round spring

My diary was discovered, and under the panic and fear, the excitement that I had neglected at first also increased a little bit.

——An Yuan's Diary

Shen Xingchun simply tidied up his own things, and An Yuan was beside him to help him tidy up.

"Xiao Yuan'er, don't you want to pack your things? Aren't you going with your brother?" Grandma Shen asked beside her.

There is also a reason for grandma to ask this question. For more than a year, he and Shen Xingchun have never been separated. No matter where Shen Xingchun goes, An Yuan will follow. He has always been the most active one. This time she looked at An Yuan and just drooped aside. He shook his head, not intending to follow, and was a little puzzled.

An Yuan didn't speak, but pinched the shoulder strap of Shen Xingchun's schoolbag, thought for a long time and then shook his head, "Brother, I won't go."

Shen Xingchun didn't notice his abnormality, all he was thinking about was Zhang Mei's matter now, when An Yuan said he wouldn't go with him, he just nodded when he heard it.

An Yuan didn't know what his grandfather said to Shen Xingchun, he just thought that Shen Xingchun didn't want him to follow, he wanted to go, but also wanted to escape, deep down in his heart, he was looking forward to Shen Xingchun understanding the conflict in his dark corner .

Looking at Shen Xingchun's indifferent reaction now, he couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.

He saw that Shen Xingchun had zipped up his schoolbag and was about to leave after carrying his schoolbag, so he asked him, "Brother, when are you coming back?"

Before Shen Xingchun answered, grandma took up the conversation and said, "Actually, it's only a distance of more than 100 kilometers, and it's not far by car. If you go in the morning, you can come back in the afternoon. If you go now and stay for one night, you can go there tomorrow." came back."

An Yuan nodded, "Yes", indicating that she understood.

"Be good at home." Shen Xingchun squeezed An Yuan's neck, "Don't go up the mountain by yourself, there are many snakes on the mountain."

"I won't go by myself." An Yuan bowed his head in response.

Grandma patted Shen Xingchun's arm, "You think you are as naughty as you were when you were a child, going up and down the mountain, we Xiaoyuan are good, you should pay more attention on your own way."

"Understood, grandma," Shen Xingchun said with a smile, then turned to An Yuan and asked, "Do you want anything? I'll buy it for you in town."

An Yuan moved her lips, and said, "Buy me a bottle to wipe my body after taking a shower, I've run out of it."

"Okay, I'll buy it for you."

An Yuan was in the house by herself and didn't go to the yard to see them off. Hearing the rhubarb barking twice in the yard, he stopped barking, knowing that Shen Xingchun had already left with Zhang Mei.

At night, An Yuan was alone in the room listening to the tape and writing his diary, but his ears were always pricked up, facing the direction outside the window, and the little cat squatted under his feet, rubbing back and forth.

"Wang Wang..."

Rhubarb in the yard yelled twice, An Yuan straightened up suddenly, closed the diary and put down the pen, Xiao Hua also rushed out, and walked out the door with small steps.

An Yuan stood at the door, watching a hurried figure running in from the courtyard door.

It was already dark, An Yuan thought it was Shen Xingchun who came back, but when he saw that it was Lin Hao, he turned around and left in disappointment.

Lin Hao had already entered the room. Seeing An Yuan's obviously disappointed expression, he smiled and put his arms around his neck, "Xiao Yuaner, why did you turn around and leave when you saw me? I thought you were standing at the door to welcome me."

An Yuan removed the hand on his neck and said, "I thought my brother was back."

Upon hearing this, Lin Hao asked, "Dachun isn't at home. I heard my parents say that you two are back today, so come over quickly."

"No."

"Where did Dachun go?"

"I went to another place, and I won't be back until tomorrow."

"Where are grandparents?"

"They all rested."

An Yuan thought that Shen Xingchun was not here, so Lin Hao left by himself, but Lin Hao gestured on top of his head: "I haven't seen you for half a year, you've grown so tall, you're almost catching up with me."

"Every day is long." An Yuan felt that this was nothing unusual, and he wanted to shake off Lin Hao's hand and enter the house.

Lin Hao grabbed his arm again and didn't let go. He grabbed An Yuan's shoulders and asked him to look at him. After coughing twice, he asked, "Xiao Yuan'er, haven't you noticed any changes in me?"

An Yuan looked at Lin Hao from head to toe, shook his head after a long time and said, "No."

Lin Hao frowned and said "tsk": "You stay with Dachuntian, and you can immediately find out that his nails are a little short. We haven't seen each other for half a year, haven't you noticed that I have changed?"

