Salt woman and white lotus

"Bai Lian..." The deceased looked at the teacup in his hand and said in a low voice, "Speaking of which, I have been to Mei Lake not long ago, and I had the honor to hear something: Bai Lian is the disciple of that person in Suzhuang Palace."

Chi Zhongying was shocked.yes!The Meizu knew that Bailian was Xuanhua's apprentice!But now how many people don't know that Xuanhua is Baiyan!

She couldn't help but put on a tense and guarded look.At this moment, the deceased raised his face again and smiled brightly, "Don't worry, I have no hostility towards you."

Chi Zhongying knew that what the other party said was true.

Both she and Bai Yan could see each other's face clearly, Yi Ke was an extremely open and bright person.

but……

"What a wonderful fate. I have wanted to know you for a long time, and I finally met you officially today." The widow offered tea instead of wine and toasted.

"It's my honor." Bai Yan said, "Meeting you, one is to seize the sky wall, and the other is to hope that you can teach Bailian a thing or two on the alchemy path."

"Hahaha, you're welcome! If you need anything, just say it. I'm free every day." The left guest sipped his tea, "However, since it's you, I'm not in a hurry to talk about what is left on the wall of Duotian. that question."

"how?"

"I don't think you can solve this problem." The survivor was a little depressed, "What is life? What is death? Leaving aside my question, do you think that you in the past are really alive?"

The survivors are the delisted Shura clan.The Shura tribe loves fighting, but she hates fighting and killing, and doesn't like those overly extreme attitudes in life, she just wants to live to the fullest.

Lost relatives, guest living in the world.

There was no place for her in this world until she came to Suzhuang and was attracted by Wuzhen's singing, singing, dancing and Yanliu painting bridge.

Solo travellers.Meet Xiaosheng.For a while, the flowers were drunk and fell in love.

But she was still homesick.

Settling in Suzhuang, it is inevitable to know the patron saint of Suzhuang Palace, Baiyan, who is surrounded by tens of thousands of people.

The widow has practiced Congxin Dao, and all her behaviors are not interfered by external objects, but only follow her own inner wishes.Over time, she could also tell if other people were living free.

One day, Yike followed her friends in Suzhuang to meet Baiyan and looked at her from a distance.

It was a competition attended by Baiyan on behalf of Suzhuang Palace.The deceased saw the bondages on her body one after another.

Since then, the widow has always wanted to see Baiyan.She wanted to ask Baiyan why she was like this, who made her live so depressed, and why did Heaven put extra shackles on her?

It's a pity that the two have their own affairs, and they miss each other every time they meet.

Now the person who needs help has become a leftover, but she doesn't think Baiyan can help her—even if she can't save herself, how can she answer this doubt for her.

After listening to the widow's words, Bai Yan was thoughtful.

"I remember that the question you wrote on Duotian Wall was, 'Am I still alive'? What do you think is alive?"

"To be alive is to be alive..." The remaining guest held his chin, the flesh on his face puffed up slightly, "I can eat, sleep and play, have relatives and friends, live happily."

After hearing this, Chi Zhongying wondered, "Don't you have an answer? Then what are you asking?"

The widow sighed again, "Oh...the problem is that I have all these things, but I don't feel like I'm still alive. Am I really alive? Am I just a false phantom? My happiness seems to be fake Yes, sadness is also fake... am I really alive?"

Chi Zhongying was confused by these illogical words.

Bai Yan showed hesitation, "If you say that, I have felt the same way."

The widow immediately perked up and looked at her, eyes full of excitement.

Bai Yan recalled: "For a long time, I have not had the feelings of ordinary people, and I have been rejected by heaven, and everyone will naturally hate me. This makes me always feel that I am not needed, and there is no me in this world. necessary to live."

After speaking, she looked at the widow, trying to get some approval.The latter shook his head again and again, "No, it's different."

The mood of the deceased suddenly became very depressed, "I just said that you can't answer it."

Bai Yan said seriously: "You can't say that. What's more, Bai Lian hasn't said anything yet, maybe she will answer."

Chi Zhongying was flattered: "No, no, no, I can't answer it. For such a profound philosophical question, I can only talk nonsense at most."

The widow laughed again, feeling a little relieved, but obviously didn't take this to heart.

"Don't mention these, you say, how can you judge a person or himself?"

This problem is very common. Among the six major races, the standards of each race are different; if it is combined——

"Body, memory, cause and effect."

White Salt answered the most widely accepted answer so far.

A person's body is the evidence to judge his existence from the physical level; memory is to let this person have his own past and future; Inseparable.

According to Chi Zhongying's understanding, to judge a person is himself, body, memory and social relationship are indispensable.Only when the three are gathered together, can this person be a complete self.

