worthless [rebirth]

Xiaotao didn't know when Chen Ling would come back, so she was so happy when she saw Chen Ling, she trotted up to meet him, and said, "Your Highness, you are back!" Then she saw Jiang Chi beside Chen Ling, and realized that she had forgotten She was the first to pay her respects, she was so frightened that she took a step back and knelt down to salute, saying: "Your servant is rude, I beg the emperor to punish you."

"It's okay." Jiang Chi said calmly, motioning Xiao Tao to get up, and did not convict him.

"..." Xiaotao couldn't understand, the emperor wasn't so good-tempered before.

"Get up, Xiaotao." Chen Ling smiled lightly and pulled Xiaotao up from the ground.

"After traveling for so long, let's go back to the house and have a rest." Jiang Chi said, and naturally took Chen Ling's hand.

Chen Ling turned his head to look at Jiang Chi, with a warm smile on his face, and the two entered Fengwu Palace talking and laughing together.

Xiaotao consciously retreated to the side, lowered her head and secretly observed the two masters from the corner of her eye. She always felt that the harmonious painting style was a little different from before leaving the palace, and much more intimate.

Chen Ling also looked brighter and brighter than before. No matter what, she still hoped that Chen Ling would be happy.

Jiang Chi sat in Fengwu Palace for a while, chatting about what he had seen and heard on the way, and his servants brought lunch, and he and Chen Ling ate together before leaving.

Jiang Chi had never been away from the palace for such a long time since he took the throne.I was away from the palace for a month. Although some loyal veterans such as Lu He had been arranged in advance to manage the government on their behalf, they could not handle everything on behalf of the emperor after all, and the accumulated affairs had reached the point where they could not be delayed any longer.

Chen Ling knew that Jiang Chi would be busy for a few days just after returning to the palace, so he was very considerate and stayed in Fengwu Palace not to disturb Jiang Chi.Before Jiang Chi mentioned that he wanted Chen Ling to move to Chengqian Palace, it happened that during this time, Chen Ling could calm down and think about whether there was anything in Fengwu Palace that belonged to him that he wanted to take to Chengqian Palace.

As long as he could leave Fengwu Palace, Chen Ling didn't plan to come back.

After packing up during the day, at night, Chen Ling went to Fengwu Palace's own small kitchen to simply cook a few small dishes for Jiang Chi and send them to the Imperial Study Room as a supper.

Every time Jiang Chi went there, he had an endless amount of official documents on hand. Looking at the faint blue color around his eyes, Chen Ling knew that he must have not slept well the night before, and felt a little distressed.

The sound of cicadas chirping at night is a bit noisy.Chen Ling was rubbing ink for Jiang Chi, watching him eat the food he made, and the two of them inadvertently met their eyes and smiled at each other. There was a rare peace and warmth in Chen Ling's heart.

After supper, Chen Ling wanted to take away the tableware. Jiang Chi took his hand and pulled him into his arms, let Chen Ling sit on his lap, and said, "You've worked hard."

"What's the trouble?" Chen Ling smiled, leaning on Jiang Chi's chest with An Xin, and tilted her head slightly, "It's you, you are so tired these days that you are even thinner than when you just came back from Chaozhou. What kind of supper do you want to make your meat grow back."

"What to eat to make up for..." With his chin resting on Chen Ling's shoulder, Jiang Chi said in a low voice, "Zi Ling, why don't you go tonight..."

"Don't you still want to criticize the memorial?" Chen Ling shrank his neck when his ears were itchy from Jiang Chi's hot breath.

"The memorial can never be finished, but how can a good night be easily let down?" Jiang Chi said, his voice a little hoarse.

"Ah Chi...don't..." Chen Ling hid, his ears were red, he was about to get off Jiang Chi's lap, and said, "I, I'm going to clean up the tableware."

"No need, someone will clean it up tomorrow morning." Jiang Chi said, he hugged Chen Ling horizontally, left the stack of papers on the dragon case and walked to the side hall.

