Li Xunhuan and A Fei

When Ah Fei first entered the customs, he didn't know where to go.

Where there is no Li Xunhuan, it doesn't matter where.

If they can't see each other again in this life, A Fei will be a walking dead even if he is alive. He knows that Li Xun Huan wants him to live well, so he will not seek death.He originally wanted to go to sea to find his biological father, but he thought it would be okay if he found it.He wanted to be famous before, but would Li Xun Huan come back to him if he became famous?He suddenly realized that without Li Xun Huan, his whole life became meaningless.

At this moment, he met Shangguan Jinhong.

A Fei was immediately attracted by Shangguan Jinhong, without him, Shangguan Jinhong was too much like Li Xunhuan.Shangguan Jinhong is the serious and mighty side of Li Xunhuan. He is wise, mature, stable, domineering, powerful, likes to control people's hearts, never shrinks when facing difficulties, and has an optimistic attitude in adversity. He is very similar to Li Xunhuan.It's just not as kind as Li Xunhuan's.

Li Xunhuan's uniqueness and greatness lies in this: he can always consider others from the standpoint of others, he has the spirit of self-sacrifice, he would rather wrong himself to help others, he is too soft-hearted and kind-hearted, if one day the world goes bad , then Li Xunhuan is the last remaining conscience in the world.

A Fei had no father since he was a child, what his mother taught him was darkness, not the existence of Li Xun Huan, he couldn't even imagine what A Fei would become.

Because of Li Xunhuan's great compassion, others in this world will only be like him, not him.

Without Li Xun Huan, it doesn't matter if they follow Shangguan Jin Hong as the next best thing.

Shangguan Jinhong told him to kill, but killing didn't seem to matter.

But A Fei is A Fei after all, he still hasn't become Shangguan Jin Hong's thugs to kill innocent people everywhere, every time he thinks about killing innocent people, he can't help but think of Li Xunhuan.

A Fei is a very sharp and gleaming sword, and Li Xunhuan is A Fei's scabbard.

The image of A Fei in the eyes of the letter delivery boy is not fake. His eyes are as cold as death, apricot yellow gown, bamboo hat covering his face, and a sword in his waist. When facing anyone except Li Xunhuan, A Fei is cold. In front of Li Xunhuan, A Fei would be that cute boy with a sunny smile.

If Li Xunhuan doesn't show up for the rest of his life, Ah Fei wonders if he will become the second Jing Wuming.

He hadn't had a good life in the past two years. Killing could only make him vent, but could not make him happy. His happiness disappeared the moment he left Li Xun Huan.

Back then he stabbed Li Xun Huan with a sword, and tested that Li Xun Huan's true strength was far superior to his own. Li Xun Huan couldn't bear to kill him, so the throwing knife deliberately missed, and his sword pierced into Li Xun Huan's chest. At that time, he knew that Li Xun Huan would rather die than follow him. By himself, there was nothing he could do about it.He has no money, no power, no name, no status, and even lost to Li Xunhuan in the only martial arts he can rely on. He wants him, but he has no way to have him.

He had no choice but to leave, to leave this sad place, he was afraid that if he didn't leave, he could not help but hurt Li Xunhuan.

Li Xun Huan forbade A Fei to come to him again, so A Fei would practice martial arts well, and one day he could surpass Li Xun Huan, then he could go to him.

If Li Xun Huan likes the innocence and cuteness of a child, A Fei will be a child who always laughs. If Li Xun Huan likes a cruel boy, A Fei will be a granite rock. If Li Xun Huan doesn't like it anyway, then A Fei will use force to make him like him.At least, so that he can no longer escape from himself.

With this kind of thought in mind, A Fei can survive. The training in the rivers and lakes has made A Fei's martial arts advance by leaps and bounds. In the past two years, he has lived like an ascetic monk. He has no friends, no lover, no home, wandering around, alone, only the sword in his hand depends on each other. .Until Shangguan Jinhong told him that Li Xunhuan had entered the customs.

No one knew how happy Ah Fei was when he heard the news.

His happiness returned, and everything he saw was pleasing to the eye.

After a short period of ecstasy, Ah Fei calmed down and started to worry.

Back then Li Xun Huan said that he and A Fei would never see each other in this life, what kind of face would A Fei use to meet him?Even if they meet again, the two will never return to the past.If Li Xun Huan knew that A Fei still had unreasonable thoughts about him, he might run away immediately, to a place where A Fei could never be found again.

So A Fei must live the way Li Xun Huan hopes, A Fei must show that he is very happy, let Li Xun Huan think that A Fei's terrible love at the beginning was just a child's impulsiveness, and now he has grown up and returned to the right path.In this way, Li Xunhuan will not run away, and A Fei can continue to get along with him as a "friend".

As long as he can see him every day, even as a friend, it is already the greatest honor.

It is definitely too late to get married and have children, but it is still too late to find a woman to live with.

Ah Fei remembered that Li Xunhuan said that he once liked a woman named Lin Xian'er, it seems that Shangguan Jinhong mentioned that there was such a person, and he happened to find this person to pretend to be his lover.

A Fei deliberately built a small wooden house next to the plum grove that Li Xunhuan likes. He chose a location with the best scenery, mountains and water, flowers and birds, and built it in three days at the fastest speed. The facilities are very in line with Tanhualang's elegance, and even the table legs of the Eight Immortals are specially carved with plum blossoms by craftsmen.

A Fei didn't use money to help Li Xunhuan with the usual silver foil to send an invitation, he made gold foil himself and asked a child to send it to him.

