Infatuation is the most boring

Do ghosts dream?

No, because he himself is just a dream.

Since I died, my time seems to have no end, and I don't know what I am doing every day.As soon as I am free, I have a lot of time to recall my not-so-long life, and even the childhood memories that I thought were dusty began to become vivid.

I seem to have only two things every day, memories, and following Zhou Mingkai.

There must be a reason for the word lingering.

Zhou Mingkai has a business party tonight. It is hosted by the famous Zhang family in the imperial capital. It is a reception for the company's 30th anniversary. Some large enterprises in the imperial capital, as well as the princes and ladies of the upper class are invited, as well as many people from various fields. Famous people, and quite a few stars.

Originally, Feng Tao had attended this reception, but Feng Tao had temporarily gone to Z City on business, and now he was delayed by the affairs there, so he couldn't come back at all.And "Ming Feng", who can receive an invitation letter for such a big occasion, can't refuse it no matter what. After all, things in the business field will require contacts in the future.

Therefore, Zhou Mingkai could only be allowed to participate.Moreover, Zhou Mingkai is the son of Director Zhou's family of the tax bureau, and the Zhou family is also on the invitation list. Zhou's father doesn't like this kind of occasion, so he can only come.

It was rare for me to see Zhou Mingkai dressed in a black suit meticulously at the reception with a smile on his face, so I was very interested to see it, so I followed Zhou Mingkai here.When I got out of the car, I saw that the red carpet had already been spread outside the hotel, and there were even a lot of media around.

Rich people are really corrupt.

Zhou Mingkai didn't know many people. He took a glass of red wine and stood at the reception. When he met someone he had worked with, he took the initiative to say hello. After chatting for a while, he left automatically. People have a lot of good feelings.

I looked at the red wine, and there really weren't many of them here to drink. I really didn't treat the reception as a reception. If it was me, I might really come to drink.

I sat at the dining table as if there was no one else around, watching men and women chatting and drinking in twos and threes. I was still smiling a minute ago, but when I turned around, I looked tired. Sure enough, it is not easy for people who are alive.

Zhou Mingkai took the initiative to go to the organizer to congratulate him. Zhang was always a man in his 60s with a big belly. When he looked at Zhou Mingkai, he seemed to know him and said, "Your father and I drank together. You don’t want to be in politics, but you want to make games. I heard that you young people have your own ideas. Look at how well Mingfeng has done! It’s become a legend in the industry!"

I'm so happy, if I really know each other, can Father Zhou not come?As for shopping malls, as long as you have met a few times, you can go out and say that you are a good friend.

Zhou Mingkai took the initiative to toast and said, "You are welcome, 'Mingfeng' still has many shortcomings, and I hope you seniors will give you more advice and support."

Mr. Zhang drank the wine and said, "Humble, the future generations are awesome."

Zhou Mingkai seemed to have learned the pattern of politeness, saying, "It's just a small fight."

The essence of talking nonsense when people talk about people is probably Feng Tao who has the best grasp. That person, except for me, seems to be able to chat with anyone, and after the chat, he can become friends, except for me forever. Can't say go together.

Mr. Zhang seemed to have seen someone, and said to Zhou Mingkai, "I have a friend here, please excuse me."

Zhou Mingkai nodded, "Please go ahead."

I looked around casually, and saw Mr. Zhang walking towards a figure. For a moment, I was as if petrified, and I even forgot to turn my eyeballs, staring at that figure.

Just a back, I recognized him.

My father, Xu Yuanshan.

I can’t say I’m shocked, I can’t say I’m happy or sad, I don’t even know what emotion is happening in my heart, I don’t seem to have any emotion, I just forgot who I am and where I am, and I can only be attracted by the back. , like a marionette.

I couldn't even tell the difference between that figure and others', but I recognized it with just one glance.Even after eight years of not seeing each other, I recognized it.

I will see him again, it’s not that I haven’t thought about it before, I once thought, maybe one day I will meet him on the streets of the imperial capital, or maybe when I can’t bear the longing in my heart and go back to Liucheng, in Liucheng’s You will meet him at the entrance of the small restaurant.We'd have another big fight and curse each other to death, and maybe he'd pretend he didn't know me, and I'd pretend I didn't see him.

In all kinds of situations, I just never thought about it. Heaven and man are separated forever. I can see him, but he will never have the chance to see me again.

Zhou Mingkai was about to turn around when he was suddenly stopped by a person, and the two of them started chatting one after another.

I saw Xu Yuanshan turn around and talk to Mr. Zhang. I finally saw his face clearly. Eight years hadn't left any traces of aging on his face, but his complexion had become dull, and his smile was not as good as It was so warm back then, and the temperament of the whole person was a little more indifferent, but it felt more like an artist.

Turning around, Zhou Mingkai also saw him, and seemed to be shocked for a long time. He searched this face from his memory, and then remembered that this was Xu Jiayang's father.

Zhou Mingkai said to the person in front of him, "Excuse me first." After speaking, he walked towards Xu Yuanshan.

I don't know why I suddenly feel scared, I really want to stop Zhou Mingkai, I don't want to let him walk over, but I stand up to stop him, but I just let Zhou Mingkai pass through my body.

I wanted to stop it so much, but I was so helpless.

Zhou Mingkai walked over, looked at Xu Yuanshan, and fell silent for a few seconds.

