Life is bloody eight o'clock

Xu Douxiao left more abruptly than he appeared. Yuan Ben ate the red wine and pears in two or three mouthfuls. Taking advantage of the fact that the wine had already been opened, he poured another glass for himself. I took a few mouthfuls of bread, which were obviously warm food, but felt hard and cold in my stomach, making me feel uncomfortable.

Fortunately, there is wine.

Yuan Ben likes to drink, but he is not particular about it. Although when planning events, he will talk about rice wine with crab, red wine with meat, white wine with seafood, peach blossom wine on March [-]rd, dogwood wine on September [-]th, pepper and cypress wine on the first day of the first month However, when he drinks by himself, as long as there is something to eat, canned fresh peaches, spicy squid strips, and nut peels are enough. Qin Momo once said that he is worthy of being born in a dock city, very The demeanor of the coolies drinking two ounces of wine with one iron nail.

Xu Douxiao is his iron nail. It is long and cold, with rust left by wind, frost, rain and snow. He puts it in his pocket to sharpen his legs, puts it in his hand to bite his flesh, and holds it in his bosom to pierce his heart. He is reluctant to throw it away. It’s gone, and I can’t show it to others. I can only lick it secretly when no one is around. It tastes salty and fishy, ​​like dead blood.

He hadn't taken this nail out for a long time.Back then he drank too much, almost to the verge of alcoholism. After he came to his senses, he became a model worker in his unit. People with no family and no mouth actively worked overtime and took the initiative to go on business trips. They had to study and recharge their batteries on weekends. Squeezing him so that he has no time to be sad and sad, thinking about his ex-boyfriend?Is the project finished, is the thesis finished?

It was this state that allowed him to work smoothly all the way, and he was kicked off by jealousy.

Now Yuan Ben has plenty of time.

Xu Douxiao's red and swollen face reminded him of the past.The last time he was in such a mess was because of Xu's mother.

The day when Xu's mother came was the weekend. Although Xu Douxiao was beaten a little bit badly, he was very confident and felt that he was already independent. She reasoned well, or just dealt with it coldly for a while, and she could always overcome this hurdle.

For many years, Xu Douxiao has always felt guilty for Yuan Ben's inability to appear in front of his parents. After all, he was accepted by Yuan's mother from the beginning of the relationship. Although Yuan's father didn't say anything, he also tacitly allowed him to go to the Eat at home.

He wanted to come out with his family several times, but was stopped by Yuan Ben. Xu's family was conservative, and Xu Douxiao was away all year round. Because of the inertia and natural profit-seeking instincts that have been procrastinating over and over again, it was also an opportunity for Xu's mother to break through.

Although Xu Douxiao was aware of his mother's temper, he was not too worried, thinking that the time had come and the boat would go straight when it reached the bridge.

Until he got a call from the hospital.

Yuan Ben still remembered the turmoil of that day. He couldn't drive, and he couldn't accompany Xu Douxiao to the hospital. Xu Douxiao didn't let him take leave to think about things at home. When Xu Douxiao called, his voice was hoarse and low, and he was indescribably tired.

"You're out of danger, don't worry."

"How are you?"

"I'm fine, I just didn't expect my mother to be like this..."

"No one would have thought that Auntie would..." Yuan Ben felt that the words were inappropriate, so he could only turn his attention to Xu Douxiao, "Are you coming back?"

"I'm afraid I won't be able to go back for the next two days. My dad is on his way here, and Sister Su Tang is here. I'll ask her to come over and help, so I can get out and go back."

"Then pay attention to your body, rest when you can, and eat meals on time."

"I know."

For a long time, they didn't speak, and there was only low breathing on the phone. They all knew that the future would become very difficult, and a little tenderness at this moment was rare even if it was only on the phone.

"I miss you so much." Xu Douxiao sighed, he had never lived such a long 12 hours.

"I miss you too." Yuan Ben whispered softly, "It will be fine."

Will be fine.Although Yuan Ben comforted him so much, he felt in his heart that he would never get well again.

The next month was like a dream, Xu's mother committed suicide several times, Xu Douxiao ran away halfway, Yuan Ben found him on the university road of his alma mater, Su Tang cried and begged him, begged him to let the Xu family live, what happened Too much and too fast, so that Yuan Ben can't clearly recall what happened. Everything is chaotic, losing cause and effect, and developing logic. He can't remember what he did or said. He also doesn't remember how he felt at that time, he only remembers that Xu Douxiao was getting thinner day by day, all his clothes became baggy, the corners of his eyes were blue and his lips were black, but every time he saw him he still had to act like nothing happened, He is always happy, as if as long as he is with him, he can bear any suffering.

Xu Douxiao might really be able to bear it, but Yuan Ben couldn't.

