He is the school grass next door

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After the game in the afternoon, Bai Qi was drenched in sweat and his muscles tensed up.

There is no doubt that they will definitely get the first place if Bai Qi is there.

Except that it was a bit difficult when they played against the next class, there was no suspense for them to win the next game.

In short, he does play basketball very well. He has a strong personal comprehensive ability and grabbed several rebounds in Bai Qi's hands. However, his cooperation with the people in the class is not tacit enough, which is enough to make them lose.

After playing the ball, many people came to help Bai Qi pass water and towels, but Bai Qi didn't pick it up. After drinking the water, he saw Jian Yan looking at him, and hurriedly wiped off his sweat and walked over there.

"I'm going back to the dormitory to take a shower. Shall we go back together? Come down for dinner later."

Bai Qi sweated while playing basketball, so he was a little far away from Jian Yan.Jian Yan looked at Bai Qi with nostalgic eyes, as if he was conquered by Bai Qi again because of the match just now.

He nodded, wearing his class' sports uniform, Bai Qi looked away from Jian Yan, always thinking that this kid looked good in anything he wore.

He grabbed his clothes to dissipate the heat, breathing heavily as he walked.

"Aren't you celebrating with them? There should be a lot to say, right?" Jian Yan asked suddenly.

"It doesn't matter, it's just nonsense anyway." Bai Qi was indifferent to those, Jian Yan's Adam's apple twitched, and he stopped talking.

Sure enough, he was in a bad mood.

Bai Qi looked sideways at Jian Yan's face, his bad mood was not written on his face, but he was depressed from his eyes.

Really strong negative emotions, what happened to him.

It was almost dinner time now, so the door of the dormitory was also opened. Jian Yan seemed to have come back to take a shower in the afternoon, so Bai Qi called Jian Yan to the second floor directly.

"Wait for me in the dormitory, I'll take a shower first."

He found his clothes, opened the balcony door and walked into the bathroom. The sound of water soon came from the bathroom. Jian Yan walked to the door and leaned his head against the tiled wall.

He just stood there quietly, listening to the sound of water inside, as if he could imagine what was happening inside through these fantasies.

"Bai Qi, I really like you."

When the water was turned on, Bai Qi missed what Jian Yan said just now.He vaguely felt that Jian Yan had said something, so he turned off the water again.

"What did you say?" he asked.

"You wash first." Jian Yan didn't speak any more, he looked at the buildings and camphor trees outside the balcony, his expression gave the impression that he was bound by something.

Bai Qi turned on the faucet again, thinking about what happened to Jian Yan, he quickly took a shower.

When he came out, Bai Qi was refreshed and felt quite comfortable. There was a warm breeze blowing outside. He found a towel and pressed it on his head to wipe it, and Jian Yan next to him took over.

He wiped his hair gently, Bai Qi reached out his hand to refuse, but he pressed it down.

"Don't move." His voice was nice, Bai Qi raised his eyes to look at his face, and his heart sank a little more in an instant.

"Are you unhappy?"

Bai Qi asked very directly, Jian Yan wiped Bai Qi's head seriously, hummed, but didn't say anything else.

"Why?" Bai Qi continued to ask.

Jian Yan's movements stopped, his eyes moved from Bai Qi's hair to his face, his expression became more and more lonely under the setting sun.

"I don't know, maybe I'm too paranoid, selfish, possessive, and feel insecure in everything I do."

"You are clearly two." Bai Qi pursed his lips, what he said just now was too second.

"You can't understand at all. If you have a better relationship with others, I feel that you don't care about me." Jian Yan reached out and touched Bai Qi's face, as if he was stroking his most cherished thing. Don't dare to be heavy.

"Why do you think so?" Bai Qi felt baffled, "You are you, others are others, how can my relationship with them affect my relationship with you?"

"I'm very jealous." He put his hand down, took the towel again, and gently wiped Bai Qi's hair, "I don't know why I did this, but I'm really jealous, I don't want to see you with anyone Good Relationship."

"..." Bai didn't know what to say.

Jian Yan sighed, as if wiping Bai Qi's hair for the last time, with a very disturbed expression, "I'm sorry, I said something I shouldn't have said."

"Why don't you make friends?" After so long, Bai Qi really didn't find that Jian Yan had any friends.

