The lord loves me too much, what should I do?

Chen Duo, who knew the truth, began to take care of An Xun slowly. His little-known hidden thoughts were gradually revealed during the period of An Xun's memory loss. Taking advantage of An Xun's ignorance, Chen Duo fabricated a beautiful lie. .

They are lovers who have been in love for a long time, but because of the obstruction of their families, they have become what they are now.

It is Chen Duo who is talking about taking advantage of others.

But he didn't regret it, because he already loved this man deeply.

But fate always plays tricks on people. After Chen Duo and An Xun's relationship stabilized, retribution came. The girl returned to China and found An Xun.

She didn't remember anything. An Xun remembered the past through her forced indoctrination, and she also knew that Chen Duo's mother indirectly killed her grandma.

With love on one side and hatred on the other, An Xun fell into anxiety and fear. When Chen Duo found out, it was too late. His lover was suffering from severe depression.

During Chen Duo's gloomy five years, An Xun only left one copy of "Forbidden Fruit" and then walked on the road to Huangquan alone, without leaving him a word.

This book is both fiction and reality, that's why Jiang Wenqin was so timid not to let his memory be tarnished in any way, even the auditioned ones were raw newcomers.

Coincidentally, Lin Qingyan was not eligible for the audition, but An Yuan recommended him. As Jiang Wenqin's friend for many years, An Yuan also wanted to help Jiang Wenqin realize his dream, so Lin Qingyan received this audition invitation.

"Number 35." The staff poked out his head, and the sunny boy who was called to the number swiped to his feet, "My friend, give me a high five."

Lin Qingyan glanced at it in surprise, but involuntarily pressed the hands that were about to refuse, "I wish you good luck."

After the boy left, Lin Qingyan was stunned for a few seconds, looked at her hands and smiled inexplicably, it had been a long time since she felt such warmth.

As the interviewees ran out crying one by one, although Lin Qingyan had no expression on his face, only those who knew him well could know that he was uneasy now, as if he had returned to the days when he found out that he was gay. Secret thoughts are made public for days in the sun.

At that time, Lin Qingyan was expelled by his family to his grandmother's house, just because his parents found out that he was gay. This was such a shock in a traditional feudal teacher's family, so Lin's father was furious. Lin's mother drove Lin Qingyan to the countryside where his grandparents lived in the most difficult senior year of high school.

Everyone knows that he is an "abnormal" man, but only grandparents will tell him with a smile.

"Qing Yan, you are the same as everyone else, love has no gender distinction."

His thoughts drifted away all of a sudden, Lin Qingyan looked at the gates coming in and out and made a secret decision in his heart.

"No. 64." The staff patted Lin Qingyan on the shoulder and told him to go in. Lin Qingyan, who came back to his senses, stood up and withdrew the tears from his eyes and stepped into the mysterious black curtain.

The cool breeze from inside completely healed Lin Qingyan's anxious heart due to the heat. He obediently stood in the middle, and when he raised his eyes, he saw a man full of melancholy looking at him intently.

No one knew how much turmoil Jiang Wenqin had caused in his heart, because when Lin Qingyan first came in, he looked up like his dead lover.

The auras of the two of them merged perfectly at that moment, as if he had returned to his inexperienced age and saw that beautiful young man again.

If it wasn't for a sliver of reason, Jiang Wenqin didn't know if he could control the turbulent waves in his heart to be as calm as he is now.

"You, get ready to start." Jiang Wenqin paused for a rare moment after seeing the young man's eyes. He didn't even dare to look directly at the handsome young man in front of him.

Lin Qingyan obediently took the lottery box and fiddled with it for a while, but when she looked down, she realized that what she drew was a scene of the two confronting An Xun after she recovered her memory.

He still remembered what was written in that book, "An Xun just looked up at Chen Duo indifferently and mockingly, and without any emotion, he stabbed the most hurtful sword into his chest one by one, "I How could you like a man?""

Lin Qingyan lowered his head and pondered for a few seconds. It is undeniable that after seeing this note, the first thing that came to his mind was the day when he confessed to his parents.

At that time, Lin Qingyan was still on the road thinking about the braised pork made by Lin's father. When he opened the door, he saw Lin's father and Lin's mother sitting on the sofa without saying a word. The moment he entered, the atmosphere was completely stiff.

Lin Qingyan, who didn't understand what happened, walked in after changing his shoes. Before he could speak, he was startled by the notebook that fell on the floor. When he came to his senses, he found that his diary had been dug out by Father Lin.

It was written when he first realized his sexual orientation, and it even recorded the whole process of his crush on a senior.

He thought he hid it well, but he didn't expect that his privacy would be revealed by his dearest parents one day, leaving him nowhere to hide.