Yuan Ben looks tough, but in fact he is soft. Although he can break someone's bone with one punch and kick a young man away, when he was young, he would cry because the wings of a dragonfly were broken. No one or animal could suffer in front of him, let alone Xu Douxiao.

He wants Xu Douxiao to be happy and happy every day. Although life in this world is not smooth sailing, he wants to be Xu Douxiao's harbor. My side is always comfortable, he can't solve his troubles for him, but he doesn't want to create troubles for him either.

He and Xu Douxiao are together because of love, but when love hurts him, no.

Xu Douxiao would never talk about breaking up, Yuan Ben knew him, even if he was dragged down by this love, he would not.

So Yuan Ben said, break up.We are all so tired.

"So you broke up?" Gu Yue changed his prejudice against Yuan Ben after listening to Xu Douxiao's memories of the past, "Is the so-called "unacceptable at home" back then unacceptable to this extent? "

"Correct."

"Although Lao Yuan didn't do well enough, it's true, hey." Gu Yue filled a glass of wine for both of them.

"But all of this is over now. The most important thing right now is the matter between you and Ning Jun. What do you really want?"

"I, I don't know."

"Let me analyze it for you. You don't know what Ning Jun knows, do you?"

"Correct."

"It's possible that Ning Jun just found out about the house, but you acted like you were caught by someone."

"To be honest, unless she knows that your ex is Yuan Ben, no one will think that the male old classmate who lives in your house has any affair with you."

Xu Douxiao felt that what he said was very right, and she was very stupid: "Should I go find her now?"

"The effectiveness has passed, and this kind of thing is going to chase after her. Immediately rely on nonsense to stabilize first, and don't give her time to think."

"what about now?"

"Now? Do you want to marry her?"

"I do not know."

Of course Gu Yue knew that he had no more love for Yuan Ben, but in the world of adults, love is never enough.

"Let me remind you, you are already engaged, you asked for it. Yuan Ben also has a boyfriend, so let's have one. You are on different tracks, and now you are forcibly merging. What awaits you is largely a traffic accident." The accident is very serious, a traffic accident that will cause your car to be destroyed."

"Think about it carefully. You may love him, but does he still love you? If, as you said, Lao Yuan broke up because of you, then it is impossible for him to get back together with you now, your mother It's still that temper, won't it be forced to die now?

After all, the old man already knows that you can marry a girl, and if you mislead her son who is praised by everyone, what will she do?None of us knew, and Yuan Ben would not take such a risk. "

"You're right, but I really love him, I've already let him go once, I thought I could forget him.

I thought I could get married.But when he appeared in the bar, I knew it was impossible, that it was impossible for me to get married.I still love him. "Xu Douxiao held the wine glass and his eyes turned red.

Gu Yue looked at him seriously, he is his friend, this is an unchangeable position, he sighed, and drank his glass of wine: "Scumbag, Xu Douxiao, scumbag."

"I know."

"Explain clearly to Ning Jun, she is a good girl."

"I know."

"Come to me when you need to lose money, and I can lend it to you free of interest."

"Thank you."

Xu Douxiao wanted to start over, but Yuan Ben wanted to disappear quickly. After drinking more than half a bottle of red wine with nails, Yuan Ben received a message that it was Gu Miaomiao that Qin Momo mentioned earlier. .

Miss Gu is a member of their industry, and his work overlaps with his. The two often meet in meetings. As Qin Momo said, he can be regarded as a rare handsome guy in the industry. Every time we meet, we will meet the preference of female compatriots. Those who are similar in age will chat with him about their ideals in life, and those who are older will talk about their relationship status with him. Gu Miaomiao is no exception. When eating, he often shares a table with him with a plate and chats about inside gossip. .

Yuan Ben didn't think much about it, firstly, he had his own heart, and secondly, he had long been used to women treating him differently, so he was a little numb to all kinds of overtures.

Gu Miaomiao's message was not intrusive either. He first said hello and recalled the old days, and then mentioned his current situation tactfully.

"I heard from Teacher Qin that you have been on vacation recently?"

"Well, take a break."

"I have a favor here and I want to ask you to help me. I wonder if you have time?"

"What are you busy with?"

"I recently opened a cultural brand store, and I want to hold some related activities. You know that the market is huge now, but there are few professional people. It is not easy to make a good event. I think of you now. It just so happens that you are on vacation recently, I wonder if you are interested."

Yuan Ben was very interested. Doing cultural activities was like breathing for him. It was much easier than sitting in front of a computer and writing online literature. He immediately agreed and asked for Gu Miaomiao's brand description and related information on activity needs.

When he flipped through the materials, he felt the inner stability.Sure enough, only work can make him let go, and only work can make him leave here, leave Xu Douxiao.