Ghost Love, Marriage Line

I only thought that Xiao Ran was messing around, but when I was holding a pen and thinking about what to write, I followed her and became serious, so I wrote down the words 'I hope we are all happy'.

Just because we're all happy doesn't mean we're still together.

I am two years older than Xiao Ran, and I am also more mature than her, so I can see it more clearly.

Our love is too helpless, it can't last that long, I am always ready to break up, I am not as confident as Xiao Ran.

I don't know what Xiao Ran wrote, I didn't read it, the two of us sneakily buried the box on the roadside outside the community in the middle of the night, and we all forgot about it afterwards.

When I think about it now, I suddenly feel that it was so innocent at that time.

Don't worry about anything, Xiao Ran just loves me, and I just play around with her.

But how could our love go so smoothly as expected?

I was biting my fingers and crying, my heart was throbbing. This was the first time I was so sad after I came back to life. The feeling of tears flowing out was very strange and uncomfortable. The light in the living room was suddenly turned on, and Xia Qiao’s mother was standing There looked at me in surprise, then hurried over and hugged me, and asked me what was wrong with concern.

I can't speak, how can I talk to her?

So I just cried on her shoulder, and Xia Qiao's mother stopped asking, and watched the movie with me quietly. After seeing the plot behind it, Xia Qiao's mother also knew what movie it was.

After the movie was finished, Xia Qiao’s mother wiped away my tears and asked me, “Is this movie very sad?”

I bit my lip and cried and shook my head. In fact, the movie is very good, and the ending is also very good.

"Then why are you sad?"

I stared at her blankly, not knowing what to think, I told her: "I fell in love with a woman."

Her face immediately changed, and she looked at me in panic.

Of course, it should be like this when I hear my daughter say that she likes a woman.

Besides, I'm not her daughter.

I'm so crazy.

I finally came back to life. I should cherish it. The last time I said this recklessly, I was pushed down the stairs by my parents and disfigured. Do you want to watch this scene happen again this time?I immediately regretted it, I am not Xia Qiao, I am completely different from her, she is a lively person, you can tell from the wallpaper in her room, but I am different, I believe Xia Qiao's parents must have been there long ago I doubt it, they are the people who are most familiar with Xiaqiao, so they must have seen my strangeness.

It's just that they don't want to admit the fact.

I'm really crazy, why mention this sentence at this time?I should be Xia Qiao honestly, so that although I have a different personality from Xia Qiao, at least I will not put the truth on the bright side, Xia Qiao will not say such things, they can rely on this A word to break me down.

They only need to ask: "Where is my daughter!" is enough to make me powerless.

I want to come to my parents, they naturally objected to their daughter liking a woman, and even cursed viciously that I was hit and killed by a car when I went out, wondering if they would be sad if I really died in a car accident?

"Will you drive me out?" I grabbed her sleeve in fear, so that even if she pushed me away, she would have to use some strength, at least she wouldn't push me away so quickly.

It's hard for me to have a family. I shouldn't be so self-willed. I can pretend to be Xiaqiao for a lifetime. I can.

I don't want to be kicked out again.

My parents kicked me out, they said, don’t come back, it’s too disgusting, too embarrassing, I just graduated and I have no one to rely on, I get up early and late every day for work, often because I can’t rest well and get sick brine.

Fortunately, Xiao Ran was with me, otherwise I really couldn't hold on.

At the most difficult time, I even had the idea of ​​suicide. I wanted to jump off when I was sitting on a bus, and I wanted to jump off when I was standing on a high floor, but I just thought about it. I don’t have that much courage. Live well.

So really hated them back then, for driving me to this point.

Xiaqiao's mother looked at me who was trembling and crying, and then she still hugged me, patted my shoulder lightly to comfort me and said, "Silly boy, just be well."

In her eyes, after experiencing a life and death parting, nothing is more important than her daughter being alive, even if it is no longer their Xiaqiao, as long as I am still alive.

Then I sincerely called out to her mother.

I am Yunqian, and Xiaqiao is me.

After my leg was healed, I took a bus to the suburbs.

I want to see how Xiaoran's life is. I'm not looking for her, but I miss her so much that I'm going crazy.

I sat at the bus stop all morning. I couldn’t go to her house to find her. I just sat there all morning. I didn’t see her. Then I got up and walked into the community. I looked at the nearby telephone poles one by one. When I saw her rental advertisement, I breathed a sigh of relief. I really didn't know what to do to see her, so I simply sat in the flower bed downstairs of her house, looked up at the window of her house, and sat like that until night, I saw her walking out of the corridor leading A Mao.

