round spring

My heart wasn't innocent at all, and my brother Shen Xingchun was completely muddled, trembling and muddy.

——An Yuan's Diary

An Yuan came to the summer vacation with her secret emotions that cannot be shared with others.

Shen Xingchun's final exam was a week later than him. After An Yuan's holiday, he did his homework at home during the day, cooked some dried noodles for lunch, and didn't go to the high school cafeteria again.

But he could only bear it until night, and estimated the time of Shen Xingchun's evening self-study every day, waiting for him outside his classroom, standing by the back door, looking at him through the glass.

Shen Xingchun was still sitting in the back row, lowering his head and doing the test papers. He noticed the sight outside the window, looked up at An Yuan, smiled at him, pointed to the watch on the classroom wall, and gestured to him to wait a while. , and then bowed his head to concentrate on the problem.

Yu Yang sat on his seat, holding the note he had just finished writing, balled it up in his palm, raised his hand and threw it at a girl with a ponytail in the third row by the window.

The ball of paper hit the girl's back, she turned her head, looked at Yu Yang and pointed at the ball of paper that fell to the ground, the girl didn't even look at it, but glared at Yu Yang, who was still smiling with her. I paid attention to him, but didn't pick up the ball of paper on the ground.

Yu Yang wrote another one, this time when he threw it, he accidentally kicked the leg of the table, the table shook violently, the pen in Shen Xingchun's hand scratched a long line on the test paper, and the test paper was scratched.

He raised his hand and patted Yu Yang on the back, "Fuck, Yu Yang, do you owe it? You can't finish paying it. School is over in 10 minutes. If you have anything to say, you can't talk about it after school."

Yu Yang raised his hand and whispered, "Okay, okay, don't write anymore."

An Yuan stood outside the window and smiled secretly. After a while, he saw a ball of paper flying from the front row, drawing a parabola in the air and landing on Yu Yang's desk.

Yu Yang looked at the ball of paper on the table and was overjoyed. He thought it was Gao Ying who had replied to him, so he quickly opened it and looked at it. When he saw the contents of the note, he sighed in disappointment and handed the note to Shen Xingchun.

"It wasn't Gao Ying who gave it to me, it was Xu Xinting who gave it to you," he sighed again after speaking, "Hey..."

Shen Xingchun spread out the note and looked at it, first at the inscription, it was indeed Xu Xinting.

The note said: "Shen Xingchun, do you have time after school at night? There is a new audio shop next to the school, can you accompany me to pick out some tapes? Jacky Cheung has released a new album."

Shen Xingchun frowned looking at the contents of the note, and then looked up at Xu Xinting's seat. Xu Xinting's peripheral vision was always on Shen Xingchun's body, noticing his gaze, she quickly turned around and sat down.

Shen Xingchun just rolled up the note again, put it on the corner of the table and didn't answer her, bowed his head and continued to work on the question.

An Yuan stood straight outside the window, his fingers hanging by his side kept tugging at his pants, just now he could see clearly from outside the door.

Xu Xinting wrote a note and asked her deskmate to throw it to the back row. He originally thought it was for Yu Yang, but he didn't expect it to be Shen Xingchun. Thinking about it, it was right, it should be Shen Xingchun.

Now he is not ignorant of everything, and now recalling the last time Xu Xinting asked Shen Xingchun to give a lecture, anyone with a discerning eye should be able to see it.

So Shen Xingchun should also know about it, right?

In their junior high school, many boys and girls have started dating. They will write letters to each other, draw an arrow through the heart on the envelope, fill the heart with red with a watercolor pen, not to mention throwing notes, After class, they will go home together, go to the canteen together, or eat a popsicle together, and they will go out together on weekends, go hiking, or other things.

He and Shen Xingchun would do these things every day, but he also knew that it was different.

Shen Xingchun is his elder brother, Shen Xingchun is a man, and the others are boys and girls.

