worthless [rebirth]

Xiaotao came back with the pen and ink, but she didn't see Chen Ling after waiting for a long time. She thought that perhaps the study was too messy and Chen Ling couldn't find the painting, so she wanted to go to the study to help find it.

After walking two steps, she saw Chen Ling come back, but she was terrified by his appearance.

I saw that Chen Ling's clothes were scratched, the jade crown that bound his hair was crooked, his hair was scattered and his eyes were dull, his whole body was disheveled, and there was even a line of blood hanging from the corner of his pale face and mouth hanging on his chin.He held a painting in his hand, and walked in a distraught step by step, not even realizing that Xiao Tao was already beside him.

"Your Highness?" Xiaotao didn't know what happened to make Chen Ling become like this, she was so afraid that there was a hint of crying in her voice, and said, "What's wrong with you?"

"I..." After being pulled by Xiaotao, Chen Ling came back to his senses and gave her a dull look, only to realize that he had returned to the main hall at some point.

"Your Highness, what's wrong with you?" Xiao Tao asked again, "How did you get hurt like this?"

"It's okay..." Chen Ling said in a daze, "I accidentally tripped...and fell to the ground."

"Why did you fall so hard that your mouth was broken..." Xiaotao didn't doubt that she had it, and said distressedly: "Young maidservant, let's find a doctor to come and have a look."

"No, I'm fine." Chen Ling said slowly, except for his mouth moving, his face was almost still.

Xiaotao felt that Chen Ling was a little weird after he came back, as if he had changed, which made her a little scared.But obviously looking at the original Chen Ling and not someone else, he felt that maybe he was thinking too much.Seeing the painting in Chen Ling's hand, he remembered that Chen Ling said that he wanted to write an inscription on it, so he said, "Your Highness, I have prepared the pen and ink. Now that you have found the painting, do you want to write an inscription now?"

"The inscription...?" Chu Ling repeated it dumbfoundedly, looking down at the scroll that he was clutching so tightly that he wanted to crush it, and then at the pen, ink, paper and inkstone that Xiaotao had prepared, "Hehe..." He let out a sad laugh , coolly said: "Yes, there is an inscription. Today is his birthday, Ziling...should send him a congratulatory gift."

"As long as His Highness gives it, the emperor will like it no matter what it is." Xiao Tao laughed, and ran to the desk to grind ink for Chen Ling excitedly.

……

"I not only want your people, but also your heart. It's difficult. Ziling, do you think I'm too greedy?"

……

Jiang Chi, you are indeed too greedy.Since you miss your Ziling in your heart, why do you want my heart?Do you deserve it?

But why does his heart feel so uncomfortable when he thinks that he is just a substitute in Jiang Chi's heart, determined to hate him, and let go of all the love that has just sprouted... It's as if a blunt knife is stabbing his heart, If it bleeds, do it again, but it will hurt.

Jiang Chi, I feel bad, you know?

"The emperor's painting really looks like you!" Looking at the boy in the painting, Xiaotao exclaimed in admiration.

Chen Ling didn't even know that he had already spread the paintings on the desk and took a pen to write the inscriptions.Hearing Xiaotao's admiration, he paused, and "pop" a little thick ink dripped on the painting, and the lower corner of the boy's right eye looked like tears.Chen Ling came back to his senses, and said lightly, "You think so too?"

"No, except that the person in the painting is smiling, but you don't smile often, everything else is exactly the same!" Xiaotao said.

"Even you realize that I don't smile often. He and I...heh..." Chen Ling shook his head, dipped his ink again, added the word "phase away" after Jiang Chi's unfinished poem in the past, and sighed: "Only we The two are just deluding themselves."

"Deceive yourself?" Xiao Tao was puzzled, and repeated it in doubt, tilting her head to look at Chen Ling.

Chen Ling didn't answer, looking at the two characters Juanxiu on the painting, Chen Ling thought maybe it was already destined.Jiang Chi sought to be "one person with a white head", and Chen Ling was destined to "separate" from him.

If it's for love, he can abandon himself, put down his hatred and stay by Jiang Chi's side.But knowing that he was just a substitute in the other party's heart, if he could pretend to be nonchalant and deceive himself and continue to stay, then Chen Ling would not only hate Jiang Chi, but also himself.

