GL Eighteen-Line Novelist and Reader's Love Story

In the minimalist Nordic-style Q&L meeting room, the air-conditioning is extremely high.In Nuoda's space, only six or seven people were seated, which seemed a bit empty.Jiang Nian and several young partners were anxiously looking at Song Ze, who was in the first place.Jiang Nian, who resisted the dresscode for thousands of years, was almost suffocated by the hard collar, and he wanted to tear it off but was too embarrassed to move.

Of course he was afraid of showing cowardice, and also afraid that Song Ze would find out.But Song Ze's gaze was always on the document in front of him, and he was flipping through the contract that he had revised and revised page by page, and his expression remained the same from beginning to end.Occasionally, I would ask a question or two about the content, and after getting an answer, I nodded slightly.

Song Ze is neither serious nor cold, and even talks to people with a smile.But Jiang Nian still felt like walking on eggshells.He thought to himself, "It's really stylish..." He felt as good as himself, and now he was looking at Song Ze, who was making a lot of money, and couldn't help but feel a little ashamed.

Finally, Song Ze put the contract back on the glass conference table, and looked around politely: "NiceWork, everyone." He turned to Jiang Nian again, "Mr. Jiang, some details mentioned in the contract just now, I will ask the assistant to review the details later." Check with Mr. Jiang. If there is no problem, Q&L is looking forward to cooperating with your company this time."

Relieved, Jiang Nian stood up and extended his hand to Song Ze, "It should be! Thank you, Mr. Song, for giving us this opportunity. We will definitely not disappoint you."

Song Ze smiled lightly, reached out to shake Jiang Nian back. "Mr. Jiang is too modest. Cooperation is a matter of mutual benefit, and it is impossible to talk about giving opportunities to others. The Internet is an industry that most needs fresh blood. Mr. Jiang and your colleagues are young and promising, and I am looking forward to it personally. future development of your company."

Song Ze's hands were warm and dry, and his words were even more modest, giving himself enough face.Jiang Nian resisted the urge to giggle, and coughed, "Mr. Song is showing too much face. I don't know if it will be inconvenient for a while, please treat Mr. Song to a business lunch?"

Song Ze politely refused, "Unfortunately, I have some other arrangements today. I may not be able to accompany you."

"Of course, if there is a chance next time, Mr. Song must honor it!"

The two walked out of the company side by side, Song Ze nodded, "Definitely." He said intentionally or unintentionally, "By the way, it seems that Director Gu didn't attend the meeting this time?"

Jiang Nian murmured that it was not good... but at this juncture, the main person in charge was absent.Yu Gong, he was worried that Song Ze would feel that the company was not caring enough, and Yu Gong, he also didn't want Song Ze to have opinions on Gu Jin on this matter.

Thinking of this, Jiang Nian pretended to slap his head, "Oh...look at my memory, I forgot to tell you. Gu... No, Director Gu has asked for personal leave for some personal reasons, so I can't come here in time this time But please rest assured, Mr. Song, she will still follow this case when she comes back. And she has been paying attention remotely, so she will not delay your progress."

Song Ze looked quite surprised, "Is that so? I have some friendship with Director Gu, and I appreciate her ability to work very much. It must not be a trivial matter for her to ask for leave at this time... I don't know if there is anything I can do to help. busy place?"

Jiang Nian was a little hesitant due to business and personal reasons.But seeing Song Ze's sincere attitude, he didn't want to leave the other company with the impression of being passive and losing money.So he said cryptically, "Mr. Song has a heart. The main reason is that Gu Jin's fiancée had some accidents and needed surgery. The injury is quite serious, so Gu Jin asked for leave to accompany her in the hospital."

Song Ze showed a clear expression on his face, "It's really heartbreaking that something like this happened. If Mr. Jiang is convenient, can you send me the address of the hospital later? I can also send something to express my heart."

It seems that Song Ze really appreciates grains... A good thing, a good thing.Jiang Nian nodded, "Of course."

Instructing the people in the marketing department to send Jiang Nian to the elevator, Song Ze put away his redundant expression and walked back to his office.Reading the flashing address on the mailbox interface, he thought for a while, and pressed the assistant's dedicated line, "Samantha, when was my last free time?"

