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Calmness is just an illusion, slowly growing barbs that hook people's flesh and blood.

——An Yuan's Diary

Grandma found out that something was wrong between the two of them on the third day after the younger one returned home from the town. Before, An Yuan had been following Shen Xingchun, never leaving each other. An Yuan was no longer clinging to Shen Xingchun.

Shen Xingchun followed his grandfather up the mountain, An Yuan no longer said that he would follow, except to help in the fields, he just stayed quietly in the house alone, reading books, playing darts, or watching the movie discs that Shen Xingchun rented for him.

An Yuan finished watching all the movie discs that Shen Xingchun had rented for him, and he listened to the tapes when he was done.

Shen Xingchun still received the birthday present from An Yuan. It was a pen, wrapped in a beautiful blue gift box, and a beautiful bow was tied on the box with ribbons. The words Y&C were engraved on the case of the pen.

An Yuan didn't give it to Shen Xingchun face to face, but just secretly stuffed her gift box into Shen Xingchun's schoolbag, and put it together with the gifts from other people.

Shen Xingchun didn't see it until many days later. He kept the pen that An Yuan gave him in the pen case, but never used it. The pen that An Yuan bought for him was so good that he didn't want to use it. He didn't ask where An Yuan came from. The money, presumably should be saved by himself.

At the beginning, An Yuan would sneak a few glances at Shen Xingchun when he was doing the test papers. He knew that Shen Xingchun had already seen the pen he gave him, because the opened gift box was put together with the disc, but he never saw Shen Xingchun use it. Later, An Yuan stopped paying attention.

He thought, maybe Shen Xingchun didn't like the pen he gave him, after all, the pen is for writing, and it's only good if you use it smoothly.

Grandma only thought that the two children were having an awkward fight, and after Shen Xingchun followed his grandfather up the mountain again, she jokingly asked An Yuan in the garden, "Why didn't you play darts today and decided to go up the mountain with your brother?"

It was cold, and An Yuan was still wearing a straw hat on his head. He lifted the brim of the hat and said, "Grandma, I'm afraid of snakes, so I won't go with them."

"Are you scared again now?"

"Well, now I'm afraid again."

"Are you having trouble with Dachun?"

An Yuan's heart skipped a beat, and he hastily denied, "No, Grandma, Brother Chun and I didn't have any trouble."

"I used to say that I've never seen the two of you quarreling, but now it's really strange," grandma said with a smile, "you still push the flatbed cart to pick them up on the path?"

"Grandpa and the others are too heavy to collect herbs, and they are already very tired from carrying them down from the mountain. I will definitely pick them up."

Grandma didn't ask him anything else, and said with a smile: "That's not awkward. When I'm awkward with your grandpa, I don't care about him..."

An Yuan certainly couldn't ignore his grandfather and Shen Xingchun, every time he looked at Shen Xingchun's shoulders reddened by the bag, he would feel distressed for a long time, after noon the sun was about to set, he pushed the flatbed cart out again, and there were two pots of grandma's boiled on the flatbed cart Tea, now hot tea.

He was still sitting on the path by the side of the road and waiting. Although he was sitting on a flatbed, the red ants would still climb up on him along the flatbed. He kept an eye out for the red ants. After being bitten, he took the initiative to wipe it off at night Medicine and then lie down and sleep.

Every time Shen Xingchun went out, he would pick some persimmons for An Yuan. Now there were very few persimmons on the mountain, and they picked less and less afterward. After eating dinner, Yuan held a small bowl and ate one by one.

Maybe it was because the red ants were too strong this time, An Yuan was still itchy after applying the medicine himself at night, Shen Xingchun heard An Yuan scratching his legs, pulled the light cord to look, and finally called his grandfather again, who gave An Yuan a call again. Yuan took a new ointment.

Shen Xingchun dragged An Yuan's feet to rub the medicine on him, "Why didn't you tell me about the itching, did you also get bitten when you went there the last two times?"

