Li Xunhuan and A Fei

Li Xunhuan forced himself not to go hunting with A Fei, and after A Fei left, he was left alone in the room, which seemed more and more empty.For a long time, Li Xunhuan lived alone. Back then, he gave Lin Shiyin to Long Xiaoyun and his ancestral house as a dowry to Lin Shiyin. Wan Guan's family wealth was gone, so he only took Tie Chuanjia to go outside the customs. The ten years outside the customs allowed Li Xunhuan to adapt. And fell in love with loneliness.

No matter how lively it was, it will become lonely in the end. No matter how many friends you have before, you will be left alone in the end.Loneliness is like a knife, one knife cuts your skin, and loneliness is like the wind, blowing away your flesh and blood, leaving a bloody white and miserable skeleton. This is the end of life.Li Xun Huan thought he could see through, he thought he was free and easy, he thought he was used to it, but he didn't expect that after seeing A Fei again, his heart seemed to come alive again, and when A Fei left, he would feel that the room was empty, and he could not bear the loneliness.

Li Xun Huan put on a camel-colored cloak and walked out of the house. It was freezing outside, the cold wind was howling, and the cold air sucked into his lungs, which made Li Xun Huan cough for a while.

After rebirth, his health improved a lot, and he hadn't coughed for a long time. He thought that his illness was cured, so he couldn't help but doubt it at this moment.He never knew how to cherish his body and put life and death aside, but this time was different, this time Li Xun Huan hoped that he could live.

After seeing Ah Fei again, Li Xunhuan suddenly became afraid of death.

Li Xun Huan coughed and remembered that A Fei was only wearing a tattered cotton coat when he left, wondering if it would be cold.

Maybe I should buy him a new coat, but when I buy a new coat, I want to buy new shoes; when I buy new shoes, I want to buy him a full set of winter clothes; when I buy winter clothes, I want to buy summer clothes; when I buy clothes, I want to buy food , Buy food and want to buy things for use, step by step like this, Ah Fei will become a flower that is comfortably cared for in the greenhouse, Li Xunhuan knows that he can't do this.

There was a skate hanging from the eaves.

There are long ones and short ones, the long ones are two or three feet long, and the short ones are only a few inches. They are shining white and crystal clear. Li Xun Huan has nothing to do, and silently looks at Bing Hang.

The sun moved to the middle of the sky, and the sunlight in winter was not dazzling. He was sick, with a pale face and a weak look.

Li Xunhuan watched the sun move to the top of his head, and then to the west.When the afterglow of the setting sun covered the earth, Ah Fei came back with a hare in his hand.

Nothing else.

no wine.

Li Xunhuan sighed silently, alas, his Ah Fei is not the same Ah Fei as before. He used to be more obedient, but now this little brat is too awkward and always pretends to be cool, like an ice cube. It seems to re-establish the relationship between the two of them. Friendship is not easy, and Li Xunhuan feels that there is a long way to go.

Ah Fei saw Li Xunhuan from a long distance away.

He saw that the man was wearing a beige long jacket and a thick camel-colored cloak over it. The wide cloak made his waist thinner. He stood in the snow-capped pureness, and the golden sunset covered his whole body. He was like a statue shining with golden light. The god is gentle, handsome, and thin, showing a sense of morbid weakness that men should not have.

When the cold wind blows, Li Xun Huan's cloak will be raised high, and his clothes will be even thinner in the cold wind, as if the wind is stronger and the whole person will be blown into the sky.

This person should have a very strong posture, but inadvertently reveals a little bit of fragility. Strength and weakness coexist in him contradictoryly and harmoniously, forming a unified whole, which makes him have a certain An unspeakable attraction.No matter who it is, as long as they take one look at him, they will want to take a second look at him.It's not because of his good looks, or his illness, or his martial arts, you can't explain why, but you are attracted to him.

The moment he saw him, Ah Fei knew one thing for the first time:

It turns out that this is what it feels like to have someone waiting for you to come home.