"Our Lin family doesn't have such a dirty child like you."

After he admitted that everything written above was true, the good-tempered Father Lin yelled at him angrily for the first time, and even used the worst words to poke into Lin Qingyan's internal organs. He just wanted to kneel down and beg for mercy to escape from the pain.

But now the situation is so similar, Lin Qingyan gradually entered into the empathy of the character, and in Jiang Wenqin's "start", Lin Qingyan completely turned into An Xun.

At that moment, An Xun and Lin Qingyan overlapped, and Jiang Wenqin seemed to have returned to the year when he was 20 years old. After An Xun knew the truth, he said mockingly to him: "How could I like a man?"

Jiang Wenqin, who was over half a century old, burst into tears after hearing this sentence. He watched Lin Qingyan stand up and staggered to his side.

"It's just you." After speaking, the great director, who was burdened with the pain of his lover's death, left the audition scene alone, with countless desolations in his back.

Lin Qingyan was depressed after leaving the audition scene, and even Li Xiao's rough nerves noticed something was wrong. When he kept looking up out of the window, Li Xiao took out his mobile phone and sent a text message to Nangong Lin.

After returning home, Lin Qingyan just wanted to lie quietly on the bed alone, but what he didn't expect was that the moment he turned on the light, Nangong Lin rushed in front of him with a loud horn and a funny mask.

"Are you in a better mood?" Nangong Lin kept winking, trying to make herself look more funny.

Under normal circumstances, Lin Qingyan would definitely hug the silly Nangong Lin with distress.

But now Lin Qingyan is extremely exhausted. In order to guide herself into the play, Lin Qingyan had to plunge herself into memories that she was unwilling to bring up before.

So when I saw Nangong Lin's flattering reaction, my first feeling was not distress, but a kind of exhaustion.

"Have you played enough?" Lin Qingyan walked around Nangong Lin and wanted to go to the bedroom. He was afraid that he would lose his mind completely when facing Nangong Lin.

But obviously Nangong Lin didn't notice anything wrong with him, he just thought that Lin Qingyan felt that his funny skills were not good enough, so he went around in front of him even more aggressively, with a playful smile on his face.

Seeing Nangong Lin like this, Lin Qingyan felt an inexplicable sadness in his heart. He pushed Nangong Lin's body hard and pushed him heavily onto the coffee table, "Go away."

After finishing speaking, he left the apartment without looking back, leaving Nangong Lin alone in the empty apartment. He touched the painful bruise on his back in a daze, with an inexplicable mockery at the corner of his mouth.

was hated.

Lin Qingyan, who left alone, hailed a taxi and went to Fengshan.

That was the most desolate place in the city, and it was also where the bones of Lin Qingyan's grandparents were buried.

The two old men have been sleeping in this place for three years, and only Lin Qingyan has visited them in the past three years.

In fact, to be more precise, there are only their epitaphs here, and their bones were completely burned in that fire.

Lin Qingyan's senior year of high school was spent in the countryside. Although there were always people laughing at his sexual orientation in front of him, Lin Qingyan was happy at that time, because his grandparents were really kind to him, and even Lin Qingyan would be very happy in the future. There is no long crooked because the two old people are well educated.

But good fortune tricks people.This pair of kind old people died in a deliberate fire, and the murderer was a classmate who had always disliked Lin Qingyan.

Those underage teenagers taught Lin Qingyan a real lesson, which came from the unintentional malice of strangers.

Originally, they just mocked Lin Qingyan as a freak every day, but after a long time, the two old people knew about it, and even ran to their parents to educate them.

But how could the young man who had been scolded give it up? In their eyes, Lin Qingyan was a pervert, so he gathered the children in the village and set fire to the old man's house one night as a prank.

A prank turned into a lifelong disaster for Lin Qingyan, he will never forget that day, it was the night before his college entrance examination, the raging fire burning outside the window and the old people pushing him away to let him steal it is old hands.

Since then, Lin Qingyan has left the village with the only wood left after the house burned and his own savings.

In the past two years, Lin Qingyan has exchanged the resources she got by relying on her face for money, and the money was used in the prison where the arsonists were locked up.

Lin Qingyan used this money to make them live despicably and without dignity, but the two old people never smiled and said to him: "Qingyan, you are no different from others, you are a good boy."

Nangong Lin sat on the ground alone, looking at his well-arranged home with a mocking smile, the moment Lin Qingyan pushed him away, he really felt his sincerity being trampled under his feet.

The jerkyness made him want to cry, and it also made him see clearly the truest thoughts of the little white rabbit that he holds dear to him.

Disgusting yet irresistible.

He lowered his head and laughed mockingly, "Nangong Lin, you really are a poor wretch that no one loves."