The strongest scum after me

"I'm not coming back."

Gojo Satoru took a second to hear this sentence clearly,

It took a few more seconds to understand what she meant, followed by,

It's doubts about one's own understanding.

No matter how he bullied her in the past,

No matter how bad you are to her,

She is also always gentle,

Patience, retreat.Although Gojo Satoru sometimes finds her attitude boring,

Can imagine what it would be like if she really rebelled against him in anger,

How will he react,

But when this moment really appeared in front of him, he realized that he didn't seem to be looking forward to it as much as he thought.

He didn't seem ready to face her like this.

Shimizu Sakura didn't stand there waiting for him, she didn't seem to care what kind of reaction he would have to her words, and even "I won't come back" just let him know,

He didn't mean to ask for his consent.

So once the words are finished,

She dragged her suitcase and planned to leave,

But the moment he opened the door, he grabbed his wrist.

"So say,

Do you mean to end with me? "

he asks.

Shimizu Sakura's gaze fell to her wrist, at this point she still had the energy to distract herself,

It just occurred to her,

It's the wrist again, as if he always chooses to hold her wrist when he holds her. Have they held hands in a real sense?

Maybe not.

Even in bed they seldom have interlocking fingers,

More often like now - he would always hold her wrist and press it against the pillow, in a gesture she couldn't resist.

But,

In the dream, she had seen what it was like for him to really like her. It turned out that he would be so gentle, so accommodating and conniving, and would always want to hug her and kiss her again. He would hold her in his arms and coax her, and he would hold her hand whenever he walked outside.

That's what it's like to love someone.

She felt a little tired, so she just said softly: "It doesn't mean the end, Wu, have you forgotten, we never started."

He was slightly startled.

He felt as if something was going to be out of his control, completely out of control, this feeling was really maddening, but it was like a caged animal, no matter how much he spun around in place, he couldn't find a way out.

Before she left, he was silent for a long time, and said for the last time: "Take the key with you, I won't change the lock."

This is the first time he has shown weakness to her, right?Even if only to such a small extent.

If it was before today, she might be very happy and feel that she has seen the light of day by persisting for a long time, but it is meaningless to talk about it now that she has decided to leave.

She was silent for a long time, with her back turned to him, and finally just smiled: "No need."

"It was never mine."

Looking back, when did she start to rely on him?

It was when I was eight years old.

That year she was brought back to her home by people from the Gojo family. Children are always extremely sensitive to changes in the surrounding environment. People like her, only that noble boy with snow hair and blue eyes will not hurt her, he will protect her.

Out of the instinct of small animals to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, she always follows him, timidly hiding behind him, like a little tail that cannot be shaken off.

But Gojo Satoru can't always be by her side. "The strongest" was not "the strongest" when he was young, and he also has a lot of courses and training to complete, so he often leaves the family.

Despite his repeated promises to the tearful Shimizu Sakura that he would be back soon when he left, she burst into tears after he left.

That was three months after she came to Wujo's house.

For some reason, Gojo Satoru went out for two weeks, and Shimizu Sakura was not allowed to leave with him, so he could only stay at Gojo's house.

She thought that in the next few days, she would wait for Gojo Satoru to come back in solitude as before, but she was told the next day that there would be teachers coming here to teach her in the days to come.

Teach her...how to be a person who has no thoughts and no ego, who unconditionally obeys Gojo Satoru, and is even willing to dedicate everything to Gojo Satoru, and become a puppet and a docile doll for him to control.

This is brainwashing against humanity and an outright crime.

But Shimizu Sakura is only eight years old, she is too young, she can't tell whether the concepts instilled in her by the "teachers" are good or bad, and she can't understand the terrible deep meaning behind what they teach her to say and do. Just obediently do what they want.

It's just that the time seems to be too short. Such a short time is not enough to completely domesticate her into Shimizu Sakura who can't think for herself and has no independent personality.

Two weeks later, Gojo Satoru returned.

Shimizu Sakura followed what the "teachers" taught her, and talked to him timidly. She no longer called him "Enlightenment", but called him "master", and "I" no longer appeared in her subject.

A trace of astonishment flashed across the face of the young Gojo Satoru, he was keenly aware of her abnormality: "...Why are you talking to me like this?"

Shimizu Sakura was frightened by his sudden change of expression. The "teachers" taught her not to lie to Master Wu at any time, so she could only answer him stutteringly: "Yes, it was taught by the teachers..."

There was a shadow in the boy's blue eyes: "What else did they teach you?"

"He, they also said... I depend on my master to survive, and I am an inferior existence. I must be grateful, and I must never have my own thoughts or selfishness... I will dedicate everything to my master in the future..." He said As she spoke, Shimizu Sakura wrung her fingers and muttered in confusion, "But, what does 'inferior' mean?"

