Infatuation is the most boring

am i gay

I don't admit it.

I don't like the same sex, I just like Zhou Mingkai.

When I was in junior high school, I liked the monitor of the class next door, a girl with twin ponytails. For the first time, I gave her a pack of nougat. After I found out that she shared it with the whole class, I liked it a little bit. I was eaten like this.

Thinking about it now, I only remember that girl likes to wear double ponytails.

Is the surname Tan or Tang?I can't seem to remember it anymore, I almost forgot what she looked like.And liking Zhou Mingkai was the most uncontrollable thing in my youth.

Maybe it's because when I first met him, I found this young man with poor cycling skills, but he was unexpectedly good-looking, with delicate features and handsome appearance, which made people feel involuntarily fond of him.

Maybe it's because he is good at playing games, and adolescent boys will have inexplicable admiration for boys who can be kings in games.

Or maybe it's just that when he smiles, the corner of his mouth is the way I like it.

I always like the time when I hang out with Zhou Mingkai, I like to whisper unimportant things in his ear, I like to hang shoulders with him, get closer to him, and get closer.

The saddest thing in high school was probably being at the same table with Zhou Mingkai for almost three years, but he changed his position in the last few months.I'm not saying that Lu Sinuo's new tablemate is not good, but Zhou Mingkai always comes to mind.

I even thought, should I be more cowardly, ask him to bow his head, and then change his position back.

I came up with this idea in English class, Lin Qingyi was explaining the test papers of the monthly exam, and Zhou Mingkai listened carefully, looking at Lin Qingyi on the podium with piercing eyes.

For some reason, I just suppressed this thought and made up my mind that if Zhou Mingkai didn't take the initiative to talk to me, then I wouldn't talk to him either.

I found out that Alexander's foot was injured after I got off my evening study.

The summer in Liucheng is not too hot, and it was even a little cool at the time of evening self-study. When I got home, I found that the lights were on, and Mother Zhao and my mother were talking about something in the bedroom.

I went to the balcony to add some dog food to Alexander, and found that he was limping. Looking carefully, I found that his feet seemed to be broken.

Mother Zhao came out of the bedroom at this time and said to me: "Yangyang, I only found out when I came here today. This puppy... was kicked by your mother... I looked at it and it was quite serious. , wanted to take it to see, but your mother was emotionally unstable, so she put it on hold..."

I touched the head of Wylie Alexander with distress. After hearing that my mother kicked me, I felt very complicated. If I put it in the past, I would definitely have troubled her, but Zhao's mother said that she was in a bad mood.

"Isn't it always on the balcony?" I asked.

"It's probably because the door is not closed," Zhao's mother said, "Don't say anything to your mother. Your father hasn't answered her calls for more than half a month. She feels uncomfortable..."

"You can kick the dog if you feel uncomfortable?" My tone was not good, but I only dared to talk to Zhao's mother, and I didn't dare to talk to my mother like that at all, for fear of touching some nerve in her again.

Zhao's mother and I sat on the sofa and said, "I knew your parents from the time they got married until they got married. At that time, your father was still a poor painter. Your father was brought up by your grandma alone. The cancer is at an advanced stage, and the only wish is that your father can start a family, no, as soon as he proposed, your mother agreed without saying a word, and when they got married, they didn't even have a wedding photo..."

I listened a little absent-mindedly, and my mind was full of injuries from my pregnancy with Alexander.

"These years, how well your parents have lived. Your father has become famous and rich, and you have been famous for being cute since you were a child. Who can compare to your family? To be honest, I used to envy you Your mother found a good man, capable, good-natured, caring for her family, and treating her well. Who would have thought that? Once your father doesn’t care about his family, he won’t want anything. It’s been so long, he guesses... yes I want a divorce..."

The word divorce surprised me.

Ms. Zhao probably wanted to vaccinate me, and said: "You persuade your mother, she is determined, just told me that even if she dies, she will die with the name of Mrs. Xu Yuanshan, it is absolutely impossible Divorce. But ah, this kind of matter is not up to her. If your father sues, you don't want any property... Even if you leave the house, how can she control it? Look, your mother is still young, there is no need to I will fall on your father in my next life..."

As soon as Zhao’s mother talked about it, I felt a little endless. I didn’t have the heart to listen to it. I got up and hugged Alexander, and said, “Auntie, let’s talk about it another day. I want to take Alexander to the hospital.”

She didn't understand, "Alexander?"

"It's my little Teddy," I pointed to the dog in my arms.

"It's getting late, is the pet hospital still open?" Mother Zhao asked.

"Go and see," I said, and I wanted to go out.

Walking to the entrance, I heard Zhao's mother still muttering: "Who can tell that Xu Yuanshan is gay..."

I closed the door, thinking that Mother Zhao would stay overnight at my house tonight, let's chat with my mother, that's fine, enlighten her, I'm really afraid that she will do something again.

When I got out of the elevator, I met Lu Sinuo standing downstairs in my house.

When she saw me, she was obviously a little embarrassed, and she obviously didn't expect that I would come out suddenly.

"Why are you here?" I asked her.

Lu Sinuo was carrying the schoolbag, holding the shoulder straps of the schoolbag with both hands, feeling a little embarrassed, and after a long time he hesitated to say: "I see that you are in a bad mood recently, so I will come back with you to have a look..."

I didn't expect that she would follow me all the way downstairs to my house, and I didn't know why I was so careless. She followed me all the way and didn't notice.

"I mean nothing else," she said.

I was restless, but obviously I couldn't say anything to Lu Snow, so I said, "If you're not in a hurry to go home, accompany me to the pet hospital. My Alexander is injured."

"Okay," Lu Sinuo said, "I'm not in a hurry."

I remember that there is a pet hospital in the pedestrian street here, and my mother took Alexander here to take a bath before.It's just that I don't know the location very well.

Lu Sinuo followed me quietly, sometimes he would get closer to tease Alexander, but he was very restrained, as if he was afraid that the loud voice would make me annoying.

After searching for about ten minutes in the pedestrian street, I found the pet hospital. After the doctor checked, he said, "It's not broken, but the injury is still quite serious. I need to add a bracket to fix it. I have kept it for several months."

I felt a little better, and after the doctor carried Alexander in, I found Lu Sinuo standing behind me all the time, so I said to her, "Would you like me to take you home later?"

"I'm in no hurry," she added.

Recently, I have been thinking a lot, and I have an inexplicable trust in Lu Snow, so I sat in the waiting area of ​​the pet hospital and chatted with her, first about the follow-up after entering the office with Zhou Mingkai that day, and then why they quarreled later .

"Lin Qingyi and my dad went out together," I said, "Now, my dad is still playing with me and disappearing. Ask Lin Qingyi, but he doesn't say anything. My mother is dying at home all day long."

Lu Sinuo should have guessed many reasons, but she probably didn't expect this to be the case. She was stunned for a long time and couldn't find what to say.

I feel that I feel a lot better after talking about it.

"Xu Jiayang, I will always trust you," she said, "because you said that you wanted to cover me, and I took it seriously. So, in return, I will always trust you."

I smiled and said nothing.