worthless [rebirth]

"Chen Ling, since you know that once something is over, there is no turning back, so why force it? Let me go, and you too, okay?"

Looking at the medicine stains mixed with blood that he had sprayed on the ground, Chen Ling was taken aback.

"Your Highness." Cui'er was still kneeling on the ground, she was a little scared when she saw this, and said, "Your servant is going to teach the imperial physician?"

"Go and boil another bowl of medicine." Chen Ling said, not wiping the blood from the corner of his mouth, and letting it hang on his clean jaw.He turned his head to face Jiang Chi, but the other party didn't even look at him, feeling uncomfortable, Chen Ling laughed softly, "If it was still ten days ago, you would definitely feel distressed when you saw Ben Gong like this .”

Jiang Chi turned his head slowly, glanced at Chen Ling, his eyes paused for a moment on the scarlet chin, and then moved away.Reluctant to say anything, he closed his eyes.

"Heh—" Chen Ling laughed mockingly, but whether he was laughing at himself or Jiang Chi, only he knew.

Gently holding Jiang Chi's hand, the wound on the man's wrist that was cut during the blood exchange in the past has not yet healed, but he let him tear it open again last night.Now that the white gauze has been wrapped again, the blood seeps out, and the white cloth is glaring red.

Rubbing the somewhat rough white gauze with her fingertips, if possible, Chen Ling wanted to untie the gauze and watch Jiang Chi's blood drain from it little by little.He also exposed the wound in his heart, if he wanted to die, he could die together.It's better to die together than now, that person treats him indifferently.

However, the fingertips just paused on the gauze, and Chen Ling gave up without even pressing down hard.Jiang Chi's hands were a little cold, probably because of excessive blood loss, and his body temperature was always low.

Holding the skinny hand that was bigger than his own, he gently held it and sighed: "Jiang Chi, you are so cruel. It's only been ten days, you can't say no." Love, don't love..."

No one spoke after that. Jiang Chi closed his eyes and seemed to be asleep, but Chen Ling knew that he must not have slept, because the hand he was holding was getting colder and colder.

Even though it was the hottest time of summer, the hands of the two of them were colder than the other. They barely held each other, and no one would say who was warmer. It would only get colder and colder, but Chen Ling didn't want to let go.

Cui'er finally boiled a bowl of medicine again, and Chen Ling let go of Jiang Chi's hand.The blood stain at the corner of his mouth had already dried up, so he ignored it and took the medicine bowl again to feed Jiang Chi the medicine.

The blood was deliberately shown to Jiang Chi.

Bitter tricks, in his previous life, in order to win Jiang Chi's sympathy and trust, he used it countless times. He didn't hesitate to break his own leg, and he didn't hesitate to smear honey on himself to make the bear go crazy. He felt pain on the apex of his heart.

Chen Ling only found out today that there are many tricks out there... Sometimes it doesn't work.

Since the other party doesn't care, he doesn't need to care about it himself, so just take it with him, the pain is so painful that he is the only one, Jiang Chi doesn't care anymore.

"Take the medicine." Chen Ling took a spoonful of the medicine, tested the temperature on his lips, found that it was hot, blew on it, and brought it to Jiang Chi's mouth.

Jiang didn't go to pick it up.

Chen Ling pried open the man's closed mouth with all his strength, poured a spoonful of medicine into it, and said calmly: "Since feeding mouth-to-mouth is disgusting, just take it from the spoon. You don't want to talk to me." That's fine with me, but the idea of ​​seeking death should be stopped as soon as possible."

Some of the potion flowed out from the corner of Jiang Chi's mouth. Chen Ling wiped it off with a kerchief, and pressed his fingertips on the man's lips through the kerchief, lingered for a while, and then moved away.Filled the medicine again, Chen Ling said: "I can find a chain to bind your hands and feet, so that you can't move, and then take a funnel and forcefully pour all the soup into your stomach. But I don't want to Whatever you wish, don't force me to do it, okay?"

Jiang Chi visibly trembled, and slowly grasped the quilt with his hands.Chen Ling glanced down and saw it. Knowing that his words had worked, he poured a few spoonfuls of medicine and fed them. Jiang Chi opened his mouth obediently and drank it all.

When the medicine bowl was empty, Chen Ling asked Cui'er to take down the empty bowl. He wiped the medicine stains on Jiang Chi's mouth, seeing that Jiang Chi still didn't look at him, he was annoyed, and smiled angrily, "Jiang Chi Chi, what are you afraid of? So afraid that you don't even dare to open your eyes and look at me?"

