GL Eighteen-Line Novelist and Reader's Love Story

On June 300th, Grain in Ear.I took a break from my busy schedule and asked for leave in advance with my beautiful sister.Drive to Chicago, [-] kilometers away, and meet Jiang Nian, an old friend from high school.

Last night, the beautiful sister who had just taken a shower was holding a plate of mangoes I had cut at the right time and leaning against the white door frame.Watching me boredly put my luggage into the suitcase one by one.The little beauty's eyes followed my movements up and down, but she didn't speak.

I glanced at her and teased, "Sister~ Are you reluctant to part with me?"

She gave me a blank look, "Body lotion, mouthwash, and dental floss are all ready?"

"Bring it."

"A comb, a water glass, sunscreen spray?"

I simply dug out the cosmetic bag, unzipped it and showed it to her: "Bring it."

"Are you going to go for a long time this time?" Her tone sounded light.

I stood up and pinched her face.It feels so good~ I became so excited that I kneaded it. "I'll be back when you miss me."

She didn't resist, let me rub her face round and flat, and whispered, "Then you don't have to go..."

"Ouch... I'm only going for three days. Meet with him, check out the University of Chicago for you, and pick out a gift that suits you, and I'll be back." I kissed her forehead, turned around and took it from the closet. A couple of clean T-shirts lay beside the handbag.

She was half lying on the bed, helping me fold my clothes casually.Thoughtful, "Do you really want me to go to the University of Chicago?"

I deliberately yelled, "Why, are you surprised? Booth is also the number one business school in the United States. I have a grudge against you so I don't want you to go. And ah," I rubbed her hair.Her hair was still a little wet because she had just taken a shower.

I took out the towel in my bag and gently wiped her wet hair. "The starting salary of business analysis is quite impressive. After you graduate, you can support me."

She looked at me for a while, then sighed, "But you..."

"Sister," I straightened her face that was deliberately turned to one side, met her eyes squarely, and said with a light smile, "You said it before. 'From today to the rest of my life, I'm not allowed to back down again.' I I made you wait for me for three and a half years before, so I will wait for you for the rest of my life. I will follow you wherever you go. "

"Eighteen..." There was a sudden wave in her gaze, obviously touched by the words.She put down the folded clothes and gently hugged my waist, "But are you really not afraid?"

I hugged her and listened to her quietly.She said softly: "I just feel that you are different from before."

I laughed and played with her hair, "What's wrong with me?"

"It's great." She put a little more force on her hands, and buried her head deeper into my arms, as if she was infinitely attached. "These six months are like a dream. When I look into your eyes, I can feel that you have given me your whole being."

Listening to her words, my heart is soft. "Sister, I was originally yours."

"But I couldn't help but think, I only have my eighteen eyes, or you? Am I too selfish, so you can only stay by my side." She stared into my eyes, "Maybe you shouldn't Living this kind of life... I still remember when I first met you, you were so high-spirited and told me that you were going to travel all over the world and poke a hole in the earth."

I made my face long on purpose: "Are you kidding me? Am I getting old now? Well, you will despise me when you are a beauty in the future?"

She nodded my nose helplessly, "You, you. I just think that you have to give up many adventures for me. Do you really want to go to Chicago with me to accommodate me? Ever since we moved together After that, you haven't written anything for a long, long time."

I don't want to see her so vulnerable.I lowered my head and followed the line of her lips to kiss her.She didn't have time to react for a while, but her arm was already hooked around my neck like inertia...

"How could it be accommodating..." The night was as cold as water, and she had already fallen asleep from exhaustion.I hugged her and whispered in her ear, "I don't want to waste any more time."

When I crossed the second bridge into the city, I poked my head out and swiped my card on the unmanned toll machine, and started to think vaguely...

How many years has it been... Three years in high school, three and a half years in undergraduate, two years in master's degree, plus an internship to find a job.Has it been ten years?The best group of friends at that time, and I haven't seen many of them since.On the one hand, of course, it is because we are far apart, and on the other hand, it is also because I am not the kind of person who is keen on reuniting after a long separation.

