Leap past the confused days of life

I am an ordinary person, and I don’t have the courage and guts to break away from reality, and I don’t dare to devote myself to literary creation regardless of everything, the courage to fight hard, and leave everything in life behind, and concentrate on boring boring work. Word games.

I fell in love with literature and art because I accidentally made a joke with someone. That person laughed at me. I was young and energetic at that time, and I couldn’t recognize myself. I went into the dream of literature absurdly. When I can't figure out what is going on with life and dreams, I confuse life with literature, and as time goes by, I get deeper and deeper to the point where I can't extricate myself.

Now that I am over half a century old, I suddenly realize that life is short, and I can't help but feel a bitter feeling in my heart. I feel that I have not worked hard and lived a good life, and my life has already entered old age. How sad it is.

For many years, I have been diligent, sometimes lazy, and intermittent in my studies.No wonder my son said that I lacked the spirit of being unwavering and specializing in a field of knowledge. Yes, I did not have that kind of fearless spirit. I didn’t dare to give it a go. No talent for this.

No one would have thought that in the depths of my mind, the foundation of literature and art had already been deeply rooted. I was naturally unrestrained, and my life style was not rigorous enough. I realized that I could not achieve much in literary creation, and I was unwilling to give up on In the pursuit of literary dreams, there is still a conservative feeling that you can still find spiritual comfort in this way. How can you not continue to study?What's more, the real life also makes my life full of frustrations, and it will give me a lot of comfort to hold on to the small world of literature.

The hobby of reading has not reached the point of subtle influence, and my thoughts and mind have not been raised to a certain level of life to know myself. How many times I want to get rid of this state, but I am constrained by my stubborn personality and deviate from the track of life. Now turned into a paranoid madman.

Recently, I don't want to read novels, I don't want to touch any books, I am immersed in my thoughts, and I start to pay attention to all kinds of life and explain human behavior in real life instead of looking for the future from books.

I explore the meaning of life and writing, observe and sort out all kinds of people and things in life, and then elaborate.

Or imitate the thinking of successful people to carry out self-training. God has given me spiritual experience and practice description skills. Although it is so-so, the depth of thinking is not good, and I cannot perform detailed descriptions, so I want to improve in these aspects.

I once wanted to read life and books like the old man, and I persevered all my life. The librarian witnessed the scene of the old man spending all day in a university library and studying tirelessly. What I read are books on humanities, geography, history, philosophy, natural science, and literature. I used the practices and ideas of historical figures to satirize the present, and learned the essence from Chinese historical events and culture and used them freely.

However, the old man created a great country, made great achievements, and lived forever.But in the face of the coming death, he was severely traumatized mentally.How powerless people are in the face of death, no one can save a great life that is about to fall.

As far as literature is concerned, some people write with their brains, others with their emotions, and others with their intuition. Each of them has its own advantages and characteristics. Those who write with their brains are smart people, and those who write with their emotions are people with desire. However, intuition Written by hardworking people.

The weather is gray, the sun is hidden in the clouds, and it is dawn, the light is dark and unpleasant, feeling dull, depressed, how to coordinate the harmony between man and nature, so that heaven, earth and man can be integrated.People have a sense of foreknowledge, such as people with diseases who perceive changes in weather in advance.

Days passed day by day, and the growth of age with the passage of time makes people feel the sentimental feeling that life is gradually getting old.It takes a hundred years to live, but people understand health care, which is also the result of the reform and opening up. There are many methods and types of health care. Diet health care has gradually entered people's lives.

The white snow in Yangchun has not melted, and it is a place where the sun does not shine. You can still enjoy the vast snow scene. Under the cover of snow, the withered and yellow grass quietly gave birth to new life.The branches that are still bare in this season will one day soon shoot buds and shoot life.

At this time, I saw the children rubbing their eyes under the urging of the adults, and the eldest was reluctantly carrying a heavy schoolbag and shaking his body, walking towards the school in the haze of the morning light.

Suddenly, I heard the woman next door's rude curse: "Damn it, hurry up, it's going to be late."The tone of the lesson calmed down the worry in the woman's heart.The child muttered dissatisfied, followed by the sound of closing the door, and everything returned to calm.

I sat down for a long time, stunned, confused, fragments, details, and trivial thoughts came to my mind, and everything was lost. It seemed that I couldn't find the reason for being a person for a while, and I couldn't be calm when I was a person and doing things. Melancholic patients are equally dull and insensitive.

Only the leader in the book, the old man abandoned his family and career, neglected everything in life, soaked in the book and endured loneliness, which strengthened his willpower to an unbelievable level.