round spring

What would happen without a toe?I think it should be bumpy, ups and downs...

——An Yuan's Diary

When An Yuan followed Li Xiuzhen to the train station, it was already dark, and Li Xiuzhen was still walking in front. An Yuan followed her closely with his schoolbag on his back. The strap of the schoolbag on his shoulder slipped onto his arm. Mentioned.

Li Xiuzhen had already gone a long way, An Yuan ran a few steps quickly with her schoolbag on her back, caught up with Li Xiuzhen and asked behind her, "Cousin, how do we go back?"

"Take the train to Beijing first, and then change trains in Beijing."

Li Xiuzhen walked to the gate of the train station and suddenly stopped.

An Yuan kept his head down and watched him walk on tiptoes. When Li Xiuzhen stopped, he bumped into her without noticing.

Li Xiuzhen was wearing high-heeled shoes, and the toe of the high-heeled shoes was crooked. She fell sideways and hit the wooden door frame at the entrance of the train station, and finally fell to the ground.

An Yuan raised the hat that was pressing on her eyes, and when she heard Li Xiuzhen's painful "Ouch", she hurried over to help her.

"I'm sorry, Cousin, I didn't pay attention just now."

Li Xiuzhen supported the ground with one hand, and covered her ankle with the other. Grinning her teeth in pain, she slapped away the hand that was holding her arm, "Don't you have eyes when you walk?"

An Yuan's arm was slapped away, and after a blank pause in the air, he stretched out his hand to help Li Xiuzhen. This time, before his hand touched Li Xiuzhen's arm, Li Xiuzhen had already stood up holding the door frame, and An Yuan was cautious. She withdrew her hand and hung it by her side, pinching the seam of her trousers.

"Cousin, are your feet okay?"

People who came in and out of the train station all looked at Li Xiuzhen. Li Xiuzhen didn't want to be looked at, so she glanced at An Yuan who was standing aside: "What are you doing there? Don't you want to help me?"

An Yuan hurried to Li Xiuzhen's side again, helped her arm into the train station.

Chinese New Year is approaching, there are many people in the train station hall, there is only one ticket gate, and the staff in army green coats shout the time of ticket checking with a loudspeaker, and the huge wall clock on the wall will automatically announce the time on the hour.

An Yuan helped Li Xiuzhen through the hurried crowd, and found a vacant seat next to the canteen in the train station, and Li Xiuzhen sat on a chair.

An Yuan stood beside Li Xiuzhen, and asked again in a low voice: "Cousin, how is your foot? Does it hurt?"

Li Xiuzhen moved her feet, but the pain was still severe, she muttered angrily, bent over and rubbed her feet.

An Yuan didn't know what to do. She lowered her head and stood beside Li Xiuzhen's seat, fingering the rope on the shoulder strap of her schoolbag.

Li Xiuzhen straightened her waist after rubbing for a while, and stood up with the handbag on her shoulders. An Yuan wanted to go with her. Li Xiuzhen looked back at him and said, "Sit here, I'll use the public phone to call you." Call your cousin."

An Yuan let out an "Hey", and Li Xiuzhen entered the canteen next to her. When the door was closed, she was covered by a windshield curtain, and she couldn't see anyone.

An Yuan sat on the seat where Li Xiuzhen was sitting just now, took off her schoolbag, hugged it in front of her chest, and lay down on the schoolbag.

There are noisy voices in my ears, and there is a family of three sitting next to me, and my father is comforting the crying child.

An Yuan felt a sore nose, thinking of An Guo Day, if nothing happened to his father, they might have gone home by now, maybe when passing through Harbin, his father would take him to see the ice sculptures.

With a sore nose, An Yuan thought about his father for a while, then his stomach growled, and then he suddenly thought of Grandpa Shen, Grandma Shen, and Shen Xingchun.

In the previous 20 days of life, his work and rest habits have become the same as that of Grandpa Shen's family. At this time yesterday, he and Shen Xingchun were having dinner.

Shen Xingchun would still take away the things he didn't like and eat them himself, he had figured out what he liked and what he didn't like, although he never told Shen Xingchun about it.

Li Xiuzhen was still in the canteen, An Yuan looked up, this time he saw Li Xiuzhen's side face clearly, holding a phone receiver, the expression on her face was very gloomy, he guessed it might be because her cousin's feet were still hurting.

Li Xiuzhen in the canteen held the phone cord and listened to the roar of the man over there.

"What is the condition of our family? The efficiency of the factory is not as good as every year. Our house is a factory dormitory. My son is already in the fifth grade. He will soon go to junior high school, high school, and college. There are more places to spend money. , raise another one, how will our life go on? At the beginning, you were told not to pick it up, but now you can’t get rid of it even if you want to..."

