She became the white moonlight of the black lotus

She turned her head slightly, but a man was sticking behind her, asking softly.

Looking at the suggestive smile on her face, Deng Yan didn't even think about it, he patted his hand on his shoulder away, and said without any ups and downs in his tone, "Get lost."

"Uh..." Obviously shocked by her words, the man's face was momentarily stunned, and then he walked up to her with a playful smile, put his hand on her lap, and the smile on his face was even wider:

"Hey, you have a bad temper, go and find out who I am, I won't treat you badly, you are from the Film Academy, right? I know you little girls very well, I can give you what you want."

"Can you really give it?"

Deng Yanxin raised the corners of her lips, hearing the man say "Of course",

She was holding the wine bottle in her hand, just about to throw her hand on his head.

The man's head was suddenly tilted to the other side in a strange posture.

A loud slap was still clearly audible in the midst of the noise.

Huo Qiyun, who had been swaying on the dance floor, ran to her side at some point, her face was no longer that presumptuous laziness, but rather like an irritated lion, she pointed at the alien who had invaded her territory By:

"You also go to find out who I am. You dare to provoke anyone brought by my old lady. You can touch another one? If you don't ask you to crawl out of this door on your knees, my surname is not Huo!"

Seeing this woman, who was slightly shorter than him, standing in front of him, with her hips on her hips, she looked aggressive and wanted to protect herself.

Deng Yanxin couldn't even see the cowardly behavior of this man walking around while apologizing and leaving.

She knew that she didn't need Huo Qiyun's protection,

Even if she doesn't come, this man will definitely not take advantage of him.

But when Huo Qiyun really stood in front of her and blocked her behind, she felt an indescribable feeling of being trapped.

She thought, this unintelligent Huo Qiyun can even be said to be a little stupid,

Before the man made any further excessive moves, she rushed forward in a daze, slapped him across the face, without showing any mercy.

This kind of behavior runs counter to the philistine things she said during the day, such as smiling more and communicating more.

Really silly and cute.

When going back that night, Huo Qiyun drank so much that she was so rickety that she couldn't even walk steadily.

But fortunately the school is not far from here, Deng Yanxin can't drive, so he can only help her along the way.

Among so many alcoholics in the world, Huo Qiyun is definitely not the one with good wine quality.

On this short road of a little more than one kilometer, she sometimes cried and sometimes laughed, sometimes hugged the lamppost and refused to let go, and sometimes danced classical and folk dances on the sidewalk.

Deng Yanxin could only follow her step by step and protect her,

Just as she was pulling her hand and breaking her off the lamp post, this Miss Huo San turned around and hugged her again, forcefully pushing her down on the lawn.

The moment she threw him down like a mat, Deng Yan was a little dizzy.

The newly grown grass stamens felt a slight prickly pain on the skin, and the sweet smell of wine on Huo Qiyun's body and the cool evening wind poured into her heart together.

This little hummingbird.

This little hummingbird that she just glanced at that day was driven away by her secret and raging desire,

Just curled up in her arms, staring at her face with a seductive and blank expression, and moved closer to her little by little.

Seeing this beautiful face reddened by wine getting closer and closer to him, Deng Yanxin subconsciously reached out his hand to cover her approaching lips, and asked:

"Senior sister likes women?"

Huo Qiyun's eyes were completely blank, as if she didn't understand what she was asking at all, but she leaned forward, arched forward, and muttered: "Kiss."

Seeing such a red face, pouted and squeezed against his own face, Deng Yan gritted his teeth and shrank back, grabbing her chin with one hand, neither looking hard for fear of really hurting her, nor daring to let go. open hands.

She gritted her teeth and said, "Does senior sister treat everyone like this when she's drunk?"

"Huh?" Huo Qiyun stopped, her eyes drifted in confusion, and she began to habitually say: "Of course not, I just treat you like this, do you know? Are you honored? Are you happy?"

