Infatuation is the most boring

Zhou Mingkai didn't come back for a long time after being dragged out by Feng Tao. I was happy alone, rolling on the sofa for a while, looking at cacti on the balcony for a while, and running to the study for a while to look at the books displayed on the bookshelf.

I read a copy of "To Live" and wanted to pick it up and read it. My hands went straight through the bookshelf, and I laughed at myself for not being conscious of being a ghost again.

At this time, the sound of opening the door was heard.

I went out to look around, only Zhou Mingkai came back, he leaned casually on the sofa, I looked at that position, it was the place where I just sat.

Zhou Mingkai used to be very annoying, he didn't allow me to jump around on the sofa, and he always disliked me for making the sofa crumpled.But now, even if I float hundreds of times on it, he can't care about it anymore.

Zhou Mingkai sat for a while and then turned on the TV. It was still the CD I put in a month ago. It was a movie, Leslie Cheung's "Farewell My Concubine", and it was played in the place where I saw it last time.

The male protagonist played by Leslie Cheung is pulling his senior brother's sleeve and obsessively saying that a lifetime, a year, a month, a day, and an hour, is not a lifetime.

Zhou Mingkai probably didn't expect that my favorite movie would be played when he turned on the TV, his face seemed to have changed.

When I was alive, everything about me was innocuous to Zhou Mingkai, but after I died, everything about me would make his face change.

I gloat over my misfortune.

Zhou Mingkai's face finally returned to the state before Feng Tao came, and I suddenly couldn't bear it for no reason. At this time, Zhou Mingkai picked up the remote control next to the sofa and smashed it hard at the TV screen.

The remote control was broken to pieces, but nothing happened to the TV series. I lamented that it was the LCD TV I had carefully selected. The fact that Zhou Mingkai was still in good condition just now showed that the quality passed the test.

Zhou Mingkai just sat like this. I don't know whether he is watching a movie or something, because Zhou Mingkai, a highly myopic person, as long as he doesn't wear glasses, I will always feel that his eyesight is slack.

The movie was over, and at the curtain call, Zhou Mingkai, who had been silent all this time, suddenly spoke.

He said: "We are talking about a lifetime, a year and a month are not considered a lifetime... But Xu Jiayang, you also said... If you love me, you have to love for a lifetime..."

I was taken aback when I was suddenly nominated.

Zhou Mingkai, I did what I said, I said I will love you forever, but it turns out that I still love you to the last moment of my life, this is my whole life, I don't owe you a single minute.

Between us, the liar is you.

You are the one who says you don't love me.

You are the one who hates Xu Jiayang.

Zhou Mingkai hasn't slept well in the past few days. I went out with him and went directly to the pharmacy. He asked the boss for sleeping pills.

Perhaps because he looked decadent, the boss hesitated.

"I didn't sleep well," Zhou Mingkai said. I knew that his sleep was more than just bad. Since I died, he almost didn't sleep well. As a ghost, I wouldn't believe that he could be in good spirits like this.

The boss thought about it, took a small amount for him, and said, "After eating these first, I will buy them again. The medicine is three-point poisonous. If you can take less, take less, and if you can't take it, don't take it."

Zhou Mingkai took the medicine and said, "Thank you."

Zhou Mingkai bought the medicine and didn't go back, but went for a walk in a nearby park.

He wore a thin sweater with a high collar, which made his face paler and more depressed in late autumn.

I followed him and walked along the artificial lake.

Zhou Mingkai seems to be losing energy, I feel exhausted physically and mentally, I definitely didn't choose to die to take revenge on him, and I never thought about taking revenge on him, but I just feel that life is too long to catch up on the past, so I don't I hope that Zhou Mingkai will be sad because of how sad I am.

Just be sad, and then forget that there was a person named Xu Jiayang in your life.

Unfortunately, Zhou Mingkai always surprises me.

Zhou Mingkai walked for more than half an hour, and sat down on the bench by the lake. As a ghost, it didn't matter whether I stood or sat, and stood straight on the aisle.

I looked at it, in just over half a month, Zhou Mingkai's eyes were already black and blue, and even wearing gold-rimmed glasses, he could be seen to be very haggard.

In the evening, Zhou Mingkai packed a porridge with preserved egg and lean meat in a restaurant.

Back at the apartment, Zhou Mingkai sat at the dining table and ate porridge. After struggling to eat half a bowl, he took out the sleeping pills, took the medicine with a bottle of mineral water, and walked to the bed.

After a long time, the medicine took effect, and Zhou Mingkai fell into a deep sleep.

I stood by his bed, unable to express how I felt.

Zhou Mingkai, are you guilty of being like this?

I couldn't see through him, so I could only sit on the floor of the bedroom, listening to Zhou Mingkai's thin breathing.

I don't know how long I sat there, but the person on the bed behind me startled me, I stood up quickly and saw that Zhou Mingkai was already covered in fine sweat, and his face was very embarrassing.

"Jiayang—"

He straightened up screaming, still in shock, "Don't..."

I was startled by his voice of Jiayang, I really couldn't scare ghosts from people.