Withdrawing his thoughts, Chen Ling dried up the ink, rolled up the scroll and handed it to Xiaotao, saying: "When the emperor comes, I will give this to him. I am a little tired...go to rest."

"Your Highness, don't you want to hand it over to the emperor?" Xiaotao said.

Yu.

Hee.

alone.

Family.

"No need to see you anymore." Chen Ling said slowly, turned around and walked towards the inner hall, "Xiao Tao, get someone to bring some hot water, I want to take a bath."

"Yes, Your Highness." Xiao Tao said, Chen Ling's messy appearance really needs to be cleaned up, I really don't understand that a fall can be so serious, it seems that half of the spirit has been lost.

Soon, several young eunuchs brought hot water. After the people left, Chen Ling loosened her hair, took off her clothes, and slowly sat in the tub.

Picking up a handful of hot water and pouring it on his body, the warm water slowly slid across his skin. It was clearly clear water, clean and transparent, but he felt extremely dirty, so dirty that it made people want to vomit.

Every inch of his body, every wound, has been played with by that man.Some were forced, some were voluntary, and even in the end, he and Jiang Chi asked and begged.

"It's so dirty..." Chen Ling murmured, grabbed a cloth towel and rubbed it hard on his body, as long as his arms could reach it, he rubbed it desperately until his delicate skin was red and torn, but he still refused to stop .Looking at a red scratch on his arm, he felt a little dazzling, so he wiped it even more desperately, trying to erase the redness, but the more he rubbed, the redder it became, and the wound grew bigger and bigger.

"Dirty... so dirty!" Chen Ling stubbornly competed with himself, as if he was desperately trying to vent something, he didn't care about rubbing, and there was a breath of anger in his heart. If he didn't vent it, he felt that he might will go crazy.

In fact, he has gone mad.Imagining the whip marks from the past, imagining the tragic death of Xiaotao in the snow, imagining the golden chains, imagining the tragic scene of the country being ruined and the family destroyed... Finally, all of them turned into a painting, in which the boy smiled like a warm sun!

"Why?! Why?! Ah!" Seeing that he couldn't clean the marks on his body, he threw the cloth towel out angrily, and slapped the water with his hands, causing a series of splashes, "Why did you do this to me? I did something wrong. What, what did I do wrong... Is it because of the face..." For a moment, he was stunned and stopped moving.

The water surface gradually calmed down, and the clear water surface was like a mirror, reflecting Chen Ling's face, a face full of resentment and madness, but it was so pale that it made people feel pity.

"That's right, that's it..." Chen Ling said, looking at the face in the water, he stretched out his hand to grab it, but it was just a reflection, and it broke as soon as he grabbed it, and when the water calmed down again, it reappeared, Chen Ling stared at the water angrily Looking at the face that was exactly the same as her own, she said coldly: "It's all you, why do you want to be like him, why..."

After several unsuccessful attempts, Chen Ling gradually calmed down.In fact, he knew in his heart that he was just wanting to vent his torment like this, and he was a little tired after tossing for too long, so he couldn't think about anything.

Leaning against the edge of the tub, Chen Ling slowly closed his eyes.

The King of Huainan built weapons privately, and the evidence of his intention to rebel has been well established. Jiang Chi is secretly laying out a plan to wipe out King Huainan's power in the court in one fell swoop.However, the other party is a veteran of the two dynasties, and the former emperor was highly regarded during his reign. Over the past few decades, the tree has deep roots in the court, and it cannot be eradicated overnight.

After retiring from the court, Jiang Chi summoned Lu He and other veterans, as well as Luo Feng and others, discussed the countermeasures, and went to Fengwu Palace to pick up Chen Ling at lunch time.

I had a good talk with Chen Ling last night. Today, that person will move to Chengqian Palace and live with him. Thinking of having Chen Ling by his side every night from now on, and seeing each other as soon as he opens his eyes in the morning, Jiang Chi because of After many days of heavy business, my mood is much lighter.

When he arrived at Fengwu Palace, Jiang Chi didn't see Chen Ling, but only saw Xiao Tao arranging Chen Ling's clothes in the yard, so he said, "Xiao Tao, are you here alone?"

"Back to the emperor, Your Highness went to pick up the painting in the morning, and fell down, feeling a little uncomfortable and sleeping in the room at the moment." Xiao Tao blessed her body and saluted Jiang Chi.

"Did you fall?" Jiang Chi's heart tightened, and he said, "Did the imperial doctor see it?"