Deng Yanxin didn't know whether it was the fall that made her dizzy, or the smell of alcohol on Huo Qiyun's body made her drunk too, she just felt that all the desires and longings that were hidden deep in her heart came out at this moment.

She had dreamed of this woman countless times in her dreams, and now she was lying on her body drunk, so defenseless.

He was still babbling about those inconspicuous words, as if he could do anything for this kiss, Deng Yan knew in his heart that those words she said were not credible.

It's all drunk nonsense.

But my heart still couldn't help beating wildly for every word she said.

She squeezed Huo Qiyun's face with one hand, and asked, "Do you know who I am?"

"You are...you...I don't..."

"Deng Yanxin..." She interrupted her stuttering words: "My name is Deng Yanxin, do you remember?"

Huo Qiyun in front of her was stunned for a moment, then nodded obediently, a smile appeared on her face, the hand pinching her chin suddenly pulled down her drunken blush face, and kissed her gently. on her lips.

What is the difference between this and a dream?

Deng Yan couldn't tell the difference.

While sucking the honey hidden in the beak of the hummingbird, her hands unconsciously wandered through the crevices of her clothes.

The trembling feeling like the fire on the ground was transmitted from every inch of her skin that was close to her.

Those raging desires roared side by side in her mind.

possess her,

possess her—

Her reason and desire were struggling, and when she was stroking those soft gaps and wanting to go deeper, Deng Yan violently pulled the person who was wrapped around her away.

This person was just drunk, just drunk, she thought, if something really happened now, then she would be really despicable beyond the bottom line.

After pushing away, Huo Qiyun shrank back in a daze, accusing with an aggrieved face: "You push me!"

Looking at her aggrieved eyes and flushed little face, Deng Yanxin felt a numb feeling in her chest, she smiled lightly and apologized, while touching her little face.

Lying on this lawn with her, she thought, if only this moment could last a little longer, whether she remembered it or not when she woke up, that would be fine.

Deng Yanxin looked up at the sky, only the full moon was clear in the darkness.

She heard Huo Qiyun's voice ringing in her ears: "You still look good when you smile, you should smile more."

"Do you like my smile?"

"Of course, I like smiling ones, and I also like gentle ones."

"As long as you love to laugh and be gentle, can you like it?" She asked in a low voice;

"Of course not!" Huo Qiyun denied it loudly with her tongue out, and continued after a while: "You still have to really like me, and share your most important things with me!"

Hearing these rather childish words, Deng Yan stared at the moon for a moment, and said yes like a promise.

At this moment, she felt as if she was standing in a narrow and straight passage with only two ends, and that light kiss had already cut off her back path, and she was destined to only go in one direction moving forward.

From that day on, Deng Yanxin would come to this bar for a few days almost every week.

She never entered the door, but just happened to pass by, and just happened to drag Huo Qiyun, who had drunk too much, back to the dormitory.

Drunkards have always been troublesome, but what Deng Yanxin hated most in his life was nothing but trouble.

But once this woman drank too much, no matter who she was, no matter if the other party was a telephone pole or a person, she would always cling to her like this.

she thinks,

What if one of them is missed and this fool is taken away?

As long as this idea pops up once, she will have "passed by" that bar countless times, and she will keep in mind how many steps she takes so familiar with the road she has traveled.

Deng Yanxin has walked this distance of a little more than one kilometer many times. She thought, if there are people in the school who come back late like this, they should often see a girl dragging another girl to the dormitory on the road in the early morning of the Film Academy.

Sometimes she accompanied her from a distance, watching the little hummingbird, who was still awake, return to the dormitory.

Most of the time, he carried this drunken Huo Qiyun on his back and walked all the way forward.

She couldn't tell whether it was Huo Qiyun who was unconscious or herself.

She only knew that she remembered that kiss with Huo Qiyun, facing the evening wind and passing through the yellow light in the dim night.

three,

Nowadays,

In Huo Qiyun's impression, it was the first time for them to sit at the same table and drink together as the two queens who did not see the king, and the award ceremony would start on time at 7 o'clock after the meal.

