After the stand-in resigned

For the first time, An Fan admired himself a little.

When her brain was almost broken, she could still remember not to quarrel in front of the children, not to quarrel in the car, and maintain an apparent peace all the way until they returned to their place of residence.

Entering the door, the room was very dark. An Fan reached out to touch the switch at the entrance, and was hugged tightly by Ling Ran from behind. A vague breath brushed her neck, followed by real warmth.

With a "snap", An Fan turned on the light.

The room was blindingly bright for a moment, Ling Ran was stabbed and stopped, Xu was a little upset about being interrupted, she frowned and said: "What kind of lights are you turning on, it ruins the atmosphere so much."

An Fan ignored her, she didn't even change her shoes, she went into the room and poured herself a glass of water, treating Ling Ran as an invisible person.

Ling Ran had never suffered such a cold reception before, and felt a little disappointed for a while.

Even though An Fan didn't seem to be in the right state, Ling Ran still spoke, maybe she was testing: "Pour me a glass too."

Anfan was indifferent.

She was still drinking water slowly in small sips, looking relaxed and at ease.The huge living room was very quiet. Obviously, An Fan heard it, but she didn't move.

Thanks to her work, Ling Ran has seen a lot of big scenes, but there are very few scenes that can make her nervous.

Now, in her apartment in the city center, facing An Fan, whom she was familiar with, she was slightly flustered.

Just like last time, a sense of panic about something going out of control swept over her completely.

"Anfan, talk." Ling Ran sat down on the sofa and leaned back on the back of the chair, as if seeking support.

As if An Fan didn't hear it, she continued to drink water in a leisurely manner until she slowly drank a whole glass of water. She knocked the water glass on the marble countertop, and with a crisp sound, she asked, "What date is September 9?"

Ling Ran's heart suddenly tightened.

At one point, she even felt a little scared. She grabbed a pillow on the sofa at a loss and put it in front of her. She looked very relaxed, but her brain was actually blank for a few seconds. She asked, "What do you mean?" .”

An Fan thought she was calm enough, but she couldn't help being angry when she saw Ling Ran like this: "I'm not your subordinate, don't talk to me in an ambiguous way."

An Fan often saw Ling Ran use this method to get the information she wanted from her subordinates. She would not make a decision until all the information was revealed and the situation was clear.

An Fan once felt that Ling Ran who controlled the situation like this was very powerful, but now she just feels tired.

She has been by her side for several years, can't she get a word of honesty?

Ling Ran said, "If you're talking about September 9, which happens every year, I think we'll all have a good time on that day."

joy?

The former Anfan also thought it was pleasant.

An Fan said, "Why did you treat me like that on that day? Only on that day, in that way?"

"Sex..." Ling Ran was still concealing it, she said: "Only by changing the method occasionally will there be a sense of freshness."

One sentence from Ling Ran easily broke Anfan's calm nerves: "Don't you like it too?"

"I just feel disgusted!" An Fan yelled out of control: "You vented your anger at my sister's death on me, have you ever thought about how I would feel when I found out? You still want me to like you? Ling Ran, you Don't go too far!"

An Fan didn't want to think about the psychological stimulation brought to Ling Ran by biting the skin and destroying the beauty.

The soft pillow in his hand was pinched until it was completely deformed, Ling Ran was silent for a while before speaking: "How do you know?"

"If I don't know, how long are you going to keep it from me?" An Fan asked.

Ling Ran didn't speak.

An Fan asked again: "Girlfriend, when you said these three words to me, did you think of me or my sister?"

Ling Ran still didn't speak.

An Fan couldn't stand anymore, she staggered back two steps, leaning on the solid countertop, imitating Ling Ran's tone and urging: "Ling Ran, talk!"

"I don't think it's important." Ling Ran said after a long time.

"I think this is very important." Ling Ran's answer was very clear, but An Fan still asked, "So I've always been a stand-in, right?"

Ling Ran seemed to be explaining: "Anfan, we agreed at the beginning..."

Yes, yes, An Fan remembered what she said to Ling Ran back then: "Don't be sad, if you want someone to accompany you, I can accompany you, it doesn't matter who you think of me as."

At first I thought it was okay, but now it is the biggest problem.

An Fan said: "No matter how much I like you, I can't be a substitute forever." When she became a substitute, it wasn't for the purpose of being just a substitute forever.

Ling Ran may also be affected by the word like, she pondered for a long time and said, "It won't be forever."

An Fan suddenly laughed and said, "There is no eternity."

