Fortunately it's you

In a flash, it's half a year.

The Spring Festival is the end of another year.

In the past six months, Zhang Xiaowei didn't go to work because he knew he couldn't work in this state.

For the past six months, every day, every second, he didn't know how he survived.

Only he understands the bitterness of it.

When I dream back at midnight, I often see that familiar figure, still with that warm look.It's just that I can see it, but I can't touch it. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I cry until dawn.

During the six months after Zhang Zhi left, Zhang Xiaowei's migraines became more and more severe. The headaches were so nauseating that he had to carry painkillers with him at all times.

When he came home, if Kaixin who was sleeping next to him moved slightly, he would wake up with a start.

Wei's mother tried various folk remedies for Zhang Xiaowei's migraine, but the effect was minimal.

The only thing that makes Zhang Xiaowei happy in the past six months is that he is two years old, healthy and smart, but he likes to talk to adults, not at all like a two-year-old child.

"Dad, where is Mom?"

This has been happily asked many times.

Kaixin lay on Zhang Xiaowei's lap, playing with a building block in his hand, and asked in a childish voice.

"Mom said that as long as you are happy, she will come to see you. Can you buy a beautiful floral dress for me?"

Zhang Xiaowei felt a little sad when he heard that he was happy to find his mother.

"I went out to play with my grandma today. Sister Yiyi said her mother would braid her hair. I don't have a mother to braid her hair." Happy pouted.

"That's because Yiyi is envious of Xiaokaixin, because the braids that daddy made for Kaixin are more beautiful than Yiyi's." Zhang Xiaowei stroked Kaixin's long hair and said with a smile.

"Yes, daddy can wear braids, but her daddy certainly can't. Dad, I want to have braids like Sister Yiyi's."

Happy got up, put his arms around Xiaowei's neck, and said softly.

"Okay, Dad braids Happy."

Looking at the happy long hair, Zhang Xiaowei scratched his head.

He didn't have a headache this time, and he still couldn't braid his hair.

Every time he coaxed Kaixin to braid her hair, and in the end it was his mother who reworked Kaixin's hair before taking it out.

"Braid, braid, happy, it's not snowing outside, after daddy braids you, will I take you out to build a snowman?" Zhang Xiaowei frantically curled his happy hair together.

After editing, I looked at it and couldn't help laughing.

"Are you ready, Dad?" asked happily, tilting his head.

"Okay, happy is the most beautiful, let's go, Dad will take you out to make a snowman."

"Okay, dad is the best."

Zhang Xiaowei walked out happily.

"Xiaowei, why are you going? In such a cold day, don't let her catch a cold." Wei's mother came out of the kitchen and asked.

"I took her out to make a snowman. It's okay. I wrapped him up thickly. It's not good to be bored at home all day. Go out to get some fresh air. It's just behind the house, just call me for dinner."

"Okay, be happy and naughty, watch her carefully, don't let her fall." Wei's mother asked again.

Zhang Xiaowei came to the snow field behind the house happily, and Zhang Xiaowei took a shovel to drive the snow together.

"Dad, why is snow white?"

"Because Kaixin likes white. Seeing that Kaixin's clothes are all white, skirts, down jackets, and scarves, isn't this a little polar bear?"

"Dad, why do I like white? Snow is white. I like dad too. Why isn't dad white?"

"Dad can be white." Zhang Xiaowei threw himself into the snow, then stood up, and said with a smile, "Dad is white now."

"Kindly also wants to be white like Dad." Seeing Zhang Xiaowei rolling, Kaixin rolled on the ground herself.

"It's not okay to be happy, it's cold on the ground." Zhang Xiaowei saw Kaixin rolling on the ground, quickly picked her up, and brushed off the snow from her body.

"Come on, happy to help Dad build a snowman, okay?"

"Okay."

"Come on, let's build a body for the snowman first, yes, that's it."

"Wow, this snowman is so fat, is he full?" The happy and childish voice was soft, sweet, and very cute.

"That's right, today is Chinese New Year, and he wants to eat something delicious too. Be happy, help me get that carrot."

