With too many knives, I was forced to save the world

When Osamu Dazai first met Tokie and learned about Tokie's story, he only felt that this person was too pathetic.

Amnesia, cognitive confusion, he can't even tell who is the most important person to him, except for that ignorant tenderness, he doesn't even want to look at it.

Dazai Osamu can see through people's hearts, but he can't see that the face is always gentle and gentle, has no pursuit, no desire, except for the so-called love, it is empty like a guy with an empty shell.

That's right, with an empty shell, what can he dig and know.

Osamu Dazai only thought of him as a tool to make things difficult for Mori Ogai.

Osamu Dazai doesn't like being patted on the head.

But when he looked up, he saw the gentle eyes of the young man who seemed to be looking at a child. His eyes were light maroon, and they became lighter in the sun, like a few drops of honey dripping into the clouds, dyed a little color Soft and clear.

So Osamu Dazai did not refuse.

He thought it was just an empty shell anyway.

Osamu Dazai didn't discover the effect of Tokie's special fragrance at first. At first, he thought that he fell asleep because he was staying with an empty shell and was defenseless—after all, he was not proficient in medicine, and he couldn't smell it. Find out what kind of herbal smell it is.

But the second time around him, there will also be a feeling of drowsiness, which is obviously not normal.

So Osamu Dazai guessed that it was a special "weapon".

The young man didn't hide it either, he smiled and told Osamu Dazai that he had indeed researched it on purpose.

Osamu Dazai opened a part of that empty shell.

This guy...even as a weapon for self-defense is a bit ridiculous.

Osamu Dazai thought, excessive tenderness is foolishness.

He was still by Tokie's side, he wanted to see Mori Ogai's deflated appearance, he wanted to know what this stupid and cute young man would do next.

Osamu Dazai began to find it interesting.

He added oil and vinegar, and he got into the game.

The plot is going in the direction he imagined, he asks tricky questions, and he is good at jumping wildly at other people's bottom lines and minefields.

But no matter whether his question involves the lives of innocent people, or he doubts the idea of ​​hanging a pot to help the world, the young man will just smile and say to him, "It's okay."

- It's boring.

Osamu Dazai silently chewed these words in his heart.

It's boring.

Apart from pouring out his so-called blind "love", this young man is simply too boring.

Osamu Dazai didn't like this feeling of being "loved", or it couldn't be described as dislike... But no matter what it was, he began to have the idea of ​​wanting to see the ending.

He plays "Rin Taro".

Playing that wayward student.

If a person often appears in sight, then slowly, you will become familiar with the existence of this person and everything about him.

As time went by, Osamu Dazai was like unpacking a beautifully packaged doll. He knew from the beginning that the doll was hollow and there was nothing inside, but he still wanted to take it apart and have a look.

Osamu Dazai found Tokie very nostalgic. He wore a coat that seemed outdated for a long time, and his pockets looked like a magician's hat. From time to time, he would take out some weird things, like a broken perfume bottle, or a few expired candies. There are even herbal powders in worn out packaging.

During their tenure in the high school, they once encountered an attack by a curse spirit, and the scalpel was handed to him by the doctor at that time for self-defense.

The young man just smiled and took it.

Osamu Dazai found that he was very good at using a scalpel, not just for surgery, he could even easily insert a scalpel into the vitals of living things.

Osamu Dazai began to think, does a person who really only knows how to cure diseases and save people, who has supernatural powers never have to worry about medical problems, and who can even be treated gently by everyone, really need to learn such abilities.

Osamu Dazai opened another part of the empty shell, and he revealed a part of nothingness.

And when he became curious, he began to find that Shizhi couldn't cook, and he didn't like it, but in order to make him happy, he would specially stage live crab stew in an iron pot.

It seems that he really only thinks that he is just a wayward student, a child.

Osamu Dazai began to speak without a trace, and he pieced together a "Rin Taro" from the fragmented memory.

His teacher is the best person in the world for him, who will love and support him unconditionally.

So why, the ending will be like that.