She was too young to even understand the meaning of certain words.

"These bastards!"

After listening to her words, the boy's still childish face flashed a trace of ferocity, Shimizu Sakura had never seen such anger in him - it was really a violent side, he stood up and rushed out of the room with a gloomy face to find someone to settle the score, Half of the Wutiao family's house collapsed that day, and the repair work lasted for several days.

Since then, the Wutiao family has never arranged for a "teacher" to teach her.

Shimizu Sakura stayed in her room, she didn't know exactly what happened, she didn't know why Gojo Satoru would be so angry, and she didn't know what was going on with the loud noises outside from time to time, she was just afraid that she had done something wrong What made this happen, a person shivered in a corner.

Not long after, the wooden sliding door of the room was pushed open, and the winter evening wind carried the cool and delicate fragrance of Qianzhimei in the courtyard. Even his white bathrobe carried a bitter breath.

Gojo Satoru walked up to her, squatted slightly, put his hands on her shoulders and looked at her with an unprecedented seriousness: "From now on, forget everything that group of idiots entrusted to you. Remember, I am not your master , you are not mine."

"You don't need to dedicate everything to me, and you don't need to sacrifice for me. You don't depend on me to live, and you are not inferior to others."

"Sakura, you are a human being with an independent personality just like me and everyone else."

The young Shimizu Sakura stared blankly at him.

Even though it was night with dim light, those blue eyes were as bright as a fire burning.

When she was young, she didn't have a clear understanding of the fact that her young self was almost turned into a detour, but she was just happy that Gojo Satoru spent more and more time playing with her since then .With the growth of age, the increase of knowledge, and the maturity of the three perspectives, she gradually understood what she had experienced back then, and only later realized that she was only one step away from eternal doom.

As she was leaving, she suddenly thought of that night again, and of what the boy had told her.

【I am not your master, and you are not my property. 】

[You don't need to dedicate everything to me, and you don't need to sacrifice for me.You live without being attached to me, and you are not inferior to others. 】

[You are a human being, a person with an independent personality like me and everyone else. 】

Shimizu Sakura suddenly understood why her love failed so badly.

The correct way to maintain a relationship is definitely not unilateral asking and giving, nor should it be unilaterally dominating and controlling. How can love that gives up dignity and blindly accommodate will get a good ending.

Everyone should be equal from birth.

It's obviously a very simple truth, but she seems to have forgotten it for a long time.

But it doesn't matter, in retrospect, it's not too late.

Shimizu Sakura politely declined the proposal of Yarui Glass to go out with her to relax, and did not stay at her house, and left Tokyo alone.

Niatz plans to stay in school to become a school doctor, and she is currently preparing for a doctor's license exam, and she doesn't want to disturb her.

Before leaving, she once had a brief conversation with her teacher Noctua Moth Zhengdao.

Ye Mozheng asked her if she still planned to become a magician in the future, and Shimizu Sakura replied without hesitation for too long: "Sorry, Teacher Ye Moth, in the future, I may...not be engaged in work related to magic. "

Ye Mozheng was silent for a while: "Is it because of that kid?"

"No." Shimizu Sakura said, "It has nothing to do with Wu-kun, it's my own reason...Although I never said it, but I don't seem to be very concerned about spells or everything in the world of spells. Interest. It doesn’t matter whether it’s exorcising curse spirits or fighting against curse masters. Just because everyone else does it, I follow the trend. Sometimes I envy my classmates, who are so clear about their ideals and goals Cognition, only I seem to be the one who can't find the direction."

"Understood." Ye Mozheng said solemnly, with a gentle tone, "Has Sakura thought about what to do in the future?"

Although she couldn't see it through the phone, Shimizu Sakura still smiled: "Not yet, but I should be engaged in something that I am really interested in. I plan to travel for a few days in the near future, and they say that reading thousands of books is not as good as traveling thousands of miles. Maybe If you walk around, you will find the answer?"

Because it is a short-term trip, the location of the tour is limited to Japan.Shimizu Sakura has been staying in Tokyo in the past, and rarely visits other places in Japan, and has little travel experience.When she was having difficulty choosing a place to travel, when she was hesitating, she suddenly remembered the young man she had met once last time.

【"I live in Yokohama, and I just came to Tokyo for a business trip. Ms. Shimizu hasn't been to Yokohama, right? It's very close to Tokyo, the sea view is beautiful, and the public security is also very good. It's definitely a good choice for travel and relaxation."】

Since there is no place in particular that you want to go, it doesn't matter where you go, right?

Shimizu Sakura dragged her luggage and took the tram to Yokohama alone.

Perhaps being a human being really can't set up flags indiscriminately. In such a big city, she ran into a brown-haired young man who she thought she would never see again.