Mr. Zhang asked, "Xiao Zhou, you...?"

Zhou Mingkai spoke suddenly and asked, "Do you remember me? Mr. Xu."

I stood weakly behind these people, this position happened to be facing Xu Yuanshan, and I could clearly see every expression of him.After hearing Zhou Mingkai's question, he seemed to think about it for a while, then shook his head and asked, "Are you..."

"We met in high school. I went to your house and had dinner..." Zhou Mingkai seemed to hesitate for a moment, but he still said, "Xu Jiayang and I are high school classmates."

After Xu Yuanshan heard my name, the smile on his face couldn't hold back, and there were some emotions in his eyes that I couldn't understand, while Zhou Mingkai seemed very straightforward and said, "We are lovers and we have been together for three years."

As soon as these words came out, Xu Yuanshan's eyes were full of surprise.

Mr. Zhang seemed to be unable to understand or understand. This is the case for people who don't know. He was a little curious and asked, "Do you know each other? Who is Xu Jiayang?"

It took a long time for Xu Yuanshan, until the atmosphere was already a little awkward, before he slowly opened his mouth and asked Zhou Mingkai, "Xu Jiayang, how are you doing?"

This sentence, once again mentioned the words about Xu Jiayang from his mouth, this sentence, we have been separated for eight years, eight years since we have not seen each other, and we have not even had a phone call.

Zhou Mingkai no longer had that formulaic smile on his face when he first entered the reception. When he talked about some things, he couldn't even hold a fake smile on his face, just like the two people in front of him.

"He...he..." Zhou Mingkai took a deep breath, his tone still a little unsteady, "He...he has...he is no longer here, three months ago, gone..."

After Zhou Mingkai finished speaking, I closed my eyes almost in despair, thinking that tears would come down, but in the end they were still dry.

pat-

It was the sound of Xu Yuanshan's wine glass falling to the ground. I opened my eyes again, and what I saw were debris and wine stains on the ground, as well as Xu Yuanshan's slightly whitish and trembling knuckles. There was a little daze in those eyes.

After a long time, Xu Yuanshan pulled out a somewhat ugly smile, and first said to Mr. Zhang, "I'm sorry, I didn't hold my hand firmly."

Afterwards, he looked at Zhou Mingkai and smiled, "Please don't make jokes."

Zhou Mingkai nodded slightly, "Just think I'm joking."

In this situation, Mr. Zhang naturally knew something was wrong, so he couldn't help but ask, "Xu Jiayang...is...?"

Xu Yuanshan was startled, and replied, "Dog son."

Mr. Zhang couldn't believe it. Maybe it was because the Xu Yuanshan he knew had never heard of having a son for so many years, or maybe it was because no one knew about his son's death from other people.

I looked at Xu Yuanshan and Zhou Mingkai. These two people are my dearest and dearest. Actually, my death has nothing to do with them, but they cannot escape.There is no accusation or grievance, and there is no love or hatred for anyone.

These two people, one ruined my home when I was young, and the other ruined all my expectations of love when I was young.I don't even hate it, but that's all.

Both of them are for one Lin Qingyi.

Xu Yuanshan put his hands on his sides, very unnaturally, still trembling uncontrollably. After a long time, he asked again, "Is... really... gone?"

Zhou Mingkai almost gritted his teeth and said, "Yes."

"How did you die?" Xu Yuanshan asked.

"Suicide," Zhou Mingkai said, "lying on the track, on the high-speed rail between the imperial capital and Liucheng, he took that high-speed train to the imperial capital back then, and now, he died there too."

I was alone when I came here, and now I die alone.

When Xu Yuanshan heard about committing suicide by lying on the rails, the unbelievable expression on his face dazzled me, and he immediately said, "How is it possible, since he was such a heartless person since he was a child, how could he commit suicide?"

When I was in No. [-] Middle School, I talked about Haizi and mentioned suicide.The teacher said that it is possible to commit suicide all over the world, and Xu Jiayang is the least likely.Today, the whole world is living well, and the only person who is going to die is Xu Jiayang.I really feel that I have failed the good expectations of the teacher, who can remain the same for a lifetime.

Zhou Mingkai thought for a long time and said, "I don't understand him."

Meaning, he doesn't know why I committed suicide.In fact, if I really have to make it clear, I can't make it clear myself, why did I commit suicide?When did you think that way?

When my mother jumped from the 23rd floor?

When the scandal-ridden city pointed fingers at you in fake sympathy?

When he severed ties with his father and came to the imperial capital from Liucheng by himself?

When Zhou Mingkai said that he had never loved a murderer one by one?

I don't know, and I can't figure it out. If I can figure it out, maybe everything will be different today.There are too many things in life that you don't understand. After working hard, you still don't understand anything in the end.

I looked at Zhou Mingkai and Xu Yuanshan with painful expressions on their faces, as if I was so important.

When you are alive, you discard it like a shoe, but when you are dead, it is very precious.

Zhou Mingkai asked, "I want to know why he hasn't returned to Liucheng all these years."

But he died on the railroad track back to Liucheng.

The author has something to say:

The weather is bad recently, and I get sick easily. I wonder if that Mr. D is dead... I wish him a long heart, pay more attention when it rains and thunders, and think about the lies I once said.