The hair on Zhou Mingkai's forehead was soaked with sweat, his chest heaved and heaved, and he looked at the darkness in the room and muttered to himself.

I leaned over to listen, what he read was Jiayang.

When I was with Zhou Mingkai before, he also woke up in a dream at midnight, but at that time he called Lin Qingyi's name.

Feng Shui took turns, I didn't expect that my name, Xu Jiayang, would come out of Zhou Mingkai's mouth in this way one day, how much I was jealous of Lin Qingyi before, how much I despise myself now.

Zhou Mingkai turned on the lamp, got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face.Zhou Mingkai didn't feel sleepy anymore, so he just half-lyed on the bed, and soon after, it was dawn, and the whole room became brighter because of the rising sun.

I want to go see Fatty Wang today.

This world point is past ten o'clock in the morning, and I guess Fatty Wang should be in his garage.

Speaking of it, Fatty Wang is definitely inspirational. It took more than five years from an apprentice car repairer to become a master master and opened his own auto repair shop.When I knew him, he was still a young apprentice, passing cigarettes after the master, hoping that others would teach him more.

When I met Fatty Wang, I was working alone in the imperial capital, doing sales in a sales company, and I could drink myself down in order to get an extra order.That time I accompanied a client to the car wash and met Fatty Wang who just got out from under the car.At that time, he was thinner than now, thin and short, and even apologized to customers who were dissatisfied after repairing it.

When he was about to leave, he pulled me and asked, "Brother, if you ask me to repair the car in the future, I will give you a discount."

I was happy at the time and said, "Brother doesn't have a car."

Although we didn't make a deal, he and I added Wechat, and we found out that we could chat and became friends. I often take clients who bought houses with me to him to repair their cars.

Later, he was still in the car repair industry, and finally turned himself into a small boss.

And I met Zhou Mingkai again later, believed in his evil, agreed to his mother's conditions in order to be with him, quit my job and didn't want the dignity of a man, followed him like a woman, and finally managed to make myself forget What else could he do without Zhou Mingkai's love, and he would lose the air to live.

In fact, I have never received Zhou Mingkai's love. The air I thought was actually mixed with poison, just to kill me one day.

Fatty Wang persuaded me for a long time and said it was not worth it, but I still chose Zhou Mingkai. In the last three years, I did nothing but stay by his side, no job, no communication, no self.

In the end, Zhou Mingkai still said that he could consider getting married when he was old.Of course, not with me.Mentioning this to me is to make me recognize my identity.

I don't understand, what is married and not married? Isn't everything he did just to avenge Lin Qingyi?

When I came to the garage, there were quite a lot of customers. I went to Fatty Wang's office with ease, and he, who couldn't read a single word, was buried in his head to sign some contract.

When I saw it, it turned out to be a contract for the purchase of accessories.

Fatty Wang's complexion was also not good. At this time, an old master came in and saw him rubbing his brows again, and said, "Boss, you can't be resurrected after death, don't be too sad."

I know, he's talking about me.

Fatty Wang didn't say anything, just sighed.

I watched Fatty Wang sitting in the office bored in every possible way, and could only worry about my trivial matters, so I hoped that he would go out and repair a few cars and leave me alone, but Fatty Wang is now the boss and sits in the office all day up.

I thought that the thousands of dollars I had left for him were actually a bit out of reach.

Obviously, I don't want my life, so what face do I want?

The landline rang suddenly, Fatty Wang picked it up, and asked, "Did I ask you to find out?"

I didn't want to inquire into his privacy, but this landline is really not soundproof, I can hear it clearly.

The person on the phone said, "I'm still in touch. Xu Yuanshan is such a great painter, it's hard to get in touch. Knowing that he is useless in N City, I have to find some connections to talk to him, otherwise you will go around saying that his son is dead. How would you know?"

I knew it well, Fatty Wang wanted to contact my father, he knew about my past, he told him about it when we drank too much together in the first two years when we first met.He should know that my death is a happy event for that great painter Xu. I have given up hope for family relationships, but Fatty Wang has not given up.

"Try to find his contact information, and if you find it, give it to me, and I'll call him," Fatty Wang hung up after finishing his instructions, and sighed again.

I think Fatty Wang sighed the most in his life because of my unworthy friend.

I don't know what to say, Fatty Wang, you really shouldn't contact Xu Yuanshan, I haven't contacted him for nine years, people who hate me all over the world, he is as famous as Zhou Mingkai.You really want me to see my biological father standing in front of my grave, looking up to the sky and smiling, saying that it is good to die, how can you let him live for so many years?

Fatty Wang, I'm afraid that if I die, my heart will still hurt.

I slumped on the sofa in Fatty Wang's office, watching Fatty Wang ask many people for help in order to make a phone call to Xu Yuanshan, I can't say how emotionally I should face it.

That year, Xu Yuanshan and I lost all our father-son relationship in this life.

He said, "Xu Jiayang, I won't forgive you, I don't have your son."

How did I reply back then?

I said, "Very well, I won't forgive you either, I also don't have your father."

Nine years have passed, and I can still feel that determination in my chest.