"Your Highness said it's all right, it's just scratched." Xiao Tao said, remembering that Chen Ling said that she would give the painting to Jiang Chi, so she ran to the side to get the painting, and said, "Your Highness said that you are here and let the servants take this painting Here it is as a birthday present.”

"Painting?" Jiang Chi was taken aback for a moment, and took it over. Seeing that it was the one he had given to Chen Ling before, and seeing that "I wish to win a heart, the white head will not be separated" had been perfected by Chen Ling, he was very happy.He thought that Chen Ling had long forgotten to ask for an inscription, but he didn't expect that the other party remembered it all the time, and even wrote it!

"Okay, this is a good gift!" Jiang Chi smiled, wishing he could go and hang the painting in his bedroom so that he could see it all day long, but what he wanted to see most now was Chen Ling, so he said, "My son." Ling is still asleep now?"

"I've been asleep for two hours." Xiao Tao said, "When His Highness came back from the study, his complexion was not very good, and there was blood on the corner of his mouth. The servant girl said to ask the imperial doctor to take a look, don't fall hard, but His Highness won't let you... "

"Blood?" Jiang Chi frowned, suddenly feeling uneasy.Handing the painting to Xiao Tao, he said: "You take it first." Then he quickly knocked on the door, knocking and saying: "Zi Ling, Zi Ling?"

"..." No one in the room responded.

Xiaotao said: "Your Majesty, Your Highness said that he doesn't want to be disturbed..."

"Zi Ling, are you still sleeping?" Jiang Chi patted the door a few times and found that the door was locked, feeling more and more uneasy. Regardless of Xiao Tao's stop, he kicked the door open and walked quickly to the bed. Sure enough, The quilts were neatly folded and there was no one on the bed.

Xiaotao followed in, and when she saw that there was no one on the bed, she yelled "Yeah", and said, "Why is there no one? Your Highness clearly said that he would rest after taking a bath?"

"Bath?" Jiang Chi glanced at Xiaotao, walked quickly behind the screen, and saw that the clear water in the bathtub was stained red with blood, while Chen Ling's body was covered with scratches and he had already been unconscious, with long jet black hair Laying on the surface of the water, his nose and mouth were already submerged below the surface of the water. He gasped for breath, and quickly grabbed Chen Ling's shoulders to fish him out of the water.He turned around and shouted: "Xiao Tao! Call the imperial doctor!"

Then he tore off his dragon robe, wrapped it around Chen Ling, and carried him to the bed, his voice trembling in panic, "Zi Ling, you can't, you can't have something to do, Zi Ling..."

Xiaotao cried in fright, and ran to preach to the imperial physician.

Putting Chen Ling on the bed, Jiang Chi checked his breathing and pulse, and he was not relieved until he was sure that he was still alive.Immediately pressing Chen Ling's chest and abdomen, he said in a trembling voice, "Zi Ling, it's okay...it's okay, I won't allow you to have anything to do..."

"Cough! Cough!" Chen Ling coughed a few times, and suddenly spit out a few mouthfuls of water, "Uh—cough!"

"Zi Ling!" If you can spit out the choked water, it means you're fine. Jiang Chi was so excited that before Chen Ling fully woke up, he pulled him into his arms and hugged him tightly, almost rubbing into his flesh. .Caressing Chen Ling's back, Jiang Chi was so frightened that he could speak incoherently, he said, "I'm scared to death, what if I'm late, you scared me to death, it's okay... just be okay"

"..." After waking up, Chen Ling's mind was still a little blank. Jiang Chi hugged him so tightly that he couldn't breathe.Chen Ling raised his hand stiffly, but stopped when he was about to wrap his arms around Jiang Chi. If Jiang Chi loved him, it would be nice to hug him like this, but Chen Ling knew it wasn't.Gently pushing Jiang Chi, Chen Ling coughed, and said flatly, "I'm... I can't breathe."

"Well, okay, let me relax." Seeing that Chen Ling was caught, Jiang Chi hurriedly let go, pushed Chen Ling away a little, looked into his eyes, but the indifference in the other's eyes made him dazed Son.When he went to look again, but there seemed to be nothing there, Jiang Chi was a little uneasy, and said, "Why did you suddenly pass out?"