"Okay." Happy ran forward shaking his head.

"Happy, run slowly." Zhang Xiaowei yelled when he saw Happy staggering.

Before the words fell, I happily slid into the snow.

Zhang Xiaowei hurriedly ran over, hugged Kaixin, and said anxiously: "Does Kaixin hurt? I need to tell my father about the pain."

"Dad, it doesn't hurt to be happy, dad, why aren't the carrots white?"

"Because Kaixin doesn't like to eat carrots." Hearing that Kaixin said it didn't hurt, Zhang Xiaowei put his heart into his stomach again.

In the past six months, if Happy sneezes at night, Zhang Xiaowei will not be able to sleep all night.

And children don't sleep honestly, always kicking the quilt, Zhang Xiaowei took the trouble to cover Kaixin with the quilt.

Sometimes Wei's mother wants to hug Kaixin to sleep with them, and wants Zhang Xiaowei to sleep peacefully.

But Kaixin is becoming more and more dependent on Zhang Xiaowei. She won't sleep unless she hugs him at night, clamoring for her father.

Without this little guy by Zhang Xiaowei's side, Zhang Xiaowei couldn't sleep even more.

So the two of them stick together every night and cuddle up to each other.

"Happy, this carrot is a snowman's nose, I'll hold her in my arms, happy to plug it in for her, okay?"

"Okay, Dad hugs." Kaixin threw herself into Xiaowei's arms.

"Hey, Xiaowei is playing happily." A neighbor passed by, watching Zhang Xiaowei playing happily, and said with a smile.

"Yes, Uncle Yang, you are going to kill chickens."

"Well, Kaixin is getting more and more beautiful, really like her father." Uncle Yang pinched Kaixin's face and said with a smile.

"Happy, call Grandpa, say Grandpa Yang, Happy New Year."

"Grandpa Yang, happy new year, Gong Xi Fa Cai." Happy's two chubby little hands together made a congratulatory gesture.

"Happiness is so smart." Uncle Yang said to Xiaowei again, "Xiaowei, you are getting old, it's time to get married. It's not convenient for you as a young man to take happiness with you, and you have to find a mother for her. Besides, happiness is always It's not your daughter, don't worry, we old men are worried for you, our spirit and conditions are good, we have to think about ourselves. Don't think our old man talks too much, your father is really anxious, your father yesterday When I was drinking, I still talked about it, oh."

Uncle Yang said a few words and left.

Brother Zhi, you see that everyone praises being happy and smart, and everyone says they look like you, if you could see it, it would be great?

Brother Zhi, I'm 28 years old. After the new year, we've been separated for ten years. We're not young anymore. Do you think I can see him again?

The snow that had just stopped started flying all over the sky again.

At this moment, Zhang Xiaowei seemed to have returned to the snowy day ten years ago.

He walked, and ran out barefoot to chase him.

He turned around and gently hugged himself up. The gentle look in his eyes made him unforgettable for the rest of his life.

He should have forgotten himself long ago, right?

If he can't forget, he should come to him. Doesn't it mean he doesn't know where to live?

"Dad, why are you crying?" Kaixin wiped Zhang Xiaowei's tears with her chubby hands.

"Papa will be unhappy sometimes." Zhang Xiaowei looked around and returned home with happiness.

In the evening, New Year's Eve dinner.

"Happy, call grandpa and grandpa, grandpa and grandma will give you lucky money." Zhang Xiaowei said to Kaixin.

"Grandpa, Happy New Year. Grandma, Happy New Year." Said happily and sweetly.

"Also, how can you congratulate me if you are happy?"

Happy clasped his hands together and bowed to Wei Ma and Wei Dad.

"Happy boy, my good granddaughter, let grandpa kiss you." Dad Wei embraced Happy, and took out a red envelope to give to Happy.

"Xiaowei, you can't let Kaixin depend on you so much, or you won't be able to work." Wei's mother said with a sigh.

"I know, let Kaixin sleep with you during the new year, and I will go to work after the year."

