crime of heart

Bai Qingyan sat on the side and watched quietly.From time to time he looked at the knife—no one said to pull it out, and no one said it shouldn't be pulled out.The three of them just ignored it tacitly, as if it didn't exist at all. ,

"But those three people, I'm afraid that every one of them is full of that knife," Bai Qingyan thought in his heart, "the relationship is too big, but it can't be easily revealed."

One by one, just like his own identity. ,

Bai Qingyan sat beside Ji Ning for the whole night.Since the knife was inserted into the wine case, the three of them hadn't spoken a word to him again.Not even a single sentence was mentioned in the speech.Like the knife, he was silently ignored. ,

But every time Ji Ning came back to him, he would tightly hug his wrist.As if afraid that he would run away. ,

Finally, this embarrassing and ridiculous drinking game came to an end.Mr. Li was forced unconscious, and was dragged out by Long Ye.Ji Ning didn't say goodbye, didn't even look at Ran Chen, and just slanted out of the carriage on his own.He put one arm on Bai Qingyan's shoulder, and he didn't know if he was really drunk. Bai Qingyan felt that he had put all his strength on her shoulder. ,

Late at night.The two staggered all the way from the brightly lit place to the dark place. ,

Ji Ning stopped suddenly.Before Bai Qingyan could react, she was pushed into the snow by him. ,

Then, Ji Ning leaned over and pressed on Bai Qingyan's body.His breath smelled of alcohol, his eyes were narrow and full of drunkenness.A hand reached into Bai Qingyan's hood, and the back of the hand brushed against his cheek, picking up a strand of hair. ,

"Bai Qingyan,

'Why don't you leave today? "

Bai Qingyan had no idea what he was talking about.Ji Ning slowly pressed down, staring at him, a pair of eyes shining brightly.He got closer a little bit, and the breath he exhaled sprayed on Bai Qingyan's face, and there was still some clear aroma of wine. ,

"Tatsuno let you go, why didn't you go?"

Bai Qingyan was startled, her hands were cold.How could Ji Ning know about this?General Tatsuno has good intentions, but is he about to be implicated?

"Tl,-f|,"

视视

His voice trembled, and there was some hesitation.The series of tortures flashed before his eyes, making him shudder and tremble unconsciously. ,

Ji Ning was still approaching, his lips almost stuck to Bai Qingyan's face, and his arms tightened a little bit, wrapping the person in the snow in his arms. ,

"Say, why don't you go?"

"I can't go"

"Why not?"

At this time, Bai Qingyan had already been ruthlessly strangled between Ji Ning's arms.Ji Ning's face was pressed against his neck, sniffing something, which made him itchy.Being pressed down like this and unable to move, Bai Qingyan's eyes slid across Ji Ning's head, and finally looked at the sky. ,

The sky is full of stars, shining brightly.

"I heard you said that you went to find Ran Chen on purpose. I was very angry. I think you really don't know what to do. At this time, you still want to find him."

""

"Later, I changed my mind. Since you said you were looking for me for something urgent, and you heard about that bastard surnamed Li, you probably didn't come to him, but to me."

Hearing this, Bai Qingyan understood.Ji Ning must have returned to the carriage, saw Wang Wan passed out in the carriage, woke him up, and asked him the ins and outs before he escaped.

"Are you here to look for me? Are you worried about me? Worried that Li will be bad for me?"

""

"Say, are you coming to see me?"

""

"Bai Qingyan." Ji Ning raised his head slightly, facing Bai Qingyan's face.The two were so close that Bai Qingyan could see Ji Ning's eyes.There was also one of himself in it.

There was a moment of silence.

Bai Qingyan and Ji Ning looked at each other, and at that moment, he had an illusion, as if stars appeared in Ji Ning's eyes again—these stars once illuminated the bleak years when he was traveling alone when he was young.

He was obsessed for a moment, he just looked at those starlights, but didn't hear Ji Ning's words clearly. ,

"If you are reluctant, we will

Ji Ning suddenly cupped his face, making him startled.Subconsciously asked,

"What are you reluctant to bear?"

Chapter 72. General Ji, how can there be any "we"?You are you, I am me, no more us

This fragmented conversation almost made Bai Qingyan lose track of time, and for a moment he couldn't tell whether he was dreaming or not.But he quickly shook his head, dismissing the unrealistic fantasy.

"General Ji, you are drunk."

"Drunk? Maybe I'm drunk. But I heard with my own ears that Long Ye said he was willing to let you go, but you didn't. Why? Bai Qing

"Don't tell me that you are afraid of those snow wolves. Given you a horse and a sword, no amount of snow wolves can stop you. Who are you Bai Qingyan? Who can really stop what you want to do? So, You don't want to go. Tell me, why? For whom?"

Ji Ning whispered in Bai Qingyan's ear.The alcohol made his voice slurred, almost soft. ,

"Bai Qingyan, if you don't want to leave, can we reunite?

He spoke softer and softer, whether it was shyness or nervousness, and in the end, he almost couldn't hear it if he didn't listen carefully.But Bai Qingyan didn't hear what he was saying at all, her heart was cold. ,

Ji Ning, Ji Ning, what a pity.We have no future at all, so how can we talk about "renewing"?

