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【Brother Zhaizhang next door is so handsome, he is still wearing a white shirt today~】

【Auntie said I was cute today, and said that it would be great if she had a daughter like me. At that time, I almost said that I wanted to be my auntie’s daughter-in-law】

[I received a love letter today, the first time I received a love letter, but I actually copied a copy of the love letter from someone else, and wrote the name of brother Zhai Zhang, hehe, I am so smart! 】

【WooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooowI'm your future daughter-in-law, hello! 】

Page after page is a diary written when I was young, and most of the diaries are about a name called Zhai Zhang.

The dusty diary was locked in a drawer forever, and then sold by the pound along with old books and magazines during a certain move to clean things up.

That youthful and beautiful childhood can never go back.

That day I lost my temper with my mother because I wrote a lot of Zhaizhang’s diary and couldn’t get it back. I squatted on the steps in front of the house and was bored for a long time, until I got cold at night and my stomach growled. Call, I just went back to the house.

At the age of 16, I started chasing stars without ever chasing stars. I chased an actor named Zhai Zhang who had just debuted. He was eight years older than me. Although it had been many years, I still recognized him at a glance.

The gentleness of his eyebrows and eyes is still the same as in the memory, like the evening when he came back from school, he smiled and said to me, "Are you playing with ants again?"

Since then, I stopped playing with ants, and occasionally picked bark, kicked stones, and counted the grids of the sewer, just to meet him at the door and listen to him say a word.

At the age of 17, I met an opportunity that allowed me to get closer to him. I joined his fanbase and started to fully support all his works.

For two full years, I always followed in his footsteps, watched every movie he acted in, and went to every scene he visited.

It's just that there were so many people that he couldn't hear me or see me at all.

I stood in the crowd, waving and jumping to call his name, but my voice was too low, it was covered by their cheers and screams, even the 'Brother Zhai Zhang' I used to call before and others People yelling sounded the same.

Every time he hurried past me, he always seemed to be very busy, always rushing to the next announcement, always without even looking at me.

I'm so tired, brother Zhai Zhang, why can't you see me, have you forgotten me?

After graduating from high school, I went abroad, so I can only support you spiritually. I keep watching your videos and Weibo on the Internet, and I can only pay attention to you silently.

At the age of 20, I announced that I had quit my fans, because I found that the distance between fans and idols is too far away, so far away that when I stand in front of you, you will only see the word 'fan'.

This year, I rejected the classmates who confessed to me, because I suddenly found that they were naive and only liked me who was good-looking. Besides, they didn't understand me at all, so why should they say they like me!

At the age of 21, I entered the entertainment circle, and I am also an actor.

I thought this circle was so small that I would meet you soon, and you would recognize me at a glance, and then I would announce to the world that I had succeeded in chasing stars.

But it turns out that I was too naive.

I also began to have endless announcements, endless filming, and endless business situations.

In the past, I always felt that it was very enviable to be so glamorous and glamorous in front of celebrities, but when I became a celebrity myself, why would there always be endless wine and perfunctory patrons?

Don't they fancy how much benefit I can bring them?Why are you looking at my body?

I suddenly felt that this circle is so dirty, brother Zhai Zhang, were you like this before?Do they look at you that way?Will try to force you to do something you don't want to?

But I am very smart, as smart as I was when I was a child. I never let them succeed. I always spit on them the food I just finished eating, so that they have no interest in me. This trick has been tried and tested.

Later, as time passed, I found that it was useless. They could always avoid the things I vomited, even if I just vomited, they would not dislike me, and they still wanted to take me upstairs to the room.

As witty as I am, I know about avatars, and I started to use all kinds of fresh meat to build my avatars, so that everyone will know that I am dirty, and my private life is even messier than theirs.

Sure enough, body dirt was more effective than vomit, they stopped messing with me, and even the reporters stopped taking pictures of me.