"The first two times were not serious, and it was fine with the previous ointment. It may be that the red ants are too strong this time, and it is a little itchy and painful."

"Why didn't the pain call me?"

"It's not too painful."

Shen Xingchun didn't say anything else, after rubbing the medicine on An Yuan, he looked at his left leg which had been scalded before. Grandpa had prescribed a new scald medicine for An Yuan, it didn't leave a scar, and it was still as white as before.

He put down An Yuan's pajama pants, pinched his face again, "Go to sleep."

An Yuan nodded, and climbed to her side of the mattress to lie down. The mattresses of the two of them were spread far away, one at this end and the other at the other end, but An Yuan still woke up next to Shen Xingchun every morning.

The awkwardness between the two lasted until the beginning of school. Grandma installed a telephone in the town and one at home, which was much more convenient than before.

Shen Xingchun's senior year of high school has been adjusted a lot, the holiday is only once every two weeks, and evening self-study is also extended by an hour.

An Yuan didn't go to see him every morning except to go to school with Shen Xingchun, didn't go to the high school cafeteria for lunch, and didn't wait for Shen Xingchun at night.

In the beginning, Shen Xingchun went to call An Yuan a few times when he was eating at noon, but later he himself didn't have much time for lunch, so he ran to the cafeteria to have a quick bite, and then hurried back to the classroom, and then he stopped calling An Yuan.

An Yuan and Geng Bai are now having lunch together, and going back to school together in the evening.

Geng Bai already knew about An Yuan, and An Yuan had no one to tell, but Geng Bai.

"Xiao Yuanzi, eat well. Brother Bai can only eat with you in the cafeteria for two years. I won't go to high school."

"Brother Bai, why didn't you go to high school?" An Yuan was a little surprised.

Geng Bai has a small appetite, and every time he eats food, he will put a lot of food in An Yuan's bowl. He put a small chicken drumstick for An Yuan before saying: "You know my grades, I am the oldest in the class, and my grades are still low. Worst of all, my grades were not good when I was a child, so I was not good at studying, and after I graduated from junior high school, I planned to go to Beijing to attend an art school."

"Then do your parents agree?"

"agree."

"Does Brother Feng know?"

"It was he who arranged for me. He looked after me at the art school in Beijing. My mother used to be a music teacher. I learned from her since I was a child. I know a little about all kinds of musical instruments. In fact, I like it myself."

"It's fine if you like it," An Yuan said, "Brother Bai, do your parents know about your relationship with Brother Feng?"

"I know, I took Brother Feng home for dinner during the summer vacation. I told my parents that I was a classmate, but in fact they knew it, but they didn't say anything. They have very low requirements for me now, as long as I live, I must live well." If you are not in good health, take care of it slowly, and it will be fine if you take care of it."

Geng Bai laughed after finishing speaking, "This is Brother Feng's original words. He said that he can rest assured that he is by his side. I don't want him to run away. The train back from Beijing will take two days and one night."

An Yuan also silently calculated the time in her heart. After Brother Chun went to Beijing to study, the chances of them meeting may be really rare.

Shen Xingchun didn't get home until after ten o'clock in the evening. Before Anyuan, he finished his homework and went to bed early. Every day he heard the iron gate in the yard, turned over and lay on the edge of the kang, listening carefully to the movement outside. Shen Xingchun opened the door and he hastily closed his eyes and lay down again.

He didn't sleep today and waited until Shen Xingchun came back.

Summer is short, and autumn is also short. The weather gets cold very quickly. Frost falls in October, and the temperature at night is already below zero. The weather forecast says it will snow. stove.

"Xiao Yuan'er hasn't slept yet, did you have a lot of homework tonight?" Shen Xingchun took off his coat after pushing the door open.

An Yuan took his coat and put it on the back of the chair, he found that Shen Xingchun had lost weight, wearing his previous clothes, the waistline seemed a bit empty.

"That's a lot," he said.

"Is the curriculum of the second year of junior high school easy to learn?"

