The past ignites old dreams

Very indifferent to save confidantes, and spend this life in a daze.

With a unique person in your heart, you can only accommodate him with your heart and eyes.

In Buddhism, there is the view of white bones, which is one of the five Zen methods of Buddhism.The main purpose is to extinguish attachment to the body.In layman's terms, it is like the "Fengyue Baojian" in "A Dream of Red Mansions". Fengyue Baojian has both positive and negative sides: the positive side harms people, and the negative side saves people.

On the one hand, there are picturesque beauties that overwhelm the country and the city, and on the other hand, there are white bones, green faces and fangs.

"Heart Sutra" said: "Seeing that the five aggregates are empty, you can overcome all hardships."

But whoever falls in love, how can everyone be detached from vulgarity?

Qiao Ran asked herself, she absolutely couldn't.

Now he is like a person holding a treasure mirror of Fengyue in his hand, with bones and bones on one side, and Cui Yan's face on the other.

He couldn't help it, just couldn't help it, every time he wanted to turn over and take a look, I just took a look.

Qiao Ran, why do you like him?

There is no reason.

On the way to Fan Yang, Qiao Ran asked herself more than once, Qiao Ran, why are you?

Do you like Cui Yan, or are you used to relying on him?Is it sincere, or greedy?

If the person who saved him back then wasn't Cui Yan, and if so many people who got along day and night weren't Cui Yan, then Qiao Ran, are you sure you still like him?

There are countless questions, but there is only one answer, that is, it is no longer necessary.

I have liked people before, and I have had several love affairs that ended without a cause, and there were times when I had to turn around and leave silently.

So what if he likes it, so what if he wants to be with him, he is already getting married, and besides, he likes so many people, it's not his turn.

Cui Ling grew up with him, Qing Ya lived and died for him, and Lu Mingzhu got married with him.Only you, Qiao Ran, you can neither make a perfect pair with him, nor can you help him in his great success, and you can't pass on the family line. Modern people's emotional concepts don't apply here.Macroscopically speaking, the progress of civilization will not be accelerated according to the wishes of individuals.

The world is so big, and there are still so many years, how to spend the rest of my life?When you calm down and think about it, you will be overwhelmed by the ocean of depression.

My mother used to say, people, as long as you are calm and happy, this life is enough.

mom……

Qiao Ran raised her head and tried to keep her eyes wide open so as not to cry.Tears, cigarettes, alcohol, sleeping pills, these things will never solve the real problem.

Even if I have someone in my heart, I still want to go back.

After all, he is an adult who has lived a small half of his life. Whether he loves or not is not that important. The most important thing is to recognize the reality.

Regardless of whether he is a pile of bones or stunning painted skin, I don't take pictures of both sides, just smash it!

Qiao Ran took advantage of the situation and made a gesture of throwing something.Sheng Linya, who happened to be passing by, saw it, and Sheng Linya shook his head, "Crazy again."

"I'm just crazy!" Qiao Ran turned around and said angrily, "It's crazy."

"You can see it." Sheng Linya walked over and put his hand on Qiao Ran's shoulder, "Brother, don't feel sorry. No matter how unwilling you are, Cui Yan might give up everything he had because of you."

Qiao Ran squinted her eyes and said, "All of you are sick, which eye saw that I fell in love with that perverted Cui Yan?"

"A dead duck with a hard mouth." Sheng Linya pointed at the moon and said, "The bright moon in the sky can see all the joys and sorrows in the world. You don't even need to hide your little love."

Sheng Linya patted Qiao Ran on the shoulder and said, "Look, once the moonlight shines, it will be clear."

A few shriveled pine cones fell and hit the pond of lotus leaves that withered with the seasons, making popping sounds, which became clear and audible in the silent night, alarming the birds perched on the ginkgo branches. The dancing wings flew away one after another.

"A pool of winter water, I'm intoxicated at night!" Sheng Linya sighed, "You're slowly going crazy, I'll go first. My Xiaotian is still waiting for me to sleep together."

Sheng Linya took two steps and then turned around and said, "Qiao Ran, I heard that you are alone in our Dayang Dynasty. You are always so calm on the surface, depressed and unhappy on the inside, and your health will get worse and worse. I advise you You...you'd better...be a family."

"Did you persuade me to say this, or did someone ask you to say it for me?"

