rest of life 22

There will always be a day when the heat will subside, and this year's heat has subsided even faster than in the past.Perhaps new things can always make people forget, so under the influence of all kinds of fresh energy, people ignore the passage of time.Autumn is here, but the weather hasn't changed too much. It's just that thin short sleeves have been replaced by thin long sleeves, and thin shorts have been replaced by thin trousers.I am very afraid of the cold, but only occasionally when the autumn rains are continuous, I put on a thin coat.We bought bicycles, so the road not far from the classroom became shorter.However, on the contrary, the number of late arrivals for early classes has increased.This is very frustrating, because the purpose of buying a bicycle is to save some time, so that you can spend more time in the warm bed in the cool autumn morning.Therefore, we will not change our original intention just because we are late. After all, compared with going to class on time, getting up in the morning is more important.Therefore, we can only continue to stick to our hearts with that vague sense of guilt.

However, Zhou Tao is quite special among us.We probably all got up at the same time, but he was always able to get to the classroom in time.Because he does things fast, dresses fast, brushes his teeth fast, washes his face fast, goes to the toilet fast, and rides a bike fast.Of course, if some things are done quickly, it will inevitably make other things difficult to complete or not perfect.For example, his hair always looked messy after he fell asleep that night.He is a maverick and a shy boy.Of course, whether there is a connection between maverick and shyness is unknown to me.However, it may also be explained in this way: because of shyness, a maverick method is used to isolate the generation of shyness.Of course, this is just an unfounded assumption and a far-fetched statement.And my judgment of his "shyness" is only based on his never taking off his underwear in the changing room of the bathroom, among a group of white and fat bodies.This may be one of his living habits!However, I have not been able to conduct in-depth research.In short, in any case, his habit is always inseparable from the word "shy".

"Why don't you take off your panties?"

"Of course I'll take it off in the bathroom!"

"Isn't that cumbersome?"

"How could it be! Well, let's go take a bath."

So, I finally didn't ask anything.However, based on his ambiguity, it is possible to make non-malicious speculations. His "maverick" in the bathroom means that he wants to isolate "shyness".

The term "no return at night" seems to be derogatory in its specific use, but in fact, it just states a reality, that is, someone or some people do not return to their residence at night. own residence.And if this word is applied to us, it means that we, as students, did not return to the school building at night when we should return to the school building.As for whether such staying out at night is a violation of the school building management regulations, or some other regulations related to discipline, I am not very clear.Because I am really not a very rule-abiding student, and I am indeed a student who scoffs at certain rules.What's more, these rules sometimes only stay at the level of rules. Without effective maintenance, they are just a piece of waste paper.Of course, the most fundamental reason is that I will not violate those rules that I know or do not know.And the reason why I say "no" so firmly is for a certain reason, because I have a good set of behaviors to deal with these rules, that is "do nothing".This is a very connotative word that requires a deep understanding.Of course, this is also a certain exclusive way of behavior for me, and it is "not humane".

Among the four of us, the first person who "stayed out at night" was Zhou Tao.He is "the first person to eat crabs" in our small group, and he can be noticed as a warrior and then imitated by others.After all, if the pioneers do not die young, most of them can become great men in the future.And the reason why he doesn't come home at night can also be used as the rest of us to marvel, then envy, and then wish to be the first to charge.

"Where did you go last night?" Xu Qingyu asked.

"Ah?...Going out to play with Qi Xiaohui, it was a bit late, so I didn't come back!" Zhou Tao replied a little shyly.

"Ah, yes, bro!" Zhang Kai praised. "Come on, tell me how it feels?" he pressed.

"Well, of course it's very good!" Zhou Tao paused, glanced at Zhang Kai, and took a deep breath, as if he had decided on something or figured something out in an instant.Then, he replied like this, what he said was generous, without the slightest sense of tweaking.

"Oh? From my point of view, she should have a flat chest. I still think your ex-girlfriend is better, with a good figure." Xu Qingyu commented with a smile.

