worthless [rebirth]

Walking slowly back to the side hall, Chen Ling stood by the bed, quietly looking at the person on the bed, his face was a little cold behind the golden mask.The face imprinted in memory has always been lofty, and has never been so pale and weak as before.

Jiang Chi's right leg was broken, the pipa bone was pierced, and there were countless other wounds, large and small, on his body.

Whether in the previous life or in this life.When Chen Ling hated Jiang Chi, he never thought that one day, what Jiang Chi owed him would be repaid with such an equal or even ridiculous equivalent.

It was Chen Ling who broke it before, but now it's Jiang Chi.In the past, Chen Ling was the hostage, but now Jiang Chi is the prisoner.All kinds, so the same, are surprisingly similar.

"Do you want to repay me in this way...?" Chen Ling murmured in a daze, stretched out his hand, Ruyu's fingertips slowly stroked the other's thin and pale cheek, "It's not enough...my love for you, you What do you pay for?"

"..." In the dream, there was a slight coolness on the cheek.Jiang Chi frowned, and unconsciously grabbed the hand that was caressing his cheek.

Chen Ling's heart trembled, and when he came back to his senses, he found that his fingertips were being gently held by Jiang Chi in his palm, and he was about to pull them back, but he didn't expect the other party to hold him even tighter, and his whole hand was tightly clenched Living.

"Ling'er...I'm sorry..." Jiang Chi was like a helpless survivor drowning in the depths of the sea, hugging the last piece of driftwood, tightly clutching Chen Ling's hand, his chapped and pale lips trembling, and spitting out a few words. A very light word, "Don't go..."

Hearing Jiang Chi's words, Chen Ling was stunned for a moment, then threw his hand away with mockery in his eyes, "Ling'er? Are you talking about me? Or Mo Ziling?"

"Yeah!" The violent movement touched the wound on his shoulder, Jiang Chi let out a muffled snort, and slowly opened his eyes, facing Chen Ling's eyes full of sarcasm.

"Ling... Ling'er?" Jiang Chi's eyes lit up when he saw Chen Ling the first time he woke up, but soon dimmed.Realizing that I had left the water dungeon and was lying on a soft bed, I knew why without thinking.

Chen Ling said that he hated him and blamed him, but he still wanted to treat him better in his heart.But this will only make Chen Ling struggle between "hate" and "love", making it even more painful.This...wasn't his original intention. He hoped that Chen Ling would hate and forget it completely, not the painful struggle of being so eager to love.

Looking at the golden mask on the other party's face, Jiang Chi only found it extremely ironic.It was he who was so wrong that he forced Chen Ling to this state.

"Ling'er, take off the mask... I want to see your face..." Jiang Chi tried his best to pull out a pale smile, his long and narrow eyes were no longer as sharp as before, and a little light flickered in them, he said in a low voice :"I miss you…"

Why?Why has he been hurt so thoroughly, facing Jiang Chi's hypocrisy at this moment, he still can't help but want to believe it.The position of the heart seemed to be filled with fresh hot blood, and it was beating so violently that Chen Ling couldn't bear it.

Taking a deep breath, Chen Ling tried to suppress the sharp pain in his heart.The corners of his mouth curled up, and he smiled coldly, "Jiang Chi, don't you think it's ironic? You want to see my face, is it exactly the same as Mo Ziling's? I'm your substitute who comes and goes when you call, When you miss him, come to me..."

"What if I don't know when I fall asleep and never wake up again? Ling'er, what do you want me to do with you?" Afraid that Chen Ling would say more hurtful and self-harming words, Jiang Chi blurted out.

"..." Chen Ling was stunned for a while, before he said coldly, "I won't believe you again."

"Heh——" Jiang Chi laughed lowly, mocking himself: "I should have known this would happen. I lied to you so much, you don't believe me... Cough, you should."

Chen Ling's voice slowed down a bit, "Did you know that you were poisoned by Spring Sleep?"

