The road of chasing his wife by being attacked by scumbags

Si Xinyan thought for a while and decided to change the road. Just as he was about to turn around, Lu Zhi called him. "Yanyan, wait."

Si Xinyan's footsteps paused slightly, he stared at his toes, and thought to himself why he couldn't control his legs at the critical moment.

How long has it been since he and Lu Zhi have not seen each other?The last time we met seemed to be the night his store opened. Lu Zhi came to meet him in the store, but Si Xinyan ignored him.

That seems to be half a month, a month or more than a month ago?Si Xinyan couldn't remember.

When there are other people around, he can still focus on other people, suppress the last bit of nostalgia in his heart, and refuse without hesitation, but when he is the only one facing Lu Zhi whom he hasn't seen for a long time, Si Xinyan started to contradict again.

There was no expression on his face, and there was no emotion in the eyes that looked at Lu Zhi, but they had been together for so many years, Lu Zhi understood that he was stopped by himself, and they still had a chance to sit down and chat.

"Have you had dinner yet?" Lu Zhi took three steps in parallel, and trotted to Si Xinyan's side. "There's something wrong with your stomach, you have to eat on time."

Si Xinyan wanted to say that he ate it, but before he could speak, the parrot in the cage spoke for him. "Hungry, hungry."

Si Xinyan glanced at the parrot. The parrot jumped up and down in the cage, and shouted again, "Please, please."

Si Xinyan wanted to refuse, but before he could open his mouth, Lu Zhi stopped him in advance: "Let me treat you, there is a restaurant near here that you like very much, I haven't eaten there for a long time, let's go together."

"No, I'll go home and cook." Si Xinyan didn't want to bump into Lu Zhi, and if they wanted to break up, they would break it off completely. He can't face Lu Zhi calmly now, he can only force him Put down those thoughts that are surging in your heart, and go first as a respect.

Lu Zhi took Si Xinyan's hand: "Do we have to do this Yanyan? Be two strangers?"

Si Xinyan turned to look at him, Lu Zhi's eyes were imprinted with his shadow, he seemed to have lost some weight after not seeing him for a while, but Si Xinyan didn't show any mercy in his mouth. "Strangers may also be stronger than our relationship."

Lu Zhi clenched Si Xinyan's hand tightly, his eyes full of pleading. "Yanyan, don't treat me like this, it's too cruel."

Si Xinyan wanted to break his hand away, but Lu Zhi got closer and let go of his hand, which forced Si Xinyan to have no more leeway. "Aren't you cruel to me?"

Lu Zhi choked. "It's cruel. Now I know what it's like to be treated so cruelly. Yan Yan, are you happy after this time apart? Are you happy? What do you think, can you tell me about it? ? Don’t always reject me, we lack too much communication, even if we separate, I want to solve all the problems before we separate, I don’t want so many misunderstandings between us.”

Si Xinyan lowered his eyes. He couldn't say the reason for his separation. He was afraid that if he said it, he would lose control of his emotions. During this period of time, he has managed his emotions very well. Lu Zhi who is so entangled.

Lu Zhi is different from him in the past. He grabbed Si Xinyan's clothes and did not let go. He made it clear that he would not let go because of Si Xinyan's threats or other reasons. In the past, Lu Zhi couldn't do it with a good face. this kind of thing.When the two of them were at home, Si Xinyan had the final say on many things, but when they were outside, Lu Zhi had absolute control.In the past, Si Xinyan followed him and spoiled him, so he was used to look like a brat by Si Xinyan, but now that no one is spoiling him, he knows how to restrain himself. "Yanyan, I invite you to dinner, let's sit down and have a peaceful talk, is that okay?"

Si Xinyan brushed his hand away, and did not refuse this time: "Yes."

He felt that he had made it clear to Lu Zhi before, but at that time, Lu Zhi seemed to be unconscious and unwilling to listen to what he said. Now that he can communicate, he just said his thoughts again, Si Xinyan Not afraid.

The two went to the restaurant that Lu Zhi mentioned. Although the waiter seemed to be a little concerned about the birdcage that Si Xinyan was holding, what the two of them wanted was a private room. Instead of stopping the person, he respectfully invited him into the box.

In the past, ordering food was Si Xinyan's business, but this time, Lu Zhi took the menu naturally. There were not many dishes, but they were all Si Xinyan's favorite food, which made Si Xinyan look up a lot glanced at him.

It seemed that Lu Zhi was really different, Si Xinyan lowered his eyes, he couldn't remember what Lu Zhi was like in the past.The past here refers to Lu Zhi during the period when they started their business together. At that time, their relationship was still very good, as sweet as if they were in a passionate love period, but due to the constraints of their family members, they could not get too close .But at that time, Lu Zhi took good care of Si Xinyan, and he was usually the one to do things like order food.

Later, when Si Xinyan was able to leave the school to help, Lu Zhi became more and more busy, and Si Xinyan took over the care of others.

At the beginning, Lu Zhi still felt sorry for him, saying that these things should not be done by Si Xinyan, but later it probably became a habit, and gradually it became Si Xinyan's giving.

Thinking about it now, he seemed to spoil Lu Zhi as his son, almost spoiling others to heaven, and later Lu Zhi was indeed going to heaven.

The dishes were all served, the door of the private room was closed, and the private room was quiet for a while before Lu Zhi spoke after deliberating, "I remember you once said that you want to keep a pet, is this your choice?"

Si Xinyan's hand holding the food paused slightly. He didn't expect Lu Zhi to remember this incident, but it was not something worth remembering.

