, but never thought about: Is there any reason why my cousin suddenly became like this?Did something happen to him that changed his temperament?

Li Xun Huan's initial anger and temptation gradually turned towards a direction beyond his control.

He lingered in the brothel for two years, two years was enough for Lin Shiyin to die, and two years was enough for Li Xunhuan to see Lin Shiyin clearly: She never really trusted me.

If it was someone else, they might trust Li Xunhuan. The closer the lover, the less likely they would trust him. The so-called closeness leads to estrangement. How could Li Xunhuan, who was young and frivolous at the time, understand this truth.

This is how misunderstandings arise.

It has been happening for a long time, and it is difficult to say whether it is a misunderstanding or a fact.

In the later stage, even if Li Xunhuan felt remorse, it was difficult for him to speak the truth. It took him many years to realize that he was actually angry at his distrust of Lin Shiyin: since you think I am this kind of person, I will be this kind of person. You look good!

Li Xunhuan let Lin Shiyin go for so many years, and lost his childish temper just once, which ruined his life.

Two years later, Li Xunhuan was very impatient with the torture between them, he didn't want to get angry with Shiyin anymore, his elder brother's illness was cured, when Li Xunhuan was about to tell the truth, Lin Shiyin agreed to marry Long Xiaoyun.

Only then did Li Xunhuan realize that the truth is never important, what matters is time.

Waiting for leisure to change but the old people's mind, but the old people's mind is easy to change.

He only has blessings, blessings to his cousin and elder brother.

After leaving customs in his previous life, he was still thinking, if he told the truth before elder brother and Shiyin got married, would Shiyin still marry elder brother?In her heart, is Long Xiaoyun more important or her cousin?He will never have a chance to know the answer, because if he does, he will embarrass the three of them. He has always been the kind of person who puts other people's interests above his own.

Besides, does he really love Shiyin?

When he saw that his elder brother was seriously ill and dying, he refused to marry Shiyin. Does it mean that Shiyin was not as important as his elder brother's life in his heart?He wandered around the brothel and had countless opportunities to persuade Lin Shiyin to stay, as long as he expressed his affection, Lin Shiyin could return to his embrace at any time, why didn't he do that?Even if he loves Shiyin, how deep is this love?

Li Xunhuan was born a prodigal son, it is impossible for him to quit the arena for Shiyin, there are many things in his life other than Lin Shiyin.Shiyin is a lady from all over the world, with a quiet temperament and doesn't like the world. She can understand Li Xunhuan's poems and songs, but she can't understand Li Xunhuan's happiness and grievances.

Li Xunhuan and Shiyin talked a lot about piano, chess, calligraphy and painting together. They grew up together. They were childhood sweethearts. They were very happy when they played together.They can enjoy happiness together, but they may not be able to share adversity.

Even later, when Li Xunhuan learned that Shiyin had concealed the "Treasure of Lotus Flowers", he was not surprised.

You know, that was the time when their love was strong. When their relationship was at its best, Lin Shiyin didn't even give Wang Lianhua's "Lotus Book" to Li Xunhuan. It can be seen that Lin Shiyin was not completely defenseless against Li Xunhuan.There are secrets between them, each has their own thoughts, and they don't trust each other 100%.

They had been in love, but their personalities were not suitable for marriage.

Li Xun Huan didn't get Lin Shiyin, and he had been thinking about it for ten years outside the customs. If Li Xun Huan married Lin Shiyin, no one knew what would happen after decades of daily necessities.

As for A Fei, Li Xun Huan is the most comfortable and relaxed when getting along with A Fei, and he is the most free-wheeling. A Fei and he are both from the Jianghu, and can understand many things that Lin Shiyin can't.Li Xun Huan didn't even need to speak to A Fei, A Fei knew what was on his mind.

They are brothers, sharing weal and woe, Li Xunhuan is very sure that no matter how he becomes, no matter how unbearable he is, even if the whole world gives up on him, A Fei will not.

He used to only regard Ah Fei as a brother, and never thought about it in other directions.

If it is said that people who can enjoy blessings and have fun together are love, then what is sharing adversity, understanding and trusting each other, is it not love?Isn't this kind of affection more rare and deeper?

Back then, he gave Shiyin to his elder brother because Shiyin was weak and looked delicate and timid, so he didn't dare to let Shiyin bear it together.Now that he has experienced another relationship, Ah Fei is not weak and is fully capable of taking responsibility for his own decisions, so does Li Xun Huan still want to push A Fei away like this?

Back then, Li Xunhuan didn't tell Lin Shiyin the truth, but now, should he tell A Fei the setbacks and difficulties that this kind of love with broken sleeves will encounter, and let A Fei choose whether to walk the road full of thorns or not?

Lin Shiyin is a charming lady, Li Xunhuan respects and loves her but may not trust her, let alone dare to rely on her, A Fei is a man who can be entrusted with life and death, A Fei can shoulder all the sufferings in the future on his shoulders.

There is no doubt that he made a mistake about Shiyin in his previous life. Will he make another mistake about A Fei in this life?

