man god don't come

Zong Zhengyu turned back, he looked at Ji Yuze with calm eyes, and looked at him without any emotion.It seems that he hasn't looked at Ji Yuze so seriously for a long time, two years, maybe a little longer.

Ji Yuze met his eyes, and was defeated in an instant. He bit his lip and said, "I betrayed you back then, and it was all my fault..."

He still wanted to say something to apologize, but Zong Zhengyu didn't give him a chance, he said, "I understand."

Ji Yuze was stunned, he thought he would blame him, tears came out of his eyes almost uncontrollably, he plunged into his arms, wrapped his arms around his waist tightly.He knew that A Yu would not have no affection for him, even if he was wrong, he would give himself a chance.

Zong Zhengyu looked at the person who threw himself into his arms, he was still the same person as before, but he no longer had the throbbing of the past, just being hugged by him like this, since he didn't feel anything, watching him cry was agitated. I can't afford him any feelings of pity and pity.Ji Yuze is completely different from Chi Ning. He is lively, outgoing, and can't stand being wronged. From time to time, he wants to play tricks and act coquettishly on him, but Chi Ning is always so quiet, and most of the time he is doing his own things and being in a daze.

He used to think that with someone like Ji Yuze by his side, he would not be lonely. He was willing to accommodate him, pamper him, and put everything he wanted in front of him.But now, he no longer has this person in his heart. He just wants to protect Chi Ning and let him stay so stupid forever. It's better to be so simple and happy forever without growing up.When they are together, many times they are very happy without talking. Just looking at him makes my heart full.

Zong Zhengyu pulled Ji Yuze away from his arms and said, "I will only say the following once."

Chi Ning unconsciously clenched the hem of his clothes, and his heart raised his throat following Zong Zhengyu's words.He had to admit that he was a little scared, afraid that Zong Zhengyu would tell Ji Yuze that his old love was not over.Intellectually, he is willing to trust Zong Zhengyu, but emotionally, he is always a little uneasy.

"Did my dad put pressure on your family back then? Talked to you? Did he give you money for medical treatment?"

"Ayu...I...my brother needs that money very much."

"I know, so I don't blame you, I failed to help you."

Zongzhengyu's words should be what he wanted to hear, his understanding, he had been so looking forward to believing it, he believed that Zongzhengyu could understand himself.But when he heard this, he felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave. He could feel that Zong Zhengyu was handing over everything in the past with his own hands.

Ji Yuze: "Ah Yu..."

Zongzheng Yu lowered his eyes, then raised them again, looked at him and said, "You and others may think that no matter how much I run away from home, I am still the only son of Zongzheng Heping and the eldest grandson of the Zongzheng family. But I I made up my mind. No matter how hard it was at that time, I never backed down, even if I went to a bar to perform... What I let go was not only the life of luxury and wealth, not only my relatives, but also my pride and dignity. You, for our... feelings... I have tried my best, but you still want to let go of my hand."

"To me, no matter how many reasons you have, they are just excuses."

"Ayu...I..."

Zong Zhengyu seemed not to want to hear anything from him anymore, so he interrupted him and continued: "I have completely let go, you may be able to turn back, but I will not turn back."

"I'm sorry...give me another chance, please...I love you, Ayu."

"Let me ask you, if you don't know me, do you want your family to earn the money for your brother's medical treatment?"

"I..." Ji Yuze found himself unable to refute a single word.

"Has Xiaofeng recovered now?"

"I'm still doing rehabilitation, and I'm in a good state of mind." When his younger brother was suffering from polio, Zong Zhengyu's father sent charcoal and huge medical expenses. Ji Yuze was born in a single-parent family, his father died young, and his family was poor. In this situation, he could hardly refuse.

"That's good, Xiaofeng is a very good boy." At the beginning, because Zongzhengyu lost the support of his family, they were still embarrassed everywhere, and they were struggling, almost to the point of running out of ammunition and food. The self-esteem of the children went to bars to perform, and went to various commercial performances to make money as extras.He knew the situation of Ji Yuze's younger brother, but he could do nothing, and he couldn't help without money.

Later, Ji Yuze took a leave of absence from school overnight and disappeared from City A, including his mother and younger brother, so he guessed it.But so what if he knew, Ji Yuze was pinned down by his father and succumbed, there was nothing he could do.For the sake of their relationship, he even thought of selling his kidney. He thought that no matter what, he shouldn't give up on himself, but he still gave up.

The past is unbearable, he was immature at that time, if he could deny it first when his family found out about him and Ji Yuze, maybe Ji Yuze would not be forced into a desperate situation.But these assumptions are meaningless when we talk about them now, and the past can no longer be brought back.

Ji Yuze burst into tears, Zongzheng Heping did not push him to a desperate situation, but extended a helping hand in his most difficult time.The conditions he set for himself were only to suspend school for two years and disappear from Zongzheng Yu's side. If Zongzheng Yu still wanted to be with him when he came back two years later, then Zongzheng Heping, as his father, would not stop him.

