Cold fragrance and warm jade [Red Mansion Chai Dai]

Who is she?

Baochai is not sure.

She didn't know whether she lost her mind after hearing Daiyu's words, or she lost her mind when she saw the smiling face of the girl in her arms.

But the girl with her ear close to her heart spoke in a low voice, every single word was so clear.

"Sister Bao, I know what you're thinking. But I know better what you're doing. I'm more lucky than you because I have a good brother, and my sister's brother..."

Daiyu pursed her lips tightly.

She was actually terrified too.

Things have been going on for some time.

But she couldn't imagine that if Chongyu hadn't clamored to practice martial arts at the beginning, and then invited Yang Zongquan to be Mr. Wu, and later Yang Zongquan and his brothers protected her father, even if her brother is still by her side, she would not There is no father either.

As for her without a father, she might not be able to escape from the Rongguo Mansion with her father.

It's nice there, but it's not my home.

Although there is a grandmother who loves her there, there are also powerful servants who are difficult to deal with, and all kinds of darkness hidden behind the brilliance of the big family.

Only when she can go back to her own home can she have a simple and happy life today.

This is where Baochai is worse than her.There are no male elders who can pick things up in the family, and after all, they are left behind in this world.Especially Xue Pan's nonsense, let alone how much bitterness and resentment it will arouse Baochai.

Daiyu did not dare to say that she could fully understand Baochai's mood, but compared her heart to her heart, she knew that Baochai was in a difficult situation.

She is also considerate, and she understands better how rare it is that Baochai can still try her best to be good to those around her despite her own many difficult circumstances.

Like Xiangling, like Xiangyun, like her, and many others, how come Baochai never treats them with consideration?

Daiyu once felt sour because Baochai was so considerate to everyone, but she knew better that it was Baochai who she liked!

This time Baochai was really stunned by what Daiyu said.

Occasionally, even Baochai himself was not sure who he thought he was.

She had just arrived at Rongguo Mansion, and Daiyu was somewhat hostile towards her.In fact, she had to admit that Daiyu's hostility at that time was quite right.When she first entered Rongguo Mansion, didn't she rush to compete with Daiyu for Baoyu?

It's just that her way of handling it is different from Daiyu's.After Daiyu was dimly aware of the crisis, she chose to test Baoyu.But she only continued to appear in front of Jia Mu and Mrs. Wang as the perfect big sister, and accompanied the sisters to learn how to play tricks, and was even peaceful to the servants.

She couldn't deny that she had always had selfish motives.

Her principle is actually very simple. She only wants to live a good life for herself and her family. If she still has the ability, she might as well help others. If she doesn't have that ability, she should take care of herself first.Self-protection is the first thing.

If something really hinders her self-protection, she doesn't mind doing anything.

Just as she could see at the beginning, let Baoyu and Daiyu get along, and when they grow up, it will be natural that the childhood sweetheart cousins ​​will become a loving couple.

But she still has to work hard for a golden marriage.

If anything prevents her family from protecting themselves, she will choose to help them.

Just like back then when she knew that her brother had beaten someone to death and got into trouble with officials, she still discussed with her mother how to deal with this matter in spite of the pain, so that she could get her brother out of this matter.

But since when did she become like this?

Was it after his father died?

In retrospect, maybe not.

Probably as early as her father was still alive, but the family's financial situation has gradually deteriorated. The father who used to play with her and teach her to read and write, his brows became more and more obvious day by day.Gradually, she could no longer simply be a carefree little girl beside her parents.

At that time, she secretly thought that it would be great if she could help her parents.

Protect yourself and protect your family.

So, she put away the miscellaneous books she had read before, learned about women's precepts and women's training, and started needlework for women.She worked hard to meet the expectations of others for a lady.

After all, only girls who meet expectations can live better, right?Only a girl who meets expectations can make her family be praised, right?

In this way, she came to today.

Her life had already undergone the first deflection.As a result of that deflection, she became the peaceful Xue Baochai who was praised by Jia's mother.

Maybe no one can see it yet, but she knows that her life has unconsciously undergone a second deflection.

From the day when she was in the Rong Mansion, she hugged Daiyu, and thought about whether to continue to cooperate with her mother and aunt in the golden jade marriage plan in order to cut off the possibility of Daiyu and Baoyu, she knew that the person she wanted to protect Man, there is already an extra Daiyu.

And, like her mother and brother, she was ahead of herself.

She wants to protect others as much as possible on the premise of ensuring self-protection, but protecting her mother and elder brother is prior to her self-protection!

After that day, she thought about it for a long time, but still couldn't figure out why she thought so much about Daiyu.

At this time, Baochai suddenly understood what Daiyu said.

Why does she treat Daiyu differently?

Because Daiyu is the one who really understands her situation, understands why she does what she does, and secretly supports her!

Praising her thoughtful elders, how many people know that she had to let that naughty little girl die in the past because of the Xue family?

I like her open-minded sisters, but how many of them know that her open-mindedness is actually hiding a little indifference at any time?

Du Daiyu was probably the one who saw it, but after seeing it, she wanted to be nice to her even more.

Daiyu never told her clearly in the past, but how could she not feel it!

