he is his world

Even breathing hurts when he was injured, and his heart still hurts even when he fell asleep. Looking at Lu Xiaofeng's furrowed brows, Zhuo Mingyang's heart clenched tightly.

"Xiaofeng, are you sad? I don't want to hurt you, but if I don't hurt you now, you will suffer forever in the future."

Leaning against the head of the bed and looking at this sleeping face, Zhuo Mingyang couldn't get enough of it.

I don't know how long time passed, but Lu Xiaofeng finally woke up.

"Xiaofeng, you're awake!"

Zhuo Mingyang suddenly didn't know how to face Lu Xiaofeng, he seemed very at a loss.

Lu Xiaofeng's face was full of pain, his heart hurt as if being cut by a knife, the moment he opened his eyes and saw Zhuo Mingyang, he felt that the world was really dark, and it was drizzling outside the window, raindrops It kept knocking on the window, as if playing a sad piece of music.

"It's raining! It's so gray! Will there be a rainbow after the rain?"

Lu Xiaofeng turned his head and looked out the gray window with a faint voice.

"Xiaofeng, don't act like this!"

"Why? Why did you marry that woman? You know I really love you and I can't live without you! You said you wouldn't want me!"

Lu Xiaofeng turned his back to Zhuo Mingyang, and did not turn around to look at his face.

"Xiaofeng, I have always regarded you as my younger brother! How can we be together? I only have brotherly feelings for you, and I will not love you! I promised to take good care of you, and I will not let you go your!"

"No! You are lying! You love me! My name is Lu Xiaofeng and your name is Zhuo Mingyang. We are not related by blood, and my mother did not marry your father. We have no relationship at all, and you have no relationship at all." Responsibility to take care of me, you treat me well because you love me!

From the day I fell in love with you, I no longer consider you my elder brother. You are the person I love the most and the person I want to be with for the rest of my life. Why do you want to marry Wang Shanshan? "

"You know Shanshan has always been good to me, I must marry her! She loves me very much!"

"But I also love you very much. Wouldn't it be good for us to live happily together for the rest of our lives? Why did you let Wang Shanshan into our life?

I know you don't love her!I can do what Wang Shanshan can do for you, I can wash and cook for you, bring you a cup of hot coffee when you are tired, and watch the stars with you..."

What a life!Hearing Lu Xiaofeng's longing for the future, Zhuo Mingyang felt very uncomfortable. No matter how beautiful the future is, it is only a flash in the pan. Two men are destined to have no good results together. The relationship between the two is like fireworks, brilliant and brilliant. Such a short time, there will be endless pain after everything returns to calm, so Zhuo Mingyang had no choice but to interrupt Lu Xiaofeng's words: "But you can't bear children for me like Wang Shanshan!"

Lu Xiaofeng fell silent!He turned his head to look at Zhuo Mingyang in astonishment.He is right, he is a man, of course he cannot have children, he has never thought about this problem before, 19-year-old Lu Xiaofeng is still a big boy who has just entered university, of course he would not think so much .

"Xiaofeng, if the two of us are together, let's not talk about how outsiders will look at us, how they will talk and despise us, just talk about ourselves, you and I are men, we will not have our own in the future. kids!

But I want my own children!I hope that when I am old, I can have children and grandchildren around my knees, with a virtuous wife and filial children by my side. I want to enjoy that kind of family happiness!

Two people may be very happy and happy together at first, but what should we do when we are old?

If I go first, then you can only live alone in this world, how can I feel at ease?

You will end up alone, with no one to take care of you when you are sick, and no one to talk to you to relieve your boredom. That kind of life is terrible when you think about it. "

"If you really want a child, you can go to a surrogate mother. You can have a child with any woman. Let's love the child together so that we won't die alone. You..."

Zhuo Mingyang's eyes were full of helplessness and distress: "Xiaofeng, don't be stupid! No child would like to be without a mother!"

A bitter smile appeared on Lu Xiaofeng's face at this moment: "I understand, these are all excuses, I'm so stupid, you don't love me at all!"

"No! I love you! I...I'm talking about brotherly love, don't get me wrong! You are my most important brother, of course I love you! But there is no love between us!"

He obviously cared about and loved this man very much, but Zhuo Mingyang had to hide his feelings. The saddest thing about love is that two people love each other but can't stay together.

"You are not brave enough! You love me but dare not love! You are afraid of worldly eyes, you are afraid of others pointing at your back, you are afraid of stains in your life."

"Yeah! You're right! I'm just scared! I'm going to be 30 soon and your life is just beginning and you're only 19!

Your life has just begun, I can't let your life be stained, let you go astray, you have to be a normal person!Not a shady homosexual! "

"Okay! Since this is the case, then I will do as you wish. I will be a normal person. I will date girls. You can also marry Wang Shanshan. I will be your younger brother and will never pester you again. gone."

Lu Xiaofeng's tone was so calm, without hysteria, anger or hatred, the calmness surprised Zhuo Mingyang.

"Xiaofeng, have you really figured it out?" Zhuo Mingyang looked at Lu Xiaofeng in disbelief, and couldn't believe his ears. Lu Xiaofeng's transformation was really too fast, which was a bit abnormal.

"I figured it out! What else can't be figured out? I'm already 19 years old, I've grown up, and I know how I should live."

