Self-knowledge

Back from the hot pot restaurant alone, Sun Xiao felt sore and sore in his heart.The child just left, giving up his dream.

By mistake, he promised Ding Wanda to wait for him.

He didn't want to think deeply about what it meant to wait, and just answered according to the answer in his heart.

Opening the door, there was a figure sitting on the sofa in the dark living room, which startled him suddenly.

He reflexively looked for something that could be used for self-defense at hand, and many thoughts drifted through his mind in confusion, is it a thief?What is valuable at home?Can I hand him the wallet?Will you be silenced if you see the face?

"Xiaoxiao."

The deep voice interrupted his thoughts, and the second he heard the unfamiliar yet familiar voice, his heart throbbed like a needle.

It's Gu Cheng.

He turned on the light in the entrance, it was really Gu Cheng.

It's been a long time since I saw him. He was wearing a black coat, which they bought together when they went shopping on the first day of the new year a few years ago.He stood between the tea table and sofa they had carefully selected together, waiting for Sun Xiao to come home.

He had a new hairstyle, his hair and bangs were shorter, and he should be more energetic, but his eyes were full of tiredness.

The images of the past and the present are constantly intertwined, Sun Xiao is a little dazed, and then realizes that they have been separated for more than a year.

When he just left, he lived on his fingers; then he did a stupid thing, and he was ruined because of it; then he picked up a child and went home; then the child also left...

In a daze, Gu Cheng approached him, and stretched out his arms to hug him tightly.

"Xiaoxiao..."

It's been too long since this embrace, so long that he already feels strange.

His kiss eagerly landed on his lips, his tongue penetrated into his territory, and wrapped around his tongue, teasing, crushing, and swearing sovereignty.

Sun Xiao forgot to refuse for a moment, his thinking had long since stagnated, he didn't know what time it was, and he didn't know where he was.

His body is completely controlled by Gu Cheng. Since puberty, every orgasm and every desire of his has been completely controlled by Gu Cheng.

Facing Gu Cheng, he has already formed a conditioned reflex, and his body always surrenders faster than his brain.

Gu Cheng was greatly pleased by his reaction, he slowly left Sun Xiao's bright red lips that were kissed, and stared at Sun Xiao's flushed eyes with satisfaction, his uneasiness and violence all night were slightly calmed down.

Not wanting to face the noisy and mean wife at home, he drove alone, and unknowingly went around to the door of the hot pot restaurant where he used to eat with Sun Xiao, but saw Sun Xiao hugging a strange man at the door.

He told Ye Xiang half a year ago that he wished Sun Xiao happiness.

He didn't know until today that he would never be able to watch him and others happy.

At that moment, all the blood in his body coagulated, and any filial piety, mother's kindness and filial piety were all forgotten by him. He tremblingly took out the key that had been stored in the depths of his wallet, and returned to the home he had abandoned.

At that moment, his confusion and pain had an answer.

He chose Sun Xiao.

Over there, Sun Xiao suddenly came back to his senses, he pushed Gu Cheng away with all his strength, and distanced himself.

"what are you doing?"

His voice was too cold and unfamiliar, it was no longer the soft and waxy voice that was lying beside him before, Gu Cheng was startled secretly, and the uneasiness in his heart expanded again.

"Where's your wife?"

Gu Cheng pursed his lips and did not answer.

Sun Xiao laughed at himself, "Where's your daughter?"

"Xiaoxiao!"

Sun Xiao saw the throbbing blue veins near Gu Cheng's temples. He was very familiar with Gu Cheng. Gu Cheng's temper had always been gentle and polite. Such out-of-control moments rarely occurred in his life.

Sun Xiao just stood there, looking coldly at Gu Cheng who was only a short distance away.

There is not only one year between them, but also a family, a child, and countless love and hatred that have been wiped out in time.

"Xiaoxiao, can you wait for me?"

"Wait for me, okay? Give me some time."

He heard Gu Cheng's voice tremble, and saw Gu Cheng's eyes gradually turned red.

Gu Cheng ramblingly described the pain of the past year.