I don't know which one of the organizers didn't wink, but dared to put her and Deng Yanxin at the same table, even though there was Ning Xiangxiang, who was slightly innocent in this tit-for-tat confrontation, sitting in the middle.

But such a layout is obviously extremely unreasonable.

It's fine that Ning Xiangxiang sits with her in the same crew, but why Deng Yanxin, who has a long-term competitive relationship with her, is also assigned to this table!

She felt weird in her heart, always vaguely felt that something important would happen today, but she couldn't say it.

For a person like Deng Yanxin, Huo Qiyun clearly knew that with her own level, she would not be able to play with her, and of course she could hide as far as she could normally.

But today there is really no choice.

She glanced sideways at the reporter who was holding a video camera to record the grand occasion at the backstage. She gently picked up the glass and raised her head slightly, pouring the spirits from the tip of her tongue. The ups and downs form a bewildering curve,

As a female star with thick face who often faces the camera, Huo Xingyu knows exactly which angle she looks the best and most attractive,

Although the ranks are equal, I have won more prizes than Deng Yanxin!

To gain fans in front of these reporters, a sexy Yujie like her is much more attractive than some people who look gentle and warm on the surface, but are actually as dull as noodles in clear soup.

Compared with the competition of other tables,

Since they sat at the table with two actresses who were notoriously at odds, neither of them dared to speak first, so they seemed extraordinarily silent.

In order to look a little more happy in front of the camera, and to show that she doesn't care about awards at all, Huo Qiyun stretched her leg under the table and quietly kicked Ning Xiangxiang who was sitting next to her,

Under her winking hint,

Ning Xiangxiang lived up to expectations and started the conversation with a wine glass: "Miss Qiyun, drink less, I'm afraid you'll be so drunk that you won't even be able to walk straight on the red carpet."

"What do you mean you can't walk straight! Do you think I'm Mr. Huo..." Huo Qiyun responded with a smile, swirling the wine glass and taking another sip: "I was already a Dionysus when I was in college, and I was still unconscious when I drank it. It’s amazing to be able to go back to the dormitory by yourself, right?”

After these two sentences back and forth, other female stars at the same table also joined the topic one after another,

One of the rising stars with relatively low qualifications seemed to want to ease the relationship between the two tit-for-tat actresses, so he took up the topic: "I heard that Sister Qiyun and Sister Yanxin are from the same university?"

Hearing this talk, Huo Qiyun was briefly confused,

Is this little girl wanting to recall the past?When she was studying, she basically didn't take classes well. If she insisted on recalling, she could only recall the series of ex-boyfriends who kept her in the dormitory downstairs.

She responded, "Yes, they are all from the Department of Acting. According to calculations, I am her senior sister."

"It's so fate! Then you used to..." The new star's eyes were shining with excitement, obviously very interested in this topic, he leaned forward and asked:

"Have you known each other before?"

do you know it?

Huo Qiyun turned her head and glanced at Deng Yanxin who was sitting beside her silently,

I saw her looking down at the wine glass, unable to see her expression clearly under the dim light, the corners of her lips were pressed down tightly, as if she had no intention of answering this question at all.

So she replied in a self-contained manner: "I don't know, there are so many people in the Film Academy, and I am not at the same level as her, so how could I meet so coincidentally."

After she finished speaking, Deng Yanxin, who had been quiet on the sidelines, suddenly said, "Indeed, for a well-known person like Senior Sister, only others know her, not her."

This sentence sounds like a flattery, but it feels uncomfortable no matter how I think about it.

But Huo Qiyun couldn't tell what was wrong, she squinted at Deng Yanxin who was sitting next to her drinking wine, the face of this smiling tiger no longer had the hypocrisy and tenderness she hated, but instead had a gloomy expression, as if someone had offended her of.

She was fine once she entered the door, could it be... Could it be that she said something wrong just now?

Huo Qiyun stared at that face and thought about it carefully, did she really not recognize it?