"I can't remember exactly," Jiang Chi smiled, "I just remember...you cooked blueberry oatmeal for me that day..." After a pause, he said: "At that time, I thought, I really want to be with you like this ...over a lifetime...'

"..." Standing by the bed, Chen Ling felt a little cold in his hands and feet.

……

"Don't move around, be careful not to spill it on your body! Jiang Chi, can't you have a quiet meal?"

"I just want to rely on you like this! Hanging with you forever!"

"Don't mind, I'm going to be exhausted after feeding you a meal. For the rest of my life, my God, I don't dare to think about it. Let go, I'll rub against you in a while."

"Don't let it go! Chen Ling, I really, really want to rely on you for the rest of my life."

……

The scene of feeding each other porridge can still be clearly remembered. Before that, Jiang Chi did pass out.When Chen Ling rushed to the study, the imperial physician had already treated him and said that he was just overworked.

For the next half month, Jiang Chi used the excuse of self-cultivation to accompany Chen Ling, whether it was reading books, visiting the imperial garden or going out of the palace.During those half a month, Jiang Chi spent the most time with him, and it was also the time when Chen Ling was happiest.

At that time...

"You always say that life is too long and we can't go on. But I don't believe it, you have been asking us to have a long life..." Jiang Chi's voice was hoarse, with an imperceptible sob: "But now... I have to believe it , Chen Ling... We really don't have a lifetime, a lifetime is so difficult... I'm almost, I can't go on..."

"Jiang Chi, you bastard!" Chen Ling growled, raised his hand and slapped Jiang Chi on the face, "Why, why do you say what you say? Have you considered my feelings? I won't believe you anymore , You liar! You say so much just to make yourself feel better, to trick me into taking off the mask, from the beginning to the end, you only love Mo Ziling!"

"No, you love only yourself!"

Jiang Chi didn't refute, he fixedly looked at Chen Ling, and said, "Will venting like this... make you happier?"

"No!" Chen Ling looked at the bright fingerprints on Jiang Chi's pale face, and said, "I hate you! I wish you could die!"

"Is that so..." Jiang Chi sighed, "I'm indeed dying...It's okay to hate me. It's just...Chen Ling...cough, can I ask you one thing..."

"..." Chen Ling didn't speak.

Jiang Chi said: "I beg you...to persuade your father to retreat, Ah Chao is still too young...Now that Jiang Guo is under the enemy, he can't handle it...cough cough..."

"Is this what you really want to say?" Chen Ling said, unable to detect any emotion.

Jiang Chi looked at Chen Ling, and said slowly, "Chen Ling, this is the only time in my life, and it should be the last time... Please..."

Chen Ling turned around and strode out. "Peng!" The door closed with a sound, leaving Jiang Chi alone in the room.

The man's legs were broken, so he didn't have to worry about running away, which saved Chen Ling a lot of trouble.

Leaning his back against the door, Chen Ling slowly slid to sit on the ground, his face hidden under the mask was already covered with tears, clear hot tears slid down his chin, drop by drop, onto his jaw palm.Accompanied by dots of mottled blood drops like blooming red plums, they fell to the ground.

"Hmm—" Chen Ling covered his heart, a line of blood dripped from the corner of his lips.He struggled to find a medicine bottle, poured out a few pills, and put them in his mouth.

In the ear, in a trance is Jiang Chi's sentence:

"But now... I have to believe it, Chen Ling... We really don't have a lifetime, it's so difficult... I'm almost, I can't go on..."

Raising his hand to wipe away the blood from his mouth, Chen Ling sat on the ground for a while before getting up, and said to a little eunuch, "You go to the Imperial Hospital and invite Doctor Zhang."

Then, Chen Ling went to the imperial dining room.

"See His Highness the Prince!" The eunuchs and cooks saw the Prince coming to the imperial dining room for the first time, and thought that the prince was here to inspect the work. They were terrified and kowtowed to salute, but they were all stopped by Chen Ling.

