The only way to hope

更新时间2012-7-2215:22:02字数：2313

It was Yuki Kusama's diary.

I didn't have such a good habit of keeping a diary in my previous life.But this habit is good, it is convenient for me to understand the situation.

So, on a sunny afternoon, I made a cup of green tea, leaned on a chair, and read "my" diary.

Although the days seem to be pleasant, in fact, my heart has already been surging. This diary contains countless shocking secrets, at least the deepest things in the depths of the human heart, and it also contains secrets unknown to the Caomo family.

I'm sorry, I'm going to be a person who peeks at the diary, I'm sorry, Yuki.

Caressing the diary, it can be seen that the owner of the diary cherishes it very much, because the diary is covered with a book cover, although it may serve as a deception.At the same time, it is not difficult to find that the owner of the diary has always had the same preferences and preferences, because there are three diaries in total, and all three are exactly the same pure black to extreme background color, decorated with lavender borders, not beautiful, not luxurious , but it is so low-key that it shows the owner's super high style and taste. It is a simple cover, but it looks deep, elegant and beautiful, revealing secrets that ordinary people can't detect.

I arranged the three books in chronological order, and then picked out the latest one to read.

I first turned to the last place where I kept my diary. It has been nearly half a month since today. It seems that I have been here for a long time.

The handwriting in the diary is very beautiful, but it has a bit of sharpness that is not easy to be noticed. It is as natural and harmonious as flowing clouds and flowing water. It can be seen that the state of mind of the person who wrote the words is not ordinary.Words are like a person, I didn't expect Yuki to be such a person who showed amazing talent and strength, perception, and talent in every detail.I slowly read the words written in the diary like reading a novel:

After thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided to tell someone about my idea of ​​going to a coeducational university, thinking that it would be closer to my goal of living a normal life. I know this kind of thinking is a bit irresponsible.

But being young and frivolous will always exist. I just want to live a life that I will not regret when I look back on the past when I am young.

Although capricious.

So, 慊人, I'm sorry.

I really didn't expect that these were Yuki's last few words, and at the end, it turned out to be an apology to the 慊人, and I could guess what the result would be.Locked in a dark room and put in chains, I didn't expect Yuxi to spend her last days like this, with mixed emotions in her heart.

I think he must have been unwilling, and he didn't live the life he yearned for in the end.Because he is too smart, many things have been seen through before others have figured it out.It's just that, unexpectedly, your wish still failed to come true.

It's okay, I'll let me finish it for you, and I also want to say, I'm sorry.

So I turned to another page of my diary and wrote today's date on the blank page: August 8th.

The sky is bright and the air is clear, and the sun is like fire.

Wednesday.

Only three words were written below: Sorry.

For the rest, it can only be said that there are large sections of blank space.what can i writeI'm sorry for occupying your body, I'm sorry your diary will be used by me, I'm sorry, your ideal can never be realized, even if it is realized, I will help you realize it?still……

I don't know what else I can do, what else I can express, so in the end, I can only turn the diary forward and continue to watch Yuki's inner monologue.

When I finished reading the diary, the sun was already setting.The hazy yellow sun shone warmly on the earth, light and faint, never dizzy or hot, and outlined every scene on the earth on Phnom Penh, which was very beautiful and dazzling.

The moment I closed the diary, I seemed to have experienced every bit of what Yuki had experienced.

The diary was written within two years after he moved in with Ryoto. The notes at that time were very childish, but the content was not childish at all. I can even feel why Yuki is so smart. The reason people are so good.It is the reality that forces them to grow up, it is the reality that makes them struggle to grow up in pain, they have paid such a terrible price, the loneliness and pain that ordinary people cannot bear, just in exchange for something that ordinary people can easily obtain.How difficult they are, how great they are.

I wrapped the diary in wrapping paper, put it in a stack of similarly packed books, and closed the cabinet door.

When the door was closed, I was still recalling the bits and pieces in the diary, and there were two things that impressed me the most.

The first place:

Today is the zodiac party held by God, and cats are also invited.

Although Hongye has already got rid of the curse, but he takes care of people all the time, and he is also one of them, so there are 14 people gathered in the cherry garden.

Although only 13 people were tied down.

Does this mean that the bond between us is constantly decreasing?I have no way of knowing, but this is my guess.

For some reason, everyone sat very close, but I felt very far away.Because the Kusama family has been passed down from generation to generation, the bond of blood is no longer as deep as before.Everyone who was sitting described it as beautiful, but I didn't want to get close.

Looking around, I was surprised and caught off guard that the two people I had the deepest bond with were actually the two of them.

慊人.

The one I followed from the very beginning.I know that although he sometimes looks like a girl, he treats me very harshly.Although I am afraid of him, I admire him more. In fact, I want to get close to him from the bottom of my heart, but I know that I can't, we are different.The difference in identity and status makes it seem like there is a moat between us, straddling our hearts.

folder.

That person and I have always had bad words at each other, and almost every time we meet, we need to fight for several rounds.Although it is always him who loses every time, even though he practiced longer than me each time, he is always inferior to me. From the beginning to the present, it has not changed.However, I still envy him. Although I don't tell anyone, I admit it in my heart.Although we are the same master, but because of his special situation, our master later became his master (he still had to learn martial arts when none of us needed to learn martial arts), obviously he is not smart at all, obviously not He can speak nice words, and even his smiling expression is not as gentle as mine, but everyone likes him very much and seems to be very gregarious. Of course, I don't understand the reason, otherwise I wouldn't need to envy him long ago.For some reason, he seems to be unusually restrained today, and I'm not used to it.

Today's meeting let me know one thing deeply, I need to live a normal life, I don't want to live with them, I don't like it, I'm not used to it.

Living so cautiously, talking with such low pressure, eating so uneasy...

I am a gorgeous dividing line

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