After speaking, Lu Xiaofeng let out a long breath: "Okay, I feel very tired, you go back, I want to sleep for a while."

Zhuo Mingyang looked at Lu Xiaofeng with incredible eyes, and slowly stood up from the chair: "Okay, you rest, I'll go back first."

Walking out of the ward, Zhuo Mingyang's thoughts were in a mess. He always felt that Lu Xiaofeng was a little abnormal. This was too unlike his style. He was a very persistent and stubborn person. How could he be like this today?

How can you give up the relationship you have been pursuing persistently because of your few words?

The restless Zhuo Mingyang was not in a hurry to go home, but sat down on the bench in the corridor, stood up from time to time and looked into the ward, and found that Lu Xiaofeng had fallen asleep, so he was relieved .

Three days later, Lu Xiaofeng was discharged from the hospital. He has been calm and emotionally stable these days, no longer crying or making trouble, but his attitude towards Zhuo Mingyang has become very indifferent, as if he is not willing to have too much relationship with Zhuo Mingyang Communication, when the two were talking, Lu Xiaofeng would only answer Zhuo Mingyang with words like "yes", "got it", "yes" and "no".

The day they were discharged from the hospital happened to be Lu Xiaofeng's and Zhuo Mingyang's shared birthdays. When they came back from get off work at night, Zhuo Mingyang walked into the house excitedly with a birthday cake in his hand.

"Xiaofeng! I'm back!"

After changing his shoes, Zhuo Mingyang walked into the living room. Although the living room was on, there was no sign of Lu Xiaofeng, and he didn't see Lu Xiaofeng when he walked into the bedroom. Zhuo Mingyang was surprised that Lu Xiaofeng was not at home!Where will he go?

Zhuo Mingyang hurriedly took out his cell phone, and then dialed Lu Xiaofeng's number.

The phone rang for a long time before being answered: "Hello!"

Zhuo Mingyang frowned, because he heard a lot of noise on the phone, as if in a bar or something, deafening music came from the phone.

"Xiaofeng, where are you? Why are you so noisy?"

"I'm at a bar!"

"What? You're in a bar?" Zhuo Mingyang was taken aback. He didn't expect Lu Xiaofeng to go to such a place.

"Yes."

"Which bar are you telling me?"

"Blue Night Bar."

"Okay, you stay there, I'll pick you up right away." After speaking, Zhuo Mingyang hung up the phone in a hurry, then grabbed the car keys on the coffee table and walked towards the door in a hurry.

Lu Xiaofeng is a very introverted and quiet boy. Zhuo Mingyang never thought that he would go to places like bars that are not suitable for him. He hates noise so much and likes quietness. What's wrong?

Zhuo Mingyang suddenly felt that everything was abnormal since Lu Xiaofeng said that in the hospital that day.

Thinking wildly, the car soon reached the entrance of the Blue Night Bar, Zhuo Mingyang hurriedly opened the door and got out of the car, then walked towards the bar.

Zhuo Mingyang seldom came to places like bars, unless he was having a party with his colleagues in the company, otherwise he would not come to such a place of feasting and feasting alone.

Walking into the Blue Night Bar, the loud music made Zhuo Mingyang feel that his eardrums were about to be punctured, and the bar was filled with the smell of alcohol, tobacco and women's perfume.

The bar was overcrowded, and young men and women in fashionable clothes could be seen everywhere. Zhuo Mingyang looked anxiously through the crowd and finally found Lu Xiaofeng in front of a table by the window.

Zhuo Mingyang hurriedly walked towards that table, but at this time Lu Xiaofeng was not alone in the bar getting drunk, there was a sexy and enchanting woman beside him.

Zhuo Mingyang approached and saw the woman's appearance clearly. She looked like she was in her thirties, sexy and charming, wearing a bright red short tube top dress, her white thighs were so eye-catching, her face With exquisite makeup painted on it, the woman is very beautiful.

Lu Xiaofeng and the woman sat next to each other, and they looked very close, talking and laughing.

"Xiaofeng!"

Hearing Zhuo Mingyang's voice ringing in his ears, Lu Xiaofeng turned his head around: "You're here so soon."

"Xiaofeng, come back with me!"

Zhuo Mingyang's face was full of displeasure. He glanced lightly at the woman sitting next to Lu Xiaofeng, and then stretched out his hand to grab Lu Xiaofeng's arm.

Lu Xiaofeng got up and stood up from the chair: "I'm going back, goodbye." He looked at the beautiful woman beside him and said with a smile.

"Goodbye, handsome guy, remember to call me!"

The woman looked at Lu Xiaofeng and said with an ambiguous smile. Her eyes were like silk, and she was full of charm. It could be seen that she was very interested in Lu Xiaofeng.

What surprised Zhuo Mingyang was that Lu Xiaofeng, who was introverted and not good at dealing with people, was very enthusiastic when facing such a coquettish woman: "Okay, wait for my call, goodbye."

Then he even blew a kiss to the woman, like a prodigal son who has experienced many battles.

Zhuo Mingyang really doubted that the person beside him was really Lu Xiaofeng?Could it be someone wearing Lu Xiaofeng's coat and pretending to be him?

Walking to the car, Zhuo Mingyang angrily opened the door, and rudely pushed Lu Xiaofeng into the car. He was really angry, and when he thought of Lu Xiaofeng's actions just now, he was furious.