An Yuan took two steps back this time, looking from the top of Lin Hao's head to his feet. After going back and forth several times, he finally found something different about him. Of course, Lin Hao has also grown taller, but the most obvious change is that he has lost weight. The original fleshy outline on his face has become darker. Before, his round belly could be seen clearly through his clothes, but now he can even vaguely see the outline of the muscles on his stomach. It looks like he is on par with his brother.

He was a little surprised, "Why are you so skinny, and you still have muscles."

Lin Hao waved his hand proudly, and stroked his hair, "You can say whether you are handsome or not. They all say that I look like Aaron Kwok after I lose weight."

An Yuan smiled and didn't answer, Lin Hao went on to say: "This is the power of love, I have someone to talk to."

"No wonder, with whom, Li Ru?" An Yuan asked.

Lin Hao snapped his fingers at An Yuan, "Smart, that's her."

An Yuan later heard from Shen Xingchun that Lin Hao suddenly envied Lin Hao because of Li Ru's transfer to another school. At least his pursuit and rushing got results.

Lin Hao cheerfully followed An Yuan into the room, sat directly at the desk, crossed his legs, picked up the tape recorder and began to fiddle with it. Jacky Cheung's song was playing. Lin Hao rewound the tape and found a song he liked.

An Yuan sat across from him, with her chin propped on her arm, sitting blankly, and did not take the initiative to talk to Lin Hao.

Lin Hao listened to that song four or five times before he turned his attention to An Yuan and asked, "Xiao Yuaner, what's wrong? Why are you in a daze?"

"I'm not in a daze," An Yuan said, "I'm thinking about my brother."

"Why didn't you go with your brother?" Lin Hao said, "Don't you usually go with him?"

An Yuan lay on her arm, "I don't want to go, and besides, I can't always be by my brother's side."

Lin Hao said casually: "That's right, your brother is four years older than you. He went out to college when you were in the third year of junior high school, and he may come back only once every six months."

What Lin Hao said was the truth. An Yuan looked at a phantom in front of him, and his heart sank. He didn't refute him, and the topic turned to Lin Hao, "You are like my brother. You have started your third year of high school. What are your plans? Are you planning to take the exam?" Where to go?"

"I will go wherever my partner goes. Now my partner is giving me supplementary lessons. In one semester, I have counted down from the class to the middle level. I will work harder next year and try to get a key undergraduate exam. At least I have to be in the same city as her." .”

"That's great..." An Yuan's eyes were still empty, and he looked at a point without focus.

"I heard from your brother that you will return to number one. As long as you keep at it, you will be the same as your brother. My brain is not so smart. I have to learn from death every day." Lin Hao picked up the table The closed red notebook has An Yuan's name written on it, "Xiao Yuan'er's handwriting is so beautiful, this is your homework book, let me take a look."

An Yuan was still thinking about Shen Xingchun, what he was doing now, and whether he was used to living outside at night.

Lin Hao opened the notebook. After reading a page, his heart almost stopped, and he quickly closed the notebook. His movement was a little big, and his elbow hit the table vigorously. With a "bang", he also called back. An Yuan thought of running away.

When An Yuan noticed the diary in Lin Hao's hand, the blood on his face faded away. He stood up and took the diary from Lin Hao's hand, carried it behind him, opened his eyes wide, and looked at the diary. Lin Hao, pray that Lin Hao didn't see anything.

But looking at Lin Hao's expression, it was obvious that he had seen everything.

Lin Hao was also hit hard by the contents of the diary, and he didn't recover for a long time.

An Yuan was pinching the diary in his hand tightly, his lips were very white, trembling slightly because of fear, his voice was hoarse and sour, and his tone was begging: "Brother Lin Hao, I beg you, can you stop talking to my brother? I wasn't going to tell him."

Lin Hao stood up and turned around the chair a few times while exhaling. He didn't dare to look at An Yuan any more, and said falteringly: "That...Xiao Yuaner, you...Dachun he... "

Lin Hao is a bit incoherent, his mind is full of the straightforward words in An Yuan's diary——

I like my brother, I like Shen Xingchun, those taboo eyes and longing can only appear in dreams.

It would be fine if I was a girl, we are not close anyway, I can chase him unscrupulously, but I can't, I am a man, and my brother is also a man.

Men like men, and there is no good result, just like Liu Shanbao.

But I haven't learned how to control myself.

……

Of course Lin Hao also knew about Liu Shanbao, so he blurted out: "Xiao Yuaner, you should know about Liu Shanbao, you and Dachun are both men..."

The songs on the radio had finished playing, and the last bit of blank tape was spinning, making a crackling sound, which stimulated An Yuan's already sensitive nerves.

"I know, my brother and I are both men." An Yuan's chest fell together, and he repeated again, "Brother Lin Hao, I beg you, I know my brother doesn't like men, don't tell me Brother said, okay?"