Looking forward to the stars

Feng Fan brought Zhan Chen back to the villa. Zhan Chen didn't say a word, and he didn't ask Feng Fan why he did that. He already knew that Xiao Yu liked him, so he was ruthless, maybe this was the best way; It really appeared in order to free Xiao Yu, and tell Zhan Chen Xiao Yu's feelings for him even if he hurt him, it was a hopeless emotion, if it got stuck, there was only constant pain, even though it hurt two people at the same time , but it's better than one who has been ignorant and one who has been stuck in mud, unless one day Zhan Chen doesn't love Feng Fan and returns to the courtyard, maybe they will have a future.

Feng Fan carried him into the room. Zhan Chen wasn't in a good mood, he was a little dazed and drowsy, but he couldn't fall asleep anyway, and stayed awake with his eyes half-opened.

Xiao Yu's expression is lingering in his mind, and every time he thinks about it, the guilt in his heart becomes more and more serious. Back then, he had bad thoughts and approached Yu Shao's bottom line, wanting to see how he would react when his true emotions were forced out. What expression did you have, but now you can see that apart from regret and heartache, there is no pleasure to say.

"Master, you are back."

A clean boy's voice approached excitedly from far away. Just as Zhan Chen lay down, he saw a mixed-race boy about twelve or thirteen years old standing at the door, with beautiful golden hair.

"Ah."

Feng Fan glanced at him, and Jing Ming came over in surprise when he saw Feng Fan feeding Zhan Chen with water.

"Master, who is he?"

It was only then that Zhanchen saw clearly that the boy was not only very beautiful, but his eyes were translucent sapphire blue, which was very attractive.

"Jing Ming, you go out first."

Jing Ming, Zhan Chen remembered that Feng Fan once said that he would pick up a boy, and it turned out to be him.

After hearing Feng Fan's words, the boy looked at Zhan Chen sullenly, and reluctantly went out.

"How do you know I'm in the hospital and you came to see me?"

Zhan Chen asked Feng Fan.

"Go to sleep first."

Feng Fan avoided this question, Zhan Chen looked at him for a while, then slowly closed his eyes, Feng Fan kissed him lightly on the forehead, and after a long time, he left the room.

Zhan Chen didn't fall asleep until Feng Fan left. In order not to worry him, he pretended to be breathing steadily and fast asleep, but he was still thinking about Xiao Yu.

He is very slow in dealing with feelings. If others treat him well, he will return the same kind of affection. This kind of clear boundary makes him seem too rational, so he doesn't want to owe others affection. As long as he can give it, no matter how much he can give It doesn't matter, but to Xiao Yu, he owes him forever.

"Feng Fan."

Zhanchen opened his eyes, and fell asleep at some point. He dreamed of Xiao Yu, dreaming that they were in a courtyard, Xiao Yu was angry and gave him medicine, saying that he would never be cared about again. He begged for mercy, but Xiao Yu still Angry, he left with the medicine bottle and never came back. He sat alone in the yard until the sky turned white, and Xiao Yu didn't come back.

Tears flowed down unknowingly, Feng Fan was by his side, wiping away the tears for him, Zhan Chen couldn't bear it anymore, threw himself into Feng Fan's arms, choked up and said:

"sorry."

Feng Fan hugged Zhanchen and comforted him.

"You're sorry, it's you."

Zhan Chen buried his head in his arms, tears flowing like a spring, moistened the skirt of Feng Fan's chest, and hugged him tightly, as if this was the only way to relieve his regret and sorrow.

The next day, the doctor began to treat Zhanchen comprehensively. In the early stage, he was assisted by drugs. Later, the operation was timely. It was only a slight nerve injury, and it was not impossible to recover. The patient's emotions were taken into account, ranging from examinations to diet and sleep.

Feng Fan has always been by his side, going to work during the day, returning to the villa at night, going to the seaside in his spare time, and walking along the beach. Zhanchen began to like the sea, which is blue and deep, and can accommodate hundreds of rivers. He often sits on the reef and watches the waves crashing on the rocks Cheng Suihua, leaning on Feng Fan's shoulder, watching the setting sun and setting sun, but a touch of sadness flashed in his eyes; sometimes he would go to the Outlook Pavilion on the mountain, and listen to Feng Fan's stories about his past, knowing that he loved a woman named Zhou Jin. Women, they are in love, as they are now.