The handsome young man named "Osamu Dazai" is humorous and polite. He said that he just has nothing to do these days, so why not visit Yokohama with her.

Perhaps it was because of his excellent appearance, even with such a familiar attitude, he was not offensive at all.During the few days when Shimizu Sakura was in Yokohama, he took him to visit almost all the famous scenic spots in Yokohama, and he is really a man of great knowledge, extraordinary conversation, and a perfect ability to understand people's hearts. As long as he is willing, he can almost make people People are always in a happy mood.

For no reason, Shimizu Sakura felt that there was a nostalgic intimacy in him. This familiar sense of trust was completely different from the childhood intimacy that Xia Youjie brought her. It's always vaguely separated by something, making it hard to see clearly.

She told him about the past when Gotiao's family tried to brainwash her into a doll without self-thought when she was young, and the reaction of the brown-haired young man was beyond her expectations.

"Stupid." He commented with a smile, "Two weeks, such a long time is enough to complete a group hypnosis. And the group of people that Miss Shimizu mentioned can't brainwash a child. This kind of bad level should immediately commit seppuku .”

Shimizu Sakura was a little unconvinced: "In Mr. Dazai's opinion, is it easy to hypnotize others?"

"I don't want to say that, but it's true." Osamu Dazai put his hands in the pockets of his windbreaker, looked at Mount Fuji in the distance, and said lightly, "As long as you master the skills, everything will become very simple. From the most basic psychological hints , to hypnosis and brainwashing, and then to implanting ideas, these are ubiquitous in real life, and everyone is inevitably affected by them. It can be as small as a sentence, a picture, a book you have read, or as big as being with your loved ones Conversations with friends, public opinion on the Internet, universal values... Can you be sure that what you put in your mind is really your own thoughts, and not influenced by other people?"

Shimizu Sakura was puzzled: "Mr. Dazai, even if you say that..."

"Miss Shimizu." He interrupted her with a smile, "There are so many beautiful tourist destinations in Japan, why did you choose to come to Yokohama?"

Shimizu Sakura said subconsciously: "Because Mr. Dazai, you said—"

[Miss Shimizu hasn't been to Yokohama yet, has she?It is very close to Tokyo, the sea view is beautiful, and the public security is also very good. It is definitely a good choice for travel and relaxation. 】

She stopped suddenly.

With just one sentence, he had easily instilled in her the idea of ​​"coming to Yokohama for a trip".

Not intentionally, without showing traces, and even people will ignore it subconsciously, but as long as she thinks about "traveling" soon, the place that will immediately appear in her mind will be "Yokohama".

Shimizu Sakura was stunned, she raised her head and looked at him firmly: "...that's why you said we will meet again."

Osamu Dazai lay on the railing of the observation deck and laughed loudly: "Don't look at me with such a serious expression, it's not as scary as you think, it's just the most basic psychological suggestion, which can be seen everywhere in life. After all, I'm not the kind of pervert who would casually hypnotize girls."

"But..." Shimizu Sakura thought again, "Mr. Dazai, this method has a big loophole. How can you guarantee that I will definitely come to Yokohama?"

Osamu Dazai shrugged lightly: "I can't guarantee that."

"No guarantee?"

Shimizu Sakura was a little surprised.

"Yes. Whether it is any kind of psychological suggestion or hypnosis, the success rate can only be continuously increased through some means, but no matter how much it is improved, it will not reach [-]%."

I don't know why, but after hearing what he said, Shimizu Sakura felt a little lost: "...Is there really no way to increase the success rate to [-]%?"

"Well, it's not like no one has tried it." Osamu Dazai pondered for a moment, "However, there is a price to pay."

"cost?"

He smiled and lowered his eyes, and said in a low voice, "...a great price."

A week later, Shimizu Sakura met an acquaintance while visiting Minato Mirai in Yokohama.

The boy with a ball head hadn't had a good rest for a few days, his eyes were blue, and his brows showed a bit of fatigue. He was so far from his usual handsome and elegant appearance that Shimizu Sakura didn't even look at him when he saw him. Recognize him immediately.

"Mr. Xia You?" She worried, "What's wrong with this?"

Xia Youjie looked at her: "Have you ever seen enlightenment in the past few days?"

Shimizu Sakura shook her head, not to mention seeing Gojo Satoru, they haven't even made a phone call or sent a text message in the past few days.

Xia Youjie was silent for a moment: "The magic world will be chaotic recently, you should stay in Yokohama and don't go back to Tokyo."

"Will the magic world be chaotic?" Shimizu Sakura was uneasy, "Xia You-jun, what happened?"

Xia Youjie couldn't hear any emotion in his deep voice: "Many high-level people in the magic world died in one day. The preliminary judgment is that Wu did it."