The assistant's voice hesitated, "Mr. Song, your schedule for the next three weeks is full. But if you need it, this Thursday night on the 16th, maybe I can clear it for you. You need to fly to Berlin next Tuesday , and then it will be three weeks later.”

Song Ze rubbed his forehead, "Okay, then please spare No. 16. Give Xiaoli a call for me and ask her if she is free that night,"

"Okay, Mr. Song. Is it okay to arrange Spiaggia's place for you?"

Thinking of Chu Li, Song Ze had a real smile on his face. "No need, tell her to come home and I'll cook it for her."

In the receiver, Chu Li's slender voice was mixed with the wind, "Brother? Is it over with you?"

Song Ze leaned wearily on the sofa in the hotel suite, and unbuttoned his collar, "Well... there are a few difficult people. It's just over. Have you arrived at the hospital?"

Chu Li nodded slightly, and looked at the revolving door at the entrance of the hospital, "I'm outside. Assistant Lin has already sent the flower basket in. I'll ask him to take me back in a while."

Hearing this, Song Ze opened his tired eyes.With a complicated mood, he said, "...won't you go in and see her?"

There was a moment of silence over the microphone.After a while, Chu Li said: "No, I went in just to annoy her."

"Xiao Li." Song Ze's tone suddenly became a little harsh, "The reason why I told you that Gu Jin was there was not to make you feel sorry for yourself. I thought about it, and I really shouldn't be the one to come forward. It should be resolved by yourself. If she is really the one you think you want, you have to go all out to get her." He paused, "Xiao Li, brother will never force you to do anything. But the only thing I don't want is Yes, you will regret it afterwards. Many things have to be judged immediately, otherwise there is no room for redemption.”

"Brother, thank you. I understand."

After hanging up the phone, Chu Li quietly looked at the dark red hospital building in front of her.The full sun was shining directly on her face, and the temperature was so high that she was tired, but she didn't want to go back to the car and sit.In a trance, the facial features of that person seemed to appear in front of his eyes.She lowered the brim of her hat subconsciously.When I reacted, I felt very funny.

"Is there a verdict now? What am I running away from?" Chu Li laughed at herself and shook her head.Just as he was about to get back into the car, a figure holding a bouquet of roses suddenly appeared not far away.Chu Li raised her head.That figure was so familiar, she couldn't help but froze in place.

A nurse at the entrance of the hospital warmly greeted her: "Hey, baby, did you come so early today? Wow! What a big bouquet of white roses, is it for your lovely fiancée?"

She turned her back to herself, and couldn't see her expression, but her tone was extremely pleasant and natural: "Hmm! Rose, you are still so radiant today."

The two chatted extremely speculatively.Chu Li quietly walked a few steps, switching angles.Until that person's face gradually became clear.Sure enough, there was a smile on the corners of her eyes and brows, and her eyes were also curved, full of brilliance.

Rose patted her on the shoulder, "Okay~ Those who are engaged will not say a few words. I saw that she was in good spirits in the morning, and she was still studying. You can go in quickly."

"Well! I'll see you later. H□□eaniceday!" Before she finished speaking, she walked towards the revolving door quickly.It's like it can't wait.Turning around, he disappeared in front of him.Just like back then.

Looking at the place where she disappeared, Chu Li couldn't move for a long time. After a long time, she murmured: "Gu Jin..." The people around passed by in twos and threes, and the sun was still extremely dazzling.The revolving door that no one passed by slowly slowed down and finally came to a complete stop.It was like a complete hallucination.

"Miss Chu, the blue hydrangea flower basket you picked has been delivered to the ward. I also attached a card in the name of Mr. Song as you said. Do you want to go back to the city now?"

After recovering, Chu Li smiled at Assistant Lin, "Well, let's go back. Assistant Lin, I'm sorry."

Assistant Lin lowered his head modestly and said, "Miss Chu is polite, it should be." Turning around, he opened the back seat door for Chu Li, but Chu Li didn't sit in immediately.She glanced back in the direction of the revolving door before saying, "Thank you."