"Umm~ Ah, Chi~ Uh..."

When they reached the bedside, their breathing was already unsteady, and their clothes were half-opened. Jiang Chi put Chen Ling on the bed, and the gauze curtain fell, blocking the beauty of the room.

……

"Zi Ling, do you know why I insisted on asking you to stay today?"

The hot atmosphere in the room hadn't faded yet. Chen Ling was lying on the wide dragon bed, his back sore. Fortunately, Jiang Chi let him go in the end. He was embraced by Jiang Chi. Chen Ling controlled his heavy eyelids to prevent them from fighting. Make a nasal sound: "Why... what?"

Jiang Chi stretched out his hand and scratched Chen Ling's nose lovingly, and said with a smile, "Maybe I never told you before that tomorrow is my birthday..."

"Birthday?" Chen Ling was taken aback, and his sleepiness subsided a little.Indeed, he didn't know when Jiang Chi's birthday was. Jiang Chi might have told him about it in his previous life, but how could he have cared about it at that time?Seeing Jiang Chi looking at him expectantly now, explaining that it was his birthday, Chen Ling guessed what the other person was thinking, couldn't help smiling, and said, "What birthday gift do you want from me?"

"Yeah, my son Ling is really smart." Jiang Chi praised Chen Ling without hesitation, kissed the corner of his mouth and said, "I want to sleep with you tonight, and every night from now on... I want to see you as soon as I open my eyes... So, you can move to Chengqian Palace tomorrow."

"So simple?" Chen Ling was surprised. He thought Jiang Chi would make such an exaggerated and unreasonable request, but he didn't expect it to be just this.

Jiang Chi hugged Chen Ling in his arms like a baby, and said softly, "It's not easy. I not only want your person, but also your heart. It's difficult. Ziling, do you think I'm too greedy?" ?”

"It's quite greedy." Chen Ling nodded and joked.

Jiang Chi suddenly became nervous, held Chen Ling's face in his hands, looked at him seriously, and said, "Say it again."

Chen Ling laughed "poof" and said, "I'm teasing you." He took the initiative to lean forward and kissed the corner of Jiang Chi's mouth, and said with a smile, "I will satisfy you, no matter what your request is, I will satisfy you!"

"..." Jiang Chi's heart moved slightly, his fingertips lightly covered Chen Ling's smiling eyes, and he murmured softly, "Although you said that...but I'm still afraid...I'm afraid that God will hate my greed and refuse to give it to me." so many…"

Chen Ling didn't speak, but put his hands around Jiang Chi's waist and wrapped them around him.

Jiang Chi said he was afraid, so why wasn't he?Comparing the beauty of today with the misery of the previous life, everything seems so unrealistic, and the beauty is like a dream.

Chen Ling was afraid that he was too greedy, that God would not give him so much, and that all the beauty would be taken back overnight by God.

***

In the past few days, Chen Ling had already spared some time to organize the things that were going to be brought to Chengqian Palace, just waiting to be moved there.

In fact, Chen Ling didn't have much to bring with him, it was nothing more than a few clothes he brought when he left the country, a few play books he liked to read, and some small toys that Xiao Tao made to amuse him when he was injured and bedridden. , with a small wooden box one foot square.

"Your Highness, let's go now...Are you still a little bit reluctant?" Xiao Tao said, after living in Fengwu Palace for so long, Xiao Tao couldn't help feeling a little sad when she left.

Chen Ling has nothing to miss here, but when he thinks back to the little things he used to be here, he also feels emotional in his heart. Seeing that Xiaotao is reluctant to part with it, he comforts him: "In the future, if you are still by my side, even if you go to Chengqian Palace, I will protect you. with you."

"Your Highness." Xiao Tao said gratefully.