Most friendships are still temporary.After that period of time together day and night, when the pace is relatively consistent, each other is like wagashi that has passed the best tasting period.What he/she thinks is good, for you, it is too much below the standard.

So, blame him?Blame you?In the end, it means to keep in touch with each other on weekdays.In fact, you know better than him that the past affection will never disappear.However, if two parallel lines were to intersect again, the heat created would not be enough. To be honest, no amount of heat would be of use.

But for no reason, I was looking forward to seeing Jiang Nian.It should be different from him.He must be different.I put the card into the card bag my sister gave me, and stepped on the gas pedal.

Dinner will be at Niujiao near the city center.Jiang Nian looked very energetic, with the calmness of a mature man in his eyes.But when he really laughed, he was still as lively as he was in high school.Gave me a 180lb bear hug as soon as we met.I slapped him on the back, not because I was missing him, but because I was really lacking in oxygen.

After finally getting out of the bear's paw, he rubbed his hands and said, "I forgot to book a seat, brother. How about we go to the bar and sit for a while?"

I gave him a blank look, "You can buy that wine."

Jiang Nian took out a Chase Sapphire that shone with metallic light from his card bag, and asked the bartender to open a new Tab.Chicly said: "Please, please, order casually, you poor student."

Who doesn’t want to drink a lot of wine for nothing? I deliberately shook the wine list and said casually: “Okay, okay, then I will drink Yamazaki for 18 years!”

Jiang Nian was a little anxious: "Oh, please take it easy for me. My company has just opened, and you have finished drinking my venture capital."

Grains...I just chuckled.That's right, this is one of my nicknames since childhood.What's it like to have a rare last name?Probably there will be countless strange nicknames: Bones, Guren, Encouragement, Guzheng, Drum Team, Osteoporosis...

Since college, English names have been used more often.Most of the people who are close to me call me Shiba, but the name Gujin is no one cares about.And hearing Jiang Nian call out, it was indescribably kind.

But after all, when I get along with boys, I subconsciously don't want to appear too emotional.Then he patted him on the shoulder: "Hey! Mr. Jiang. Sorry, sorry." The bartender quickly brought the drinks.

Jiang Nian ordered a glass of Old Fashion, I sipped the orange-gold liquid and squinted at him.It feels like time never passes.

We talked a lot, exchanged experiences over the years, looked at each other and laughed from time to time.The wine was called round after round.The Niujiao is overcrowded, and the seats can never be arranged.

I ordered a bowl of ramen to eat, and Jiang Nian ordered a large portion of fried chicken, and ate and babbled.Most of the time I was listening, while he gushed about his entrepreneurial story.I briefly told him about my beautiful sister and I, which made Jiang Nian sigh after drinking the next round of tequila and the fourth cup of Old Fashion.

"It's okay, it's okay. At that time, I almost thought that you were going to be a fool for the rest of your life."

I put down the wine glass, feeling that Jiang Nian seemed a little drunk.I quietly asked the bartender for a glass of warm water, and secretly poured some into his glass...

I took a peek at Jiang Nian's face, buddy, don't blame me...I thought to myself, anyway, Old Fashion itself is not considered wine...you can just drink it...

Coping with his mouth: "Yes, yes, I am stupid."

"Grain, are you still in touch with her?"

My heart moved, and I quickly understood what she meant: "You mean Chu Li? It happened in my previous life, it's hard for you to remember."

"Hey, that's right." Jiang Nian nodded blankly, "If I were you, I probably wouldn't want to see Chu Li again. You don't even know what she said about you behind your back."

I put down the glass, hesitating whether to let him continue.

But he Xu Xu said: "At that time, we knew a little bit about you. But no one was sure, and no one dared to say more. And the scandal about Chu Li never stopped. Later, you changed schools, It just got worse. We thought, well, you're not here anymore, let her go."