Those boys and girls who wrote letters and dated were not discovered by the teacher, or the teacher would not say much if he found out, but would mention it during the class meeting that the school forbids students to fall in love.

An Yuan's heart began to throb uncontrollably, as if someone had forcefully stuffed a mess of hemp rope, and he couldn't untie it because he couldn't find a clue.

But now he especially hopes that Shen Xingchun's head teacher can find out, that his head teacher is a very strict teacher, and has a very clear attitude of eliminating this problem.

But it's a pity, when An Yuan came to look for Shen Xingchun before, he met his class teacher, he was the language teacher of their class, he was a kind middle-aged man, he always smiled every day, saw him waiting outside the door a few times, They will also let him go directly to the classroom and pick an empty seat for him to sit and study by himself.

At first glance, he was not a teacher who would punish a student who fell in love with him early.

The piercing ringing of the end-of-get out of class bell interrupted An Yuan's thoughts. Most of the students in the classroom cheered when they heard the bell ringing, and ran out. Half a minute later, the classroom was mostly empty.

Yu Yang came out first, and when he saw An Yuan, he reached out and touched the top of his head, "Xiao Yuan'er, go in and wait for your brother."

An Yuan nodded dully, and entered the classroom through the back door.

Shen Xingchun would always bring his schoolbag with him when he went home. Even if he didn't have homework, he would still do two extra test papers after returning home every night. This was his habit.

He watched An Yuan walk over, pointed at the table, "Xiao Yuan'er helped brother clean up the things on the table."

An Yuan tidied up the desk for him, and while Shen Xingchun was not paying attention, she secretly picked up the ball of paper on the table and opened it, then stuffed the ball into her pocket, and glanced at Xu Xinting from time to time.

Xu Xinting hasn't left yet, she thought that Shen Xingchun would reply to her after class, but she waited for a long time and didn't receive a reply, she silently listened to the conversation between Shen Xingchun and An Yuan.

After dawdling in the seat for a while, she got up the courage to stand up and walked over.

An Yuan moved two steps forward, blocking Shen Xingchun's desk.

Xu Xinting greeted An Yuan first, "Is your name Xiao Yuan'er?"

An Yuan stuffed the books he had sorted out into Shen Xingchun's table hole, and said, "My name is An Yuan."

Xu Xinting took out an apple from her bag and handed it to An Yuan, "Does Xiao Yuan eat apples?"

"Thank you, don't eat," An Yuan stood up straight and repeated, "My name is An Yuan."

Xu Xinting was a little embarrassed, took back the apple in her hand, and asked, "Aren't you brothers?"

"No." An Yuan replied.

Xu Xinting nodded, feeling that An Yuan was full of obvious hostility towards her, she didn't ask An Yuan any more, and turned to Shen Xingchun: "Shen Xingchun, did you read the note I wrote to you? Are you free tonight?"

Shen Xingchun carried his schoolbag well. He had received many similar notes since junior high school, but he was still not good at dealing with such things face to face. After hesitating for a long time, he suddenly regretted not replying to her directly with the note during evening self-study. .

And now An Yuan was standing beside him, looking at him with a look he had never seen before.

It seemed to be scrutinized, but also a little dazed.

He was thinking about what to say to reject Xu Xinting, when An Yuan spoke first: "My brother has to go home with me, because I haven't had dinner yet, he has to go home and cook for me."

Xu Xinting brushed her hair with her fingers, took a deep look at Anyuan, pondered for a moment and said, "Okay, then Shen Xingchun, I'll go first, see you tomorrow."

On the way back, Shen Xingchun took An Yuan to the canteen to buy a piece of bread, "You came here to wait for me without eating?"

"I didn't eat."

Shen Xingchun unwrapped the bread and handed it to An Yuan, "Stuff your stomach first, and I'll cook for you when you get back. What do you want to eat?"

"I'm not hungry." An Yuan's voice was stiff and hoarse.