The originally subtle curiosity gradually expanded.

Osamu Dazai discovered that Tokieda was not as harmless as he appeared on the surface, on the contrary, he was very smart and sensitive, and he didn't even have the so-called "good and evil".

He's just protecting the people he cares about, loving the people he cares about, in his own way.

Osamu Dazai saw the appearance of his supernatural power bursting out, and he suddenly understood why Mori Ogai would do that.

It is not the ultimate beautiful picture that can be regarded as beauty, the kind of depraved beauty that is on the verge of collapse, suffocated and desperate, is also beautiful.

The supernatural ability is controlled by him precisely and powerfully.

Osamu Dazai saw his arrogance, and he only allowed himself to be the master of this subsidiary ability.

So... In fact, he acquiesced.

Osamu Dazai suddenly understood that he acquiesced in Mori Ogai's plan for him, and he was everything he gave up.

Osamu Dazai didn't know what words he should use to describe his mood at that moment.

Unreserved love, in his own way.

He didn't tell Morintaro that it was wrong to do that, he just went to tell him personally the importance of the so-called "choice".

Osamu Dazai lightly opened another corner of the empty shell.

He found that what he thought was a sad empty shell was actually very alive, and his tenderness was not ignorance, but his love.

However, his vulnerability is also real.

Probably enjoying the light brought to him by supernatural powers, he has been indulging in the past, indulging in the good times. Osamu Dazai doesn't know if he really doesn't want to remember, or there are other reasons.

But Osamu Dazai suddenly didn't want to watch the theater anymore.

So he proposed to find Xie Ye.

The young people at that time did not question why he mentioned it now, but just agreed.

Osamu Dazai heard the sound of the end of the story, but he hasn't been able to completely uncover all the protective film of that empty shell, and he hasn't been able to see what's hidden behind the illusory fog.

Finally, he got his wish.

That is just a person, his absolutely bright world can only accommodate a small corner, so he protects that corner well.

It's just that I don't want to see the cute girl cry, so I decided to take her away.

Cruel and gentle.

So in this story, is he just a spectator, a story-driven tool man, a stand-in?

A little upset.

But to him, this is just a trivial daily thing, just a boring story-so where will he try a new way of dying tomorrow.

Osamu Dazai thought.

He opened up that empty shell completely.

Behind nothingness is deep and strong love, and a soul as gentle as clouds and sweet as syrup.

But it doesn't belong to him.

Osamu Dazai tried the previously mentioned method of freezing to death.

He immersed himself in countless ice cubes, he turned on the temperature gauge in the refrigerator, and he turned the temperature to the lowest.

He heard the sound of freezing.

He heard the sound of blood vessels being frozen.

After the extreme coldness, the temperature began to appear.

Dazai opened his eyes.

His eyelashes were covered with frost, and it was a bit strenuous to open his eyes.

If one could really die in extreme warmth, it might be a good way to die.

probably.

Suddenly he smelled a faint fragrance, even slightly bitter.

He saw the young man shook his head towards him with a smile, and then said: "No matter how low the temperature reaches in an instant, people will not die in an instant."

"And before your consciousness completely disappears, it will be very painful."

Osamu Dazai opened his eyes with difficulty. He watched the young man smile and slowly adjust the temperature back. He didn't adjust the temperature back to normal all at once, but flicked it up a few times very slowly.

The cold is beginning to subside.

Back very slowly, very slowly.

It's still so cold.

Osamu Dazai opened his iris-colored eyes, and he kept looking at it, all the time.

The young man bent slightly and stretched out his hand towards him, he said, "Why are you still like a child, get up quickly."

Osamu Dazai stared at his hand, he didn't stretch out his hand, just kept lingering in the ice.

He saw the young man making a distressed expression, and he nodded his forehead, "Do you want me to hug you? Actually, it's not impossible..."

Osamu Dazai was picked up.

He watched the young man take off his overcoat, Osamu Dazai finally knew what he was wearing underneath, it was a very out-of-season knitted sweater.