The car slowly drove out of the hospital area.Assistant Lin quietly glanced at Chu Li in the rearview mirror.I saw her looking thoughtfully at the flowing scenery outside the window.Half of his face was hidden in the shade.Can't tell what she's thinking.

As expected of siblings, they even look alike when they are not talking, Assistant Lin couldn't help thinking.

Chu Li closed her eyes tiredly: It's been five years.You are taller and thinner.A baby face that is harmless to humans and animals has grown some edges and corners.Your taste has improved and you've finally stopped t-shirting and jeans endlessly.You look more decent than before, and when talking and laughing with the nurses, you have a fluent and natural American accent.I almost can’t recall, when I was in the corridor, I watched you being punished to stutter and memorize English texts.

The days with you are like what happened in the previous life.But your smile hasn't changed, and your eyes are still so clear.You probably don't know it. In the past, whenever I looked into your eyes, I would feel a little absent-minded.It's like a whole forest, and the vivid atmosphere blowing towards my face makes me almost forget how false, utilitarian and disgusting the world is.

What a good thing this should have been.But for me at the time, this feeling terrified me.During the time when I couldn't see my brother, I passed the darkest years with the determination not to be loved.And your appearance almost wiped out the wall I had built with great difficulty.

I am greedy for your warmth, but I dare not.So I hurt you crazily and tortured you, thinking that you would choose to leave me.Only then can I return to my shell and look at everything around me detached and sober.

But you don't.Even the more I torture you, the more determined you seem to be.Countless times I wish I could grab your collar and force you to ask, why don't you leave? !Do you have no self-esteem? !Doesn't your heart ache?Because with the passage of time, even I gradually realized that every bit of harm I did to you began to repay myself ten times and a hundred times.

——Your obviously hurt expression, the way you try to restrain yourself, your understatement when you cover up...all are unconsciously imprinted in my mind.I hurt you.Feeling ashamed I can't be myself.But I can't help it... I can't help but wonder where your limit is, and why you can love me unconditionally.

How can you love me... I don't understand.But I couldn't help thinking, if, if you can pass my tests, can I have you?A you who can truly accept all of me.This desire makes me eager to try, but also makes me uneasy.I want to be disappointed and I don't want to be disappointed...

So, I started to treat you hot and cold.I flirted with other people in front of you, and I deliberately talked about how other people chased me in front of you.I dismissed your kindness and even insulted the poems you wrote for me.And when you feel dejected, give you a little encouragement as if nothing had happened.Watching your mood ups and downs, watching you pick yourself up countless times and appear in front of me with a smile again.I can't tell if I'm happy inside, or more heartbroken.

I made an oath to myself in my heart: I want to bet with you, bet my time and energy, bet all the remaining emotions in my heart, bet that you will not leave me.

If you can really pass through layers of checkpoints like in Super Mario.I will let you find me at the customs clearance place and defeat me.At that time, I will give myself completely to you.I will treat you well and love you well.I will use the rest of my life to compensate you for everything I did wrong to you before.As long as you don't let me down.

But just as I am watching with pleasure, you who are about to take off the banner of customs clearance.But you told me blankly: You are waiting for me to leave you.At that moment, I could hardly stand: The only person in the world who I believed loved me unconditionally, the one who said he would accept me unconditionally, told me that she was waiting for me to leave her.how ironic...

Yeah, you'd say I just left with a harsh word, wouldn't you?But have you ever seen the back of me holding on and almost fleeing?I am afraid that if I linger in front of you for another second, I will throw away my miserable self-esteem.I fell on my knees in front of you, weeping and begging you not to give up on me.

What is there to doubt?I would really do that.I will say to you: Can you be a little more patient?Do you see that blue progress bar hanging over my head?It's almost over, and you're about to get everything from me.How can you give up at this moment?

But I forgot... All of this is a gamble I imagined.How could you possibly see that... Anyone would say I'm totally unreasonable, even myself.And you probably saw me clearly before you left without looking back.Leaving me alone is like a forfeited prize.

And you, who are invincible and pass the test, don't even bother to show up to claim it.

In countless sleepless nights, I silently read the last sentence you left me.I gritted my teeth and read word by word.As if to engrave just six words in my heart.Tears flowed silently.