"I came here just to borrow the pots and stoves here, so you don't have to be so panicky." Chen Ling said lightly, "Go do what you have to do."

"Yes, Your Highness." Everyone hurriedly retreated and went to cook according to their duties.

Chen Ling took a casserole, filled it with water and rice, and said, "Are there any blueberries?"

"There are some." The eunuch in charge said, and handed over the blueberries.

Chen Ling pinched a few and sprinkled them in the pot, covered the lid, and kept guarding the stove.The small fire simmered for an hour and a half, until the fragrance of the porridge filled the entire imperial dining room, Chen Ling took a small cup, poured out the porridge, and carried it back to the East Palace.

At that time, the imperial physician had already arrived. After seeing Chen Ling, he saluted and said, "Your Highness."

Chen Ling nodded, and said, "Before you said... What is the chance of success in exchanging blood for blood?"

"The prince has found someone who shares his mind with that one?" said the imperial physician.

"Found it." Chen Ling said flatly.

The imperial physician sighed, and said: "Ah, in fact, this is not exchanging blood for blood, it is simply exchanging life for life. No one has tried it, and the old minister can't be sure of success."

"So...?" Chen Ling was slightly startled, looked down at the porridge in his hand, smiled, and said, "It doesn't matter, after he drinks the porridge, Doctor Zhang will give it a try."

"Yes, Your Highness." The imperial physician said, "But... who is this person? Willing to sacrifice for the person inside..."

Chen Ling didn't answer. Holding a small cup, he pushed open the door of the side hall.

At that moment, the world seemed to be so quiet that there was no more sound.The small cup containing the porridge fell to the ground, and the hot liquid splashed all over the floor.

The lake-blue thin quilt was soaked in blood, and the person lying on the bed remained motionless, with a white jade hairpin sticking out of his heart.

The hairpin was broken in the middle, and was later repaired with gold inlays. It was the hairpin that Chen Ling had seen in dreams many times, and Jiang Chi had always regarded it as a treasure.

"Ah...Ah...Ah..." Chen Ling found that he had lost the ability to speak, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't pronounce the word "Achi" completely.

It's been so long since he's called this endearing name that the word "Achi" stuck in his throat, until his blood surged, he opened his mouth wide and shouted silently, spouting a mouthful of blood, but still didn't make the slightest sound.

Every time Chen Ling took a step towards the bed, his legs trembled so much that he was about to fall down.After finally getting close, seeing the other party's pale and dead face, he finally fell to the ground.

Touching the hairpin that still carried the temperature of the other party's blood, Chen Ling wanted to pull it out, but was afraid that the blood would spurt out. He grabbed Jiang Chi's shoulder and shook it, wanting to call his name, but what made him even more frightened was Lost the ability to speak.

"Achi! Wake up! Achi, I know the detoxification method of Chunmian, you will be fine! Achi! Right?

Come on, I lied to you!I love you!I love you!I just wanted to save you... I was afraid that you would refuse to use my heart and soul to detoxify you, so I said those words to lie to you!I cooked blueberry porridge, ate the porridge and went to sleep, and you will be fine when you wake up...although...although I may have been... Chi, wake up and take a look at me... okay. "

There was no sound, Chen Ling shouted with all his strength, but it was in vain. After a long time, he twitched the corners of his mouth, reached out to take off the mask, moved his lips, and said silently: "Ah Chi, you are a liar, aren't you? Say you miss me? Then open your eyes... look at me..."

……

"Chen Ling... We really don't have a lifetime, it's so difficult... I'm almost, I can't go on..."

"Ah Chi, you are an idiot. In fact, I want to tell you that if you told me the truth earlier, I would give my whole life, even my life, to exchange for... a lifetime... a long, long, endless time in your heart..."

The author has something to say: it depends on the ending of be, so let’s end here, [couch]