Li Xunhuan and A Fei

Li Xun Huan's illness was not as serious as the doctor thought, he had deep internal energy, when he woke up, he combed his meridians with zhenqi, after recuperating for a while, he gradually recovered.

This illness frightened Ah Fei, and Ah Fei took care of him like a porcelain doll, holding him in his mouth for fear of melting, holding him in his hands for fear of falling, he still wanted to feed him food and medicine as he was in a coma, of course he refused, Whenever he refused, Ah Fei would turn into a puppy abandoned by his master, looking at Li Xunhuan pitifully, neither speaking nor leaving.

A Fei's eyes complained silently, as if Li Xun Huan had done something unforgivable, Li Xun Huan almost really thought that he had gone too far, otherwise how could the always calm A Fei be so wronged?

Li Xunhuan committed an old problem again and accepted A Fei's care.

After Lin Xian'er saw being fed by A Fei, Li Xunhuan realized that something was wrong.

Ah Fei's attitude towards himself was not right.

They used to get along day and night for many years, and it was A Fei who took care of Li Xunhuan in the days outside the customs, not to mention feeding, they even did more intimate things, A Fei's attitude now is the same as before, and it is because of the same that something is wrong.

Because Ah Fei already has a woman.

Ah Fei should alienate Li Xunhuan, he must alienate him!

The first thing Li Xun Huan saw in the morning was A Fei. When he was sleeping at night, A Fei stayed in the living room on the floor. They were together day and night. When Li Xun Huan coughed, A Fei immediately brought cough medicine. There was no need to cover him with a quilt, what Li Xun Huan wanted, A Fei did it without waiting for a word, it could be described as meticulous.

In this case, Ah Fei has no time to pay attention to Lin Xianer.

Li Xun Huan saw A Fei after waking up. A Fei obviously hadn't changed his clothes for several days, and he was the same old image. Ever since Li Xun Huan fell ill, there was no incense on A Fei's clothes, and no pomade on his hair.When Lin Xian'er fetched water for A Fei, A Fei was rubbing Li Xunhuan's face; while Lin Xian'er was cooking for A Fei, A Fei was making ginseng soup for Li Xunhuan.A Fei devoted himself to Li Xun Huan, as if Lin Xian'er was not in the room, he was so busy that he seldom talked to Lin Xian'er.

Lin Xian'er was visibly haggard, she didn't complain clearly, she just looked at A Fei sadly when A Fei was busy with Li Xunhuan, looked at A Fei with the kind of eyes that would break a man's heart, at most she sighed silently .

Li Xun Huan found that her neck was bruised, apparently something happened while he was in a coma, Li Xun Huan didn't know what happened to Lin Xian'er and A Fei.

The iron sword was hung again on A Fei's waist, Li Xun Huan couldn't help asking: "Didn't you leave your sword to Lin Xian'er for safekeeping?"

Ah Fei said: "I want to hold it by myself again."

Li Xun Huan asked: "Why didn't you let Lin Xian'er comb your hair and change your clothes?"

Ah Fei said: "No time, it's so troublesome."

"Did you like her to take care of you like this before?"

"I don't like it anymore."

Lin Xian'er deliberately talked to A Fei alone after he went out to gather medicine, and after sitting for a long time without saying a word, Li Xun Huan realized that Lin Xian'er wanted to drive him away.

In fact, Lin Xian'er didn't need to act like this, a smart person like Li Xun Huan knew that he should go.

Back then he was caught between Lin Shiyin and Long Xiaoyun, now he is caught between A Fei and Lin Xian'er, he would never allow the tragedy to happen again, he would never allow himself to affect A Fei's already peaceful life.

His illness improved slightly, and he bid farewell to A Fei.

A Fei was silent for a moment, then looked at him with a complicated expression for a long time, just when Li Xun Huan thought he was going to stop him, he said yes lightly.

A Fei asked Li Xunhuan where he was going, and in order to reassure A Fei, Li Xunhuan could only say that he was going home.

Li Xunhuan is different from A Fei, A Fei is from outside the customs, and Li Xunhuan has a family in Central Plains.

Li Yuan, who "seven Jinshi in one school, father and son three times".

So is Li Xunhuan finally going to find that cousin he loves so much?

Ah Fei really wanted to take a look at Lin Shiyin, the person Li Xunhuan had been thinking about for decades.

Ah Fei was full of frustration: even though he could accompany Li Xunhuan as a friend, he still couldn't defeat Lin Shiyin, and the most important person to Li Xunhuan was always his cousin.

Ah Fei had listened to countless stories about Li Xunhuan and Lin Shiyin's relationship in the past two years. He thought he didn't care about a married woman. Now that Li Xunhuan said he was going home, he realized how jealous he was of Lin Shiyin.It was unimaginable before that the emotion of jealousy would appear on him.

Li Xun Huan had been ill for a while, and his complexion hadn't recovered since his illness. He was as pale as snow, adding to his frailty and melancholy. The clothes that usually fit him were too big for him.He stood quietly outside the plum grove, against the budding red and the vast blue sky, he looked like a person in a painting.