It wasn't a good or bad feeling, it was just a novelty, something he'd never experienced before, too few people he'd seen, too few things to be happy about.

Li Xun stepped forward to pick up the hare in A Fei's hand, "Are you back?"

Li Xun Huan spoke to A Fei very naturally, as if they were very familiar with each other before, he seemed like a virtuous wife waiting for her husband to return home, took the booty from her husband, and prepared to show off in the kitchen.A Fei didn't know why he thought of these inexplicable things.

A Fei didn't hand the hare to Li Xunhuan. He could see from Li Xunhuan's expensive clothes and noble temperament that this person was of extraordinary background. Only a son of a family with a lot of servants could have Li Xunhuan's bearing. He just eats.

Ah Fei carried the hare into the house.

From the beginning to the end, he didn't say a word to Li Xunhuan.

Li Xun Huan shook his head boredly, wanting to drink again.

"The ice hangings under the eaves look pretty."

Li Xunhuan tried every means to find a topic. It would be no good for the child to keep silent like this, he would become not a normal person.

Ah Fei stood at the threshold, glanced back at him, and still didn't speak.

Li Xun Huan said: "Do you know how many ice hangers there are under this roof? The total is..."

"47." Ah Fei said.

Li Xunhuan was taken aback.

My heart sank.

Ah Fei accurately answered the correct answer, which means that he has counted, and he is as lonely as himself. No one understands loneliness better than Li Xunhuan, and no one understands how painful loneliness is than Li Xunhuan.A Fei is still a child, he should play carefree, be loved by his parents, have a large group of friends, run wildly around the mountains every day, he should not know how many ice hangs under the eaves.Li Xun Huan recalled the previous life, when A Fei counted plum blossoms, and in this life, A Fei counted Binghang, it turned out that A Fei's loneliness was never far away, no matter in the past or present, it was always there.

"Three days ago it was 48." A Fei said lightly, "The wind broke one, and today it is 47."

"Why are you counting this?" Li Xun Huan asked, "Because it's fun?" Li Xun Huan hoped that A Fei was counting Bing Hang with a child's mentality.

"It's not fun." Ah Fei looked up, with a deep and helpless feeling on his face that didn't match his age, "Nothing to do, boring."

"Don't you practice swords?" Li Xun Huan asked.

"Stop practicing when you're hungry."

"So..." Li Xun Huan understood, "You can't hunt prey in winter, and you will count them when you are hungry and cold?"

"Not necessarily," Ah Fei replied honestly, "I sleep more often, and I won't be hungry when I fall asleep."

"Do you often have nothing to eat?" Li Xun Huan couldn't help asking.

A Fei raised the hare he was holding in his hand, and what could barely be called a smile appeared in his clear and cold eyes, "I have it today, I invite you." The smile in A Fei's eyes deepened, he is a child after all, happy Still unable to bear it, he said to Li Xun Huan in a rare and showy tone, "I'll make you my best roasted hare."

An hour later, Li Xunhuan realized that the so-called best at it is also the only one who knows it.

Hobby can only bake and cook.

Most of the hunted animals were roasted and eaten by Ah Fei. His mother never taught him other cooking methods. Li Xunhuan simply admired how Ah Fei grew to such a big size.

A Fei skillfully opened and peeled the skin, lighted the stove skillfully, put the hare on a wooden stick and roasted it skillfully, sprinkled with salt.

Li Xunhuan told him that meat can be eaten in many ways. A Fei took out a roe deer stored at home, and Li Xunhuan demonstrated it himself, making a pot of braised pork.A Fei's house was full of oil, salt, soy sauce and vinegar. Li Xunhuan used all his ingenuity in his life to cook the first meal in his life.

Obviously Li Xunhuan's talent in cooking is far inferior to martial arts, he still burnt the meat.This bit of meat was the last food stored in A Fei's family, and it must not be wasted. Li Xun Huan resisted not throwing away the burnt parts, and brought it all up, feeling a little guilty.