Jiang Chi had to leave the court to finish dealing with the matters at hand before coming to pick up Chen Ling, so before that, Chen Ling stayed in Fengwu Palace for a few hours.Seeing that he was about to leave, Chen Ling always felt a little uneasy, as if something important had been left here.

"Chengqian Palace is very close to the lotus pond, so we can go to see the flowers in the future." Xiaotao said, "So there are many advantages to not living in Fengwu Palace~"

"Lotus..." Chen Ling was stunned for a moment, and suddenly remembered that Jiang Chi once drew him a picture in Lingyun Pavilion, a bright young man, a splendid lotus, and the inscription "I wish to win the heart of one, and the white head will never be apart" .

He always thought that the thing he had forgotten was the painting.

It's just that the word "Xiangli" was not inscribed by him at the beginning, so the portrait is still an unfinished "remnant painting".The bright young man with a smile like the warm sun in the painting was Jiang Chi's expectation for himself. He hoped that he would be happy forever, so he painted the young man in the painting as a smiling face.

Thinking of this, Chen Ling felt warm in his heart.

"I wish to win the hearts of the people, and the white heads will never be separated..." After reading this poem lightly, Chen Ling said: "Xiao Tao, do you still remember that I asked you to put up a painting, where did you put it?"

"Is it the painting sent by the emperor?" Xiaotao asked, "I put it in the study, why, is it important? Do you want to take it away together?"

Chen Ling nodded seriously, and said, "It's very important."

"The servant girl will look for it right away." Saying that, Xiaotao was about to run to the study.

"No need, I'll go by myself." Chen Ling called her, and said, "You go find some pens and inks, I'll write inscriptions on the drawings later."

The promise owed to Jiang Chi at the Lingyun Pavilion, today is his birthday, so repaying him now, it is considered complete.

There are a lot of miscellaneous books in the study, so it's no wonder that Xiao Tao accidentally took a book of "Longyang Dancesleeves" as an opera book for him to read.Chen Ling found a few bookshelves and soon found a painting box, which was covered in dust. It seemed that the size of the box was just enough to hold the painting that Jiang Chi had painted for him.

Picking up the painting box and gently blowing off the dust on it, Chen Ling carefully took out the painting and opened the scroll little by little.

I saw a young man painted on the flat canvas. Although that man did not say that he was completely similar to Chen Ling, he still had nine points.

Big and bright eyes, light eyebrows, moderately thick lips, long jet-black hair with a few tufts pulled up on the top, lively and full of vigor, especially the raised corners of the young man's mouth, which makes the viewer feel happy .

Chen Ling stared blankly at the painting, imagining how happy he should look in Jiang Chi's eyes, and couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth.Jiang Chi treated him very well. If he hadn't been reborn, if he hadn't let go of the past, he might never have the chance to know that Jiang Chi could treat him so tenderly, love him, and protect him...

But when the picture scroll was opened little by little, the smile on Chen Ling's lips froze a little bit.

"If you don't love love in your life, you will love it, and you will hurt lovesickness. The body is like floating clouds, the heart is like flying catkins, and the breath is like gossamer."

What is written on the painting is not "Baitou Yin" at all, but "Acacia Fu"!This is not the one Jiang Chi painted for him!

why?Chen Ling was a little flustered, and opened the painting completely with trembling hands, only to see that the inscription clearly read "Given to Ziling by Emperor Jing in the 39th year, in memory of this, I hope to be with you forever", and there was another small stamp with the word "heng" engraved on it. .

"The 39th year of Emperor Jing" was five years ago. "Heng" was Jiang Chi's title when he was still the crown prince, and "Zi Ling"...Chen Ling would not deceive himself into thinking that he was referring to himself.

"Why is this...why...why..." Chen Ling murmured to himself while holding the painting, then rummaged through the bookshelf like crazy, even if he pushed the book to the ground, he yelled in a low voice : "Where...where..."

