The only way to hope

更新时间2012-7-1812:38:34字数：2399

Pain, pain, pain, piercing pain...

My whole body is uncomfortable, my limbs are as if they don't belong to me, I can't even use the slightest strength, and I don't even have the strength to open my eyes.The heart was suppressed, and it was so heavy that it seemed to be out of breath, as if there were thousands of boulders pressing on the chest, and it was so dull that it almost suffocated.

If I hadn't felt such a vivid heartbeat in such a quiet environment, although it was weak and the speed was not as lively and cheerful as usual, at least this would make me sure of one thing, that is, I am not dead yet.

Wait, die?

Just this one word made my consciousness rush to my brain like a spring, surging endlessly.

Yes, I remembered those unbearable past events, the last thrilling scene.

After my father left us and my mother and I depended on each other for a few years, my mother died of illness. After I was reduced from a happy family to a child of a single-parent family, I finally became an orphan completely.

After nearly 10 years of lingering in a difficult life with no one to accompany me, after getting used to living alone, a kind person finally took me back to the home I had never expected for nearly 10 years. From then on, I have I found an adoptive father who cared about me, and then my life finally gradually improved from being unbearable, probably because I smelled the smell of happiness.

Later, I, who had been on a rough road, finally started to slowly get better, and then good luck came to me.

It seems that the good luck accumulated for a long time suddenly burst out uncontrollably, and the rough life began to become smooth sailing.

But who knows, at the moment when I was about to see the brightest light, I seemed to have forgotten those painful and helpless days, and those years of struggling in the mud, so that I forgot to be clear-headed, calm, and unable to Disturbed by everything that now blinds my eyes.

So I had a ridiculous tragedy at the crossroads of my life:

I have severe color blindness, congenital, can only see black and white.So every time I pass the traffic lights, I am extra careful. Although the traffic lights are generally arranged according to the conventional colors, sometimes there will be irregular traffic lights, which will make me misjudge, so in general, every time I cross the intersection They will be extra careful, see the situation clearly, and only move forward after seeing the passers-by clearly.

But that day, in front of the familiar irregular traffic light not far from home, I don't know whether it was the effect of alcohol or the reason for the extraordinarily sunny mood.

I even forgot that the location of the traffic light is different from the normal traffic light, so that I ran through the red light for only 35 seconds without knowing it, and was finally caught by an oncoming traffic light. Hit by a speeding truck.I even forgot that I once had a car accident, but it was gradually forgotten by me as the years passed.Prosperity leads to decline, an eternal truth.

And my only thought at the time was that I was going to die.

I didn't even give me the time to feel the pain. I lost consciousness in an instant, passed out, and then fell unconscious.

It's just that I didn't expect that I would survive like this, so I couldn't help but smile bitterly, that's fine, anyway, I still have a long way to go in life, so am I staying in a hospital now?I asked myself.

In order to verify my point of view, I exhausted almost all my strength, and I woke up in a haze...

Darkness, dead darkness, soundless darkness, empty and desolate darkness.

What catches the eye is an endless, boundless darkness, extending as if without end.There are no white ceilings, bright spotlights, electronic devices of any kind, and certainly no doctors and nurses busy around patients.

So, is this...hell?

I don't seem to have committed any heinous things during my lifetime, right?why am i going to hellI am deeply indignant.

When my energy gradually returned to my body, I began to return to the primordial spirit and finally felt a little bit. At this time, I obviously felt that I was bound. Although I didn't know what it was, I was struggling to get it. I moved my hands a little, and even my feet could clearly feel something not so light oppressing my feet.

"Hiss" I took a painful breath, it seems that when I was hit, I was indeed scarred, or it can be said that it was bloody, so that when I am in hell, my body is also broken.

At the same time, I didn't ignore that I couldn't move, as long as I moved a little, not only would it be accompanied by the pain of tearing the bone marrow like salt on the wound, but also accompanied by the clear sound of metal colliding in this empty darkness, then I could Probably guessed that I was trapped by chains or something.

Do I still have to be subjected to all kinds of tortures in the legendary [-]th hells, which are said to be crueler than the top ten tortures in the Qing Dynasty?I am not arrogant or impetuous, but I frowned slightly in this sudden change of situation, which made me overwhelmed by the reality, and I had to think carefully.

Why?I know astronomy at the top, geography at the bottom, a little bit of basics, a little bit of martial arts, a little bit of fantasy, etc. A girl with outstanding literary talents, how come I have never heard of people who have never done any evil things go to hell Just get off, and you will be tortured like this after you get off? !

Someone tell me!

I really want to yell like this, but I know I can't. ——I feel uncomfortable all over, top-heavy, and I don’t have the slightest strength at all. I’m so weak that I don’t even have the strength to utter a single word. I’m so weak that the seemingly simple temptation just now almost exhausted all the strength in my whole body.

Shall I collapse and die?I think so.

In such a quiet environment without any breath of life, in such a dark environment without any signs of light, on such a lonely journey without anyone accompanying you, you don’t know when you will get rid of this situation, you don’t know What you will face after going out, you don't even know whether you are dead or alive.

All of these are doomed to me without the slightest fighting spirit, and of course I don't have the so-called will to survive.It's not the calmness to see through life and death. Now I don't even know whether I am alive or dead, whether I am a human or a ghost. Do I want to defend the so-called human dignity in my previous memory?

What about me who started playing tricks at the age of 10 but never gave up being the protagonist?What about me who never gave up the hope of living even though my life was dying?What about the me who is strong and positive even though I can only see black and white in my world?

I think, in such an environment, everything can disappear like a passing cloud, so I don't need to care so much about it.

I feel like I lost myself in this vast darkness, a world where there is not even a sliver of hope, I am like a person without eyes who has walked into a strange world, and there is no one else to point you to. two.The consciousness of life gradually faded away, and I could even clearly feel the breath of life drifting away from me, but I didn't have the strength and will to grasp it.

I am a gorgeous dividing line

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