You said: People are not sages, who can be perfect?The past guilt has disappeared since then.How great you are to forgive me after I have tortured you so much.Even sages were involved to explain my behavior.Your bright and dazzling aura almost makes me feel ashamed.I really want to ask you, are you proud to see me with nowhere to hide?Do you never think of me?After all, you will not regret leaving me at all.

Gu Jin, until today, you probably feel that you are the loser of this relationship, right?But I want to tell you that between the two of us, the winner is always you.It is true that I am the one looking around, but I will not run far, as long as you are willing to chase me a few steps, I will obediently follow you back.

However, you seem to love more people.When you choose to turn around calmly, it is the end of everything.

Now think about it, do people feel that they understand everything when they are young?But now that I think about it, I actually don't know anything about life.But I really thought you would never leave me.I thought all your love was mine alone, you made me feel like I almost took it for granted.So when you turn around, I almost take it all off guard.

Gu Jin, do you know that I hate you?I hate that you can save me easily, but you give up halfway.Didn't you say you love me?Don't you call yourself smart?Then you should have easily seen through all my bravado and made me ashamed to admit my deep love that I couldn't express myself.

I hate you, you should have grabbed me hard and told me that you are the only one in my eyes, otherwise you would leave angrily.You should even slap me out of my dream.Let me know that I must treat you well.But you chose to ignore it, didn't say a word, and watched me from the sidelines, trampling on my good luck.

They were right.I admit that I hurt you deeply.I admit that it was my selfishness, stupidity, and greed that pushed our relationship step by step to a point of no return.But I never thought you were entitled to peace of mind.You are no noble knight at all, you are a mean man.Facing a ignorant, ignorant little girl like me, you should have taught me restraint, humility, and value.But you quietly hide all these fresh wisdom behind yourself.With the most accommodating and tolerant attitude, I encouraged my despicableness.

I was doing it wrong, wrong from the beginning.But you know what?In my eyes you are more selfish than me.You choose to be decent for yourself, and you choose not to act.You are simply not as loyal as you claim to be - because if you were, you wouldn't have indulged me or given up on our relationship first.

For a long time after I figured this out, even before I came to the hospital today, I desperately wanted to see you.I want you to admit it in front of me, and you have failed me.I want you to take responsibility on your part.It's your business if you want to disappear, but as long as my heart is not over, all this is not over.

But when I really saw you, I felt my heart was empty all of a sudden.There is no anger, no unwillingness, nothing.The bright smile on your face.It's so full that it can't blow a wisp of wind in, and it can't hold a grain of sand.Your expression made me flinch, and at the same time, it also made me feel lost again with nowhere to live.

I suddenly felt that I was ridiculous.What have I been complaining about all these years?Angry you left me?But I myself felt that I was hopeless at that time.Obviously I am unhappy alone, but I still want to drag you to suffer with me.

I have to admit: I want to be loved too much, and I want to be redeemed too much.I place all my heavy hopes on you.But I forgot that you back then were just a 17-year-old girl.But I think of you as the sustenance of omniscience and omnipotence.Really... I feel wronged for you.

Guzu, do you believe it?Now I even have a little bit of desire to protect your happiness.Yes, that Chu Li who in your eyes is selfish, mean, cold-blooded and ignorant of gratitude.There is actually a day when I learn how to pay for others.what would you thinkI stare at you and imagine that image.Imagine what expressions will appear on your face in turn.

Today, you should also take away the achievements of your year.I'm tired of keeping it for you for so many years.I used to think that I was your dream prize, but it turns out I'm not.Then, I will give you an apology of equal value.

You don't like me, like freedom, right?

Then I will give you the freedom not to be disturbed by me.From now on, wherever you may be, I will never show up again to annoy you.Also, the person next to you now must be more like what you expected, gentle, intelligent and patient, right?Otherwise, you won't look so happy, so happy that even I can't bear to let you come back to me and suffer.

People are not sages, who can be perfect.

So Yazu, I still want to tell you.If I knew you would only appear once in my life.I will definitely hold you tightly, and I will never give you even one reason to leave me.

The past guilt has disappeared since then.

(End of the book)