Give up your lover and choose to give back to your parents.Obediently marrying the woman they chose, he couldn't get hard on their wedding night.Fortunately, his wife soon became pregnant, and he no longer had to rely on medicine to do things he didn't even want to do.

Later, the wife received the photo from Sun Xiao and made a big fuss at home.He knelt outside the ward for a whole night, and couldn't stand up at all the next day. All he thought about was hoping that she would calm down and stop blaming Sun Xiao.

His sexual orientation had already been revealed to his wife before they got married. At that time, she blinked and stroked the diamond ring on her hand and said that she didn't care, she just liked him and was willing to wait for him.

He knows that he is ashamed of his wife, and it is impossible for him to give her a little bit of snacks. Before the marriage, he confessed that he hoped that his wife could quit in spite of the difficulties, but he didn't want to send the photos to both parents after receiving the photos, crying Said he was cheated.

He couldn't blame his wife, let alone Sun Xiao, Gu Cheng knew it was all his fault.

It is because I am cowardly, unable to protect my lover, and unable to meet the expectations of my parents.

The slap he gave Sun Xiao also shattered his heart.

When he went back that day, he drank a lot of wine in silence. His wife just watched TV and ignored him. She didn't call 120 until she saw him lying on the ground pale and delirious.

Alcoholism gastric lavage, he went home after infusion of good fluid alone, since that day he has never slept with his wife, he knew his soul was dead, he sacrificed his body to his family and gave him responsibility, but he did not give Own.

His life is full of trivial housework, the birth of a child, and overtime work. He tries to keep himself very busy, so busy that he can pretend that Sun Xiao is still there. He just had a long nightmare.

"Xiaoxiao, can you wait for me?"

——Don't go so fast, don't leave me alone.

Wait for me--

"I'll come back to you."

This may be the sentence Sun Xiao wanted to hear the most this year, but Sun Xiao just raised his head and showed a pale smile.

Gu Cheng has seen thousands of smiles from Sun Xiao, including shy smiles, hearty smiles, triumphant smiles, and gentle smiles.But he didn't see the expression in front of him.

It seems that there is determination and exhaustion, and the mood of breaking the boat.

"But Ah Cheng. Today, I have already made another promise."

God, please let me have one last sweet dream.

In the sweet dream, my best friend and I were in school uniforms discussing the boy we had a crush on.

In the dream, there is the person I love the most in this life. As he said, we rest in the rocking chair and watch the sunset and sunset in the yard.

In the sweet dream, there is my favorite guitar, I sing on stage, it is best to have a bunch of follow spot lights, and my best friend and lover applaud in the audience.

The end of the dream is my farewell to him.

At the fountain where we met for the first time, I wore the same clothes as the first time we met, white jacket, black sneakers, and jeans folded according to what was in the magazine.

I saw him from a distance, as described in the text message, black jacket, Levi's ripped jeans, and a pair of Nike sneakers.

"Gu Cheng—"

I stood on tiptoe and called out his name.

He turned around, the sun was shining on his face just right, it was the clean and handsome 17-year-old Gu Cheng, he looked at me, the corners of his mouth were beautifully curved, his eyes seemed to be filled with bright stars.

He ran towards me, but I waved my hand.

"Don't come."

"I'm leaving."

He stopped in doubt, and shouted at me from a distance, "Xiaoxiao, where are you going?"

I scratched my head and thought for a while, my mind seemed to be stuck, and I couldn't think of an answer.

Seeing that I didn't answer, he ran over anxiously, but the distance to a fountain seemed to be very far away, and he couldn't reach it no matter what.

Forget it.

I smiled at him.

"Goodbye, Gu Cheng."

"Nice to meet you."

So I waved my hand, and it was the hour. As the music sounded, the water column in the fountain bloomed, rising and falling, dancing to the melody.

The water flow brought the buildings along the road to collapse bit by bit. The 17-year-old Gu Cheng seemed to be cut into pixel by pixel and gradually disappeared.

Goodbye.Gu Cheng.

Nice to meet you.

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The author has something to say:

This is the end of Sun Xiao's episode, followed by Gu Cheng's divorce a year later, and Ding Wanda's return to China after three years to inherit the family business.

Leave the future stories to readers!

There is also a Ye Xiang story.