"An Guoqing is also my cousin after all..."

"He killed someone himself and asked us to help him raise his son? I don't know how many years the sentence will be. He said in the letter that he was too defensive. Who knows what happened?"

After the man finished speaking, a child's cry came from the receiver, "Mom, when are you coming back?"

When Li Xiuzhen heard her son's crying, she immediately comforted her softly, "Mom will be back soon, don't cry, be good..."

……

When Li Xiuzhen came out from the phone call, An Yuan was still lying on the schoolbag in a daze. He heard the sound of high heels beside him and suddenly raised his head, and stood up with the schoolbag in his hand, "Cousin, you finished the phone call, you sit down."

The seat next to An Yuan was already empty, and Li Xiuzhen sat directly next to him.

An Yuan saw the depression and hesitation on her face, but didn't ask her what's wrong.

Li Xiuzhen thought for a while before she spoke: "An Yuan, you are at the Shen family, are they treating you well?"

An Yuan nodded without thinking, "Okay, they treat me very well."

"Then do you still remember the address of Grandpa Shen's house?"

An Yuan took out the address and phone number that Shen Xingchun had written to him from her schoolbag, and showed the note to Li Xiuzhen, "My brother wrote me the address, saying that I can write to my father or to him."

Li Xiuzhen raised her wrist and looked at her watch, then looked back at the ticket gate, closed her eyes and leaned back on the chair without asking any more questions.

"Cousin, have we bought tickets yet?"

Li Xiuzhen kept her eyes closed and did not speak.

Seeing that she stopped talking, An Yuan sat down on the chair again, and lay down on the schoolbag again.

An Yuan didn't expect to fall asleep. When he woke up, there were not many people in the hall. He turned around, and the seat next to him was already empty, and Li Xiuzhen was not there.

An Yuan's heart skipped a beat, and he looked up at the clock hanging on the wall, it was past nine o'clock.

Li Xiuzhen said that the train to Beijing at night was at eight o'clock. He stood up and searched around the train station. They were all unfamiliar faces he had never seen before. Even the staff at the ticket gate had changed.

An Yuan ran to the ticket gate with her schoolbag on her back, "Hi Uncle, I want to ask if the train to Beijing has left?"

The staff glanced at him, "Let's go, the train leaves on time at [-]:[-]."

An Yuan pinched the strap of her schoolbag with her fingers, and looked down at the railing of the ticket gate.

The staff asked him: "Why are you alone? Where are your family members?"

An Yuan looked up, looked out of the window through the dark glass window, heard the rumble of a train passing by, and whispered: "I have no family now..."

The boom was a bit loud, and the staff couldn't hear what he said, so they asked again, "What did you say, little friend?"

"nothing……"

An Yuan took out the address that Shen Xingchun had written to him from his bag, tears fell down, and the black ink on the paper quickly blurred into several balls of black.

It was windy again at night, and the weather forecast said that there would be snow in the evening. Grandpa and grandma were out for a doctor tonight, and before leaving, they said they would stay overnight.

Shen Xingchun was the only one at home. He lay down after nine o'clock, opened his eyes and listened to the wind outside, calculated the time in his heart, and thought that An Yuan should be on the train at this moment, but for some reason, since An Yuan followed the watch After the aunt left, he was always feeling uneasy.

There used to be a little person lying beside him, but after he left suddenly, he really didn't feel used to it.

Shen Xingchun sighed, "I'm really not used to it."

Shen Xingchun tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep. The rhubarb in the yard yelled. He got up from the bed, leaned his arms on the kang, held his breath and listened carefully, but the rhubarb outside only yelled once and then stopped. .

The window was as black as ink, and it was impossible to see anything else.

Shen Xingchun listened for a while, felt that he was thinking too much, lay down again, and muttered in his mouth: "How could it be An Yuan, he should be on the train."

After he finished muttering, he nestled under the quilt on his body, stretched out one leg outside the quilt, and pressed the quilt under his legs. After an unknown amount of time, he finally fell asleep in a daze.

In Shen Xingchun's dream, he heard a few more calls from rhubarb, but this time it was still only two calls.

Shen Xingchun turned over, raised his hand and stroked his hair twice, and then felt the light cord to pull it. After the light came on, he squinted his eyes irritably, sat up and began to dress, he wanted to go out to pee.

There was a urinal in the room, Shen Xingchun thought about the two times Rhubarb called just now, so he opened the door and went out.

Sure enough, it was already snowing outside, Shen Xingchun bowed his waist, wrapped his hat and went to the snowdrift behind the house to settle it. When he came back, he went to see Da Huang's nest. with.