Generally speaking, when someone has a current girlfriend, it is very inappropriate to mention his ex-girlfriend.However, for us, this taboo can be ignored directly.One, we have a certain understanding of his ex-girlfriend, and we also greeted him when they were video chatting.Furthermore, we also have a certain understanding of his entire love history. Since we have already seen everything, there is no need to be taboo, otherwise we will feel a sense of shrinking.The most fundamental reason is that we are all relatively straightforward people, and it is when the spring breeze is in full swing.It is natural, so there is no need to pretend to be indifferent, or to be timid.

His ex-girlfriend named Wang Dan was his high school classmate.The first time I knew her, or more accurately, the first time I had a deep image of her, was one night.It was about 11:30 pm, and we were in bed, but not asleep yet.But the lights in the house have already been turned off, not because we want to save electricity, but because since we have already gone to bed, no one wants to get out of bed because of turning off the lights.So, he simply turned off the lights and lay on the bed playing with his mobile phone.Suddenly, the phone rang, Zhou Tao quickly picked up the phone and went to the balcony.I didn't hear the sound of him getting dressed, so I thought he went out in his pajamas.It was already winter at that time, and the north wind was not strong, but it was very cold at night.The night was very quiet, but I couldn't hear his words clearly, I could only hear him talking.Suddenly, as if a thunder had struck the ground, a roar startled me from the faint sleepiness I had been brewing for a long time.Then, I heard a sound of "weeping and complaining".He changed his usual soft-spoken style of speaking, and I never heard his voice like that again before and after that.I can't remember what he said for a long time, most of them are self-blame, blame and so on.It may be because I was too shocked at the time, and I was at a loss when I was shocked, so I ignored the specific words he said.Of course, the most likely thing is that he spoke incoherently at that time, and the chaotic words are always not easy to be remembered.However, messy things are extremely easy to remember.After all, seeing from the eyes, hearing from the ears, and then triggering some feelings of shock and sadness from the bottom of the heart, and thus giving birth to memories, can always be deeply imprinted in the mind.This may be related to the human nervous system, but I dare not jump to conclusions about biological matters.It's just a matter of fact, just as I forget his words at that moment, but I remember that night, that incident, and the person related to that incident.

"She and I are classmates in high school, in the same class. We were together in the second year of high school, and she chased me." The next day, his emotions had already stabilized, as if nothing had happened at all.This may be due to a nap. Of course, I don't know whether he fell asleep or not, and what he dreamed about after he fell asleep.However, whenever you get emotional, it is always right to be alone.

"We were admitted to different schools. Although the two places are not far apart and the transportation is convenient, they are still in different places. Different places, the love ends because of it. It's just that every couple, more or less, has a little bit of hope. !It seems that every couple always firmly believes that they love each other deeply." He talked about his love and his thoughts on love in an orderly manner.It seems to be an explanation for the gaffe at night, and an apology for disturbing our good dreams.

"I am not reconciled, not reconciled to her being far away and replacing me with another man. I have no right to ask her to be loyal to me forever, and to avoid all other men except me. However, I hope She is like this, at least, keeping a reasonable distance. I think this should be the thought of everyone. It is unreasonable and reasonable." He said a lot.We listened quietly, no one spoke.We know that there are things that can't be said quickly.Also, we are all great listeners, and we know exactly what to do as a listener.

"There she talked about love with someone else. But she didn't tell me until last night. What is this? If so, then what am I?" I heard his anger after his self-esteem was hurt.However, it is undeniable that if it were me, I would have the same thoughts as him.If you put yourself and others in this way, perhaps a very large number of people will feel this way.So, can it be said that Wang Dan is wrong? I don't know, and I dare not make random comments.I've always been afraid of judging others behind their backs, and of course, I wouldn't do it in person.I have always disagreed with those so-called universal values. Of course, I just disagree with the definition of "universal".As the saying goes, people have their own aspirations, why should they impose their own or social values ​​on others? Of course, some values ​​should be observed by everyone, but that's all.