This time, An Fan looked into Ling Ran's eyes and said: "I used to think that I would love you forever, but the generalization is right, loving you forever is a lie, nothing is forever, I can't love you forever .”

"With you... I've been a stand-in for a few years..." An Fan smiled and changed the words, but tears flowed from the corners of her eyes. She said, "I'm very happy, and sometimes I'm tired. I used to think that I was happy. There is more time, but I thought about it carefully in the car just now, and I couldn't think of a happy thing, maybe I was too tired..."

An Fan said: "I like you so much, but you can't possibly like me at all. It's really exhausting. I don't know how I can hold on..."

Ling Ran was irritable for no reason. She had seldom been unable to control her emotions recently, but at this moment she actually wanted to yell at An Fan. She wanted An Fan to shut up and stop talking.

Ling Ran kept her breathing steady on purpose, and only when the rising emotions settled down did she speak as if she wanted to control the situation: "Anfan, I don't care what you are going to say, but I hope you think it through before you say it, isn't it Children's play house games, I can't let you end it as soon as you say it is over, and start it as soon as you say it starts."

An Fan smiled: "Then did you ask me what I meant when you said the end and the beginning? Who on earth thought this was a child's play?"

Ling Ran was very dissatisfied with this statement, so she said, "That's because you gave me soup for a month."

"No way, you seem to be inseparable from me, and I happen to be used to you." Ling Ran said.

Even though An Fan knew that her self-esteem was frustrated and she was trying her best to save her respect, she was still really angry. She even had the illusion that I gave her soup for a month?

An Fanjian asked most importantly: "When did I send you a month's worth of soup?"

Ling Ran said: "In November, when I was sick and hospitalized, I could drink the soup you secretly sent almost every day."

An Fan smiled: "I didn't give it to you. I gave it to you once. Your assistant took the initiative to come to the door and asked me to give it to you." Who knows how to hold a statue, she has to face at this time.

Ling Ran's focus was completely attracted by the last sentence, she asked: "You said that Li Xi took the initiative to find you?"

"Yes, she told me that you were hospitalized, it was miserable, and asked if I could visit you. She also said that you were receiving nutritional injections and could not eat, so I went to bring you soup, asparagus carrot soup, have you ever had it? right?"

Ling Ran's stunned look made Anfan both happy and sad. She said, "I don't know who gave you a month's worth of soup, but I only delivered that one time. After all, it's the end of what you said. face."

Ling Ran hooked her finger and she stuck to it again. In fact, it was shameless enough, but at this time, she didn't want to send her face to Ling Ran for her to trample on it.

The past is unbearable, she should not think about it again.

Ling Ran was surprisingly angry. On the one hand, she was angry that Li Xi lied to her, and on the other hand, she was angry that An Fan didn't give her soup for a month. Obviously, the second point made her more angry than the first point. .

Does this mean that if she didn't find An Fan later, An Fan would be even less likely to take the initiative to find her, then the two of them would be over there?

Ling Ran doesn't like unexpected results.

The fact that An Fan couldn't do without her made Ling Ran completely angry.

She was so angry that her breathing was up and down, and even her voice began to be unsteady: "So what are you going to say?" She asked knowingly.

"It's over..." An Fan didn't even dare to say the word breakup, she said: "Whether it's a girlfriend or a substitute, I don't want to continue anymore."

"Okay, I promise..." Ling Ran said very freely, "I just hope you don't come to me again and get entangled."

An Fan pulled out a smile: "Don't worry, it won't."

She didn't change her indoor shoes, and put her luggage outside the door. An Fan walked briskly, she reached the entrance in a few steps, touched the doorknob with her fingers, and heard Ling Ran behind her say, "Is this the surprise you gave me? "

Anfan paused, and said, "I used to really want to surprise you."

After leaving Ling Ran's house, An Fan ran all the way to Lu Yun's place with his suitcase.

Lu Yun has a house in the city center, which was given to her by her father and mother on her birthday. Lu Yun applied for a university in another city, and the house has not been occupied by many people. Lu Yun just gave her a key and asked her to help out when she was free. To warm the room.

On the sixth day of the Lunar New Year, Anfan wasn't sure if Lu Yun was in the house, but she had nowhere to go, and had nowhere to go, so she had to go here.

The distance between the two places is not far, and there are not many cars on the road. An Fan arrived at Lu Yun's house smoothly. She opened the door with the key, and met Lu Yun who just came out of the bathroom after taking a shower.

"Baby, why are you here!" Lu Yun looked surprised.