"Qiao Ran, who said you are stupid, I think you understand a person very well." Sheng Linya chuckled unkindly, "Don't blame me, and don't blame him. Everyone just wants you to live a comfortable life. I Seeing Lu Wenyu is quite nice..."

Qiao Ran picked up the pine cone that fell on the veranda and threw it at Sheng Linya, no matter what kind of person Sheng Linya was, unless the person who smashed him was Lu Liao, Cui Yan or Qingya, no one could get close to him .The green crow is still poisoned, Cui Yan is on his way back to Qinghe, no one knows about Lu Liao's whereabouts, Qiao Ran, let alone smashing the pine tower, ten thousand arrows can't hit Sheng Linya, Sheng Linya is like this Lightly oiled the soles of the feet.

Qiao Ran panted, all the things were intertwined, which made him hate it.

People today don't see the moon in ancient times, but this month once illuminated the ancients.The ancients and the modern people are like flowing water, and they all look at the bright moon.

Whenever things change and people change, only the moon remains the same.

The sun will rise as usual.

For the desperate man, there is nothing more hopeless than the fact that the sun always rises and tomorrow is today again.

Of course there is still good news.

Crow finally woke up by himself this morning!

Although he only woke up for two or three hours, he fell asleep again before noon.But it's a sign of things getting better.Everyone was very happy, Tian Yunshu also looked at Qiao Ran with admiration.

Only Qiao Ran was happy for Crow, but also secretly worried.After all, what he was given was just the most common Niuhuangjiedu pills!Niuhuangjiedu pills are used for fiery heat, swollen and sore throat, sore mouth and tongue, red and swollen eyes!When I bought it, it only cost [-] yuan and [-] cents for the Niuhuang Jiedu pill!

Could it be that God opened his eyes, a blind cat met a dead mouse, a dead horse became a living horse doctor, and it succeeded?

If only if!

Qiao Ran hates life and death the most, and wishes for world peace and everyone around him being well.

Qingya, if you get better this time, you will be really lucky, and you have to thank me!

Qiao Ran finally counted the medicines, and there were 38 pills left, and he could take another one.

Whether it's a blessing or a curse, it all depends on luck.

It was already another early morning when Crow woke up again.Qiao Ran brought the last remaining pills and a glass of warm water to his bedside.

"Qiao Ran, you bastard..." Crow smiled weakly, "You always treat people so well."

"From your tone, it seems that I shouldn't treat people like that." Qiao Ran was annoyed.

Qing Ya sent Niuhuang Jiedu pills with water.

Qiao Ran filled him with warm water again, "Drink more water. In our case, drinking more water is always right for almost all problems."

"You shouldn't have saved me."

"What?" Qiao Ran was furious, "Do you know how anxious we are when you look like this!"

"Lu Liao will kill you."

Qiao Ran was startled, and immediately said indifferently, "Call him!"

Qing Ya felt bloated after drinking two glasses of water. He supported the bed and sat up for a while.Qiao Ran erected the pillow for him, making it more comfortable for him to lean on.

"Qiao Ran." The crow paused for a while, staring blankly, without returning to his senses for a long time, "He is still married after all."

Qiao Ran sat beside him, and his eyes became empty. He was also silent for a while, and then slowly said, "There are some things that Cui Yan must do. You are his senior brother, so you should know better than me."

Qing Crow's lost smile lingered on the corner of his mouth, "Yes, how could I not be clear about it? It's because I know too well, so I will never say anything, never argue."

"Miss Mingzhu is a good person." Qiao Ran said, "When I was in Mount Tai, I met Yang Jingli who came to make trouble for me. Lu Mingzhu said that Lu and Cui went up and down together. One. It would be best if the Cui family and the Lu family entered into a marriage alliance. The Cui family has political power, and the Lu family has money, and the combination of the two is just right against the military power in the hands of the emperor."

"Qiao Ran, it turns out that you have always seen clearly. Cui Yan always told me before that he was afraid that you would be too stupid and would suffer if you went out. I didn't expect him to misread people sometimes."

"It's not that he misjudged me. It's that I have him by my side, so I don't have to worry about anything. As time goes by, I will be peaceful and careless."

"Heartless... Heh..." Qing Crow breathed a sigh of relief, "Since you are heartless, you won't be so concerned about him."

"How could I care about him?" Qiao Ran retorted.

