He is the school grass next door

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Bai Qi directly deleted the pile of words he just typed, closed the web page, and continued to do his homework.

Maintaining a certain irritability and shyness towards Jian Yan, Bai Qi's pen tip rose and fell on the paper, immersed in it for more than three hours. He felt hungry, so he turned his head and looked at the paper that the man gave him. That box of food.

The strange feeling that he had been deliberately ignoring rose again.

He stared blankly at the James poster on the wall for a while, then knelt down and fiddled with the box with his hands.

I don't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, Jian Yan basically gave him what he likes to eat, but Bai Qi couldn't remember how Jian Yan knew these things anyway.

He obviously didn't say it.

After thinking for a while, Bai Qi couldn't help it in the end, as if he was addicted, he picked up his mobile phone and clicked into QQ, and saw that there were more than a dozen unprocessed messages from the person surnamed Jian, and a certain dangerous signal seemed to be coming. rise slowly.

In short: don't.

In short: that house is so nice, just a few steps away from your home!

In short: kill them and don't sell them.

... A little nonsense is omitted in the middle.

In short: I'm getting ready to board the plane, maybe three or four hours on the plane.

Briefly: Did you go to do your homework again?Still reading?

In short: You are really self-disciplined, what you say is what you say.

In short: remember to miss me, don't you?

Based on this time, Jian Yan estimated that he had been on the plane for two hours.

Bai Qi put down his phone, propped his head up and watched his fingers tap the table rhythmically, and the irritability in his heart became a little stronger.

I really want to talk to someone about this, it feels so messy.

It took an afternoon to paint two pictures of class uniforms for the school sports meeting, and after sending them to the teacher's mailbox to say hello, he picked up the basketball and went down to play.

At about six o'clock, Bai's father came back by car. Bai Qi saw his father's car, ran over to pick up the flying basketball, and got on the elevator with him.

"Have you eaten yet?" Papa Bai held his briefcase, loosened his cuff buttons, and looked at Bai Qi beside him.

"No, but there is something I don't understand, and I want to ask you."

"Yo, is there anything else you don't understand?"

"Of course I will!" Bai Qi was a little annoyed by his father's strange expression, he coughed twice, and said:

"A male friend came to me this morning and said a lot. It probably means that there is a man who has been sticking to him and playing with him. It feels like he likes him, and then he also feels vaguely about that man."

Papa Bai didn't seem unacceptable because of the sensitivity of this topic. He continued the conversation as if nothing had happened: "What does the vague definition refer to? Love or disgust?"

Bai Qi pondered for a few seconds, "I'm not disgusted, but sometimes I feel annoying, so it's a good feeling."

"It's normal for friends to be attracted to each other. Whether it's a boy or a girl, if the relationship between two people is close to a certain level, there will always be an idea of ​​wanting to stand by each other's side instead of everyone. Your children are indeed prone to this illusion. .”

The elevator arrived, and the father and son came out of it. Seeing his father come out with the key to open the door, Bai Qi was still thinking about what he said just now.

"Is this an illusion?"

"Generally yes."

"Then when will this illusion disappear?" Bai Qi hurriedly asked.

"If you have been separated for a long time and do not contact each other, and cannot keep up with each other's life rhythm, it will naturally disappear."

"Oh." Bai Qi bowed his head and walked into the room together, Dad Bai put down his bag and unbuttoned his suit, and went to the bedroom closet to get some clothes to change.

"By the way, I'm going abroad to find your mother this summer vacation."

"What! I'm going too!" Bai Qi slapped the table and ran to the bedroom door, staring at the SpongeBob SquarePants on his father's T-shirt.

"Go to hell, didn't you take you out to see the aurora last winter vacation? You also took pictures of the Milky Way star trails that you wanted to shoot. At that time, your kid beat someone at school and you didn't finish it. I said what happened to you? If you dare again in this two-person world..."

"Ahhhhhh, it's alright, don't talk about it, I know." Bai Qi clutched his forehead and felt his inner nerves swelled up, anyway, as long as he stayed away from Jian Yan, it would be fine.

... You can't really fall in love with a man so inexplicably, can you?I am obviously not gay.

Sitting on the sofa, Bai Qi casually picked up a bag of potato chips, but remembered that it was given by Jian Yan, so he quickly threw it aside, picked up the remote control and turned on the TV to watch it.

"Is there any cram school or interest class for summer vacation?" Dad Bai changed his clothes and came out, sitting cross-legged on the sofa opposite Bai Qi, and the two watched the local evening news together.