"Do not want to."

"Are there any netizens?"

"There are those who play games together, if you don't like it, I can delete them all."

Bai is helpless, he doesn't want Jian Yan not to make friends.

"Why did you delete them? I won't be unhappy because of this. If I have friends, I will have a lot of fun, really."

Jian Yan stopped talking again, he seemed more uncomfortable than before, "I'm sorry, I will be like this every once in a while, I start to feel depressed for no reason, I lose interest in everything, and I am in a bad mood."

Is this still possible?Bai Qi felt a little unbelievable, but in short, he really looked very unhappy.

"Then is there anything that can make you happier?" Bai Qi looked at him puzzled, "I'll accompany you."

"I want to sleep with you."

"...Student, don't be so nasty, okay?"

Jian Yan lowered her head, touched Bai Qi's earlobe, and said softly: "When I say that, you must not listen to me, don't sleep with me before college."

"Then you still say."

"Because I want to."

"..." Bai Qi breathed a sigh of relief, and stopped talking, simply saying that he is a bastard.

"You are really nice." Jian Yan used her index finger to lift up a strand of Bai Qi's hair, which was still damp and soft like satin.

"That's it. I'm not as good as you said. I'm just a very ordinary person." Bai Qi stared at him with an awkward expression, expressing his position very firmly.

"It's because of this that I said that you are a very nice person. You don't put any pressure on others. You are obviously a person who can give people a lot of pressure."

It's really weird in short.

Bai Qi was at a loss for words again, he puffed his mouth and didn't know what to say, Jian Yan lowered his head and kissed him, then pried open his lips and teeth, he curled up Bai Qi's tongue that still wanted to escape , a gentle touch, a little deeper kiss, extremely lingering.

Kissing him and hugging Bai Qi into his arms, both of them were breathing faster.

"You like me, don't you?"

He parted the kiss, and pressed Bai Qi's forehead to look into his eyes. Bai Qi was almost burned to ashes by the burning heat in his eyes, and Jian Yan suppressed all his duplicity.

"I like you, but this is just the beginning. There are still many things about you that I don't know."

What Bai Qi said was the truth, this was the first time he admitted his feelings in front of Jian Yan, and it was also the first time he said the four words "I like you" to others.

He felt that his understanding of Jianyan was still very shallow.

"I may be like this... Once I start, if I don't completely possess the other person and hold the other person firmly in my hands, I will feel very insecure. Normal social relationships are completely torture for me. "

Jian Yan lowered his eyelids in pain, and said very forcefully: "I can't make friends, because as long as someone treats me a little better, I can easily invest a lot of affection, and then I can't see that person looking for someone else, I'm like pervert."

"So that's why you don't like to interact with others? Are you too possessive and controlling?" Bai didn't express disgust or disgust, he looked at Jian Yan seriously, his eyes were very frank.

"Hmm." Jian Yan nodded.

Bai Qi was thinking, could this be the harm of the so-called native family?

He remembered that he read a sentence, happy people use their childhood to heal their lives, and unfortunate people use their lives to heal their childhood. Jian Yan obviously belongs to the latter.

"In short, first of all, I can't say that your idea is completely wrong, but it's better to be moderate." Bai Qi said first.

"I know."

"I think every relationship should cherish the present as much as possible, just like me and the fat bald man, it may gradually fade away after graduation, but I will not feel sad because life is very long, and I still have a long life." You will meet a lot of interesting people.”

"..."

"You have to think about it that way, you will meet someone better than me, and I am not as good as you imagined."

Jian Yan shook her head, did not answer the words, but looked at Bai Qi with sticky eyes, those eyes were so serious that no one dared to look at him.

Bai Qi sighed, and continued to ask: "Then can you tell me clearly why you feel uncomfortable because I communicate with others?"

After a while, Jian Yan whispered: "I feel that you are very happy when you are with them, and I am worried that you will not be interested in me. And I am very sour. Since you are so happy with them, you still want me to do it." Well? Watching you play with them feels like you are cheating, and occasionally I would just go to someone to chat and joke about getting revenge on you, but I know you won't care."

This logic... well, Bai Qi wanted to cry, but he still tried his best to put himself in Jian Yan's position to think.