"I want to go back to the courtyard house."

Three months later, Zhan Chen said to Feng Fan.

Zhanchen went back once, three days after he left the hospital, Xiao Yu was not at home, he wanted to see him, but guilt welled up in his heart, so he chose a day when he was not at home, packed some clothes and left.

Going back this time, he was already ready to face Xiao Yu.

The courtyard house has not changed at all, the two pots of Evergreen in front of the door are still green and green, but the door is locked, it seems that no one is at home, Zhanchen uncovered the bottom of the left basin, the key is still there, it was prepared by Xiao Yu for him, he He kept forgetting everything, and often didn't have a key to open the door after work, so he could only wait for Xiao Yu to come back.

Open the door and go in, the courtyard is furnished as before, the memories of living here for several months come to my mind little by little, all of them are eating with Yu Shao, eating with him, Yu Shao's gentle smile, the gentle expression on the lecture, Yan Hong The cinnabar mole.... Time has passed, but these things and people that happened seem like yesterday.

Someone opened the door while talking, Zhan Chen was startled and turned around.

"Young Master Yu."

After Zhan Chen left, Xiao Yu moved to an apartment in the suburbs and left it to him, but Zhan Chen didn't come back, so it was vacant for three months.

"Zhanchen, you're here."

When Xi Di came out from behind Xiao Yu, Zhan Chen saw that he came with Yu Shao.

"Well, I haven't been back for a long time, I want to take a look."

Zhan Chen looked at Xiao Yu with some guilt, Yu Shao's slightly surprised expression was replaced by a faint smile, gentle and kind, Zhan Chen felt sad, he was the one who was hurt, why should he take care of my emotions.

"I just came back to take a look. I didn't expect you to be here. I have something to do, so I'm leaving first."

He lowered his head, time has passed, and he still can't stand in front of Yu Shao calmly like before, obsessing over his smile unscrupulously.

"Don't go, let's eat here."

Xiao Yu pulled Zhan Chen back, with a gentle voice and a gentle smile, without any grievances, as if nothing had happened between them, only Zhan Chen had changed.

I love you, it's my business, it has nothing to do with you, you have not been sorry to anyone.

"Yes, since you are all here, I have something to tell you."

Xie Di blinked at Zhan Chen, smiling all over his face.

"come on in."

Xiao Yu opened the door and went in, the house was clean and tidy, he often came to take care of it, everything was still usable, but every time he came, he never saw Zhan Chen, that guilty child, just hid from him for three months.

Xie Di probably knew about Xiao Yu and Zhan Chen's affairs. In the past three months when Zhan Chen left, Xiao Yu's mood had been low, but he didn't show it to others. At first, he wasn't used to it, and he was always alienated intentionally or unintentionally. He was tall and burly, and his skin was not generally rough and thick. When he is Zhanchen's friend, he also has an obligation to take care of him.

Xiao Yu went out to buy ingredients, but for the first time, Xie Di didn't follow.

"You go, Zhanchen and I haven't seen each other for a long time, and we want to chat."

Xiao Yu looked at Zhan Chen and went out alone.

"Is Young Master Yu's injury healed?"

Zhan Chen asked Xie Di.

"It's almost done. The shallow incisions have recovered, but there are still a few large cuts that have scabbed over. It will take a while for them to disappear without leaving scars."

"Oh...you said you have something to tell me, what is it, I'm glad to see you."

Speaking of this, Xie Di's eyebrows brightened, and he immediately regained his energy. He stopped drinking the tea and looked at Zhan Chen solemnly.

"Brother, I have to thank you first."

"Huh? Why, I didn't do anything."

Zhanchen laughed, not understanding.

"No, it's very painful for you, but it's a godsend opportunity for me. I... that Xiao Yu, the first time I saw him, I just... that, you understand."

Zhan Chen stared at him for a long time, it was rare for this carefree man to blush and frowned, thinking about the number of times he met Yu Shao, there were only a handful of times, what would he do, remembering that Xie Di once said Yu Shao was very beautiful , suddenly understood, and slapped the table.