Qing Ya didn't answer, his eyelids were heavy and he narrowed his eyes.

Qiao Ran hurriedly pushed him, "Qing Ya, don't sleep!"

Qing Crow struggled to open his eyes, "It seems that your medicine is not effective enough..."

"But I'm out of medicine, I don't have it!" Qiao Ran pushed him and pinched him again, "Green crow! Crow! Crow!!!"

Crow's eyes have lost focus, and his eyelashes are gradually sticking to the eye bags, "Qiao Ran, you go... let's go..."

Qiao Ran was so anxious that she wanted to cry, she reached out her hand to pat Crow's face, but when she reached halfway, someone stopped her, as if she was frozen for an instant, and then was thrown out.

Qiao Ran rolled on the ground until his eyes stared at him. Luckily, Lu's family is rich, and the rooms are covered with soft and comfortable carpets. Otherwise, several bones would definitely be broken.

"Falke!" Qiao Ran grinned in pain and got up.

"You—" Qiao Ran just pointed at the person and said a word, when the person tapped his acupuncture points from the air.

"Lu Liao...you still appeared." Qing Ya propped himself up on his elbows, he leaned sideways and raised his eyes to stare at Lu Liao with difficulty.

Lu Liao grabbed his arm and turned Qingya's whole body over. He tore Qingya's clothes a few times, and his fingers danced wildly on Qingya's back, sealing all the vital points in an instant.

"Who gave you the medicine? Is it the kid on the ground?" Lu Liao asked coldly, then turned his gaze to Qiao Ran.

Qiao Ran was fixed there, pointing to where Lu Liao was standing.

Lu Liao walked towards Qiao Ran.The closer he got, the colder Qiao Ran felt, and the cold was overwhelming.

Lu Liao grabbed Qiao Ran's hair that was hanging down his shoulders, and raised Qiao Ran's head. Qiao Ran only heard a crackling sound on the back of her neck, but she didn't feel it.

"Lu Liao!" Qing Ya struggled to get off the bed, "Don't do anything!"

"I don't kill people lightly, have you forgotten?" Lu Liao pushed Qiao Ran away.

Qiao Ran hit the ground again, he was in so much pain that he couldn't tell, he was extremely annoyed.This movement is not small, why didn't anyone come to the rescue!Sheng Linya!Tian Yunshu!Lu Wenyu!Where did you all go?

Lu Liao returned to Qing Ya, stepped on Qing Ya's face, "I said your life is mine, have you forgotten?"

Qing Crow looked at Lu Liao resentfully, his face was deformed by the trample, and his expression became very ferocious.

Lu Liao raised his leg and moved his foot away from his face. Just as Qing Ya wanted to move, he was kicked in the abdomen in an instant and rolled inside. His forehead hit the bedpost with a thud, and blood flowed out.

The blood flowed all over the crow's face, but the crow was shocked to find that his blood was cold!

Before he could react, the crow was picked up again by Lu Liao, so the blood should flow faster, but it stopped after a while, and the crow felt the wound on his forehead tighten, as if it was gradually closing.

Qing Ya saw her frightened and distorted face in Lu Liao's dark and gloomy eyes.

"Did you feel it? You are becoming like me." Lu Liao had no expression on his face, no emotion in his words, as cold and cold as ever.

"You... you monster!"

Qing Crow was again punched by Lu Liao and hit the table and chair in the center of the room. The table and chair were cracked, and one of Qing Crow's legs was pierced by the broken table foot.The piercing pain made him scream out.

Qiao Ran stretched out his arms, sore and tired, and fell to the ground just in time to see this scene, filled with anger, wishing he could throw a shoe over and kill Lu Liao.

But that's impossible.Lu Liao's fingers circled the crow's hair a few times, and then pulled it violently, and the crow was dragged to the door.

The door opened, and outside the house were guards who were dead all over the place.

Sheng Linya stood there disheveled, "My surname is Lu, I have already done what you asked me to do. Where is Xiao Tian?"

Lu Liao dragged the crow straight out the door, and he stepped on the dead body.

"Lu Liao!" Sheng Linya yelled behind him, "You are a coward!"

Lu Liao stopped, his figure thinned, and bright yellow ginkgo leaves floated down around him.

In the blink of an eye, both he and the crow disappeared.