The first time she had an impression of the name Deng Yanxin was when she watched the low-budget literary film that won the championship many years ago.

Although she doesn't want to admit it, she has to say that she thinks she can't act well in this kind of movie with hazy and vague stream of consciousness. In this regard, Deng Yanxin can definitely be called a talented actor.

But, so what if they knew each other?

How many years ago did she go to school?

I have so many friends, it is common for me to have no memory or memory of anyone.

What's more, Deng Yanxin who doesn't overlap with her circle at all, no matter how you think about it, it's impossible to be very familiar with Deng Yanxin?

Even if you said a word or two in school, and met you once or twice, it's not something you have to remember, right?What is she doing with a cold face in front of herself,

Just look, you know she is a hypocritical smiley tiger.

The usual softness in the corners of the eyes and brows has turned into thorny ice, which is daunting.

If she had to choose between hypocritical gentleness and silence and gloomyness, she felt that it was better for Deng Yanxin to continue to be hypocritical.

Dissatisfied in her heart, Huo Qiyun stared at her and muttered: "How come you have a stinky face like my sister, you, this expression is not suitable for you, it's better to smile more."

Deng Yanxin in front of him looked back at him, but didn't respond.

The expression on her face and the surging emotions in her eyes were all emotions that Huo Qiyun couldn't understand,

Vulnerability mixed with embarrassment, like how hurtful my words are.

Seeing her like this, Huo Qiyun shrank a little in her heart. She wondered if something really happened to this smiling tiger today, such as being broken up in love and being dumped, and he didn't say anything too much. Moreover, The camera is still shooting;

It's not good to have such a stiff atmosphere.

Holding back this thought, she was about to apologize when she heard Deng Yanxin's voice;

"Do you like my smile?"

Like it?

This can't be called liking, can it?It's just ten times and a hundred times better than such a cold face.

Besides, people's emotions look so bad, if they say something and get provoked, it will be bad.

With this reassuring mood, Huo Qiyun nodded hesitantly, and said: "Well, it looks better when you smile."

Regarding the matter of being forgotten, Deng Yanxin felt that everything might have been foreshadowed long ago.

Maybe it started when Huo Qiyun only came to class from time to time, maybe it started from the night when she was drunk and thought she remembered her name, or maybe it started from the day when she was selected by the director and left school to film.

The slight traces she left in Huo Qiyun's life were also erased.

She didn't have any contact information of Huo Qiyun, and when she returned to school after filming that film, the class of Introduction to Art had long been over.

She passed by Huo Qiyun's class time and time again, and wanted to run into her in that bar again and again, but it was like trying in vain, the more she wanted to see her, the more she couldn't see her.

The name "Huo Qiyun" was like a dream she had, it was short-lived and unreal, it only existed for a moment, and she couldn't grasp it no matter what.

It's ok,

Deng Yanxin seriously felt that none of this mattered, and she was willing to wait.

How big can this entertainment industry be?

Not much to go, she knew that Huo Qiyun's life was supported by the Huo family, and all the resources invested in her were top-tier resources.

She thought that as long as she also climbed to that peak, even though the roads and scenery they passed along the way were different, when she also reached the top of the mountain, she could lightly clink wine glasses with Huo Qiyun and look at the same scenery.

But when she stood in front of Huo Qiyun for the first time with such a naive idea in mind, she saw the surprised expression on the face she had longed for day and night, walked gracefully in front of her, stretched out her hand, The first sentence to speak is:

"I have seen many of your works, and today I finally saw it for the first time. I have admired you for a long time."

Over the past few years, the rhetoric she had practiced repeatedly when meeting, all the expectations and desires in her heart froze in her throat in an instant,

All the feelings boiling in Deng Yan's mind turned into a kind of forgotten sorrow.

She could only maintain the smile that Huo Qiyun said she liked in vain, gently held her hand, and responded: "Indeed, Miss Huo looks better in person than on the screen."

Will you resent?

Honestly, it still will.