Bai Qi was stunned for a moment when he heard this, as if a thought had been opened in his mind, he nodded, "Yes, I will make a list for you then."

"Then we don't worry if you are alone at home, why don't you go live with your grandparents?"

Bai Qi glared at Papa Bai, "You can leave me alone at home, why don't you worry about me?"

Papa Bai sighed, got up, walked to Bai Qi's side, grabbed his shoulders, and said with good intentions:

"I can't help it. The main reason is that she has to hold an art exhibition there during the summer vacation and doesn't have time to come back. There are too many things to do and I don't have time to take care of you. I have to help her. If you don't have an adult to take care of you, you are safer in China. If you want to go out to play Take you to any country during the winter vacation."

"Okay, then I'll go find Grandpa then."

"Well, what a good son of Dad!"

Bai Qi hugged Bai Qi's head and pressed it into his arms. Bai Qi was habitually disgusted and quickly pushed his father aside.

"I'm eighteen, can you stop clinging to me?"

"What? How could you break your father's heart like this? You're only 17 years old, okay? Your mother called you baby and you didn't respond at all. Wouldn't it work if you were your father?"

"Ah, then call me baby." Bai Qi stared at Papa Bai speechlessly, Papa Bai's mouth moved, but finally closed.

"No, the baby is for calling you mom, you're a brat." After finishing speaking, he slapped Bai Qi's arm angrily.

"Why hit me!" Bai Qi quarreled with his father, feeling that the previous irritability had disappeared, the father and son watched the news, after a while, Bai Qi asked.

"Dad, tell me, will my friend get along with that person?"

"Normally not. After all, homosexuality, once they realize it, they will have a heavy burden on their hearts."

Bai's father put his feet up on the sofa, Yu Xi read Jia, Bai Qi looked at his father, and frowned slightly.

"Then it's better not to like the same sex, right?" Bai Qi continued to ask.

The TV entered the advertisement, and Dad Bai picked up the remote control casually, and said while changing channels:

"Dad told you about this matter. Whoever likes whoever is the freedom of others, and others have no right to interfere. Just like you don't like him wearing red clothes, but you are not qualified to let him immediately change to the blue you like. wear."

"Oh."

"There is no need to despise personal orientation, but life style can be despised. As for good brothers, if one person brings back one today, another one tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, it will not work."

"Yeah, I think so too!" Bai Qi listened very seriously. He actually liked hearing his father tell him these things. Let people down.

"So, judging certain things is not based on his orientation, but first to determine whether he is responsible for this relationship and whether he is loyal."

"Then if you can be responsible, can you be with anyone?" Bai Qi got to the point and asked seriously.

"Of course." Dad Bai leaned back on the sofa and said, "Dad was studying abroad when he was young, and he also helped the LGBT community pass small colored flags. That's when I met your mother."

"Huh? My mom used to be a lesbian?"

"No, she went to accompany a friend."

"how about you?"

"I also went with friends."

"..." Bai Qi was speechless for a moment.

Papa Bai looked at Bai Qi's expression and was a little silent. He suspected that Bai Qi might want to come out to him. After hesitating for a while, Papa Bai asked:

"Little Qi, it's okay if you can tell Dad something. You are still young and inexperienced. You have never been in touch with many things. It's normal to not understand."

Bai Qi stretched out his hand to hold his forehead, what can I say about this, will his father speak briefly?And this matter hasn't even been written yet, it's completely Bai Qi's guessing.

"It's just...well, no." Bai Qi pushed all the hair on his forehead back, and said seriously: "No."

"Is it the kid next door?"

"Ah?" Bai Qi's eyes were blindfolded, and he was immediately stunned by his father.

"It seems to be him." Bai's father stared at Bai Qi with an expression of disbelief, "Have you taken a fancy to him?"

"I didn't!" Bai Qi's voice suddenly magnified ten times.

"No, Bai Xiaoqi, I didn't mean to blame you for this. I thought about this before I became a father. If my son is gay in the future, how should I educate him? Then I thought about it, and I still have to educate you normally. , as I just said, first of all you have to be responsible to yourself, and then you have to be responsible to him.”

"I'm not! I'm not!"

"I'm not against you falling in love now." Papa Bai sighed helplessly, and said, "But it mainly depends on what you think. You two are only sophomores this year, and your life ideals haven't come to fruition yet. I'm afraid you won't think about it. thoughtful."

Bai didn't know what to say, so he could only nod.

After a while, he blinked wildly and asked, "Am I a puppy lover? Am I going to do your laundry?"

Papa Bai pressed his temples and waved his hand, "I also had a girlfriend in high school. When we broke up later, I was going to die. The monthly exam was the worst in my life. I even felt that my life was over."