Shen Xingchun didn't notice anything unusual, just about to turn around and enter the room, but he froze in place.

The light from inside the house shone on the outside side of the house, and the faint light pressed against the edge of the haystack by the corner of the house. Under the bright light, a half-dark shadow shrank by the edge of the haystack, and the shadow was covered with a layer of Snow.

Shen Xingchun's drowsiness dissipated all of a sudden, he thought he had misread, so he took two steps forward, and when he recognized An Yuan, he couldn't help cursing: "Fuck..."

"An Yuan, why are you back? What are you doing squatting here?" Shen Xingchun walked up to An Yuan and patted his arm.

An Yuan was trembling uncontrollably, his lips were already pale from the cold, his face was already purple from the cold, and he couldn't speak a word, Shen Xingchun could only hear the sound of his teeth clinking.

Shen Xingchun didn't wait any longer, and directly hugged An Yuan. An Yuan still kept his hands hugging his knees, Shen Xingchun realized that An Yuan was already frozen.

After Shen Xingchun carried An Yuan into the house, he patted the snow on his body, took off his coat in twos and twos, stuffed him directly into the quilt, and slowly stretched out his hands and feet, keeping both hands Rubbing Anyuan's arms and legs carelessly.

"Xiao Yuan'er, why are you back? Where's your cousin?"

An Yuan moved his eyeballs, but still couldn't speak, but stared at Shen Xingchun with red eyes.

Seeing him frozen like this, Shen Xingchun felt angry and distressed, and asked in a sullen voice, "Why didn't you call the door when you came back? What are you doing squatting under the eaves?"

Shen Xingchun became more and more angry as he talked, and slapped him on the arm: "Do you know how many degrees it is outside? If I don't go out tonight, after a night...you don't have to spend a night, you will freeze to death in a few hours, can you freeze to death?" Do you know death? Why didn't you call the door?"

Shen Xingchun rubbed An Yuan's hands again, finally put his hands into his clothes, curled up his legs and began to rub his feet.

An Yuan's body was still shaking, but his eyes kept looking at Shen Xingchun.

Shen Xingchun suddenly looked up at An Yuan, and said in a cold voice, "Xiao Yuan'er, it's not good, your toes are freezing..."

When An Yuan heard it, his body trembled even more, and he cried out with a "wow". He didn't know whether he had heard the reason why his toes were frozen off, or he had slowly recovered. He moved his lips, In the rattling sound of teeth colliding, he said tremblingly: "Brother, my toes are frozen?"

"It's frozen..." Shen Xingchun rubbed his feet again, "It's a good child, with no toes, what do you think you'll do in the future? You won't be able to walk steadily in the future, what can you do?"

An Yuan wanted to reach out to touch his feet, but he stretched out his hands several times, and in the end he only grabbed Shen Xingchun's chest a few times, and he couldn't touch his feet.

Shen Xingchun saw that it was almost done, so he softened his tone and asked him, "Do you have a long memory now?"

"I have a long memory, brother, I have a long memory." An Yuan was still shaking his hands in the air, trying to touch his feet, "What about my feet? Brother, my toes are frozen."

Shen Xingchun looked at An Yuan crying until his eyes were straight, he stopped threatening him, grabbed his hands that were carelessly scratching, and said, "It's not frozen, I just lied to you."

When An Yuan heard it, she cried even louder, "Brother, you don't have to lie to me, it must have been frozen. I will lose my toes in the future, and I will not be able to walk stably. What can I do in the future..."

Shen Xingchun looked at An Yuan crying heart-piercingly, with one arm stretched under An Yuan's neck, he helped him up with all his strength, and lifted the quilt to show him his feet: "Don't cry yet, you can see for yourself. Look, is it frozen?"

An Yuan wiped away tears indiscriminately, looked at his toes, counted while crying, and stopped crying when he was sure that none of the toes were missing, and finally turned into a soft whimper, "Brother, you lied to me .”

Shen Xingchun stroked his back, and when he was about to cry, the anger in his heart came up again, and he raised his voice and asked, "Where is your cousin? Why did you come back alone? Why didn't you call the door when you came back? Ah ? Why didn't you call the door?"

An Yuan raised his sleeve again and wiped his nose and tears, still staring at his toes, and said with a sob: "Brother, it's not that I don't want to call the door, but I don't know if I can call the door. My cousin threw me away." At the train station, I have no relatives and no reason with you, I don’t know if you are willing to open the door for me, I squatted under the eaves, I was a little hesitant at first, but after thinking about it, I couldn’t move..."