"Well... I forgot to mention, because I was seriously ill when I was a child, so I am very afraid of the cold, so it doesn't matter if I wear this suit in a very hot summer."

He explained with a smile.

No wonder he almost never changed his coat.

Osamu Dazai felt a faint warmth, and the young man put his coat on him.

The young man wrapped in a coat every day claimed to be afraid of the cold, but he still stayed with him in this cold room.

"Going out suddenly will cause a serious illness, I promise."

The young man said with a smile.

So they cuddled together.

Waiting for a long recovery.

Probably because the breath itself had a hypnotic effect, Osamu Dazai suddenly felt drowsy.

He finally heard an "Aji".

Osamu Dazai discovered that Tokieda had already known about it.

After he shouted the first sound of Aji began.

He liked "Lin Taro" so much, but after he proposed it, he deleted that title forever and replaced it with "Aji".

He only thought of him as "Ah Chi" from the beginning.

And intimate, and gentle.

Osamu Dazai heard something shattering, maybe it was ice, or maybe it was the protective film of that empty shell.

Or maybe.

It was the sound of flicking the temperature pointer.

Osamu Dazai heard that voice sounding more and more times.

Probably at the beginning, it was a few degrees of increase, and then it became faster and faster.

It's not cold anymore.

Osamu Dazai heard the sound of thawing.

Then gradually, he felt warm, really warm, just like what he described, when people's cold sensory nerves die, only heat remains.

But it cannot be described as hot.

It's just warm.

Osamu Dazai tugged at the coat.

Suddenly he saw a very dazzling light, Dazai Osamu slowly opened his eyes, and just as his consciousness gradually returned, he heard someone calling his name.

"Mr. Dazai!"

It's Dun.

Dazai blinked.

"Ah...that's great! I thought I couldn't see Dazai-san..."

The white-haired boy looked relieved and about to die.

"It didn't die again... what a pity."

Osamu Dazai immediately returned to his usual expression, sincerely regretting that he was still alive and able to open his eyes.

"Dazai, the work is not done yet, give me a life first!"

Kunikida entered the infirmary at some point, he pushed his glasses, and reprimanded Osamu Dazai in a tone of hatred for skipping work.

"Hey...but Kunikida-kun said he would help me."

"...Bastard Dazai, when did I say that! Don't impose unnecessary work on me!"

Kunikida's braids were raised.

"By the way, Mr. Dazai, is this yours?"

Atsushi Nakajima took out an omamori.

The workmanship is simple and simple.

Osamu Dazai knew this omamori.

Before the fireworks ended, he saw Tokie gave Alice an omamori.

This one and that one looked like they were obtained from the same place.

Dazai Osamu took over the Omori, and he said with a smile: "Of course it's mine... I helped you a lot, Atsu-kun, but where did you find it?"

"Hey... I found it in the freezer where Mr. Dazai was found, on the ground exposed after Mr. Dazai was removed... Huh, fortunately I found it early, and I was checked and treated by Dr. Yosano in time after I came out. Otherwise, I really won’t be able to see Mr. Dazai this time.”

"yes……"

Osamu Dazai said something with a smile, he rubbed Atsushi Nakajima's head, and withdrew his hands when the other party showed staring eyes in shock.

Osamu Dazai got up and got out of the hospital bed. He pushed aside the white curtain, and walked into the detective agency regardless of Atsushi Nakajima's cry of "Mr. Dazai, you can't run around."

"Today is a beautiful day."

"Suitable for a clean and energetic suicide."

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The author has something to say:

The last line is Dazai's motto.

The warmth he has is real.

The empty shell that Dazai sees is because Tokieda's inner core is Tsukiko-kun.

But as the story progresses, the settings are enriched, and a complete "time branch" is constructed, so Dazai can finally spy on the "soul".

Finally, (thundering sound) Happy long holiday!

By the way, you can look forward to the story of the leader Jae and the leader Zhonghe Ye.jpg.

And does anyone want to watch the episodes between Mori and his teacher when he was young...