He talks a lot.I asked him, "When was the first time you slept with a girl".He told me that it was in the second year of high school, of course, before he talked about that relationship. "It was a junior high school girl. We went to her mother's office. She dragged me there. She took the initiative, maybe because she had already tasted the forbidden fruit. I didn't feel anything wrong. Refreshing, maybe because I was too nervous, or maybe because I didn’t love. At that time, I was 17 years old!” He seemed to miss it, or maybe it was because he suddenly felt that the first time was a bit sloppy, and he wanted to remember as much as possible. Those details come, and then always remember it's nothing like the first time.

"It's a very interesting thing not to love. That is to say, will you have nothing to do with each other in the future?" I continued.

"Yeah. It's just passing by in a hurry. If you don't feel that way, why bother to get involved!"

He answered very chicly, and he did this very chicly.At least, I can't do it.Of course, I don't have the same luck as him.

That incident finally passed without any disturbance, he didn't drive tens of thousands of miles to make a public confession, and he didn't cry, make trouble and hang himself to persuade him to stay.It’s just that we mentioned it occasionally after dinner and tea, but it was just an exaggerated joke about his “infatuation” that night.And just after that, in a short time, the love between him and Qi Xiaohui started quietly.

"Your love affair started so suddenly. Come on, tell me in detail, so that I, who has been single for ten thousand years, can gain some experience." I listened to their words, and finally couldn't bear to ask curiously.I was thinking, is it easy to chase girls? Why is it so easy to start a relationship? Why are sexual matters between men and women so careless? Do your best to figure them out.

He spoke roughly, but not because he meant to.Storytelling, especially telling one's own story, tends to be very general.Because it is too familiar, I am so familiar that I don’t want to mention it in detail, and I am so familiar that I ignore the details.After all, my own story is not the kind of story in the book that can mostly be produced by imagination.There is no logic in the former happening.If you have to add an inherent structure such as succession and transformation to it, or clues to guide the story, you can only use more metaphysical things such as "in the dark".The latter is completely different. After all, the production, process, and result of the story are all products of the author's pen and are controllable.So, I understand what he said.Fortunately, I understood his story.

He said, "When I was drinking that night, didn't I say I wanted to chase her! Then I paid attention the next day. We are both classmates, and we don't need a special encounter. We can often see each other. The bicycle we bought just arrived that day. When I went out for a circle on the bicycle, I happened to meet her at the door of the library who had just left the library and was about to go to the cafeteria. Naturally, I would not miss such a good opportunity, and then I invited her to go to the cafeteria in my car, and we ate together, and we got to know each other. The beginning was good, and then it was easy. I often asked her out, or to the library, or Go to the cafeteria, or go to the classroom, or go out to play, watch a movie. Slowly, I caught up!" His story is very short, but everything is conceivable.Especially for someone like me who is good at fantasy, it is the easiest to restore his courtship journey.A bland courtship journey, just like their bland love affair.As for the occurrence of "□□" between them, needless to say, I can also think of it: going out to play together, naturally need to find a place to rest when tired, and went to a sufficiently private space,

So, everything happened so logically.Perhaps, I shouldn't have those questions I think so.

When a writer writes a novel, he will always set up various contradictions in it. When each contradiction arises, it will gradually expand until it reaches a certain level, and finally it will either explode concentratedly or die down.Just like the waves of the ocean, they are ready to go, and eventually they will either stir up a thousand waves and rush straight to Xiaohan, or suddenly the wind calms down and everything returns to its original state.The same is true of love in novels.However, novels are just novels after all.Love, maybe just like Zhou Tao said, from the beginning to the end, from the beginning to the end, there is nothing unusual about it!Or, at least, that's how it is for most love affairs.Just like the climax of all love, nothing more than breaking up, getting married and so on.