An Fan was also surprised: "Why are you here?"

Lu Yun welcomed the person in and said: "Don't mention it, my mother has been arguing about blind dates all day long before I graduated from university, and even urged me to meet. I'm so annoyed. I'll come out and hide for two days to be clean."

The fruit tea brewed before taking a bath was fragrant in the room, Lu Yun went to pour tea for An Fan, and asked casually, "How about you?"

An Fan imitated her tone: "We broke up, come here to clean up for two days."

With a "snap", the cup fell to the ground and shattered.

The cup and pot are a set, the only one in the world, and it is very valuable. Lu Yun likes it very much, but she didn't notice it at all at this time, and ran towards her excitedly: "Damn! This is true! Did you really break up with Ling Ran?!"

An Fan nodded and said, "Your glass is broken."

Lu Yun glanced back, and said "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

"Forget it..." Lu Yun quickly relieved: "Let's just set off a cannon, to celebrate my baby's escape from the sea of ​​suffering, and smash the others as well some other day."

An Fan just wanted to laugh.

Lu Yun was keenly aware that An Fan's mood was a bit strange, she was a little worried, wondering if An Fan was agitated, she asked cautiously: "We broke up, how do you feel?"

An Fan thought for a while: "I don't feel anything at the moment." There may be various feelings in the future, but she doesn't feel anything at the moment.

"Did you mention the breakup or Ling Ran?" Lu Yun asked again.

"I."

"Because of what?"

Although An Fan and Lu Yun talked about everything, she didn't tell her about what Ling Ran said to her on September 9th. After all, this matter is too private, so it's easy to share it with others.

She struggled with what to say, and saw Lu Yun frowned: "You still want to hide it from me?"

An Fan sighed, and simply told the whole truth, from September 9 four years ago to the past September 27.

Lu Yun was like someone who opened the mouth for swearing, and couldn't stop abusing her. She was angrily and aggrieved: "Isn't this abusing people! Why does Ling Ran do this! Even if she is a substitute, she must pay attention to the basic law. Her pain is being applied to you? Bah! It's so fucking disgusting! Babe, scold her with me!"

An Fan shook his head: "I don't want to scold anymore, it's pointless."

As long as Anfan breaks up, then Lu Yun will only follow Anfan's lead, she nods like a joke: "Then what do you want to do, baby?"

"Let me take a shower." An Fan said, running around all day, packing up, taking the high-speed train, and having a big fight, An Fan just wanted to take a shower.

Lu Yun volunteered: "I'll wash with you!"

An Fan glanced at her and shook his head: "No, just find me pajamas."

Lu Yun said courteously: "Yes, I'll rub your back for you! I have a roommate from the north who is excellent in back rubbing. I learned a few tricks and it's very comfortable."

An Fan asked her: "Are you afraid that I will do something stupid?"

Lu Yun was silent.

An Fan smiled: "No, I'm not that stupid. Although I may be sad, I'm only sad that she doesn't like me, and I won't have any improper views on myself."

Lu Yun was still worried: "You promise?"

An Fan said, "I promise."

Lu Yun found pajamas for An Fan and brought a new set of toiletries. After everything was done, she lay on the bed, paying attention to the movement in the bathroom, while recalling what happened just now. No matter how she thought about it, she felt like dream.

Is that really the way we broke up?

You won't get back together with Ling Ran after a while, right?

After thinking about it, Lu Yun felt that she was going to add another fire later, completely eliminating the possibility.

Anfan used the bathtub to take a bath, and it was really comfortable to be wrapped in warm water. She took a bath for nearly an hour, during which time Lu Yun came and knocked on the door twice to make sure that nothing happened to her before leaving.

After An Fan took a shower and dried his hair, Lu Yun patted the bed next to him like a hooligan, and said, "Come here, baby."

An Fan walked over as he said, and the two lay side by side. Feeling Lu Yun running along her hair, An Fan said, "Do you have something to say to me?"

"You know?" Lu Yun raised his head slightly.

An Fan said, "No way, I know you better."

Lu Yun smiled, and she asked, "What did you think about while taking a shower?"

An Fan said honestly: "I thought of Ling Ran. Maybe my thoughts were too chaotic before, and I couldn't think of her if I couldn't calm down. When I was in the shower, I suddenly became very quiet, and I thought of her easily."

"Do you hate her?" Lu Yun asked.

An Fan pursed his lips in thought, and finally shook his head: "I think she just doesn't like me."

"What about you, do you still like her?"

