Looking forward to the stars

Soon, he froze at the door and couldn't move. There was a person sitting across from him with his back to the window. Lightning struck behind him. He saw what kind of face it was.

From the corner of the eyebrow down to the left eye, there is a scarlet scar down to the jaw, as if corroded by sulfuric acid, the whole half of the face looks pitted, newly grown polyps and rotten flesh that cannot fade together, like a sheet Wrinkled dead bark, there is a new bloodstain on the face, the cut is still bleeding, because of the wound on the face, the left eyelid is involved, the eyeball looks bulging, he is sitting with the backlight, and a bolt of lightning illuminates his black The clothes and the bloodless face are like a dead corpse.

The strange man was playing with a silvery scalpel in his hand, and there seemed to be a person curled up in a corner not far away, and there was a pool of black liquid on the ground.

The man looked straight at Zhan Chen, Zhan Chen was terrified by his deathly ashes expression, his stomach was writhing in pain, he covered his mouth and retched for a while.

"Young Master Yu."

On the hospital bed next to the man lay a man, his face was as pale as white paper in the wind, his mouth was stuffed with a ball of dirty cloth, there was blood at the corner of his mouth, and there were several bruises on his face, his limbs were pulled apart and tied at the end of the bed.

He was motionless and seemed to have passed out.

"Young Master Yu!"

Zhan Chen called him, but couldn't suppress the slight tremor in his voice, he took a step forward, and saw Xiao Yu's clothes on his chest were ripped open, revealing scratches all over his body, his chest, ribs, and lower abdomen were all cut by razor blades, There was a large pool of blood under his body, which flowed to the ground through the cracks in the bed board. The blood stains in some places had already dried up, and there were still a few places on his body that were bleeding.

Zhanchen's tears flowed down immediately, his heart ached as if he was being cut by a knife, he would rather be the one lying there to suffer, he turned his eyes to that ugly face, no longer fear, replaced by resentment and hatred.

"do not come."

The man spoke slowly, his voice sounded like he was breaking a bellows, it sounded familiar, it was the cry just now, he put the blade on Xiao Yu's neck.

"Who are you? What do you want?"

Zhanchen was afraid that he would cut it off, so he stood still, not daring to move, and looked at Xiao Yu eagerly.

"Who am I? Of course you don't know who I am."

The man looked at Xiao Yu's face, whether it was light or dazzled, Zhan Chen saw his gaze was gentle and pitiful, he took off the dirty cloth from Xiao Yu's mouth, and lingered on his pale face with a pair of withered hands, stroking his lips. At the wound, Xiao Yu seemed to be waking up, frowning, he hastily withdrew his hand, turned up his collar, and covered the wound on his face.

"You know what? How nice he is."

The man looked sad, but when he turned around, he became ferocious in an instant, and roared:

"But you don't cherish him at all."

Zhan Chen didn't know what he was talking about, but just looked at Xiao Yu, and when he heard this sentence, he looked back at him in shock.

"What on earth do you want, you let him go soon, he needs to stop the bleeding."

"I will let him go, but not now."

Zhan Chen looked at the person in front of him, completely unaware of what he wanted to do, but he wanted to go there and take Xiao Yu away.

"Don't come here, come here again."

The knife cut a bloodstain on Xiao Yu's snow-white neck.

"I'm not coming, I'm not coming, you stop."

Zhanchen hurriedly took a few steps back, anxious to stop him, he now knew that this person was abnormal.

The man wiped away the blood for Xiao Yu in pain, Xiao Yu woke up, looked at him, a trace of surprise flashed in his eyes, the man avoided his gaze, and looked at Zhan Chen.

"Half a year ago, I had a car accident, my face was disfigured, my hands were also ruined, you know? I am a painter, my hands are ruined, my life is over, you know?"

Zhan Chen doesn't speak, he can't let this person be stimulated anymore, he looks like he's about to collapse now, so he can only let him go on talking, he looks at Xiao Yu, meets his eyes, Zhan looks at him soothingly, and Xiao Yu's eyes Surprised and sad.

"When I went to his hospital, he gave me treatment and checked my condition every day. He didn't say it clearly, but I knew that my hands would no longer be able to paint, and my face would never return to its original appearance. I struggled all my life. Do you know how hard this blow was for me?"

"I know, I know, you are very unfortunate, and I feel sorry for you, what happened next?"

While negotiating with him, Zhan Chen looked for a gap to go to Xiao Yu's side and snatched his knife.

"later…."

The man showed a smile, which looked even uglier, but his expression was extremely tender.

"Later, he showed up. He had several major surgeries in a row and was exhausted every day. He still came to see me and advised me to take it easy."

"The patients in the hospital don't want to live with me. He arranged a single room for me and gave me a check-up. I found out later that he paid for me. I am very grateful to him, but I don't care about anything. No more, so."