Before Ji Ning finished speaking, Bai Qingyan couldn't help laughing.Ji Ning stopped, hesitantly said,

"What do you think is funny?"

"Everywhere, it's funny."

"Who says I don't want to go?

"Then why don't you go?"

Bai Qingyan pursed her lips tightly. ,

He hesitated for a moment, then took the topic in another direction.

"You said, did you hear me talking to Tatsuno with your own ears?

"Yes, what's the matter?"

"Ji Ning, are you testing me? You are hiding in the dark and listening to my conversation with Long Ye—what if what I say doesn't suit you? What should you do?" Ji Ning's reaction was sluggish due to alcohol.He looked confused, and eventually just smiled. ,

"But you didn't say anything I didn't want to hear."

"Then what if I say so? What will you do to me? Will you continue to humiliate me, punish me, and harm everyone I care about?"

A series of tortures flashed before Bai Qingyan's eyes.Bai Qingyan's throbbing heart calmed down.Bai Qingyan reminded herself that this Ji Ning was not the "Ji Ning" she loved.

Maybe sometimes he will be moved by the shadows of the past on him.But Bai Qingyan always remembered that he was no longer "he".

The Ji Ning he loved would never beat himself to pieces with that mace, would not make himself kneel in the snow for a whole night, and would never use those filthy instruments to drive himself to a corner. To hear a beg for mercy.

He would not personally smash his remaining dignity and force himself to consider himself a slave. ,

So what is Ji Ning in front of him trying to do?How could he let himself go?But it's just a test.So what is this now?Pass the temptation and give the slave a little sweetness?

Or do you suddenly want to act in a warm and affectionate drama?

No matter how warm you are, you are just a master and a slave.

"Ji Ning, you don't have to be like this. I won't go, I can't go, and I dare not go. You hold so many Yuyao people's lives in your hands. You know in your heart that I can't leave them behind. .”

Ji Ning did not speak.The smile on his face disappeared.Bai Qingyan watched the stars in his eyes disappear in an instant, and could never be seen again.The starlight seems to be sucked away by the boundless black hole, leaving a dead silence.

"Bai Qingyan, what are you talking about?"

"You are right. General Long let me go. I am really reluctant to leave. But what you said is also wrong. I am reluctant." Bai Qingyan's Adam's apple

Moved, and almost exhausted all my strength to speak,

"Not you."

"Could it be that you want to say that it's those Yuyao people you don't want to part with?!

Bai Qingyan didn't answer, or rather, silence was his answer. ,

"But they let you down Bai Qingyan like that, you"

"They did fail me, and I failed them too. They said that I was cast on General Lang Ye's couch, willing to be a slave, and sold my body_ah, is it wrong?" Bai Qingyan lowered her eyes, "If you sit On a high temple, accepting the worship and offerings of all people, so why is it difficult to love the people like a child? If you are wronged, misunderstood, and suffer, you can easily let go of the love in your heart. This kind of love is so cheap! So much Compatriots, there are only one or two people who betrayed me. Can I just abandon all compatriots for the sake of these two people? If so, what qualifications do I have to say that I once loved Yuyao, Have you ever done your best for my people?!"

Ji Ning never expected to get such an answer.His whole body froze.When he spoke again, his voice was much colder. ,

"The Yuyao people are the Yuyao people again. Between us, you and the Yuyao people will never get around.

"General Ji, how can there be 'us'?

""

"I am I and you are you. There is no 'us'—no 'us' any more."

Ji Ning's expression changed.

"You're talking nonsense"

"Am I talking nonsense, does General Ji know better than me?

"You're talking nonsense! Bai Qingyan! Those Yuyao bastards, those wolf-hearted bastards, treated you like that, and you still refuse to leave them behind!

But why do you leave me so easily every time? "

These words made Bai Qingyan's chest feel oppressed instantly, and almost brought tears to his eyes. ,

Ji Ning, you don't know, I never really let go of you, but until now, what excuse is there?

Bai Qingyan's tone became even colder.

"General Ji, why don't you leave me behind."

""

"As you said, I left you ten years ago, and I failed you. To this day, I am also failed by others. It can be regarded as a turn of events. Did you mean that last night?"

"Bai Qingyan!" Ji Ning felt that his heart and lungs were being agitated, "You think so about last night?"

"Otherwise, what else can I think?" Bai Qingyan held back the tears in her eyes, and continued, "Why don't you just do what you advised me to do, and leave me, the heartless person who failed you. I'm just a Yuyao person , should have been with those 'Yuyao bastards'. I am not the same as you, I really can't be a good slave. I promised to be a slave to you just to give them food and money. But now now

Now, because of a useless person like me, you have to take such a big risk

"Now, I'm going to withdraw their guard posts and cut off their food." Ji Ning's voice was hoarse, "You think I'm useless to you

So you would rather die with them than stay with me!Yes or no! "

Bai Qingyan's breathing became disordered.He could hardly bear it any longer.But it was only for a moment, and he managed to force himself to put on a smile.He smiled, and even with a hint of contempt, replied,

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