"Simple, easy to learn." An Yuan sat down again, picked up the pen and continued to work on the problem.

Shen Xingchun put his schoolbag on the chair, sat on the stool next to An Yuan, glanced at the test paper on his desk, and saw that he did not do the test paper for the second year of junior high school, but the third year of junior high school. He rubbed it on top of An Yuan's head. He said, "It's amazing, now I'm starting to do the questions for the third grade of junior high school, as expected of my brother."

An Yuan put down the pen and said, "Brother, I'm going to skip a grade. I'm going to the third grade."

He is now preparing for the grade skipping exam. The content of the exam is all the courses of the third grade. The grade skipping was found by the director of the third grade department and his current head teacher. He has not told anyone about it, because he has to take a class in advance. Only one grade skipping exam will do.

Shen Xingchun is four grades older than him, four years is too long, and it can be shortened by one year.

Of course, Shen Xingchun could see what An Yuan was thinking, but he looked at the thick stack of books and test papers in An Yuan's hand, and rubbed the top of his head, "Xiao Yuaner, don't be too tired, skipping grades is very hard, and The circle of friends around you will change accordingly, and it will take time to integrate into the new circle.”

An Yuan thought that Shen Xingchun would be happy for him, and after hearing what he said, his heart suddenly blocked. He didn't tell Shen Xingchun that even if he didn't skip a grade, he didn't have any friends except Geng Bai, and he had already finished the third grade of junior high school by himself.

For so many days, he didn't say more than three sentences to Shen Xingchun each time, and a big knot grew in his heart. He didn't want to break up with Shen Xingchun now, but the twisted energy in his heart was like a mess of hemp rope, and it was still long. With a barb, the hook pulls the liver and lungs all the time, and now it goes straight to the top of the head.

An Yuan tilted his head to look at Shen Xingchun and said, "Brother, you are going to Beijing for school soon, and I want to go early, don't you... After knowing that I like you, you don't want me to go to Beijing to find you."

Shen Xingchun didn't think that way in his heart, but he just opened his mouth, didn't say anything, just said "don't think too much", took out the test paper in his schoolbag and started to do the questions.

An Yuan saw that Shen Xingchun was still using his old pen, the tip of his nose was bent, and there were a few small dents on the case of the pen, and asked again: "Brother, your pen is so old, why don't you use me to give it to you?" pen? Don’t you like it?”

"I don't like it, I keep it all the time."

"Brother, if you don't want me to dance, I won't dance."

Shen Xingchun lowered his head, and kept the pen in his hand, "No, you can dance if you want."

An Yuan moved the stool to Shen Xingchun's side, and asked forcefully: "Brother, what I'm asking now is your thoughts, do you want me to dance? If you don't want me to dance, I won't dance, and if you don't want me If I go to Beijing, I won't go..."

An Yuan's voice was always very low, and his tone was very light, but his sentences were pressing. Shen Xingchun pressed his fingers hard, and the tip of the pen drew a long line on the test paper, and the test paper was pierced by the pen tip.

He raised his head, held the pen backwards, poked the test paper with the tip of the pen, and the wooden table made a rhythmic "da da" sound.

Shen Xingchun looked at An Yuan and said, "Xiao Yuan'er, what answer do you want to hear from me? If you want to hear me tell you to dance, if you want to hear it, I'll tell you."

An Yuan sat on the stool in a daze for a long time, he could see that Brother Chun was angry, and Brother Chun was seldom angry, now he had no expression on his face and no emotion in his eyes, but An Yuan was still frightened by Shen Xingchun like this, and slowly It took me a long time to realize what I just said.

An Yuan moved the stool to the side, far away from Shen Xingchun, and didn't dare to look at him anymore, with both hands resting on her knees, her nails unconsciously digging at the palms.

"Brother, I didn't, I just... just..."

Even An Yuan couldn't say anything, and finally just stood up silently, cleared the table, turned around and left, and whispered to the doorknob before opening the door and entering the room: "Brother, don't stay up too late, you seem to have lost weight recently."