If Jianyan has a lot of friends, he would have a great time every day...

Hey, isn't that great?Why are you upset?Let's go play together.

No, he must have thought something wrong, Jian Yan must understand such a simple truth, so it is definitely not because of this that he feels uncomfortable.

Under what circumstances, because Jian Yan was playing with others, did he have the emotion he just described?

Bai Qi began to think, Jian Yan saw that Bai Qi had been silent, looked at him worriedly and asked, "What's wrong with you? Are you angry?"

"No, let me think about it." Bai Qi broke free from Jian Yan's embrace, leaned on the railing of the balcony, looked at the tree trunk next to him and organized his thoughts just now.

He will have a sense of crisis of being replaced, it should be because he regards all the people who communicate with him as his potential contacts without distinction.

If he thinks that he is happy with others, then he is superfluous, maybe because he feels that all his hard work can be replaced, and it is not as valuable as he imagined?

Does he feel reconciled?Or do you hope to get some kind of unique affirmation from yourself?

Bai Qi thought for a while before sorting out these emotional problems into logical ones. He took a deep breath and looked at Jian Yan seriously.

"You can't shoot at me indiscriminately. I can't just like it personally."

"what?"

"If a fat or bald guy kisses me, I'll beat them so fucking hard."

Jian Yan was stunned, looked down at the floor with her lips pursed, and said stubbornly: "What about the girls? If a girl comes to strike up a conversation with you, and you don't understand these things at all, I will be hated by you for no reason. What should I do? ?”

"I'll ask you directly if I have anything to do, just tell me the truth. I've known you for a long time, so I believe you first. What you say is more credible than what they say, and of course it's easier for me to find you There is a loophole, are you lying to me, I will be able to see it after a long time."

"Would you like them?"

"Is the girl next to you obviously better than me? My thoughts are the same as yours! Anyway...Although I keep saying that I am not dating you, I just want you to take the college entrance examination. We can't just because of falling in love So just get distracted, don't be afraid, we can start anytime."

After saying this, Jian Yan's face turned a little red, he lowered his head and stretched out his hand to cover his face, as if he couldn't bear Bai Qi's words that poked his heart so bluntly.

There are also times when Jian Yan can't stand it.

"I see everything you usually do. I know that you are very careful in managing the relationship with me. I am also very happy that I can be valued so much."

"For me, the most different thing about you from them is that maybe I'm just happy when I'm with them, but when I'm with you, my face gets hot and my heart beats faster. No one has ever made me feel that way." Such a feeling."

"I cherish you very much. You are really different to me. I hope you can value yourself more."

Although Bai Qi is usually an awkward person, it's not that he can't express his feelings, he's just shy and won't say unnecessary words easily.

But if Jian Yan really needs him to speak clearly, and he can confirm his own feelings, then he can actually say what should be said at the critical moment.

He didn't give Jian Yan a chance to continue talking, and immediately hugged him after he finished speaking.

Jian Yan's eyes were red, and she hugged Bai Qi tightly.

"You really like me?"

"Nonsense, you've teased me like this, and I'm not dead."

"You are so handsome playing basketball this afternoon, so handsome that I have difficulty breathing." His voice was so soft that he felt a little crying.

"Really? Am I handsome?"

"Well, the most handsome I've ever seen."

"Hey, take your hand out, why are you touching my back under your clothes? Are you a hooligan? I'm going to beat you up!"

"No, I'm full of evil thoughts, really, uncomfortable."

"roll."

"How can you not touch me..."

Bai Qi's face turned dark, he took a deep breath and puffed up his mouth, forcefully resisting the urge to kick Jian Yan away.

Damn, he was beaten up by Jian Yan again just now.

Bai Qi really couldn't figure out why he could be so excited just by hugging him. This person really... It seems that he has to recite the core values ​​​​of socialism several times.

The author has something to say: a small theater in the brain:

Briefly: Qiqi's body is so warm and hot, it feels good to hold her.

Voiceover: He's starting to feel bad.

Briefly: But I've already started to feel... Well, I can't imagine being inappropriate with him in the future, I might die on the spot because I find it too exciting.

Voiceover: You have to pay attention, be careful not to become a second man.

In a nutshell: You're a pervert.

Voiceover: Hey, isn't it you who is perverted! ! !