Lin Xian'er said that Ah Fei's image was too laid back and gloomy, and he didn't look like a stable life, so Ah Fei washed his face and combed his hair every day, meticulously, used incense on his clothes, and put oil on his hair.

Lin Xian'er said that Li Xunhuan didn't like A Fei joining the money gang, and he didn't like A Fei killing people, so A Fei gave Lin Xianer the sword that never left his body.In order to get rid of the bloody smell on my body, I threw away all my old clothes, not even keeping a pair of boots, and put on a brand new apricot yellow shirt that Lin Xianer got from the money gang, and changed my look.

Lin Xian'er said that Li Xun Huan was addicted to alcohol, and if A Fei wanted Li Xun Huan to stop drinking, he had to stop drinking himself. Not only did A Fei not drink, but he also came up with an excuse that Lin Xian'er couldn't smell alcohol to stop Li Xun Huan from drinking. .

Lin Xian'er said that the house was too new, and it looked like it had never been lived in. A Fei slept here every night after the wooden house was built. He bought firewood, rice, oil, salt, pots and pans, and lit the cooking smoke every day, which blackened the kitchen.

Lin Xian'er said that even after doing so much, it is still not easy to deceive Li Xunhuan, the main problem lies in A Fei's attitude towards women.A Fei decided to talk less or even not to speak, and let Lin Xianer take care of everything. No matter what Lin Xianer did, A Fei would cooperate with her.

Lin Xian'er said that this still doesn't look like an unmarried couple, it's like living in the same room at night, but Ah Fei refused.

Lin Xian'er was pissed off by Ah Fei and went back to the bedroom to sulk, when Li Xunhuan came.

A Fei noticed Li Xun Huan coming from a distance, he was so shocked that he didn't know what to do, he took a wooden barrel to fetch water from the mountain spring, and by fetching water, he peeked at Li Xun Huan among the branches of flowers and trees.

He saw Li Xun Huan getting closer and closer from the outside of the mountain, A Fei was so frightened that he kept his back to him, not daring to show his face.Stiffly carrying the bucket back to the house, holding the rag and not knowing what to do.

Hearing Li Xun Huan walk outside the door, Ah Fei went to wipe the table in order to make himself look more natural.

He didn't know why he chose to wipe the table. There was really nothing to do without cleaning the table.

After wiping the table legs, Li Xun Huan hadn't come in yet, as if he was looking at something, A Fei had no choice but to continue to wipe the table.

After wiping the entire table, Li Xunhuan hadn't come in yet, so A Fei had to wipe it again.

I don't know how many times I have wiped it like this, as if there is a little dust on this table, he will be ashamed of others.

He felt Li Xun Huan's gaze on his back, and it was very itchy, like a bug crawling on his back, and his face also warmed up quietly.

Li Xunhuan coughed.

Ah Fei shook his hands as he coughed, and dropped the rag on the table. His neck was stiff, and he turned his head away very slowly.

He saw Li Xunhuan.

Li Xun Huan added a few more white hairs to his sideburns, and there seemed to be one more wrinkle around his eyes. His face was weathered and frosted, his clothes were shabby, only his eyes were as bright as ever, illuminating all the darkness in A Fei's heart.

He looked more desolate and haggard than before, he seemed to be old...

Ah Fei immediately wanted to rush over and hug Li Xun Huan in his arms.

Fortunately, he still had a sliver of reason left, and he didn't do anything inappropriate, just stood there and smiled.

It's you.

He said.

it's me.

Li Xunhuan said.

You are here after all.

Ah Fei heard a voice speaking from somewhere far away, and under the agitation of his mood, he didn't even feel that it was his own words.

I'm still here after all.

There seemed to be tears in Li Xun Huan's eyes.

Sure enough, he is still so emphatic about love and righteousness. He said so decisively at the beginning, and he will still cry when we see each other again. Are these tears shed for me?

He still likes to see me.

I just knew he wouldn't forget me, I just knew he wouldn't blame me, I just knew he'd forgive me no matter what I did wrong, I just knew it.

I know you will come.

Ah Fei said.

I will definitely come.

Li Xunhuan said.

Then Li Xunhuan rushed over.

A Fei could no longer restrain the surging emotions in his heart, and rushed out almost at the same time.

His chest was burning like fire, so hot, so hot, so scorching, he didn't care about anything, he wanted to embrace the person whom he misses day and night, into his arms!

But he saw Li Xun Huan stop abruptly in front of him!

Like a blow to the head, Ah Fei's enthusiasm was extinguished by cold water. Realizing his identity, he couldn't hug Li Xunhuan, he couldn't!

It turned out that although his eyes would turn red when he saw me, he still didn't like to have physical contact with me.Yeah, how could I forget that he's a misanthrope?If it weren't for me, the child he raised since he was a child, maybe he would have killed me for that offence.

He is indeed affectionate and righteous to me, but it is limited to brotherhood and friendliness. He didn’t resist before because he tolerated me, not because he likes it. He later stated that he didn’t like it, so naturally I shouldn’t cause him any more trouble. troubled.

"Even if you die, I will not stay."

"This is against the laws of nature and human ethics. You are my best brother. I want you to become a flying swordsman instead of being reviled by others."

"I will not agree, and I will never let you make the same mistake again and again."

"I, Li Xunhuan, don't have the slightest affection for Ah Fei."

……

The words we said when we parted are still in my ears, thinking about it now, Ah Fei still feels a burning pain in his heart, yes, Li Xun Huan doesn't like me like this, so I can't show any nostalgia for him.

Absolutely not!