I patted him on the back, "It's good that you think so!"

Jiang Nian snorted coldly, "Okay, okay, okay. She is okay. Not long after you transferred to another school, she went around telling people about you. Everyone who knows you knows you."

The past was blown up one after another like dust... I fumbled for the diamond-shaped lines on the crystal wine glass, but I couldn't feel any waves in my heart.When I was chasing Chu Li back then, probably the whole class was my rival in love.Chu Li never refused anyone's kindness, including me of course.

At that time, I was young, and I didn’t take anything seriously. If I like it, I like it.Write love letters, travel with you, have fun, and give gifts.I enjoy playing the I love you role-playing game endlessly. When I grow up, I know there is such a thing as a spare tire, so I realize that I seem to be such an embarrassing character?

However, contrary to the fate of many spare tires, I am a spare tire who has been converted to a full-time job.Just after three years of chasing after me in a daze, Chu Li took the initiative to offer me an olive branch.I don't know if it's because of the feeling that you have to have a beginning and an end in doing things, so I accepted it.

Now that I think about it before we got together, my feelings for her have completely disappeared.I have to ask for a reason that has a beginning and an end. What is it?I can't figure it out even now.

Chu Li's suitors are still crowded with people, and I can't bring myself to care about them at all.I always went to wait for her at the gate of her school calmly, and listened to her talking about her admirers with high spirits, and what stupid and cute things they did today to make her happy.There was no wave in my heart, and I even wanted to laugh a little.

After all, there is nothing more sad than a dead heart. I think I was probably ashamed at that time.I have long been used to her looking around.This is true when you are together, and it is also the same when you are not together.What's the difference?Don't take pleasure in things, feel sad about yourself, that's probably what happened.

With such thoughts in my arms, I don't want to stay by Chu Li's side, nor do I want to go to anyone's side.Or rather, I'm not sure I can fall in love with anyone.My existence can bring more benefits than torture.The only thing I don't understand is Chu Li's thoughts.

If my heart is dead and I have no desires or desires, what is she for?

Facing me who "let the wind go from east to west, north and south" day by day, Chu Li's face became more and more gloomy.Finally one day, she couldn't bear it anymore, and invited me to a coffee shop.After ordering drinks, she raised her head and asked me, "Yuzu, what do you want? I'm already with you, why are you still unhappy?"

I met her eyes calmly, "Chu Li, do you know what I look forward to the most every day?"

She raised her eyebrows and smiled, as if waiting for a sweet word.

I said word by word, "That is, one day when I rode my bicycle to the gate of your school, I could see you walking out with another person holding hands. Then I could be relieved."

An expression of disbelief formed on her face, and she turned pale.A smile froze at the corner of his mouth, and he couldn't take it back for a long time.After a long time, she smiled coldly.

I thought she'd say, as you wish, idiot.As a result, she dropped a sentence: Don't even think about it.Turn around and leave.Don't even think about it, I poke the ice cubes in my iced latte with a straw.Then don't think about it.

So I still went to wait for her at a fixed time every day, and Chu Li also asked me to wait at the school gate day after day.I don't know why she wants to torment herself with me, and when she occasionally looks at me in a trance, what does she see from me who is always waiting for her to leave?

Of course, in order to avoid silence, we still talk about a lot of things.Talk about reading, talk about the future, and talk about interesting things around you.Chu Li is a charming girl, beautiful, funny and elegant.On this point, her admirers were right.We can always talk and laugh, just keep away from our business.

I can no longer remember how many days like that have passed.But even with my eyes closed, I can find her beige building from her high school.In the rest of the time, I desperately wrote, read, and memorized words.Finally one day, my parents casually asked at the dinner table: Ozu, do you want to go abroad?

Before I left, I asked a friend who knew me to bring her a postcard.When my friend took it, he hesitated and repeatedly confirmed to me, "Ozu, are you sure you want me to give it to her? Are you afraid that you won't be able to see it later?"