Shen Xingchun held An Yuan's hand and walked on the side of the road, "Didn't you tell me to go back and cook for you in the classroom just now?"

An Yuan stopped, the leaves of the poplar trees on the roadside were rustling by the wind, the sky was cloudy tonight, there was no moon in the sky, only the luminous sign on the door of the mutton restaurant by the roadside was shining red.

The light board was broken, flashing and flashing, red spots of light flowed on Shen Xingchun's deep face, the red light turned on and off, turned off and turned on again.

A few steps forward is the newly opened audio shop, and Jacky Cheung's new song is playing on the stereo at the door of the store.

An Yuan said: "That's what I said on purpose in front of Xu Xinting. If I don't say that, will you agree to her? Will you go on a date with her? Will you go to the audio store with her to pick out tapes tonight, won't you Do you also like Jacky Cheung? Will you let me go home alone, and you will not go to school to pick me up for lunch at your cafeteria at noon, and you will not let me wait for you at night. You will be with Xu Xinting on weekends When eating, you will write letters to each other, maybe you will also eat the same ice cream, and then you will ignore Xiaoyuan, right?"

An Yuan asked one question after another, her tone was aggressive, and there was a grievance and anger in her eyes that Shen Xingchun couldn't understand.

Shen Xingchun looked at him in surprise, "Xiao Yuaner, did you read my note?"

Someone turned on the light bulb at the entrance of the mutton restaurant, illuminating the roadside brightly. An Yuan looked at Shen Xingchun's dark eyes full of surprise and confusion. I don't know what's wrong with him now, he can't control himself now.

"I, I saw it by accident." An Yuan touched the ball of paper inside through his trousers, raised his legs and walked quickly along the side of the road.

Shen Xingchun stood there for a while in a daze, until An Yuan's back almost disappeared from his sight before he raised his leg to catch up, "Xiao Yuaner..."

Listening to Shen Xingchun's hurried footsteps, An Yuan slowly slowed down.

Shen Xingchun caught up with him, "What's wrong with you today? Are you bored at home?"

"It's not boring," An Yuan said in a distant voice, "Brother, I didn't look at it on purpose, I just, just..."

An Yuan couldn't tell what it was, only breathing under the chaotic night.

Shen Xingchun patted his head, "Okay, don't think so much, the exam is a few days away, and we'll go home after the exam. My brother will take you up the mountain to play, and take you to dig for medicinal herbs."

An Yuan's emotions came and went quickly, and she was easily coaxed by Shen Xingchun's words, she turned her head and smiled at him, and took his hand actively.

Shen Xingchun pulled him forward, "The little man has grown up, and now he has more and more petty emotions."

An Yuan's suppressed emotions rose again on the last day of Shen Xingchun's final exam.

Shen Xingchun's last exam was in the afternoon, An Yuan reckoned the time when Shen Xingchun's exam was over, and went to find him, the afternoon sun was still very poisonous, An Yuan felt his temples were bulging and twitching.

But before he reached the gate of the high school, he saw the person he wanted to find when passing by the audio store.

An Yuan's attention was not on the audio store at first, but when he passed by, he heard a familiar name from a distance.

"Shen Xingchun, is this tape okay?"

The person named Shen Xingchun had a soft female voice, and An Yuan recognized that it was Xu Xinting.

An Yuan originally walked very fast, but when he heard the voice, he was still at the entrance of the audio store. He panted heavily and took a look into the audio store.

Shen Xingchun and Xu Xinting stood together, standing in front of several rows of tape racks, with their backs facing the door, and the boss beside them was still introducing them.

"This tape contains Jacky Cheung's classic songs, do you want to play it to test the sound quality?"

"Try it." Xu Xinting said.

"Okay, boss, please try this one for me." Shen Xingchun handed the tape in his hand to the boss.

He felt as if someone was watching him behind him, but when he turned around, the door was empty and there was no one there.

Shen Xingchun walked to the door of the store and looked around, but he still didn't see anything.