Self-knowledge

18

It took a few days for Ye Xiang to remember that his younger brother was looking for a job. Originally, he was worried about contacting Lin Jiaxu, but he silently decided to find Zhang Yi in his heart.

I hesitated for a while when I slid the phone away, although the reason for meeting that day was a bit embarrassing, and although the two of them communicated on WeChat later, they haven't had any contact in the past two days.

Ye Xiang can be sure that the other party has no special thoughts about him. In this case, it is an old acquaintance, and it seems that there is nothing wrong with asking him for a favor.

--Hello are you there?I am Ye Xiang.

--exist.I'm still wondering when Ah Xiang will come to see me [stick out tongue]

--...Feel sorry.These two days are relatively busy.There is something I want to ask you for help, when is it convenient to call?

Zhang Yi called directly, and Ye Xiang roughly explained his brother's education background and some major internship experiences. Zhang Yi was silent for a while, and when Ye Xiang was feeling anxious, a chuckle came from the receiver.

"Of course there is no problem, but Ah Xiang, can you answer me a question first."

"how?"

"You and Lin Jiaxu really broke up?"

"……Um."

Although he didn't know what this had to do with his younger brother's qualifications, Ye Xiang answered truthfully.

The other party laughed again, and said in a low voice through the receiver, "I'm helping you with this, let your brother prepare for the interview. And Ah Xiang, you have to think about how to thank me."

After Ye Xiang hung up the phone, he felt that although he had known Zhang Yi for so many years, he didn't know him at all. Zhang Yi on the other end of the phone made him strange and uneasy.

He shook off the thoughts in his mind, then went to wash the rice, put the rice into the rice cooker, cut a little sausage and sprinkled it evenly in the pot, the rice cooker switched to the crispy rice cooker mode, after an hour, it was out of the pot, and then turned on the stove to cook it Put a few pieces of Guangzhou cabbage on the rice, and a simple claypot rice is ready.

The bottom of the claypot rice is crispy, and the rice grains on the top are distinct, and because of the oil in the sausage, it is crystal clear, and the meat is fragrant.

Turn on the ipad, watch variety shows while having dinner, and gradually get used to the quiet and simple life of a single child.

One person, one pair of chopsticks, one bowl.No waiting, no disappointment.

After falling asleep for a few hours at night, he was woken up by an unfamiliar phone number after twelve o'clock in the morning. Faint breathing.

Ye Xiang rubbed his eyes, then glanced at the time and the incoming call, his consciousness gradually returned, but he still didn't recognize the call.

"Hello? What's the matter?"

Ye Xiang still asked politely, his voice was a little hoarse when he was woken up from a half-dream.

The other party still didn't answer, he heard his own breathing and the ticking of the clock in the house.

...Yes, Lin Jiaxu?

He gave the other party 1 minute, still no response.Ye Xiang hung up the phone.

Close your eyes and fall asleep, sleep soundly all night.

Ye Xin's internship was quickly arranged.On a certain weekend, Ye Xin moved into Ye Xiang's house with big bags and small bags, and the [-]-square-meter rental house suddenly became lively.

After settling down the blah Ye Xin, Ye Xiang thought about adding some stock to the refrigerator, so he packed up and went to the supermarket.

Across the crowded shelves and noisy crowd, Ye Xiang ran into Lin Jiaxu's parents unexpectedly.

The last time I saw them was half a year ago. Lin's father and Lin's mother have a gentle temperament and have always been kind to themselves.

Father Lin's temples had more gray hair than half a year ago, and Mother Lin's face was even more gloomy, comparing the two boxes of fresh food in her hand, and talking to Father Lin from time to time.

Ye Xiang hesitated for a moment, but still pushed the shopping cart forward to say hello.

"Uncle Lin, Aunt Lin."

The two old men turned their heads in surprise, and looked at Ye Xiang with surprise, joy, embarrassment... and some emotions that Ye Xiang couldn't understand.

"Xiaoye." Mother Lin regained her composure, put down the goods in her hands, turned around, and smiled at Ye Xiang.Father Lin also nodded.

"Well... how are you two doing?"

Mother Lin was silent for a while, but still smiled, "We are fine. But Xiaoye, how are you doing? I haven't seen you for a long time."

"I, I'm fine."

Ye Xiang was a little timid, they should know about his breakup with Lin Jiaxu, right?Otherwise, it is really hard to explain that New Year's Eve is not as good as going to Lin's father and Lin's mother's house as usual.

"Xiaoye, you've lost weight recently."

Lin's mother looked at Ye Xiang affectionately. For some reason, Ye Xiang was a little ashamed and could be hard-hearted towards Lin Jiaxu, but Lin's father and Lin's mother had always been very kind to him.