I smiled with relief, and said goodbye to my friend solemnly.When the taxi was driving towards the airport, it happened to pass by Chu Li's school.I think she has probably read my message by now.

"People are not sages, and no one has faults. The guilt in the past has disappeared since then."

I think enough is enough.But I'm still a little curious, wondering how she would bring up the events of that year, "What did she say?"

"Say you like girls, and say you've always abandoned her, and dumped her not long after we got together." Jiang Nian said angrily, as if he had been wronged.

"Ha," I couldn't help laughing, choked on the wine and coughed again and again, "Well, my reputation as a scum is solid. You say I'm sending a xxx to the high school group now, Can you make it?"

Jiang Nian saw that I didn't care, and said with a smile, "You, you, you haven't changed at all. You are so big-hearted."

I put my arms around Jiang Nian's shoulders, "The people I care about don't care, and the people I don't care about don't care what they say." Letting Jiang Nian go, I said, "I'm just a little confused, if she just wants to slander my reputation , It’s enough to say that I like girls. Why do you want to involve yourself?”

"Who knows?" Jiang Nian shrugged, "Maybe it's because he's not reconciled. He's used to other people coming and going as soon as he's called. You've always been devoted to her before, she must have never thought about it." will be dumped by you."

"Not really." I smiled and drank the wine in my glass, "She is just a silly girl. She looks smart, but she has no intentions. Otherwise, she wouldn't do such a thankless thing." Pick from the plate Putting a few peanuts in my mouth, I squinted and said, "But I'm actually quite happy."

Jiang Nian didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "Are you poisonous?"

"Don't you think that the extreme behavior is just the proof that a relationship really existed? If it wasn't really a shock, how could her aloof personality go to the next class to tell the story of how she was dumped... Is it an honor?"

"It's true that you have to say that. Hey... Grain, why do you always think of these weird angles."

I said sullenly, "Don't get me wrong. I'm not a good person. I never regretted leaving her. On the contrary, I know that she will never forget me, and I feel quite happy."

Jiang Nian thought for a while, then smiled again, "Okay, let's not talk about this, this time I came to you, and I really want to talk to you about something. Gu Gu, what are your plans for the future?"

Did the topic turn so hard... I hesitated and replied: "Probably graduate school. After that, I'm not sure. I just want to write something. It would be even better if someone is willing to pay me."

Jiang Nian said solemnly: "This is easy to handle, how about you come to work for me?"

"Huh?" I was taken aback, "Didn't you start an Internet company? I'm a liberal arts student, so why don't I move my computer?"

Jiang Nian didn't care about my trickery, "The company has just received financing and is still in the stage of team formation. I want to ask you if you would like to be the director of my creative department. You don't have to worry about technology, you can just come up with ideas .Our current team is almost all coders. It’s okay to write code, and Brainstorm is basically staring. But since we plan to make products for a long time, it is impossible to stay at the technical level forever. Together, we , still need to find a few innovative talents to make the team really active.”

Jiang Nian's eyes were burning, and I couldn't help but laugh: "So you think I'm an innovative talent?"

"Grain, we've worked together before. I know your ability well, let alone your character. Just because you haven't mentioned anything about Chu Li in these years, I'll convince you. The size of the company at this moment It’s really not big, but it’s gradually getting on the right track. The salary depends on the market situation, and I’ll give you some technology stocks. I think there’s still time to apply for this year’s H1B for you.”

Looking into Jiang Nian's sincere eyes, my heart felt a little loose, "Brother, you are a little sudden. I have to think about it."

"It's okay, you go back and discuss it with your family." Jiang Nian waved his hand, "But since you have concerns about grains, you probably won't return to China for a while to develop. If you don't want to go to graduate school madly, I think you might as well help me. Creative work, you should be easy to get started."

He said pointingly: "Grain, if we have loved ones, we can't live forever in the sky."

Looking at Jiang Nian's resolute face, I felt half of my drunkenness dissipated.