Zhang Xiaowei took a sip of chicken soup from the bowl.

"Xiaowei, you will be 28 years old during Chinese New Year, and you are not too young. We didn't force you to go on a blind date, and you didn't ask about your partner, but that doesn't mean we're not in a hurry."

"Stop talking, children don't like to hear it." Wei's father interrupted Wei's mother.

"Shut up quickly, and you will know how to be a good person in front of your son. Who told me last night that he wanted to have a grandson, how can a grandson come without a daughter-in-law." Wei's mother reciprocated.

"The child is old and not young, so he naturally knows how to deal with this matter. The fate has not come, the fate has not come." Wei's father said happily, laughing.

"Or send her back, with this little guy around, even a good girl won't treat you well." Wei's mother said suddenly.

"Mom, if you say that again, I won't be happy." Zhang Xiaowei put down his chopsticks and said solemnly, "Happy is my daughter, and my uncle also nodded and agreed. Who do you want me to give back to?"

"I'm going to be with Dad." Kaixin seemed to listen a little bit, and ran into Zhang Xiaowei's arms.

"Okay, Dad will take Happy out to set off fireworks, okay?"

"Okay, dad is the best." Happy embraced Zhang Xiaowei's neck and kissed him.

"Why do you say this in front of the child?" Seeing Zhang Xiaowei going out happily, Dad Wei reprimanded him.

"Hey, if you don't mention it, I won't mention it, Xiaowei is not in a hurry, is it just so exhausting?" Wei's mother complained.

"Happy, come and take this."

Zhang Xiaowei lit a firework stick and handed it to Kaixin. Kaixin took the firework stick and jumped around in the yard.

"Happy, keep it away, don't burn your clothes."

The two of them had a great time in the yard.

"Mom, I'm tired of playing happily, and I'm asleep now, I'll sleep with you tonight." Zhang Xiaowei held Happy and handed it to his mother.

"Think about what I told you tonight. Recently, there are quite a few people who have introduced you to someone." Wei's mother took it happily, and instructed again.

Zhang Xiaowei went back to the room and lay on the bed, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.

Thinking of Zhang Zhi, thinking of Li Hang, and thinking of happiness.

"Xiaowei, are you asleep?"

Zhang Xiaowei jumped up when he heard Wei's mother knock on the door, "Mom, what's the matter, are you happy and not sleeping?"

"Happy, something is wrong tonight. She sweated all night and has a fever all over her body. Did you take her out to play today and she caught a cold?" Wei's mother said.

"I'll go and have a look." Zhang Xiaowei immediately stepped into his parents' bedroom.

Zhang Xiaowei was lying on the kang, seeing Kaixin's face was pale, and his hair was wet with sweat on his face.

"Mom, you go get the thermometer, Dad, what time is it?"

"It's almost dawn, I'll go and see your sixth uncle?" Dad Wei sat up with his clothes on.

"Forget it, Sixth Uncle doesn't know how to look at children, so don't see what's good or bad. Let me see if Kaixin has a fever."

Zhang Xiaowei took the thermometer and put it into Kaixin's mouth.

"I do have a fever. Mom will give Kaixin some medicine first. I will call Qiangzi and ask him to drive us to Qingdao to have a look."

"Let me tell you, let you learn how to drive, it's convenient for you, but you have to ask someone, what a trouble."

"Well, I will study during the Chinese New Year, and I can come back anytime when I want to be happy."

"Be happy and drink sweet medicine."

Zhang Xiaowei hugged Kaixin and called Kaixin's name.

"Dad, I feel so bad." Happy woke up and started to cry.

"Father is here, he will not feel uncomfortable after taking the sweet medicine happily and obediently."

Zhang Xiaowei coaxed Happy to drink the medicine, and then coaxed her to fall asleep.

After a lot of tossing, the sky has turned slightly white.

"I'm going to call Qiangzi."

Early in the morning on the first day of the Lunar New Year, Qiangzi drove Zhang Xiaowei and Kaixin to Qingdao.

