The power is called the evil of this world

Because of the image problem, Mochizuki locked himself in the room for most of the day.

The good news is that although the process was a bit difficult, Mochizuki finally accepted the fact and was willing to face life with a new image.

First of all, the first thing to do is to open the door—

Hey?

"Xiuji-kun?" Mochizuki saw Tsushima Shuji who was guarding the door first after she opened the door. She asked confusedly, "What are you squatting here for?"

Shuji Tsushima jumped up immediately when his name was called, as if he had installed springs under his feet with agility.The first thing he did after standing up was to bow and apologize loudly: "I'm sorry--sensei Yue!"

Mochizuki who was suddenly apologized: "Huh?"

Shuji Tsushima: "If it wasn't for my disqualification in the world——"

"This has nothing to do with you." Mochizuki interrupted him and said, "This result was not caused by you, you just exposed the existing problems."

"Not only my problem, but your own problem."

Shuji Tsushima: "...Me?"

No, I have made trouble for you like this, yet you still have such a genuine sense of responsibility for me?

Miss Yue, are you serious?

Mochizuki is of course very serious, and I also feel that I have a responsibility to care for the fragile heart of the little genius: "Since we met, you have been expressing yourself in front of me, just like a peacock trying to open its tail..." She said: "I I've heard Fujino mention you before, but that's not what Fujino said about you, Shuji-kun."

Shuji Tsushima gave the same reason: "Because I am a fan of your book. As a fan, it is normal to want to perform in front of idols, right?"

Mochizuki: "But what you have done is too much...do you really want to express yourself in front of me?"

Shuji Tsushima nodded, and replied innocently: "Of course!"

But Mochizuki didn't act with him to say hello, me, everyone, she asked lightly: "Is your behavior in front of me a child's desire to express itself, or is it a subconscious reaction of nervousness and fear?" Woolen cloth?"

Shuji Tsushima: "——!!!"

Mochizuki saw: "I found out from the beginning...you seem to be afraid of me." She turned around Shuji Tsushima who was frozen in place, and asked, "Why is this, Xiuzhi-kun? I think it's kind and amiable, it's kind to others, and it's not scary, why are you so afraid of me?"

Shuji Tsushima couldn't answer this question.

It's not that I don't know the answer, it's that I'm worried about some kind of bad outcome that might result from telling the truth.

He and Edogawa Ranpo are actually very similar in essence, they are both gifted boys with wisdom exceeding ordinary people.This wisdom is a gift, a reliance, and his confidence, allowing him to see the truth of certain things with a thoroughness——

But this wisdom occasionally caused him some trouble.

For example, at the first sight of Mochizuki, Shuji Tsushima saw a certain kind of frightening quality in her.

He even instinctively feared Mochizuki.

Even with a smile on her face, she is gentle and amiable, and she treats people and things with gentleness, which makes people feel as if they are sitting on a spring breeze.

But Shuji Tsushima was afraid of her.

It was the fear of something terrible that she was carrying.

It is also fear of being able to suppress this kind of thing. In essence, Mochizuki sees himself even more terrifying than it.

He also tested Edogawa Ranpo by knocking sideways, wondering if he knew the problem with Mochizuki Jian, but he found nothing, as if he was the only one who could find that terrible staring and attraction... This kind of The feeling can't be expressed in words, and Shuji Tsushima can't pour out his heart to anyone, even Fujino, who has been close to him since he was a child.

On the one hand, as if he had encountered a natural enemy, he couldn't even struggle, so he could only cower in fear and wait for the opponent's judgment.On the other hand, he couldn't help but wanted to get close to her, and wanted to understand why the other party could become such a bright and beautiful appearance that was completely different from himself.

"You think we are the same kind of people?" Mochizuki asked.

Shuji Tsushima: "Isn't it?"

Mochizuki didn't answer, and continued to ask: "Sending you here... This is not only the intention of your parents, but also your own push, right?"

Shuji Tsushima said honestly: "The family is so boring, and I also want to accompany Fujino."

There is no need to say that I also want to meet the legendary 49 Yeyue Jianli himself, after all, this purpose has already been exposed.