In love, the most flamboyant thing is often just "infatuation".Or male to female, or female to male.Either there will be a good result, or there will be nothing to do in the end, or it will become a disaster.So, what is considered infatuation? When a love sprouts, it is naturally affectionate.It's just that the depth of this love may be different. Some people regard it as an encounter, and there will naturally be more scenes after that.Some people regard it as a game, and it will end naturally when they get tired of playing.Some people regard it as a lifetime thing, and if they take it seriously, they will naturally not treat it lightly.Of course, these three categories are naturally inexhaustible, and they overlap repeatedly. Different people and different things have different processes and results.For example, people who originally regarded it as a game, or discovered the middle way of conscience, or suddenly realized it, or were touched by something, suddenly became serious about it, which is also very possible.As for the ones that "continuously cut, the reason is still chaotic", there are countless, and the changes during it are even more complicated and difficult to understand.

And if you want to talk about "infatuation", such people will naturally have the characteristics of treating love as a lifetime thing like the third type of people mentioned above.What's more, they often have to use the word "crazy" when it comes to choosing a love partner to describe it just right.What is "idiot"? It sounds nice, and it means perseverance. After you have identified it, you will have no distractions and concentrate on it. Let the flowers and plants in the world be in different forms, and I will only take one of them.To put it badly, you are addicted to it and cannot extricate yourself.You have intentions, but people have no intentions. In the end, "the cherries are red, and the plantains are green", and only you are left with a piece of dry grass, waiting eagerly for the clouds and rain that have not come over the mountain.

I used to never think that there were people who were absolutely "infatuated". Those whimsical compositions only existed in certain literary works.Until I met Zhang Kai and witnessed his emotional journey, I had to change my inherent thoughts.He is an "infatuated" person. Of course, his "infatuated" is not enough for the word "absolutely".However, he does exist in reality, and he is one of the few people I know.From the perspective of probability, among the few people I know, there is such an "idiot" person, so among the billions of people in the whole world, there must be many "idiots" like him

people, and there may be many people who are more "crazy" than him.After all, "the world is so big that there are no wonders." After all, "infatuation" is not unique to the world like some biological miracles.

The love between Zhou Tao and Qi Xiaohui started casually and casually.Perhaps, at the beginning, they thought about going on for a long time, and when they reached the right age, they would get married and have children, and then build a beautiful family.However, reality is always different from imagination.Or maybe, they have already considered certain risks in the process of falling in love, as well as some not-so-good outcomes.Anyway, in the end they broke up.During the period, there were many splits and rejoins, as if playing a game, again and again, and then waited until a new and more interesting game was discovered, or simply because I was tired of playing this game, I abandoned it from then on.

"Why does she want me to do so much and even write homework for her? Forget it, I can't make an appointment with her every day, and she ignores me when I ask her. Who is she? Why does she treat me like this?" Zhou Tao complained loudly.He was a little emotional, maybe because of drinking, or maybe, he really loved her.It is said that because of love, you will have demands on the other party, and you will be sad because of the breakup.He called her. On the phone, he said a lot in one breath, very loudly.

"Is it easy for me to like someone? Do you know how much I like you? But how did you tell me, tell me, why do you treat me like this..." On the other end of the phone, she should have heard He was drunk, so she just answered the phone, but didn't answer.On the other end of the phone, he cried to his heart's content, taking advantage of the alcohol, without any scruples.

It occurred to me that they had met each other's parents once.He had been to her house, and she had been to his house.If this was in ancient times, or a little closer, in the 80s and [-]s, maybe things between them could be settled.It's just that, in this open age, everything has become random and uncertain.Of course, it can only be said that each has its own advantages and disadvantages.After all, in a lifetime, if there are more choices and more experiences, the possibility of making the right and appropriate choice in the end may be greater.What's more, "a lifetime thing" may also be a lifetime choice.It's as if you can still break up after falling in love, and you can still get divorced after getting married.So, is there still a "lifetime thing"?Or, a matter is a matter, and those too absolute modifiers cannot be added in front of it.

I don't know what she thinks of him, maybe it won't be very good, or maybe she still has some nostalgia in her heart.In short, everything ended like this without knowing the so-called.After all, falling in love is just a choice, and falling in love, after all, still has a bit of the attribute of a game.Especially, in this spring-like age.