"Xiaoye, would you like to have dinner at home this week?"

"Aunt Lin..." Ye Xiang said with difficulty, "Jiaxu and I have already..."

"Jiaxu is not at home on weekends, is Xiaoye coming over?"

Mother Lin seemed to know what he was going to say, and hurriedly added.

Ye Xiang was startled, but then agreed.

Because I was treated tenderly by these two people, I don't want to owe anything.

Lin's mother got an affirmative answer, her expression was obviously much more relaxed, and then she chatted a little before waving goodbye.

Ye Xiang stuffed some more supplements into the shopping cart and sighed.

Just say goodbye.

On Saturday, Ye Xiang found the apartment building familiarly, and arrived at Lin's house with big bags and small bags.

When climbing the stairs, Ye Xiang recalled in a trance that when he came to the door for the first time, he came here full of loads. The only difference was that there was Lin Jiaxu beside him at that time. The two climbed the stairs holding hands tightly. Scratch him and whisper in his ear, "Don't be afraid, my parents will like you."

The Lin family is still the same, with two bedrooms and one living room in the old-fashioned community, with good lighting, and the house is cleaned spotlessly by Lin's mother.

Lin Jiaxu grew up here. Another house in the city center was originally bought by Lin's father and Lin's mother as Lin Jiaxu's wedding house when Lin Jiaxu was in middle school. Later, they moved there logically after they got together.

"What is Xiaoye doing with so many things? Come in and sit down, it's cold outside."

Father Lin also seemed to be in a good mood, and took the gift box with a smile. Ye Xiang's words "This may be the last time I see you two" were stuck in his throat, and he couldn't speak.

Surprisingly, the food had already been cooked, Ye Xiang was invited to the dinner table after sitting on the sofa for a while, Father Lin poured a half glass of red wine for Ye Xiang.

Ye Xiang looked at the table full of food, feeling a little complicated.

The dishes are the ones I like to eat, even with some spicy peppers, but the color and fragrance in the color and fragrance seem to be out of Lin Mu's usual standard.

Under Lin's mother's expectant eyes, he picked up a piece of sauced duck closest to him and tasted it - sure enough, the taste was really average.

Ye Xiang slandered in his heart, even if he broke up with your son, he wouldn't deliberately make such an unpalatable dish to punish me, would he? !

"Come, come, Xiaoye, try this again."

Lin's father and Lin's mother stared straight at Ye Xiang's chopsticks, and waited until Ye Xiang had tasted every dish and said with a forced smile, "Thank you, aunt, it's delicious." Then she could barely look away.

Ye Xiang noticed that when they tasted the first sip, they also had indescribable expressions, and then changed the topic as if nothing had happened.

After eating a meal full of questions, before Ye Xiang could ask, there was a loud bang in the bedroom.

Mother Lin's face turned pale all of a sudden, Ye Xiang wanted to get up to look but was held down by Father Lin, Mother Lin explained in a panic, "I cleaned the room in the morning, maybe the things were confiscated."

Ye Xiang glanced suspiciously at the closed door, and said no more.

After dinner, Lin's father and Lin's mother cleaned up the dishes, and asked Ye Xiang to rest on the sofa and watch TV first. Ye Xiang responded and walked around the room.

Sure enough, the leather shoes at the door, the tooth cup in the bathroom, the computer in the corner, the weird food, the strange expressions of Lin's father and Lin's mother...Ye Xiang sneered and knocked on the door of the room that had just made a sound.

"Lin Jiaxu, open the door."

The room was quiet, without any sound, Ye Xiang turned the doorknob, and it was locked from the inside and could not be opened.

He sighed, "Lin Jiaxu, open the door. I have to go."

Ten seconds later, the door opened from the inside, revealing a dejected face with messy hair, heavy dark circles under the eyes, and a ridiculous cartoon bib on his body, which was full of greasy.

Ye Xiang looked at Lin Jiaxu from top to bottom, and said helplessly, "What are you doing?"

"Mom and Dad said you're coming home, but you don't want to see me. I..."

"I have reflected on what you said before. You are right. I used to be an asshole and selfish, and I have changed it now. I got up at five o'clock this morning to buy vegetables, and I cooked all you like. I just want to cook I will give you a meal to make up for what you have done for me for so many years. I didn't want you to find out. I hid in it because I was afraid that you would think I lied to you on purpose. Ah Xiang..." He raised his head, staring at me with bright eyes. Looking at Ye Xiang, she was a little shy and asked expectantly, "Is it delicious?"

Ye Xiang was about to be blown away by his logic, and replied with a sneer, "It's so unpalatable."

Sure enough, Lin Jiaxu's face turned pale for a while, and he said after holding back for a long time, "I'm sorry."