A Fei wanted to see him off, Li Xun Huan said: "There is always a banquet in the world, since you are leaving, why bother to see you off."

Lin Xian'er burst into tears and said, "I don't know when I will come back after I leave." Lin Xian'er shouted in her heart: Although I want to destroy your relationship, I don't want to drive you away, idiot, you should take me with you if you want to leave Go, bastard!

A Fei glared at Lin Xian'er: "What did you say to him, did you say something before he left?"

Lin Xian'er immediately expressed that she was wronged, and ran back to the house crying.

Ah Fei didn't go after him.

Seeing this scene, Li Xunhuan became more determined to leave.

When parting, Li Xunhuan wanted to tell A Fei to treat Lin Xian'er better, and also wanted to tell A Fei that if he felt unhappy, he might as well break up with Lin Xian'er. In the end, he felt that it was hard for outsiders to say anything, so he just clasped his fist at A Fei: "Take care! .”

After saying these two words, Li Xun Huan turned around and strode away towards the way he came from.

He knew that A Fei was watching him from behind, so he couldn't turn his head even more.

This is how life is, everyone has his own way to go, whether it is thorns and traps, wind, frost, rain or snow, he must bear it alone.As for A Fei's path, there may be Lin Xian'er and other people on the road, but there will never be Li Xunhuan.

Li Xun Huan took it easy after being ill. Before, he thought about finding A Fei and trying to be together with A Fei, but now seeing that A Fei has Lin Xian'er, he decided to hide everything and never mention it again.

Yesterday's all kinds, such as yesterday's death.Today's variety, such as today's birth.

Life is impermanent, gathering is short, parting is eternal.

The past is like a dream, when one wakes up one wakes up, even if one can fall asleep again, the dream cannot be followed.

Li Xun Huan stood in front of the Li Yuan gate again, the word "Li Yuan" on the gate was changed to "Xing Yun Zhuang", the guard at the gate had long ago changed, he didn't know Li Xun Huan, everything was just like the previous life, strange yet familiar.

Afraid of the cold after illness, Li Xunhuan stood at the door, bent over and coughed.

The wind whizzed past, the dead leaves on the ground were rolled up and flew up and down in a whirl, the big lantern under the eaves swayed, and a few guards put their hands into their sleeves, looked at Li Xun Huan impatiently, and told Li Xun Huan to leave quickly , don't stand in the way of the door.

Li Xunhuan suddenly didn't want to go in anymore.

There are no more parents and brothers here, no more cute cousins.

There is only a sister-in-law who is married as a wife, an elder brother who regards him as an enemy, and a child who is innocent on the outside and vicious on the inside.

No one here welcomes him.

This is no longer his home.

He told Ah Fei that going home was an excuse, and he already figured it out: someone wanted to hurt Lin Shiyin because Li Xunhuan was protecting Lin Shiyin, and without Li Xunhuan, Lin Shiyin would be fine.

He made two mistakes in his previous life. The first mistake was that he shouldn't give up Shiyin to Long Xiaoyun, and the second mistake was that he shouldn't come back after giving up.This life cannot make up for the first mistake, but it can make up for the second.

So Li Xunhuan stood at the door and watched for a while, then went to the tavern where he stayed in the previous life.

The tavern is still dark, the tables and chairs are still dirty, and the business is still not very good.

Sun Tuozi is still there.

Nothing has changed, just as I remember it.

Li Xunhuan lived in the small tavern next to Li Garden, drank every day, looked at Lin Shiyin's small building, saw faint shadows through the window screen, and occasionally saw the figure of a child, and felt peaceful in his heart. The heartbroken woman can no longer cause the slightest disturbance.

From never forgetting to forgetting, he finally did it.

It took him his whole life to go from being obsessed with obsession to awakening.

From sinking to letting go, he found that it was actually not that difficult.

Sometimes he would think of the days when he was outside the customs with A Fei, and whenever he thought of A Fei, he couldn't help smiling.

He burned all the piles of peace charms he had asked for for Ah Fei, and he was reluctant to burn the one-inch wooden statue that could be carried in his arms.

He found that he thought of Lin Shiyin less and less, and thought of A Fei more and more.

He began to dream about A Fei non-stop.

Dreamed that A Fei put the redeemed cloak on his shoulders; dreamed that A Fei pierced his chest with a sword; His hair was combed meticulously and he wiped the table repeatedly... When he dreamed that A Fei took off his clothes and his fiery body hugged him tightly, he could not help but wake up in fright. I drank cold wine and couldn't sleep anymore.

He was terrified.

It wasn't because he had a erotic dream, but because he became excited in the dream.

Yes, this is an extremely terrifying dream, the most terrifying thing is that he didn't push A Fei away and let him do whatever he wanted, feeling uncontrollably happy while suffering.

How could he be happy!

He didn't dare to think about it carefully, and when he thought of him, his heart was filled with guilt.

He didn't dare to forget it easily, he wanted to let himself firmly remember this dream so that he could always be alert to himself.

When Li Xun Huan was tortured by his erotic dream, the object of his erotic dream was watching Lin Shiyin in Li Garden.