Unexpectedly, Ah Fei ate very deliciously.

He eats the same as in his previous life, not rushing, not rushing, chewing very finely, so that he can fully absorb and not waste a bit. Those who can eat like this are the ones who are really hungry and afraid.

Li Xunhuan felt distressed watching it.

I didn't move at all.

A Fei left half, pushed the plate towards Li Xun Huan, picked up the hare himself, and ate the meat with a dagger.

Li Xun Huan said: "I'm not hungry, you should eat."

Alfie shook his head.

Li Xun Huan said: "I have eaten very little since I was a child, and I can't eat."

Ah Fei said: "You eat more, you are so thin."

Li Xunhuan looked at A Fei who was obviously thinner, and didn't know what to say.

Ah Fei saw that Li Xun Huan was also a very stubborn person, so he cut the braised pork into two with a dagger, "Half for each person."

Li Xun Huan picked up a piece of meat with chopsticks and put it in his mouth. It was too salty and hard, like leather. Li Xun Huan tried not to spit it out. He looked up at A Fei who was sitting opposite him. A Fei's food was still delicious.

One can imagine what A Fei used to eat.

Why didn't your mother take good care of you?

Li Xun Huan didn't ask this question, he has always been a person who thinks more about other people's feelings, and he didn't want to make A Fei unhappy.

But A Fei is a keen and intelligent child, from Li Xun Huan's pitiful eyes, he understood Li Xun Huan's unspoken words, and took the initiative to say: "My mother has been sick, she didn't teach me how to cook."

Li Xun Huan immediately felt distressed again: "So, you are taking care of your mother instead?"

A Fei nodded, "Yes, do you think you can't do well? But it's good enough for me. I like it very much. I'll make it for me next time." A Fei added, "It's worth the rent."

The kid can crack a joke.

Li Xun Huan smiled: "Okay."

This was the first time A Fei clearly saw Li Xun Huan smiling at him, A Fei felt that the whole room lighted up, and he was a little embarrassed to look at him, so he couldn't help lowering his gaze.

"I see you coughed last night." Ah Fei said, "My mother was coughing all the time, and it will not work in a few years." sick?"

Li Xun Huan said sadly, "This is an old problem of mine, don't worry, I have almost cured it before I came here, and I won't die easily."

Ah Fei asked: "How did you cure it? The doctor said my mother was terminally ill."

"Drinking can cure illnesses." Li Xunhuan joked, "As long as you drink alcohol, I will be free from any illness."

Ah Fei said: "Don't lie to me just because I am a child. Although I am young, I know a lot of things. No one can fool me."

This childish appearance finally looked like an 11-year-old child. Li Xunhuan had never seen Ah Fei like this before. It seemed fun to experience Ah Fei's past again.

Li Xunhuan couldn't help but reached out and touched A Fei's head.

Ah Fei didn't hide.

His body was stiff, his whole body was tense, and his head was lowered so that no one could see his expression.

He obviously hasn't learned how to be close to people.

He's clearly learning to live with the kindness others give him.

In the previous life, Li Xun Huan had never touched A Fei's head. At that time, they were comrades who fought side by side, how could they touch A Fei casually?In this life, Ah Fei became smaller, so Li Xun Huan wanted to tease him, and this awkward kid was different from ordinary kids, he took it seriously when he teased him - so Li Xun Huan wanted to tease him even more.

Li Xun Huan happened to catch a glimpse of A Fei's padded jacket with a thread on the shoulder, exposing the cotton wool. It seemed that it was torn when he caught a hare just now. Li Xun Huan asked, "Do you have any needles and threads at home?"

Ah Fei raised his head: "Yes, what are you doing?"

"Sew."

Ah Fei looked at him in surprise: "Can you sew clothes?"

"Ahem, originally I wouldn't, but I've decided," Li Xun Huan looked at A Fei with firm eyes, "From now on, I can do anything."

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