"No, you are so stupid."

"Get lost. It's not that I'm stupid, it's that you don't understand too much. I don't have a problem with who you like, but the circle is messy, and there are too few serious people. You are young, and you may still lack the ability to distinguish."

Bai Qi paused, and said in a low voice, "Dad, why didn't you scold me and tell me these things? You wouldn't be angry if I really fell in love early? And it's still with a man."

"There's nothing to be angry about. You are my son. I have to teach you, but I won't control you. It's up to you to decide how you will live in the future. I only want you to not break the law, have a moral heart, and be upright."

"What if my grades drop?"

"Of course grades are important, but it's also important to have a sincere love. And if you are taken away by others first, can you be convinced? As long as you can balance it well, there will be no problem."

Bai Qi also leaned on the sofa, "I didn't want to fall in love with him, it's true, I just don't understand my own thoughts."

"I know you have a sense of proportion, remember to think more."

"Thank you, Dad."

"It's okay, anyway, you will be an adult next year, and I'm not the kind of parent who insists on you and your beloved being separated."

"I don't love! I just don't understand and want to ask. I don't want to fall in love with someone who got a five-point math test."

"Five marks in the math test?" Bai's father suddenly turned his head to look at Bai Qi, "Isn't this too bad?"

"So it's impossible."

The scourge that was originally stuck in my heart has now been swept further and further away.

He is no longer so panicked and overwhelmed. Although he is still not ready to accept the possible relationship between himself and Jian Yan, he is still much calmer than before.

At least Dad still understands him. Although he loves to quarrel when he's fine, this man has been able to light up his confusion and bewilderment since he was a child.

Bai Qi breathed a sigh of relief.

He leaned over again, "Dad, why don't you scold me, I feel a little guilty."

"It's all the same. There's nothing to feel guilty about. If you come here today to discuss with me how to chase the girl you like, I might be able to write a guide for you. Or do you like Messi?"

"..."

"You can talk about love, but you can't talk about it indiscriminately. You have to be serious when you talk, and you have to make sure that the other person is also serious. And if they are not gay, you have to keep a distance from them. This is a moral issue."

"dad……"

"That circle is a place where you can't see the light. If you can't see the light, all kinds of things will grow. You are a clean child. You don't know the details and mess around. You get sick easily. This is the case in both body and mind. You You know what I mean."

"I understand." Bai Qi looked at the coffee table with a melancholy face, and muttered in a low voice: "But I really don't dare, you know? I just don't dare, but I keep thinking about that."

In fact, Bai Qi himself has not yet realized that his sexual orientation may be a problem, but before he feels flustered by this, his family has built a solid shield for him and given him corresponding education.

He was vaguely aware of his father's gentleness, but he was too embarrassed to say anything.

"Hey, there are things you dare not do... Then do you want to move? Dad will contact the school for you, and you can transfer next semester."

"Ah!" Bai Qi quickly turned to look at his father, a little confused.

"Although I support your choice, in this matter, I still suggest that you think carefully again, that road is not easy to go."

Bai's father looked into Bai Qi's eyes seriously, and reached out to pat him on the shoulder, "Don't let your mother know about this for now, if you think about it and think that you really want to do that, then we will go and tell your mother, you Mom shouldn't object too much."

Bai Qi was silent for a long time, his nose was a little sore.

"I feel like you guys are trying very hard to give me a free love environment. I know everyone doesn't support homosexuality."

"The child is already suffering, and the family members can't help him share, but put pressure on him. When I was young, I thought it was a bit cruel. You are a good boy. This matter will not change just because you like a boy. .”

"dad……"

"Remember, there is no absolute right or wrong in the world. If we force you to follow the rules of society, it's just depriving you of happiness to make yourself happy. It's too selfish. I hope you can choose for yourself."

Bai Qi stared at Papa Bai with red eyes, and reached out to grab the hem of his clothes.

"But I don't care about your face and insist on being nice to men. It's also a kind of harm to you, isn't it? Relatives at home and colleagues outside may all look at you strangely."

"Isn't the love of parents for their children reflected here?" Papa Bai touched Bai Qi's head, sighed and leaned on the sofa, staring at the ceiling and recalling the past.

"Although I like to call you a stinky boy, I always love to argue with you, but you have always been my pride, really. Therefore, you must take good care of yourself, value yourself, and don't fall for anyone. I'm not afraid You are gay, I am afraid that you will look down on yourself."

Bai Qi took a deep breath.

No, if he continued, he was going to cry.