But those small fresh meat and tender models, they will also make demands, some of which I can satisfy, and some of which I can only spend money to buy relationships.

But it's worth it, at least it can make me clean.

Such days until I meet you again, Brother Zhai Zhang, you don’t even know how happy and excited I was when I walked up to you and told you who I am. I can see that you are also very happy, but when I was with you You are not so happy when you confess.

I think maybe I was too anxious and shouldn't have confessed my love right away, or maybe it's because of the persona I created that even you believe it.

I'm good at acting, right? I can even fool you, you're the movie star!

I know, I must be too anxious. You liked me so much when you were young, and you kept pinching my face and calling me cute. How could you reject me.

I ran away anyway, and decided to confess my love to you again after a while.

But when I called you that day, I still haven’t said my confession, why would someone ask you where your underwear is, why are you in the same room with another man, and you still have to get him his underwear?

Must be a good brother, must be.

Finally, I had the first scandal with you, but because of this scandal, Brother Ling, who was in the same group as me, was injured. I was terrified, afraid that others would be hurt because of me. Corroded, I regret it, I would rather not be pushed away by him at that time, I would rather be the one who was injured.

After all, that person came after me, and I was the one who invited you to the hotel to confess, all of this was my fault.

In the end, it still leaked the wind, you came, and brought me a decision.

That day you left without looking back. I don’t know why, but I suddenly felt a little relaxed. After crying, it seemed that it was no big deal. I didn’t seem to like you as much as I thought. It seemed that I didn’t feel the pain that others said. Heartfelt.

I even have a little doubt whether I like you or not.

The one named Yu Hang, he always smiled at me silly, very cute, but too naive, I don't want to be with naive people.

That night he actually said that he wanted to sleep with me, and he also talked about his abs...

I almost agreed, but fortunately I closed the door quickly, otherwise I would have done something wrong.

Afterwards, that silly boy seemed to be enlightened, always pestering me, buying me what I like to eat, and always bringing me a coat when the temperature cools down, why is he so idle, is there no notice?

Is Lingdu Media so cold?Didn't you say that Timely Art Media supports it?

Later he said he liked me, and I realized, oh, he is not idle, he gave me all his time.

I suddenly felt that he was very much like me, chasing me like I was chasing you.

I was suddenly very scared, I was afraid that he didn't understand his heart, and blindly thought that he really liked the celebrity, so I rejected him, I knew that the way I rejected him that day must be very annoying, and I probably won't come again in the future Find me now.

But it turns out that the idiot is the idiot, he doesn’t seem to be affected, he still comes, wherever I go, he goes to visit the set, at first I was surprised why the crew is always near me, then I found out that he is not It's near me, but I ran a long way and sat in a car for a long time just to see me.

I was a little moved suddenly, and suddenly wanted to tell him that I actually dreamed of him several times in my dreams, although I don't know why I dreamed of him, and it was still such an unspeakable dream...

I dare not say it, I am afraid that he will run away in fright, I am afraid that he will think that I am really casual.

But it's great, it's over, I drank wine, and saw him.

He smiled at me as he did at other times, his chest was so warm and wide, it was so comfortable to sleep on.

I was unscrupulously being myself, kissing him//hot lingering//, I thought this was just one of my many dreams, until the glare of the sun woke me up, oh, it was not a dream...

Everything about last night...

My first time was so confused.

But he looked so good just after waking up, I was suddenly a little reluctant to push him out, so I had to pretend to be calm and accept all this like an old driver.

That day I realized that there is a person in this world who doesn't mind all your past, even if others say I'm dirty, he will still love me and treat me like a treasure.

But fortunately, I did not disappoint his liking, and I also gave him my most precious first time, and every time after that.

Fortunately, I'm not dirty, I'm just his.

Brother Zhai Zhang, I’m sure, I don’t actually like you, I just like the mood when I kept my diary, I’m just not reconciled that you don’t remember me. Before meeting him.