I lowered my head abruptly, afraid that she would see the excited expression on my face, but in fact she didn't recognize me, she walked past, and I dared to raise my head to look at her back.

She took Ah Mao for a walk in the community, and she seemed very happy.

Just as I hoped it would be.

I saw that she was still there and went back, and then went there the next day and sat in the flower bed for a while, and left when I saw her shadow, I didn't dare to look at her more, I was afraid I couldn't control myself.

She found a job again. On weekdays, I took the earliest bus to the suburbs, and then sat on the platform waiting for her to come out. I got on the same bus as her. I was very guilty. I was afraid that she would recognize me, so I hid At the back of the carriage, looking at her from a distance, sometimes she could find a seat and would sleep with her eyes closed. I disturbed her, and looked at her greedily when she closed her eyes. Sometimes she couldn't find a seat and I stood at the end of the car, looking at her through the crowd, but I didn't dare to be too blatant, so I always just I can see the back of her head, my legs are just right, it will hurt when I stand for a long time, but it doesn't matter, I am satisfied when I see her.

My behavior, which can be called an idiot, lasted for half a month. After seeing that her illness was completely cured, I was relieved and stopped going.

I shouldn't have disturbed her life anymore.

I started to experience the world. In fact, I used to like photography very much. Even the teacher said that my composition idea was very good, but at that time, my family felt that interest was unnecessary, and photography was a bit too expensive, so I put it on hold. Now I am free to do what I want. Xiaqiao’s parents support me, so I often go around with my camera to take pictures and send them to travel magazines. I was actually selected. Xiaqiao’s parents are proud and happy, Expand the photo to half the size of the wall and hang it on the wall, and everyone who comes to the house will say: "This is taken by our Xia Xia, and it has been in a magazine."

It makes me dumbfounded.

Oh, they are my parents now.

Because I am Xia Qiao.

I have been wandering around in various places for more than half a year. I feel very free and my horizons have broadened a lot. When I felt that I could let go of many things, I returned home.

The old home.

It was already night when I got there by train, and I was not sure about looking in the direction of Memory's home. After all, I haven't been back for a long time, and I don't know if they still live here.

I have no intention of meeting them, after all, this is too unimaginable, I just came to see, it would be even better if I could see them.

I just wanted to see how they were doing.

There is no light at home, it seems that there is no one in the house, and then I heard the sound of music, it is the uncles and aunts in the community dancing in the community, a dance that is very popular recently, called, zombie dance?I'm not sure, because it was very lively, so I walked over to see it.

Then I saw my parents jumping with the crowd.

No matter how long it takes to see each other, no one will forget what their parents look like.

I sat next to it for a while, and then joined in and danced with the team, looking at their backs in front of me.

They seem to be dancing happily. Indeed, it has been so long, and they must come out of the past.

Looks a lot older, the hair is very gray, yes, they are old too.

They didn't jump to the end, and I followed them when I saw them go away. When I got to the corner, I saw them teasing a child sitting in a stroller in front of them. I liked the appearance of the child very much. Looking at the toys on the stroller and making faces with the children, the children giggled.

But they seldom treat me like this. When they treat me, they are all strict, so strict that they are paranoid and narrow-minded, and put all their hopes on me stubbornly. When I say I like a girl, they want to kill me, because I become a stain, and they are the object of their ridicule.

If they had recognized me, Xiao Ran and me at that time, I would not be so unsure about our relationship, and the car accident might not have happened.

But there are so many ifs in life, the so-called ifs are regrets that cannot be changed.

I went up to them and looked at the little kid with them and said, "It's so cute."

"Yeah, what a cute kid," they gave me a strange look, echoed and continued to tease him with toys.

To them, I'm just a stranger.

I wanted to ask, don't you also have a daughter?

How is your daughter?

I really want to see the expressions on their faces, will there be some regret?

But now looking at their white hair on the temples and the wrinkles around their eyes so closely, I can't speak maliciously.

I am indeed an unfilial daughter, and I have not fulfilled my obligation to take care of them.

What right do I have to hurt them?

Those unnecessary hates should also go with the wind after my death.

I took the train back that night.

I want to meet my little Ran, I've avoided it for too long.

I thought I was indifferent enough to let go of everything in the past, but I'm just a coward after all.

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