Li Xun Huan stood motionless in the heavy rain, the rain dripped down his cheeks from his hair, and formed a waterline on his chin.The wind blew his clothes close to his body, and his whole body was drenched from the inside to the outside. The chill penetrated from the skin to the lungs, piercing the bones and seams.

The sword wound on his chest was irritated by the cold rain, and it was painful and itchy. The incompletely healed wound was soaked white, and Li Xun Huan didn't bother to pay attention to it.

There seemed to be a fire burning in his body, which made his cheeks red, his forehead hot, and his head dizzy, but he didn't care about it.

The rain is good, let the rain wash away the filth on his body, the pain of the rain on his body can relieve the pain in his heart.He stood facing the wind and rain, opened his arms, raised his head, squinted his eyes slightly, and looked at the gray and gray sky, with an expression on his face that could not tell whether it was sadness or joy.

He turned his body slowly and greeted the rain with his hands.

The rain was so heavy that he couldn't even open his eyes. He wiped his face from bottom to top, and then put his hands behind his head to let the rain hit his face again.

Holding his head like this, he turned round and round in place.

He didn't know why he did it.

He didn't cry.

The rain gradually subsided, and the drizzle fell on Li Xun Huan, as if it was soothing Li Xun Huan gently, even God couldn't see it, and didn't want to torture this self-torturing person anymore.

Li Xun Huan was wet all over, as if he had just been fished out of the river, his face was pale, not even a trace of blood on his lips, his eyes were empty, out of focus, he didn't know where to look.He thought a lot in his mind, but he didn't seem to think about anything. He was sober and confused like never before.

His eyes fell on the green spider on the ground.

The spider hadn't moved since it was knocked off by the rain, so it appeared to be dead.

Li Xunhuan walked up to the spider, looking at something else through the spider: "Did you know? I have a secret that no one has ever told. This secret is..."

"It turns out that I..."

Li Xunhuan patted his heart with his right hand.

"...Already have A Fei."

Unfortunately I just realized this today.

Unfortunately, when I realized this, Ah Fei was no longer there.

Why do people always know how to cherish after losing?

What am I missing?

Love is a net, I struggled in the net, I ran away, I thought I would have an easier life, I thought everything was within my control, but I didn't know, this net never let me go.

I broke free from one net, and there was another net, dense and dense, layer upon layer, and the more I escaped, the tighter the net became.I finally stopped running away and decided to face my feelings bravely, but that person didn't stay where I was waiting for me.

What I miss is something I will never have again in this life.

When he was there, I didn't know what he meant to me. After he parted from me, I realized that I was willing to do anything for him, even death, as long as he was happy.But what I consider happiness is his greatest misfortune.

The rain stopped at some point.

The mountains were washed green by the rain, and the trees straightened their waists, trying to stretch their torsos upward.The air is fresh after the rain, the chill is taken away by the heavy rain, and the sun hides behind the clouds and slowly moves towards the top of the mountain.

The spider, which had been motionless, suddenly moved. It turned over and climbed towards a tree.

Li Xunhuan watched it silently.

It survived the catastrophe, and quickly climbed to the top of the tree along the thick trunk, spit out a thread, and hung it on the branch with its spider feet, then came down, climbed to another branch, and hung the spider thread on this branch. After tossing and turning a few times, Li Xunhuan saw it: it was weaving its web again.

It loses its net, and it is not discouraged at all. If the net is broken, let's weave another one.

that's it.

Is it that simple?

Ah Fei is gone, let's chase him back.

Li Xunhuan was shocked by his own thoughts.

He knew that Ah Fei would enter the customs two years later, if he waited for him at the place where he met in his previous life, he would definitely meet again.

Is it that simple?

It's that simple.

Why not give it a try?

Maybe their ending is not good in the end, but they should try anyway. Are they unwilling to grasp the present because they are worried about things that haven't happened?If you don't do some things, you will never know the outcome. If you do something, there is at least half the possibility of success. If you don't do it, there is no possibility at all.

Li Xun Huan suddenly felt a surge of energy rushing straight to the top of his head, as if he could go anywhere in the world, anyone in the world could fight, a surge of pride and ambition to rule the world suddenly made him wish he could express his feelings with a loud howl.

Li Xun Huan took out the throwing knife, turned his right hand over, the blade emitted a snow-white light, illuminating the dark and sluggish world.

Doing it without being afraid is not called bravery; being afraid and still doing it is called bravery.

If someone insults A Fei because of the broken sleeve taunt...

Then I want to see who dares?

Could it be that this river and lake, after leaving for a period of time, doesn't it have the surname Li anymore?

In this life, in the previous life, there is nothing that I, Li Xun Huan, wanted to do, I couldn't do it!

Li Xunhuan looked at the flying knife in his hand, his eyes became sharp and firm.

Ah Fei, you wait for me.

At that moment, the dormant sun after the rain finally broke through the clouds and shot out its rays.Li Xunhuan was dressed in white clothes like snow, standing at the foot of the mountains, beside the remnant plum blossoms, holding a knife in his right hand, standing upright.The sunlight inlaid a golden rim on his whole body, and he was like a god, vicissitudes, loneliness, and indomitable.