But she is also very clear about the reason for this "forgotten", it's just because she is not important in Huo Qiyun's heart, she is just a school girl who can't even say her name, after a long time, even her appearance is also forgotten .

Who will remember every passerby who appears in their life?

Only she can remember everything, she remembers the soft touch on Huo Qiyun's body, remembers that kiss, and also remembers those long nights when she walked along the dim path with her on her back and by her arm.

She stood beside Huo Qiyun, but she was like an unimportant guest in her life, watching her being with others and then separated from the farthest part of the auditorium;

She is constantly pursuing her footsteps step by step, encountering every place by chance, walking the path she has traveled, and going to the places she likes to go.

She thought that maybe this burning desire would subside after a long time, and she could calmly forget everything like Huo Qiyun and treat each other as unimportant guests.

She can also find someone else, and she can also like someone else.

There are so many people in this world, is there no one who pleases me more than this stupid, ignorant, philistine hummingbird?

There must be, she thought,

With this thought in mind, Deng Yanxin came into contact with many people, including Ning Xiangxiang who was sitting in front of her and talking non-stop with Huo Qiyun.

She found that in fact, she would also have a vague and short-term affection for others.

At first she thought that this was enough, and with this kind of vague affection, she could also be with others, but after a long time, she suddenly discovered that those heartbeats were not caused by who was standing beside her,

It's because of who I see through the person around me.

Deng Yan knew clearly that in those moments when she was shaken, she saw Huo Qiyun in them.

The curvature of the eyes, the corners of the lips, the temperament, the figure, and even just the moment of getting along, as long as there is a little resemblance, it will arouse her unquenchable longing buried in the deepest and most corners.

However, they are just alike.

Just like the kiss she gave Lin Junruo in the corridor of the bar, after the soft kiss, the restlessness in her heart immediately subsided.

These people are not Huo Qiyun, this person who represents the secret desire in her heart is farther than the full moon hanging in the sky, she is like a person who can't find water in the desert and has nowhere to go, constantly looking for sap, blood to quench thirst,

Deng Yan knew very well that the occasional impulsiveness was just a long-suppressed release, and she couldn't bear any responsibility, so she could only smile and say to them,

[Just kidding, don't care. 】

How long do we have to look into the distance like this?

Where do I have to go to be eligible to have that round of full moon?

She thought it would be the day when she narrowed the gap between her and Huo Qiyun to the narrowest.

On that day, she stood on the top of the mountain, perhaps not caring about everyone's eyes, and tiptoed to touch the moon.

four,

After entering the arena on the red carpet, Deng Yanxin finally took a seat in the first row, surrounded by well-known seniors,

After exchanging a few pleasantries, she unconsciously looked at the entrance of the venue, and saw Huo Qiyun walking quickly to the first row with her skirt in hand, counting the seats and finally standing next to her.

Seeing the astonishment and horror on Huo Qiyun's face, she greeted her with a satisfied smile.

Today, from the meal to the award presentation, she asked the organizer to change the seat next to Huo Qiyun.

Today is an important day, she thought, watching the lights on the stage focus, the host came on stage and began to talk about the opening remarks,

There was thunderous applause all around, and Deng Yanxin also applauded lightly. She turned her head slightly to look at Huo Qiyun who was sitting next to her, looking at the same scenery as herself.

It's just been a few years.

She didn't know if she was trapped by Huo Qiyun or by herself.

All she knew was that she was in this cage and didn't want to be free.

It doesn't matter that you don't remember, it doesn't matter that it doesn't matter.

She only knows that even if she looks at everyone, it doesn't matter if she never looks back at herself. She has walked to her side step by step, so she has to see her and remember her name .

Deng Yanxin stared blankly at the people on the stage surrounded by light, and every time an award was announced, some people cried and others laughed amidst the applause.

Until the finale of the Best Actress award, the host softly read her name on the stage.

Deng Yanxin raised the corners of her lips and got up slowly. Amidst the thunderous applause all around, she turned to Huo Qiyun,

The other party was stunned, obviously not expecting her to do this, and after a while he stood up and opened his arms to her.