Lu Wenyu came to Qingfengyuan in a big way with another group of guards, but it was too late.He looked at the dead bodies all over the place, even though he was usually gentle and elegant, he couldn't help but get angry, "Sheng Linya! They are all covered with your stab wounds! You killed my guard of Fan Yangtang! Why are you doing this? Do?!"

Sheng Linya withdrew the bloody knife and frowned deeply, "He threatened me with Xiaotian."

Lu Wenyu asked in surprise, "Isn't Mr. Tian all right?"

At this time, Tian Yunshu rubbed his red wrist and came out from behind the guard, "Linya, I'm fine."

As soon as Sheng Linya saw Tian Yunshu, he ran up and hugged him tightly, "Xiaotian! It's all my fault for being careless!"

Lu Wenyu had already entered the room to check, and when she saw Qiao Ran on the ground, she ran to help him up, "Sheng Linya, come in and help!"

Sheng Linya held Tian Yunshu's hand tightly, even refusing to release Qiao Ran's acupuncture points.

Qiao Ran was free again, her body was stiff for a long time, and she couldn't move for a long time.Lu Wenyu silently massaged his arms and legs.

Although Tian Yunshu didn't see it with his own eyes, he deduced the truth by looking at the chaotic room and the empty bed, "Lu Liao still took the crow away."

Sheng Linya frowned, and said to Lu Wenyu, "Young Master Lu, I really have no choice but to kill so many people in Fan Yangtang. If you want to pursue it, just report to the police. I have nothing to say, but can you catch me?" That's another story."

Tian Yunshu said, "We are people from the rivers and lakes. Naturally, we will not follow the usual path at critical times. I hope Young Master Lu can understand. If it was Qiao Ran who was kidnapped today, you would also be desperate."

Hearing these words, Qiao Ran couldn't express the meaning in his heart. Looking at Lu Wenyu, he didn't deny it. The heart in his chest seemed to have sunk into the sea. He couldn't breathe and wanted to get out of the sea.

Sheng Linya said to Qiao Ran again, "Qiao Ran, when you see Cui Yan again, tell him for me that the matter of Qing Crow being taken away has nothing to do with us, he left Qing Crow to get married, no wonder Lu Liao bullied us Don't come here. We are going back to Shuzhong today, we don't want to mess with monsters like Lu Liao."

Lu Wenyu supported Qiao Ran to go out step by step, and Qiao Ran stopped by the door frame, "The green crow is taken away, and there is nothing I can do. I have no power, no power and no martial arts. I will not go to Qinghe. If you want to go, I'm leaving too."

Lu Wenyu asked nervously, "Are you leaving again?"

Qiao Ran lowered her eyes and said, "I want to go back to Mount Hua. My adoptive father is still waiting for me."

Sheng Linya opened his mouth slightly, as if there was something hard to say.Tian Yunshu tightened his hand and shook his head wordlessly.

Qiao Ran had regained his strength, he moved his arms without a trace, and left Lu Wenyu's hands that were supporting him.

At this moment, Qiao Ran felt overwhelmingly exhausted, hated her own incompetence, and hated the injustice of fate.

He sighed helplessly, "Let's go, let's all go! We are destined to meet again in the rivers and lakes."

Many years ago, Qiao Ran saw such a passage in the movie "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button", and he still remembers it vividly: You can be angry with everything around you like a mad dog, you can curse your fate, but when the last moment comes At that time, you can only let go gently.

Now I finally understand the profound meaning of this passage.

The more you fear something, the more you avoid something, and in the end, you have to bear it all.

Whether you recognize it or not, this is life.

The author has something to say: "People today don't see the moon in ancient times" comes from "Ask the Moon with Wine·The old man Jia Chunling Yu asked about it", author Li Bai.

original:

When does Qingtian have a month?I stopped the cup and asked about it today.

It is not available for people to climb the bright moon, but the moon walks with others.

Jiao is like a flying mirror and facing Danque, the green smoke disappears and the clear hair is gone.

But seeing the night coming from the sea, Ning knew that Xiang Yunjian was not there.

The white rabbit smashes medicine for autumn and spring, who is Chang'e lonely next to?

Today people do not see the ancient times and the moon, this month once looked like the ancients.

The ancients and the modern people see the bright moon as the same.

I hope that when the song is against the wine, the moonlight shines in Jinzun.