He was looking for the one that Jiang Chi drew for him, and he wanted to prove that he had misremembered, the one Jiang Chi drew was different from the one in his hand!When Jiang Chi was painting at the Lingyun Pavilion, he was looking at Chen Ling in his eyes, thinking about him in his heart, and he was also painting on the paper!

Not "Zi Ling"!Not the "Zi Ling" in this painting!

"It's not like this...it's not..." Chen Ling rummaged through every corner of the study, knocking down the bookshelf several times.

"Ah! Uh!" Tripped by the fallen bookcase, Chen Ling fell to the ground, his palms were scratched and burned, but he didn't care about the wounds, because there was a painting box on the ground, which was bigger than before. That one is newer.

"..." Chen Ling crawled over, hugged the painting box in his arms, and carefully wiped off the dust with his sleeve, "No...I'm not..." He said to himself, but he didn't have the courage to open the painting box.After a long time, the desire to prove himself still prevailed, so he took it out to draw and opened it.

"No!" Chen Ling yelled and threw the painting far away.Exactly the same, except for the different inscriptions, the above tasks and scenery are exactly the same!

No wonder the crooked "Ling" character is engraved on the pillar of Lingyun Pavilion.

No wonder Jiang Chi finished the painting without a few strokes, without even looking at him.

Because Lingyun Pavilion is a place Jiang Chi and "Zi Ling" often go to, and the person in the painting is always in his heart, so there is no need to look at Chen Ling!

Having been called "Zi Ling" by Jiang Chi for too long, Chen Ling almost forgot that the word "Zi Ling" was the name given by Jiang Chi when he came to Jiang Guo as a proton, it was a fake!If it wasn't for this painting, he would have forgotten his original name "Chu Ling", the days and nights of Yuanhua Palace, and all the things Jiang Chi had done to him, and he would have lived himself as another person!

"Achi, there is no Mo Ziling in the imperial capital, Xiao Wang won't believe it."

"No, he will believe it!"

At that time, Jiang Chi dared to be so sure because there was such a person as "Mo Ziling".

That being the case, why did you come to provoke him?

"With all my life, I only want Ziling alone."

"Zi Ling, can we have a long life?"

"Zi Ling, I'm not willing to leave you alone, so how can I be willing to leave before you?"

"Zi Ling..."

"Zi Ling..."

"Achi, I still fall in love with you after all. I love you, Achi..."

Why, after reliving his life, when he was finally willing to let go of everything, let go of the engraved hatred, and even let go of himself...to love desperately once, he found that everything he had suffered did not belong to him?Including love and hate?

Jiang Chi, the one you love is Mo Ziling, right... The one you have to pursue hard, even if it hurts, you must stay by your side at all costs.

So what am I?A substitute, a stand-in you use to chat with?

I knew you were Jiang Chi, my name is Chen Ling, we will be Ling Chi when we are together.However, I did not expect that this torture would come so quickly and be so painful.

"It's so hard for me to fall in love with you... I'd rather hate myself than love you... But... why did this result..." Looking at the two identical paintings in front of him, Chen Ling slowly tightened his fingers, feeling so disgusted, I wish I could tear up these two paintings, I wish I could tear up that humble self in the dust.Why did he fall in love with Jiang Chi, why did he humiliate himself like this, and live himself as a substitute?

"Why...Jiang Chi, tell me, why did you treat me like this...why...uh...puh——" A suffocation welled up in his chest, his throat felt sweet, and Chen Ling couldn't hold back the "wow" from spitting out blood.

When the blood mist covered his vision and it was getting dark, Chen Ling saw two paintings on the ground. The figures of the young man in the paintings gradually overlapped and turned into one person.Puckering the corners of his lips, Chen Ling smiled idiotically, but in his heart and eyes, there was a desolation where not even a blade of grass grew, something was withering and dying quickly...

He knew that it was his heart, and his love for Jiang Chi, which had grown wildly since the moment he emerged.

It doesn't matter if you die, Chen Ling thought, if you die, you won't be stupid again, and you won't feel pain anymore.