Ye Xiang was soft-hearted. In this situation, he was bullying others. Then he thought about what kind of bullying. Cooking a meal can make up for the years that he owed in the past?How expensive is this meal?How cheap was his previous payment?

But after all, something was touched in his heart. He settled down and changed the subject, "So you're staying at your parents' house for a while?"

"Well," Lin Jiaxu said listlessly, "You're not at home, and I don't want to be there alone."

Ye Xiang's heart was on fire, when you met Ji Zeye outside in a sensual way and left me alone at home, didn't you think that I didn't want to be alone?

What is the affection now.

"Then you can ask Ji Zeye to accompany you." This sentence blurted out without thinking.

Lin Jiaxu was stunned, and then he was eager to explain, "No, Ah Xiang, why are you still doubting, I have nothing to do with Ji Zeye. If you are not happy when they invest in the company in the future, can I find someone else to match? I will never How about not meeting him?"

Ye Xiang pursed his lips and didn't say a word, he regretted that sentence just now.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Lin Jiaxu felt uneasy for a while, and then his mood slowly turned a little happy, "You still care about me, right Ah Xiang? You're jealous!"

If Lin Jiaxu had a tail, Ye Xiang could already imagine his expression proudly raising his tail and circling him.

"I don't care what happens to you and him, and you don't have to rush to find me. Today I'm here to say goodbye to my uncle. I won't come here again, and you don't have to hide in the house and dare not come out."

After saying that, he turned his head and left, bumping into the pale-faced Mother Lin who was standing behind him holding a fruit bowl.

Ye Xiang bit the bullet and said sorry, put on his coat and left, until he left Lin Jiaxu without making a sound.

Walking in the cold wind, his feverish mind had just cooled down. He took out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it irritably. After he had just smoked a few puffs, he heard Mother Lin's greeting and hurried footsteps behind him.

"Little Leaf!"

He sighed, still pinched the cigarette and found a nearby trash can to throw it away.

"Aunt Lin."

"Xiaoye, I'm sorry, Jiaxu...he just wants to see you, but he can't. He just wants you to eat a meal of his cooking."

Ye Xiang didn't know what to answer, but just listened quietly to Lin's mother.

"Auntie knows about your breakup. Jiaxu has always blamed himself. In fact, we are not good. We have been used to Jiaxu since we were young. After you got together, we have always had a grudge and didn't teach Jiaxu about married life. It requires two people to work together. Therefore, it is not good for Auntie."

Mother Lin's eyes were flushed, Ye Xiang looked uncomfortable, turned his head away.

"I'm sorry, we were wrong. We didn't teach Jiaxu well. He developed a selfish temperament. He only thinks about himself when he does things. He never thinks from the perspective of others. It should be taken for granted. Xiaoye, Jiaxu has learned his lesson. We have never seen him like this before. He can't eat or sleep. He wants to come to you but is afraid of being rejected by you, so we met you that day I just lied to you that Jiaxu was not at home, thinking that as long as you are willing to come anyway, he must be happy. He is really happy to know that you will come. He studied the menu several days in advance, and stayed in the kitchen for six days today. Hours, don't let us intervene at all, he said this is his atonement for you."

"Xiaoye, Aunt Lin is not forcing you to get back together, but just wants you to accept our apology. After all, Jiaxu is one of the reasons why Jiaxu became like this. Can you give him another chance?"

Ye Xiang's chest seemed to be blocked by something, and he couldn't breathe smoothly.Ye Xiang knew very deeply at this moment that he was also a selfish person.

He suppressed what he wanted to blurt out, he wanted to say, can you let me go?They have been together for so many years. Except for the passionate love period in the past few years, you have always turned a blind eye to his bad temper and cold violence towards me. Now I want to withdraw and leave, but you are so soft that I can't refuse?

Just because Lin Jiaxu is their son, they always protect him.

Ye Xiang claims that he can't be a holy father. After being bullied for so many years, he finally mustered up the courage to leave. Saying goodbye to his ex-boyfriend's parents was only agreed to because of his care for many years.

He refuses to be kidnapped by morality, everyone is selfish.Lin Fulin's mother is for her son, and Ye Xiang is for herself.

However, he couldn't say such hurtful words. From the standpoint of Lin's father and Lin's mother, this was the most decent advice they could utter.

He just said sorry, let's go up early when it's cold, and waved goodbye.

Ye Xiang is neither a holy father nor a heart of stone. When he saw Lin Jiaxu's tired look, his heart trembled, and he couldn't help feeling distressed.

It's really useless.

Those nights of celibate waiting and the smell of men's perfume made a copper shield, and a crack was poked by a terrible lunch.