"What's wrong with being happy, isn't it good?" Qiangzi asked.

"I was sweating all over last night. I took medicine for her, but she still feels sweaty, high fever and low fever." Zhang Xiaowei looked at the pale and happy, and said distressed.

"Then you didn't call me earlier."

"On the first day of the new year, just think and be happy."

"Hey, the child can't delay when he's sick. Tell me, will the doctor from the hospital be there on the first day of the new year?" Qiang Zi asked.

"Before, Brother Zhi had some connections in the hospital, and I kept in touch with him. I called Dr. Wang. He asked about his happiness and said that he would make an appointment with a doctor to go to the hospital with him."

"Hey, it's been half a year in the blink of an eye. Brother Zhi must like Kaixin so cute and well-behaved." Qiangzi sighed.

Zhang Xiaowei didn't respond.

"Now it's your turn, are you going to live a lifetime of happiness?"

"I feel very good."

"What's the matter? You don't think about your family either."

"But I have to be responsible for my happiness, and others will not treat me well."

Zhang Xiaowei watched happily and quietly sitting in his arms, playing with a Rubik's Cube. Although he was not feeling well, he didn't cry or make trouble, so he lowered his head and kissed her on the forehead.

"Hey, you are still exactly the same as when you were a child. You made up your mind and walked all the way to the dark."

When he arrived at the hospital, Zhang Xiaowei found Dr. Wang and gave him happiness.

"Happy, listen to Grandpa Wang's words, your body will recover soon."

Nod happily and sensiblely.

Dr. Wang performed a full-body examination happily.

Zhang Xiaowei sat outside anxiously waiting for the result.

After examining Kaixin, Zhang Xiaowei wandered around the hospital with Kaixin, waiting for the results.

"Dad, I don't like this place, let's go home." Said happily and aggrieved.

"In a while, I'll take my happiness home, okay?"

A few hours later, Zhang Xiaowei sat in Dr. Wang's office and saw that Dr. Wang's usual easy-going smile was gone.

Zhang Xiaowei's heart trembled, and he asked, "Doctor Wang, are you happy?"

"Oh, I'm afraid the condition is not optimistic." Dr. Wang said with a sigh.

"What?" Zhang Xiaowei shuddered all over, "Doctor Wang, I'm happy all the time, what's wrong?"

"Did she have anorexia before? Did she have a nosebleed before?"

"Well, yes, but she has a loss of appetite. I thought she was eating snacks, so she lost her energy when eating. She had a nosebleed. I thought it was because she ate too much longan and got angry. What's the matter?" ?”

"Loss of appetite, nosebleeds, sweating, low-grade and high-grade fever. When you called me this morning, I guessed it was leukemia. The test report has come out. It is leukemia, and it is already very serious." Dr. Wang stroked the happy little girl. face, said with a sigh.

"Leukemia? How come? Her parents don't have this kind of disease." Zhang Xiaowei yelled.

"It's not an infectious disease. In fact, our hospital has received several cases of leukemia in children last year. It's all because when their mothers were pregnant, the house they lived in had problems with decoration, containing benzene, formaldehyde and other toxic materials. The cause of leukemia. I guess the place where this happy mother lived when she was pregnant must have seriously exceeded the standard of formaldehyde and benzene, so happy's condition is so serious."

"Formaldehyde, benzene, decoration materials." Thinking of these, Zhang Xiaowei shuddered.

The house Zhi Lei lived in when she was pregnant was renovated by Ren Jian. Could it be that Ren Jian did such a frenzied act in order to get revenge on Zhang Zhi.

He knew Ren Jian's vengeance was absolutely true.

Brother Zhi, this matter has led wolves into the house.

"Doctor Wang, what should I do? I'll listen to you." Zhang Xiaowei tried to calm himself down and said.

"Immediately be hospitalized for observation. Now the best treatment for leukemia is bone marrow transplantation, but immediate family members are the best. It is easy to match successfully in that way. But in this situation, I am afraid that it will be much more difficult. Before finding the matched bone marrow , to receive chemotherapy to suppress cancer cells.” Dr. Wang explained the situation to Zhang Xiaowei.