"After I was discharged from the hospital, I secretly went to see him where he lived, just looking at him. A month ago, I found out that he liked someone, but he didn't want to tell that person, because that person already has someone he likes."

The man looked at Zhan Chen resentfully, with a sinister smile on the corner of his mouth.

"Shut up...my business...you don't have to worry about it."

Xiao Yu panted shortly and scolded the man, the man looked at him, endured the pain in his heart, and stuffed the dirty cloth back into his mouth.

Zhan Chen was still stunned by the man's words, thinking of Xiao Yu's recent state, no wonder he was in a bad mood, it turned out that he was hiding it from him, even refusing to say that he had a sweetheart.Zhan Chen was a little distracted, recalling the way Xiao Yu looked at him, distressed, resentful, reluctant, and incomprehensible emotions, as if he was gradually estranged, it turned out that he didn't want him to know about him so much, but he I've been pestering to know about him, to treat him as a relative...

Xiao Yu stared at Zhan Chen, staring at him without blinking, not knowing what he was thinking, but his expression became painful, as if the pain of being betrayed by a close relative.

Seeing Zhan Chen's expression, the man was very satisfied and went on to say:

"That person is by his side every day, you can see it but you can't get it, you know how painful it is, what's even more hateful is that that person pretends not to know his feelings, gets close to him without any scruples, relies on him, brings See the person you like appear in front of him, kiss him in front of him,

"Gradually, sometimes he wasn't around because he went to someone's house and had sex with another person."

Zhanchen held his head, his mind was confused and painful, he shouted excitedly:

"What are you talking about, do you know what you are talking about? I don't know these things. How could you know? The closest person to him is me. It is impossible for him to tell you without telling me, Young Master Yu, Did you say that, you didn’t tell him this, not even me, how could you tell him.”

Zhan Chen knelt down, tears also fell, he didn't believe that his Yu Shao was really alienated from him, could such a good relationship be fake, he would rather tell these things to an outsider than to him.

The man didn't dare to look at Xiao Yu, because he knew that he must hate himself very much now, hated him for revealing the feelings he decided to hide, hated him for hurting the person he always wanted to protect in person.

However, I have to say, I have to say, you can’t let you suffer alone, let the source of your pain be happy, you should get happiness, only I can help you do this.

Only in this way can you get rid of him.

The man is determined:

"Do you know who this person is?"

Zhanchen slowly raised his head to look at him, his eyes were almost blurred, he could only see the lightning outside, lighting up the whole room, and a figure standing not far away, he was talking.

"That night, the man didn't come back. He didn't see him after work. He knew that he had gone to another person's place, so he also left the place where they lived. At first I couldn't find him. Later, when I came to see him , he re-locked the door and left alone, I followed him, I saw him buy a lot of wine, saw him enter an apartment, outside the door, I heard the sound of opening a wine bottle, I don’t know how to open it How many bottles have been poured, how many glasses have been spilled,

"In the end, he was drunk, and he was still chanting that person's name until he could no longer be sober. When he came back the next day, the person said that he had waited for him all night, and he felt wronged. He was not honest, he took away his heart and played with it in his hands, and he wanted to take away his privacy and asked him to drag it out without reservation. In the end, he comforted him. If it was me, I really want to slap that person .”

The lightning outside became more and more shocking, with the wind and thunder sandwiched, the crackling rain hit the window.

After a while of silence, the man said:

"This person is you, Zhanchen."

"But you made him suffer."

For a moment, it seemed that there was no storm, no one was talking, and the world was so quiet that only these words echoed in this gloomy and damp room.

"It's me who made Yu Shao miserable, is it me?"

Hearing his weak voice, Xiao Yu's heart ached so badly that he began to struggle. Although he was weak, his wrist was bleeding, the wound on his body was shattered, and the blood was trickling, but how could this little pain be worth the pain in his heart? , he hurt him, he was going to explain to him.

The man saw Xiao Yu kept moving, bleeding all over the ground, he hurriedly held him down, Xiao Yu looked at the man resentfully, the chill that hit the bottom of his heart made his hands stagnate, the man was numb for a moment, and smiled softly , this smile made his face still look so ugly.

"Even if you hate me, I'm going to do it."

Ugly voice, ugly face.

The thing curled up in the corner retracted its legs, the movement was very small, but was still discovered by the man, he walked over like a madman, kicked the black thing continuously, and slurred nonsense in his mouth.

The sudden change prevented Zhan Chen from thinking about other things. He stood up, and the black spots in front of his eyes gradually revealed their original outlines. He held the door wall for a while before he could see these things clearly. With that scalpel.

Zhan Chen quietly walked into the darkness where the light couldn't reach, and moved towards Xiao Yu with light steps.