"I know, you like him, don't you?"

"Uh, Zhanchen, you are really direct."

Xie Di nodded, his eyes sparkled, he didn't expect Zhan Chen to say what he had struggled for a long time but still didn't say so easily.

"Well, I like it too, Young Master Yu is so nice, anyone who sees him will like it."

Zhan Chen rested his chin and said thoughtfully.

"Zhanchen, look at me."

Xie Di held Zhan Chen's shoulder and pulled him towards her, Zhan Chen stared at him with wide eyes because he didn't know.

"What's wrong? You don't like Yu Shao?"

Xie Di was finally discouraged, her face froze, and she really found the wrong person to talk to this relationship 250.

"Oh, forget it, I won't tell you. Anyway, thank you first. If you didn't quit, I wouldn't have such a good chance to approach him. Although it's not possible now, he will accept me one day."

Xie Di said it firmly, Zhan Chen nodded half-understood.

"Don't worry about his affairs. I'll watch over him. In fact, you don't have to avoid him. This will make him feel embarrassed and make you feel even worse."

"I know, but I'm ashamed of him."

"It is because you think so that he suffers more. He loves you and doesn't want this feeling to be a burden to you. But if you are avoiding it like this now, it means that you are in pain, and the reason is his feeling. No one can accept it."

Zhan Chen seemed to understand a little bit, but not completely, and looked at Xie Di in confusion.

"That is to say, in the future, you and him will remain the same as before, so he won't feel guilty, and neither will you."

"Really? Is that all right?"

"Well, just one thing, you can't hug him anytime and anywhere."

"Why, I have always regarded him as my brother."

"Because his arms from now on will be mine."

Xie Di lightly tapped Zhan Chen's chest, so innocent, it's no wonder people can't help but want to hold it in the palm of their hand, it's more fun to tease than a child, no, he is a pampered child who doesn't mess with the world.

When Xiao Yu came back, he saw that Xie Di was bullying Zhan Chen, his brows frowned, his expression became cold, when Xie Di saw this, he immediately wagged his tail and drew back to help him carry his things, smiling all over his face.

"I came back so early, we were just playing, playing, I didn't bully him, did I, Zhanchen..."

Zhan Chen held his head and looked at Xiao Yu's "giggle" smile. Xiao Yu hadn't seen such a simple and bright smile on Zhan Chen for a long time, he was a little dazed for a while, and threw the shopping bag in his hand to Xie Di. He didn't speak, but his expression eased Quite a few, as if the slight sadness had disappeared, and they started to work in the kitchen.

This lunch was very comfortable, and it was all his favorite dishes. Seeing this, Zhanchen's eye circles were a little red, but when he looked up, he didn't feel sad, his eyes were full of smiles.

Although he doesn't quite understand what Xie Di said, but "it's the same as before", he understands that escaping can't solve the relationship problem, only by facing it bravely, the sadness of the two will gradually disappear and replace it with a new beginning.

Zhan Chen went back to his room to get things, Xiao Yu followed him in, Zhan Chen was a little embarrassed, he hesitated and didn't know what to say.

"Are your eyes all right?"

"Well, it's almost over, he is very good to me."

"Young Master Yu, will you go back to the courtyard?"

"You want to come back?"

"No, I won't come back. This place is very close to your hospital. It's unoccupied and empty. You can come back. I'll leave this room."

"Where do you live?"

"I'll live with him temporarily, and I'll move out after I find a good house."

"Zhanchen."

"I know I haven't let go, but, I..."

"I see."

Xiao Yu ruffled his hair.

"If you still blame yourself, I will feel even more guilty. You didn't feel sorry for anyone. What you did was right. I made it difficult for you."

Zhanchen heard his nose sore, tears almost flowed out again.

"I won't return this room. I can come back anytime I want. Don't think too much about it."

Zhan Chen nodded, and replied very lightly:

"Well, I see."

"Young Master Yu, can I hug you again?"

Zhanchen walked over, and for the first time, he didn't throw himself into his arms, but slowly hugged him tightly, and buried his head on his shoulder.

It's the last hug, Young Master Yu.

Xiao Yu hugged him tightly, unwilling to let go.