Mochizuki pondered for a moment, then asked: "Is it for Fujino?... Are you worried that you will be eaten by loneliness?"

Without giving Shuji Tsushima a chance to speak and hide from his heart, Mochizuki pressed on every step of the way: "Although you have worked hard on this matter, there is actually a part of you that doesn't want to come here, right? Although you and Fujino If you are together, you will be much happier, but you occasionally resist communicating with Fujino... Where do you feel guilty, and feel that you should suffer?"

This question was like cutting open his heart completely, taking off all his coverings and throwing his whole body under the sun, Shuji Tsushima trembled uncontrollably because of this question.But he still tried his best to be calm, unwilling to admit defeat easily: "Is Teacher Yuejian treating everyone like this?"

"What silly things are you talking about? It's just a sense of responsibility as an adult. When I see young flowers, I can't help but want to take care of them." Mochizuki took his actions for granted, and said to Shuji Tsushima The attitude is very loving and tolerant, "It's you..." Because I have a gentle and sensitive heart, I can understand the pain of others too much, so I feel guilty.

"Xiuzhi-kun, you are such a gentle and kind silly boy."

It was completely cut open and even the heart was carefully observed... It is indeed kindness, the tenderness, kindness and love from strangers.But it's too weird, and it's too hot!Shuji Tsushima jumped up as if his hand had been scalded by Martian: "What... what! Fujino must have told you, Tsukimi-sensei—"

He almost couldn't choose what to say: "Is it because of this inexplicable sense of responsibility that you insist on writing those articles? To expose the filth in the dark to the light, even if it is accompanied by life-threatening—this kind of thing must be very difficult. Have a sense of accomplishment?"

"I don't have a sense of accomplishment. I just gained a deep understanding of people's hearts and the world through this process." Mochizuki said calmly: "As for the reason, do I have to have a reason for doing these things? I just did my best. It's a man's job—"

"Those things, since they have seen them, no one with conscience and morality will ignore them and treat them as if they hadn't seen them, right?"

Ahhh, that's it, that's the kind of person you are——

So I am afraid of you, you who are similar to me but completely different, I am afraid that you will be melted by this too dazzling light.

You are all the opposite of me.

Yearning is you, fear is you.

The guilt comes from you, and the unspoken inferiority also comes from you.

Was this decision a mistake?

Before the future came, Shuji Tsushima couldn't get the answer either.He just couldn't restrain his longing, but even though he was afraid... he still accepted this kindness from a stranger.

I hope I can walk by this person's side, I hope I can understand why Mochizuki can become such a bright and beautiful appearance, I hope...

I hope I can become such a person.

"Will you teach me, Tsukimi-sensei?" Tsushima Shuji asked.

And Mochizuki also promised him: "As long as you are willing to learn. No matter what it is, I will be happy to teach you."

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The author has something to say:

Shuji Tsushima can disclose information in this chapter:

It is based on my impression of the third and second Osamu Dazai, full of private OOC images.

Zhengtai, who is only ten years old, has a juvenile body and can be molded.

The material life is rich, but the spirit is extremely poor and lacks love (refer to the three-dimensional), and he is very concerned about the young tame dye Asakami Fujino who can understand each other, so he can't refuse Tsukimi's pure kindness

Typically thinks a lot because he is smart.

I am really a Yuejian book fan, and my inner guilt and inferiority complex all come from Yuejian.

The guilt is because Yuejian writes a lot of critical articles, and he himself is delicate and sensitive, so his empathy ability may be a bit too much.So the more I see, the more I think.

The feeling of inferiority is because I read the book too seriously and referred to my own conditions to bring into the vested interest groups criticized in the article, and I think I am also one of them. When facing Yue Jian who wrote these criticisms, I have a natural weakness (feeling himself as one of the executioners and Tsukimi as the one suing him on behalf of the victims)

The idea of ​​seeing the moon is similar to treating the sun, yearning for the light of the other party but worrying that the eyes will be hurt if you look directly at it-the mentality of fear.It would be appropriate to change the description to an abyss. I dare not stare for a long time, for fear of being assimilated by the abyss

Anyway, it's complicated

... I don't know if these will be written in the text, anyway, I have written it seriously