It is the heart-to-heart proof, so needless to say, she has prioritized protecting Daiyu before protecting herself!

"Sister Bao." Daiyu suddenly sat up from Baochai's arms, "Since Sister Sixi has come to look for Yun'er, it must be that Chongyu and the others have finished school. Why don't I go to Chongyu now and ask him to take Auntie Are they invited to the house? Although it's hard for them to run around, but at least there are more people, and if we take care of them, it will be more lively?"

"What's the fuss about?" Baochai laughed hurriedly, "My home is not far from here."

This is the truth.Lin's residence and Xue's house are very close, especially if you go out from the Xiqiong courtyard, you can reach Xue's house in a short time, and it is convenient for Baochai to go to and from home, or for Aunt Xue to visit her daughter.

"Then I'll talk to Chongyu."

"and many more!"

Seeing Daiyu turn her head back, Baochai remembered that this was not Rongguo Mansion, and Chongyu was not Baoyu.

But when she saw that Daiyu was about to leave just now, she blurted out that she was about to call Daiyu, so what should she do now?

In a flash of thought, Baochai had already grabbed a folding fan on the table and two stone carvings of Yuhua stone, stuffed them into her purse, and handed them to Daiyu.

"You're going to find Brother Chongyu, and bring this to him, and it will be his gift."

That's all for the folding fan, but the purse is something that Baochai once brought.Although purses are usually used to hold gadgets and gifts, they are all packed in new lotus!

After Baochai finished speaking, she had already reacted, her face flushed suddenly.

She was about to take back the purse when Daiyu put it into her bosom with a smile: "I want this purse, but I won't give it to you. I will take this fan for you and give it to Chongyu." Look."

As she said that, Daiyu whispered to the table again: "By the way, you ask my girl to bring all these fans, and I also take them to let my father and Mr. Mo choose."

The girl Shuanglian who was following Daiyu was going to clean up the folding fans scattered on the table.

Baochai hurriedly laughed and said, "In fact, I have a share for them at home. They have divided them up. If my brother comes to the door, I can send them to you. I only bring these things for the sisters to play with." Forget it, it’s not a serious gift.”

Daiyufang motioned for Shuanglian to stop, and returned the folding fan to Baochai: "That's all, I don't need to give this fan to him now. Just wait for my news, I'll be back soon."

Baochai sent Daiyu and Shuanglian out, and then went back to sit in the room, looking at the things on the table, feeling ashamed that she had lost her mind so much today, and was far less thoughtful than before.

She should have taken these things to find the Sanchun sisters again, but what Daiyu said before she left still lingers in her mind.

Wouldn't it be faster for her to go to the Sanchun sisters than Daiyu to go to Chongyu?

But she was still worried that Daiyu would go back and not see her...

Baochai got up, finally let out a long sigh, and sat down again.

She wanted to do some embroidery to pass the time, but she picked up the needle and thread, but all she could think about was the peony handkerchief Daiyu gave her that day.

She carries this handkerchief every day, even now, she can feel the warmth of the handkerchief on her sleeve.

This temperature can be transmitted from the sleeves to the face.

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One night not long after I wrote this book, I suddenly thought that Baochai and Xichun might also serve as a comparison.

Both are seeking self-preservation.

Xichun's self-preservation is most clearly manifested in the part of resolutely throwing him out of the painting, he refuses to say a word for him, and even asks him to be thrown out as soon as possible.Xichun first said that she was shameless for doing such a thing as a girl, and then said that she is a pure and innocent girl, don't let others spoil her.

Of course, the words of innocence were meant to attack Youshi, alluding to the dirty things in the Ning Mansion, but when Youshi and others were about to plead for Ruhua, she was still determined to drive him away as soon as possible.

Combined with the ending of Xichun's verdict, I finally feel that Xichun's personality in the later stage has put self-protection at the absolute top of the list, and other things, even if she can do it, she may not be able to do it.

But Baochai, apart from protecting himself, will try his best to take care of others as long as he can.But when there is a conflict between protecting others and self-protection, Baochai still has to choose self-protection first.

In my opinion, Sister Bao is actually a person who pays attention to being herself.She was willing to do it, so she did it.In fact, she doesn't ask for much. The other side of open-mindedness is not to force.

She does something to protect herself, and she doesn't ask others to praise her for doing so.She has the energy to help someone, but she doesn't expect to get anything in return.

Therefore, in the original book, even if Daiyu was hostile to Baochai at the beginning and was targeted, Baochai would still be the first to treat Daiyu well.Because in Baochai's mind, whether or not Daiyu will appreciate her favor, and how much affection she will receive, is not in Baochai's good expectations for Daiyu.However, Daiyu's response will bring about the deepening of Baochai and Daiyu's relationship.

Now I suddenly thought of Baoyu again.Baoyu really wanted to protect more people, but he was incompetent and cowardly after all. He often did whatever he wanted with just a rush of enthusiasm. In the end, the protection Baoyu wanted to achieve was more likely to harm others.But who is really protected by Baoyu?

Finally... I accidentally wrote the words too long. If you disturb the reading, I would like to apologize here.