Si Xinyan really wanted to raise animals. Since the two of them moved out from home, Si Xinyan had such a plan, but at the beginning, both of them were in a hurry, and it was difficult for them to take care of each other by themselves and each other, so Si Xinyan didn't think about it.Later, when it became a little more stable, Si Xinyan proposed this idea. After all, it was the home of the two of them, and Si Xinyan thought it would be better to discuss it.

But Lu Zhi refused.

It's not that he hates cats, dogs, or other animals. His reasons are very good. They are still in the early stage of hard work, and many things have not been handled well by themselves. Although there is some space now, it is not necessary to keep pets. It's not enough to just buy the pet back. You have to have enough time to accompany and take care of him every day. Neither of them can do this, so Lu Zhi disagrees.

So this matter was put on hold, and later became a knot in Si Xinyan's heart. He felt that Lu Zhi did it on purpose. He knew that he was looking forward to it, but he didn't think about it for himself. He was too realistic and didn't know how to beat around the bush. At least to fool Si Xinyan a few words, at least say that one is enough for him to support Si Xinyan, so as to coax Si Xinyan, Si Xinyan won't be so uncomfortable.

Now that Lu Zhi mentioned it, the smile on Si Xinyan's face became a little mocking. "I'm resigned now, I have nothing to worry about, and I have a lot of time to spend with my pets."

Lu Zhi probably also remembered that this was not a very suitable topic, but he felt that he needed to make it clear. "I didn't let you raise it at the beginning, I just didn't want the pet to distract you."

"If you distract your attention, you won't be able to help you. It will delay your work, I know."

"No..." Lu Zhi felt a bit of a headache. They hadn't communicated for a long time. This kind of misunderstanding probably belonged to the prehistoric level. No wonder Si Xinyan wanted to break up with him. Why didn't he know that Si Xinyan was like this before? Will hold grudges, I still remember these things now, obviously I cared very much at the beginning.But he has never shown it. When he faces himself, he always looks like everything is OK. Sometimes Lu Zhi doesn't know whether he obeys because he loves himself, or whether he listens to him because of his nature. his words.

After all, Si Xinyan has listened to him since he was a child. After they were together, he would never lose his temper with Lu Zhi. He would not misunderstand, jealous or question him. Even if Lu Zhi wanted to explain, sometimes He will also be choked on the explanation by his eyes of "I understand it without saying anything, I believe you if it's okay".

At that time, he felt that they had a good understanding, but now it seems that Si Xinyan is holding back all these things, trying not to have an outbreak.

Thinking of this, Lu Zhi's heart hurts more and more. Si Xinyan has to love him so much that he can bear it all the time. As long as Lu Zhi thinks of Si Xinyan who never fights or snatches him in the past, who looks as pale as a chrysanthemum, his heart will be broken. It starts to hurt. "I don't want you to keep it because I think pets will occupy your time that belongs to me." After speaking, he felt that Si Xinyan might misinterpret his words, so he added. "At that time, we didn't spend much time together. I didn't want our relationship to be business affairs, and I didn't want other people or affairs to occupy your heart, so I objected."

Si Xinyan didn't know if he believed his explanation, anyway, his face was expressionless. "What's the use of saying this now?" The implication is that you can explain it any way you like now, anyway, the past can't go back.

"Yanyan, I know that no matter what I say, you won't forgive me, but I still want to tell you that many times in the past four years, many things have not come out of my own will."

Si Xinyan looked up at him.

Lu Zhi smiled wryly: "I know that I am too much and cruel, and I often struggle in my heart. I want to say, I want to treat you better and make you happy, but seeing you happy makes me feel uncomfortable. "

Si Xinyan sneered again: "It's really hard for me. But I won't do it now. You don't have to worry about people who don't care about you. This is what you taught me."

Lu Zhi was speechless, he didn't know how to explain his state of mind, even if he could explain it, so what, the damage had already been done, and if it was there, could it be possible to pretend that he couldn't see it after explaining it?

No, his words have been painful and sad, should we forgive him just because he said "it was not my intention"?Lu Zhi couldn't do it by himself.

He also felt that he was a jerk, and he hadn't done what people should do in these years. He wanted to explain it well, but now he found that the gap between them had grown deep, and the more they talked, the more mistakes they made. Si Xinyan would not forgive him if he spoke out.

"Anyway, Yanyan, I love you." That's all Lu Zhi could say.

Si Xinyan's response to this sentence was even more straightforward. He simply pretended he didn't hear it, and got up to leave after finishing his meal. "If you still want to talk to me about these things, then we don't need to talk about it in the future."

Lu Zhi asked: "Can't even be friends? If someone breaks up, at least they can be friends."

Si Xinyan left without replying to him.

Lu Zhi covered his face in pain. He felt a deep sense of powerlessness, just like when he was looking at Si Xinyan's corpse in a dream. The powerlessness made him lose all strength in his body, and he was even unable to breathe.

He said he wanted to make him happy, but what has he brought to him these years?

The author has something to say: the content of an article is filled with a master and a vice. I didn’t write the whole text in the copy, but it’s just two people in love, right?

It may be the first time I have come into contact with this kind of relationship. I don't intend to spill blood all the time. Now the relationship between the two is in the middle of the cooling-off period. I don't know what you are anxious about. I really want to see Lu Zhi come out. Die in a car accident?

Sorry, it's unlikely, I don't have this arrangement.

I am a person who advocates psychological torture, only the pain in the heart is lifelong, all the time, the pain of the body will be cured sooner or later, if the words can be saved only because of the physical pain, then the words will not It's so easy to coax, right?