Zhang Xiaowei took a deep breath and nodded, "Go through the hospitalization procedures immediately."

a month later.

The happy hair fell out, which is the most intuitive reaction after chemotherapy.The original long black hair turned into a small bald head.It made Zhang Xiaowei feel bitter and uncomfortable watching it.

But what makes Zhang Xiaowei even more uncomfortable is that it may be because Kaixin's condition is relatively serious, and chemotherapy did not have the desired effect.

"Happy's illness can't be delayed any longer. The sooner the leukemia is treated, the better the recovery will be. But there is nothing we can do without matching bone marrow." Dr. Wang said with a sigh.

"Doctor, is there no other way besides bone marrow transplantation? I saw on the Internet that there are cases of successful recovery without bone marrow surgery."

"The possibility of success in that kind of case is relatively small, and I don't think you are willing to try with a happy name. But now that you have mentioned this, I really know that a doctor performed an operation on a patient with advanced leukemia, and the patient recovered. Not bad. This report is still in the news, but this doctor is young and promising. He is the best and youngest leukemia expert in China. He has studied abroad and only returned to China last year. But the price of a person like him must be very expensive. , generally don’t perform surgery on ordinary people, and you can’t make an appointment. If you can invite him, it’s okay to be happy.”

"Can you contact him for me? I saved some money, and Brother Zhi also left some for Kaixin. Even if he sells iron, he must be healed by Kaixin."

"I really have a business card of his. I attended a lecture at the end of last year, and I was lucky enough to meet him. He was humble and polite, and gave me a business card. I'll find it for you." Dr. Wang opened the drawer and picked it up from the card holder. He found a business card and handed it to Zhang Xiaowei, "Remember the phone number and return the business card to me. His signature is on it."

Zhang Xiaowei felt unsteady when he saw the business card.

The name of the person above is Li Hang, whom I think about day and night, and I can recite that number by heart.

"What's wrong?" Dr. Wang asked in surprise, looking at the pale and trembling Zhang Xiaowei.

"It's okay, Dr. Wang, I'm happy to be discharged from the hospital now." Zhang Xiaowei grabbed Dr. Wang and asked.

"Yes, just finished chemotherapy, you can go back to rest for a few days, but it's better to be in the hospital, you can check at any time. Where is the doctor now?"

"I've been in Changsha. Yesterday he held a lecture in Changsha. There were no seats left. A colleague of mine also went there and said he benefited a lot. Well, I've been in Changsha for the past few days. You don't want to go to him, do you? You said, you'd better get in touch with him in advance. Otherwise, you're just looking for a needle in a haystack, and you can't try your luck like this." Dr. Wang shook his head and said.

"Okay, thank you, Dr. Wang, I'm going to discharge Kaixin from the hospital right away." Zhang Xiaowei ran out after finishing speaking, took out his phone, and pressed a series of numbers, but he didn't have the courage to call.

He sighed and called Qiangzi, "Qiangzi, send me to the airport immediately. I'm going to Changsha!"

"I'm on my way to the hospital, I'll be there soon, just wait a moment."

Zhang Xiaowei returned to the ward, hugged Kaixin excitedly, and left two lines of tears.

"Mom, pack your things and leave the hospital. I want to take Happy to Hunan, right away."

"I can't be discharged from the hospital. What are you going to do in Hunan? You can't run back and forth when you're happy."

"I'm going to find a doctor. I'm going to find a doctor who can save Kaixin. I'm going to find him." Zhang Xiaowei explained a few words.

"Father, I don't look good like this, I don't want to go out." Happy touched his bald head and pouted.

"Dad has prepared a wig for you, and you will look as beautiful as before when you put it on." Zhang Xiaowei took out a wig from his bag, put it on Happy's head, and said with a smile, "Will Dad take you by plane?"

"Really, Dad is the best." He jumped up happily.

Just, how should I face that person?

What would he look like now?

Zhang Xiaowei sighed again.