"That's right. Body, memory and cause and effect, these can prove that a person is alive, or has lived." The widow said worriedly, "But now I feel that my body does not belong to me, and my memory has been faked. My cause and effect in this world can be cut off at any time.

"I seem to have become something I don't know at all, like someone refined me into a puppet, and then secretly manipulated my puppet line.

"I am afraid of being alone, but at the same time I am afraid of getting along with others. I know that everyone in Suzhuang will treat me well, but I always suspect that they hurt me. I was not like this before. It made me feel alive.

"So I'm left with the question, am I still alive? What exactly is life?"

The two sitting opposite her couldn't answer.

"I think... I should understand." Chi Zhongying thought, "For example, in your state, it seems that there is a person who sees something funny and doesn't think it's funny, but he will Subtly laughing because it's funny."

"Do you think it's funny or not?" Baiyan interrupted and asked.

"The point is not whether it's funny or not." Chi Zhongying covered her face, thinking to herself, maybe Baiyan hasn't woken up from the bar yet.

She turned to the widow and said, "The point is that you feel like all your emotions belong to another person, and you yourself are like a possessed ghost."

"Correct."

"What you mean is that you don't have the real sense of being alive."

"Yes!" The Yike beamed with joy, "I didn't expect you to really understand it!"

"No..." Chi Zhongying regretted, "I can only explain this far."

"At least you are much better than those hundreds of people before." The survivor turned over carelessly, patted Chi Zhongying on the shoulder and comforted him.

"The Remaining Guest." Bai Yan asked suddenly, "Did you feel happy last night?"

Dancing up and down the high stage, igniting everyone's emotions, let people have the most lively and cheerful scene.

"This...probably very happy."

"Since when did you discover this feeling?"

"It's been a while, about ten years ago?"

"You think carefully."

The survivor closed his eyes, tapped the table with his fingers, and his consciousness gradually returned to the beginning.

The widow sat in her wine cellar, holding the jar of drunken immortals, and missed the white salt while half drunk and half awake.If she was there, the attack that Su Zhuang encountered today would not have caused heavy casualties.

She pressed the bandage on her abdomen, her hands were wet.

By the way...why was Baiyan targeted by the Dao of Heaven?It is not well-intentioned, but it has never targeted anyone in this way.

Baiyan would definitely not seek refuge with evil people, and the credulity of the world is too weird...

She practiced the way of heart, which would make her live in harmony with the rules of heaven. Is such a way really right?Will she be devoured as she gets closer and closer to the way of heaven?

There is a huge difference between making rules your own and being swallowed by them.The survivor feels that he has not lived enough yet.

But has her mind been manipulated by the Dao of Heaven?What's more, are her emotions already arranged and controlled by others?

The thought horrified her.She tried her best to ignore it, but had to face it.

——Since then, the Remaining Guest has gradually become like a frightened bird, and all plants and trees are soldiers.

It gradually became what it is today.

"It was indeed ten years ago." She affirmed, "And it's not the influence of the outside world, it's my own fault."

Her heart was shaken.The purpose of asking that question at Duotianbi is to stabilize the Dao heart.

If she loses the likes and dislikes of the outside world and does not recognize her own desires, she will become a ruthless way from the heart, and she can only mechanically obey everything in the way of heaven.

She urgently needs to restore the ability to feel emotions, but the more anxious she is, the more she can't find the way out. In the end, the standard drops again and again, and her condition has reached the point where she will doubt whether she is alive.

"What is life and death..." The survivor clenched the teacup in his hand, his expression in a trance, "If I lose all my joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys, and I can only pretend that everything is normal, can I really be considered alive? ?”

"Oh!"

Chi Zhongying suddenly stood up and looked down at her, "Of course! You have your own thinking and live a lifestyle you like. Everyone in Suzhuang loves and cares about you. Of course you are alive!

"You just lost your senses temporarily! It will get better! If you don't believe me, look at her," Chi Zhongying stood behind Bai Yan, and put her hands on her shoulders, "She is living very well now!"

The Remnant is thoughtful.

"Wait a minute." Bai Yan rubbed the center of her brows, and pulled Chi Zhongying out.

"What did you find?" Bai Yan asked her, pulling her to a hidden corner.

As soon as he went out, Chi Zhongying couldn't help frowning.

"Her mood changes so quickly, one moment she is very depressed, and the next moment she is very excited.

"And empathy is very strong. But she doesn't feel these emotions herself."

Baiyan: "Do you know what's wrong with her?"

Chi Zhongying did not respond aloud.

Bai Yan looked over and realized that she was thinking about something.

"What are you thinking?" she asked.

"I think her situation is a bit familiar." Chi Zhongying recalled, "I seem to have met someone like her before."

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My brain is not working well, whatever.Calvin again.