An Fan smiled helplessly: "How can I forget it so quickly." She has liked Ling Ran for several years, and she liked Ling Ran so much that it almost became an instinct, how could she get away from it so quickly.

She's just sober.

She clearly knew that it was impossible to be with Ling Ran, and she clearly knew that she had to leave Ling Ran to protect herself.

"Do you remember when you first met Ling Ran?"

An Fan thought about it carefully, and when she almost couldn't remember it, her thoughts suddenly popped up, and she said, "Isn't it National Day?"

"Well, it's National Day..." Lu Yun said, "You sent me a message, saying that you saw a beautiful woman and you were in love."

It turned out that he was such a nympho at the age of 17, An Fan could only laugh.

"However, I don't know since when, you seem to be obsessed with her..." Lu Yun said, "I remember that the time interval was actually not long."

An Fan was puzzled: "Yun'er, what do you want to say?"

"I want to say that you don't like Ling Ran that much, at least at first." Lu Yun said, "Actually, I've always been curious why you like Ling Ran so much. I don't deny that Ling Ran is good-looking, but her personality It's really hard to like, at least it doesn't make me ignore her good-looking personality."

Lu Yun said very slowly: "Could it be that after knowing that Ling Ran also likes your sister, you must have her?"

Anfan was stunned for a moment.

"I'm going to mention your sister, do you mind?" Lu Yun asked.

Anfan shook his head.

"I guess, is this one of the things you don't want to lose to your sister?"

An Fan has only had one friend, Lu Yun, since she was a child, and she cherishes it very much, so she basically talks to Lu Yun about everything, including all kinds of things about her childhood, good and bad.

There is only one thing that Lu Yun can't let go of after listening to it for a long time.

An Fan and An Qingyi are twins. Because of An Qingyi's congenital disease, everyone in the family loves her a lot. This is actually reasonable. After all, the sick child is sensitive and needs everyone's careful care. It is very wrong to neglect or even ignore Anfan, a healthy child.

Lu Yun felt that no family would devote all their efforts to raising a child who might die at any time regardless of a healthy child.

An Fan didn't think about this at the time, she just thought that she was not doing well enough, so she tried to do her best and tried her best.

When he was eight years old, An Fan overheard the conversation between his aunt and her mother, and realized that it wasn't a question of whether she was good or not, if she didn't like it, she just didn't like it.

When An Qingyi was diagnosed with congenital heart disease, the doctor coincidentally said in front of Xia Ping, "It seems like my sister has robbed my sister of her nutrition." What he meant might be that An Fan is strong and An Qingyi She was thin, but at that time Xia Ping had just given birth to her child and was emotionally unstable. In addition, her mind was full of An Qingyi's illness. She thought it was the cause of the disease, and unconsciously became prejudiced against An Fan.

After wearing colored glasses for several years, it also affected everyone around me.

An Fan was young at the time and didn't understand anything. He thought that he had really hurt his sister, and thought it was normal for everyone to ignore her.

But my aunt went on to say: You know that this is impossible, when are you going to treat Nian Nian better.

Xia Ping was also very depressed at the time. She covered her face and said helplessly: I, I feel that I can't change it, I seem to be used to it... I like what An An does, and I want to criticize what I do every year.

So An Fan no longer tried his best to win favors, and became an old-fashioned relationship with everyone in this family.

Lu Yun didn't know how Anfan got out of the psychological predicament, but she knew that Anfan would be compared with An Qingyi faintly at first, maybe this was instilled in her by all the adults around her since she was a child.

Everyone is comparing two people, classmates, teachers, parents.

Compared with academic performance, compared with personality and appearance, all things that can be judged on the surface will be compared.

And An Fan is always inferior to An Qingyi.

Even though An Fan thought these comparisons were boring at that time, perhaps she had unconsciously remembered each item in her heart and left a deep imprint on it.

And Ling Ran is a new comparative product.

An Fan didn't deny it, she said, "Maybe, but after living here for several years, can I still say that I don't like her?"

Lu Yun reiterated: "What I want to express is that although we really liked it later, we didn't like it so purely at the beginning. We abandoned our obsessions, no matter who Ling Ran once liked, we can forget it faster! "

An Fan could only laugh, it would be great if his feelings could be switched on and off like a switch.

Lu Yun lay on the bed and asked the last question: "If Ling Ran comes to you again and says she likes you, will you agree to her?"

"This is impossible."

"I said if."

"No what if..." An Fan said, "It's impossible for her to like me, and it's a lie."

"Okay." Lu Yun was satisfied.