Jiang Chi shook and opened his eyes.His eyes were dark, as if he couldn't see to the bottom.For the first time after waking up, he met Chen Ling's eyes. He said in a hoarse voice, "Go out, I'm tired."

Jiang Chi was finally willing to look at him, which made Chen Ling slightly stunned.It took a long time to come back to his senses, he put away his handkerchief, and said: "Since you are tired, go to bed. It is indeed getting late, I will go and turn off the lights, and I will stay with you tonight."

Jiang Chi's eyes widened suddenly, and the moment Chen Ling got up to blow the lamp, he growled in a low voice: "Chen Ling!"

After a pause, he hid all the lonely and sad emotions in his eyes, and then Chen Ling turned around, smiling coldly, and raised the corner of his mouth, "This is the East Palace, and no one else cares about which palace I stay overnight in." No way."

Jiang Chi clenched the quilt tightly, closed his eyes and stopped talking. Under the light of the dancing candlelight, his face became paler.

Chen Ling blew out the lamp, and the sudden darkness made him a little uncomfortable, and he felt dizzy for a while, but it might be because he had lost half of his blood and hadn't recovered, and his body was weak.

Holding on to the lampstand for a while, the feeling of dizziness finally eased, and his eyes adapted to the darkness in the room. Following the moonlight, he walked to the bedside.

The bed is very wide, and it is not a problem to lie three or four people.Jiang Chi slept on the outside, so Chen Ling chose to lie on his inner side.

In order to feed him the medicine, Chen Ling stayed by Jiang Chi's bed all afternoon. He himself had just woken up and was weak, so he was just trying to hold on.After the lights were turned off, there was no need to cover up all his fragility. He lay down exhausted, and he didn't even have the strength to take off his clothes.

The moment Chen Ling lay down, Jiang Chi's reaction was visibly stiff. He lay flat, motionless, even breathing lightly.At this time, a cold hand came over in the darkness and gently held his.I couldn't tell whose hand was cooler, so we held each other like that.Jiang Chi froze for a moment and wanted to withdraw his hand.

"Don't worry, I won't do anything to you tonight." Chen Ling squeezed Jiang Chi's fingertips with a little force, and didn't want to let go, but there was a trace of fatigue in his voice, lazy, as if tired He said, "You're tired, and I'm tired too."

Jiang Chi stopped moving, and Ren Chuling grabbed his fingertips and held them against his heart.After an unknown period of time, Jiang Chi heard the steady and shallow breathing from his ears. Jiang Chi tilted his head slightly, looked at Chen Ling's peaceful sleeping face by the moonlight, and finally couldn't help but squeeze the other's fingertips back. .

"Chen Ling, you think I hate you, but actually... I hate myself even more. I never thought that in this life... I would still fall in love with you..."

A sound, like a sigh.

Jiang Chi turned his head and closed his eyes.

After a while, the person beside him turned over lightly, and his thin arms climbed towards him and wrapped around his waist, avoiding the wound on his heart when he committed suicide that day.

Jiang Chi froze for a moment.

The person sleeping beside him didn't seem to notice it, and after a while, he leaned his furry head on his shoulder again, and the kitten shrank by his side, wrapping his arms around him lightly, as if he was afraid that he would disappear suddenly. .

At night, in the darkness, the man's deep and suppressed sobs finally sounded.Jiang Chi put his hands on his eyes, suppressing the turbulent emotions, and burst into tears.

Mingming initially decided to live his life well, but why is it so difficult, who can tell him why it is so difficult.

In fact, Chen Ling didn't fall asleep. He silently listened to and felt all Jiang Chi's reactions and emotions, curled up in a small ball beside Jiang Chi, bit his lip, and wept silently.

As long as that person still cries because of him, is willing to give him a reaction, and doesn't think about death and self-mutilation, even if there is only a little courage left to live, Chen Ling will not have just entered the side hall to see the lifeless Jiang Too late to be so scared.

Give it to time, maybe in one year, two years, ten years...or a lifetime... One day, Jiang Chi will forget the hatred in his previous life and remember his present life, which is only one year, okay?

Chen Ling was willing to wait with him. As long as they were alive, they had a lifetime to wait.When he mistakenly thought that Jiang Chi was ruining his country and family, didn't he survive like that?It was a bit bitter, but Chen Ling thought, Jiang Chi would definitely be able to survive this period.