But now two years have passed, and he has come back, but Zong Zhengyu is no longer the same person he used to be.His letting go, no matter how many reasons there are, made him heartbroken. Maybe he regretted it at the beginning, but now, he is no longer the A Yu who loves and spoils him wholeheartedly.

"Is it because of Chi Ning? Because of him, so you don't bother to ask me for another person who betrayed me?" He has been following Zong Zhengyu's dynamics through Weibo. He and Chi Ning began to be CP by fish fans. So I missed Chi Ning.

It is also because of this that he applied to transfer to the history department after returning to school. First, he wanted to know Chi Ning, and second, he wanted to get closer to Zongzheng Yu.Because he knows Zong Zhengyu too well, if this person is not really special to him, he will not let these people arrange them online.But at that time, he was not sure how much weight Chi Ning had against Zong Zhengyu.

"Before I met him, I had let go of the past." Zong Zhengyu said, "He gave me the courage to face a new relationship."

"We will not disturb each other in the future, you can find your own happiness."

"No...A Yu...I don't want anyone else...A Yu, don't go, I beg you not to go."

Zong Zhengyu turned around, Ji Yuze chased after him and hugged him from behind, he burst into tears, like a child.

"I'm sorry, Yuze."

His footsteps sounded, and Ji Yuze stood still, watching him walk towards the gate of the Conservatory of Music.Scenes of the past reappeared in his mind.

On the day they first met, he followed his mother to sell burritos outside the middle school attached to A University.His mother is good at handicrafts and is very popular with the students of the attached middle school. Every morning, he helps his mother for a while before going to another middle school near the attached middle school.The autumn wind was bleak that day, and the wind swept up withered yellow ginkgo leaves, and one fell on his head.Zong Zhengyu and Tang Yiming played games all night outside and didn't come home, so they made a makeshift breakfast at a roadside stall. Zong Zhengyu saw him, his eyes were full of surprise, and then he reached out to help him remove the ginkgo hanging from his head leaf.

After they got together, they made an appointment to take the entrance examination for University A together. Zong Zhengyu sneaked out every night to help him make up lessons, and the school teachers didn't dare to bother him.Their first time was also on such a night, in Ji Yuze's dormitory.The suppressed panting, the scorching touch, that feeling is still engraved in his heart.

And later, at A University, their affairs were discovered by Zong Zhengjia. The two young people were immersed in love and wanted to tell the world. They didn't know how to restrain themselves, so it was only a matter of time before they were discovered.In order to rebel against his family, Zong Zhengyu ran away from home and severed ties with his family.They need money to live. He wanted to start a career, but he was intercepted repeatedly. Later, he had to go to a restaurant to work serving dishes, but he was dismissed after failing to work half a day.

Zong Zhengyu was downgraded and transferred to another department in a fit of rage. The young man's vigor was to slap his father in the face, and secondly, to gain a background in the dance department so that he could sign up for commercial performances and give backup dancers.He thought that Zongzheng's family would have no face to say that their eldest grandson was a dancer, but he still underestimated his father's means. Since he was rejected by all kinds of party dancers, even if his face was standing In the high-value entertainment industry, he is also a well-deserved male god.Later, Zong Zhengyu had to go to bars, ordinary bars, gay bars, he went, and sometimes he could only bear with rude customers.

Thinking of these, Ji Yuze felt even more distressed.They have walked so hard on this journey, and he has paid so much for himself, why should he give up so easily?

Zong Zhengyu raised his head and looked at the rare clean starry sky. At this moment, the pure dark blue was imprinted in his eyes, as if he had wiped away all the sweetness and sadness of the past, leaving them all behind.

Chi Ning didn't wait for Zong Zhengyu to appear in front of him, and didn't wait for himself to be discovered. He turned around and hid in the darkness, and ran back at the fastest speed in his life.For no reason, he just felt that Zong Zhengyu would definitely want to see him at home more.

Seeing Chi Ning running in like a gust of wind, the uncle in charge of the dormitory was a little strange and didn't ask any more questions. This is a friend of 401 who often comes and goes, and he is not in charge of the dormitory.However, this child is usually the quietest, but today he has become a small athlete, his face flushed from running, and he looks a lot more energetic.

Zongzheng Yu walked very slowly. He usually walked for 10 minutes, but today he walked for 10 minutes.When he returned to the dormitory and opened the door, Chi Ning sat on the sofa and ate fruit while watching TV. Seeing that he was back, he stood up, took the small plate of oranges he had cut and placed in front of him, and inserted a piece of orange own mouth.

Holding him tightly in his arms, Zong Zhengyu greedily sucked his breath, he didn't say anything, but Chi Ning understood everything.He said to himself in his heart: Ayu, I will not leave you alone, unless one day, you no longer need me.

"It's too tight...I can't breathe..." Chi Ning struggled to protest.

Zong Zhengyu let go of him, pinched his cheek, and took away his plate of oranges domineeringly and capriciously, no matter what he said, he would not let him eat.