"It's just that I accidentally fell asleep while taking a shower." Chen Ling said calmly, turning his head to avoid Jiang Chi's burning gaze. The concern in the other party's eyes was so real and so deep. If he hadn't known that it didn't belong to him, Chen Ling would have almost Believe it or not.

"Asleep?" Jiang Chi was stunned for a moment, couldn't help laughing, pinched Chen Ling's nose, and said dotingly: "You are the only one who can do such a stupid thing." As he spoke, he grabbed Chen Ling's slender wrist, He took Yunnan Baiyao from the treasure shelf next to the bed, and asked while feeding him the medicine, "What about the scrape on the arm, could it be caused by falling asleep?"

Seeing that Jiang Chi was so kind to "myself", Chen Ling felt chills in his heart.Looking at Jiang Chi's serious side face when he was applying the medicine, Chen Ling sneered, and only said softly: "I feel dirty, so I washed it several times..."

"Snapped!"

Jiang Chi shook his hand, and the medicine bottle fell to the ground and broke in half.He turned his head stiffly. In Fang Chenling's eyes, he didn't know if it was an illusion. He saw the abyss in the other's dark eyes, the abyss where everything was buried, and his own reflection was reflected in it, cold and emotionless.

Is it an illusion?Jiang Chi felt that there was something wrong with Chen Ling, but in front of him, Chen Ling's face was so pale, his long hair like ink was still dripping, and his body was covered with scratches. He still looked like the fragile Ziling who made people feel distressed?

But is it really just an illusion?

"emperor."

Just when Jiang Chi wanted to look into Chen Ling's heart to see what happened, the imperial doctor came.

Jiang Chi put the dragon robe that was originally on Chen Ling on him, and wrapped Chen Ling before letting the imperial doctor in.

"Judging from the pulse rate, His Highness is just angry, and his pulse is a little unstable. It didn't hurt too much when he fell down, um...the lungs didn't choke... The old minister will prescribe a prescription for His Highness, but His Highness should pay attention to his mood these days. Be stable, don't have such violent emotions as great joy and sorrow..."

The imperial physician prescribed a prescription, and Xiaotao went to the imperial hospital to get the medicine.Jiang Chi kept lingering on the words "anxious and aggressive". He stared at Chen Ling, wanting an answer.

Chen Ling and Jiang Chi looked at each other. After a long time, he pulled up the corners of his lips to show a harmless smile, and said softly, "Ah Chi, I wish you a happy birthday. Did you see the gift I gave you?"

"I see." Jiang Chi nodded, sat on the edge of the bed, picked up the dry clothes and wiped the water from Chen Ling's hair, and said in a deep voice: "Compared with that, I want to know what the imperial doctor said about being anxious and angry." ?”

"Then do you like that gift?" Chen Ling asked with a smile, letting Jiang Chi gently rub his hair.

"I like it, as long as it is sent by Ziling, I like it." Jiang Chi said.

Chen Ling pulled Jiang Chi's hand, held Jiang Chi's arm and leaned against his arms, and said softly: "Ah Chi, can you... stop calling me 'Zi Ling'? I want to hear you call me name…"

"!" Jiang Chi was startled, and looked down at Chen Ling in his arms in surprise.

"Can I...?" Chen Ling smiled and asked again.

It's just that the smile fell on Jiang Chi's eyes, how miserable it was, Jiang Chi's heart throbbed violently.Caressing Chen Ling's pale cheek, Jiang Chi's lips trembled slightly, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end there was only one word "yes".

Jiang Chi lowered his head and grabbed Chen Ling's cool lips, "Ling'er...I love you..."

Heh, Jiang Chi, look, you are better at deceiving yourself than me...

Let it be like this, no one will expose anyone's lies, in the last few days, you pretended to regard me as Chen Ling, and I pretended to be "Zi Ling", that's it, until the end.

You said you would let me go, and I believed you.

Ah Chi, I will finally trust you again...

The author has something to say: PS: Let me explain, when Chen Ling said "I believe you for the last time", he meant that Jiang Chi said that if he wanted to leave, he would let him go when he was in Chaozhou.So now Chen Ling was just planning to leave, not that he was willing to believe that Jiang Chi loved him, but that Jiang Chi would let him go without joking.Since everyone doesn't really love each other, it's better to get together and break up.So...Chen Ling is going to run away for the first time after being reborn, um, it's not running away, but leaving Jiang Chi openly...