Deng Yanxin moved forward and hugged her in his arms, the tip of his nose lingered, all was the sweet smell of Huo Qiyun mixed with the smell of wine, this coldness and scorching heat teased her nerves, seduced her desire, bewitched her heart Sanity.

After many years, this desire hidden in her heart still cannot be appeased.

Not only that.

It even intensified because she couldn't get it. Even if her love was not spoken, it was engraved in her actions.

She never tries to hide, but this stupid hummingbird never sees.

And I clearly know that the front is a cliff, but I still insist on walking forward, and I don't regret it if I step on the ground.

She let go of her hand, and walked up to the stage slowly holding the hem of her skirt.

The guests on the stage handed the trophy to her with a smile, and said, "This is already the fourth heavyweight trophy that Yan Xin has won, and now she can be said to be the queen of the Grand Slam. At this age, she can It is the first one to have such an achievement, I believe you have a lot to say now."

"Indeed, there are a lot of things to say..." Deng Yanxin stretched out his hand and slightly raised the microphone, and said, "I want to say that without the hard work of the director and crew, I would not have won this award; if there hadn't been a Little hummingbird, maybe I won't have the willpower to stand here."

Having said that, the audience was full of boos. For a person like Deng Yanxin who has debuted for many years and has never been involved in scandals, it can be said that it will immediately dominate the news when it is announced at such an important awards ceremony. Huo Qiyun, who was in the first row, tried her best to turn her head and look left and right gossiping.

Standing on the stage, Deng Yanxin couldn't help but smile when he saw her so stupid and ignorant.

Looking at her very familiar face, with reddish cheeks,

The place where I had touched when I hugged her just now, the familiar eagerness rose rapidly and intensified. The host next to me sniffed the breath of gossip and immediately came forward and spoke, raising the atmosphere to a climax: "Who is it?" ? Who is the supporter behind our slam queen? Are you here today?!"

"Here we are."

After her sure words fell, there was a burst of exclamation from the audience. Everyone looked around, but no one stood up to claim the title.

"It seems that our hero is shy, Yan Xin, how about it, are you going home to celebrate, or invite him to the stage?"

Faced with this scene, the host's heart sank. It's not uncommon to confess at various award presentations, but it's the first time that no one came forward to claim it.

Is Deng Yanxin dating any man?Why is there no news in the circle? While he was wondering, he began to set up a platform for Deng Yanxin, as long as he said "go home to celebrate", everything would be resolved perfectly.

But the Grand Slam queen didn't follow his steps down.

"She won't be on stage. She doesn't even know how important she is to me. The movie has only been filmed for a year and a half, but this idea has been going on for many years..." Deng Yanxin said softly, shaking the heavy trophy in his hand Akira:

"Many years ago, she told me that if you want to get her love, there are three conditions, you must be gentle, you must like to laugh, and you must be willing to share the most important things with her.

I think for an actor, there is nothing more important than this Grand Slam trophy, so I will give it to her here. "

After the voice fell, even more violent applause and screams erupted from the audience,

As Deng Yanxin walked off the stage step by step, everyone stretched their necks to see where she was going, and who was the protagonist tonight.

Huo Qiyun sat in the crowd with an expression of watching the show, while shouting and applauding vigorously.

Although there is no award tonight, losing to Deng Yanxin is not a shameful thing. What's more, tonight, the scene of "the queen of the Grand Slam actress can't fall in love, chasing after love in public" is much more exciting than awarding awards.

Excitedly, she stared closely at Deng Yanxin's footsteps,

I saw her getting closer and closer to the first row, approaching the middle step by step from the edge of the stage, Huo Qiyun and the surrounding stars looked at each other with teasing expressions.

Until, this old enemy of hers stopped and stood in front of her, with eyes that wanted to drown people's hot emotions, and said to her with a smile:

"Huo Qiyun, I have fulfilled the three requirements you mentioned."