Mr. Incompetent Bodyguard

After Ji Jin finished recording the third and fourth episodes, it was midnight again. Everyone went to the hotel to rest for the night, and flew back to Shanghai at noon the next day.

Since yesterday, Su An and Shen Qingyu had very little communication, and Ji Jin didn't speak much, and the journey was very quiet.When the nanny's car was about to arrive at Ji Jin's house, Ji Jin suddenly asked Su An, "Which song do you want me to sing on stage?"

His topic started without warning, and Su An didn't realize it for a while: "Which song?"

After a few seconds, she suddenly understood, and laughed quickly: "Oh, you mean my aunt's birthday party! What the elders mean is that they hope you can sing "Running", because there are also my aunt's cello works in it. I asked my aunt if I would personally accompany you on the spot, but my aunt herself didn’t agree—of course, if you want to sing something else, you can also tell them in the group.”

In fact, these contents were all discussed in the family group, but Ji Jin blocked the family group and never read it. He didn't know that he had been arranged by others.

Ji Jin crossed Erlang's legs and kept shaking his legs. He looked very irritable, but he didn't say anything.

The car stopped outside the community, Ji Jin jumped out of the car and left.Shen Qingyu quickly took the luggage from the trunk and caught up with Ji Jin.

After the two went upstairs, Ji Jin went straight into the piano room and closed the door.He turned around in the room, and after turning around several times, there was a knock on the door outside.

"A Jin," Shen Qingyu asked in a deep voice, "Can I come in?"

Generally, when Ji Jin locked himself in the piano room, he was working, and Shen Qingyu never came to disturb him.This is the first time.

"Don't come in!" Ji Jin said immediately.

There was no sound outside the door, Shen Qingyu didn't speak, and there was no sound of footsteps, he seemed to have been standing outside.

After a while, Ji Jin waved his fist angrily, ran to open the door, and Shen Qingyu was still at the door.

"What's the matter?" Ji Jin's tone was stiff.

Shen Qingyu smiled at him with a soft smile: "A Jin, are you unhappy?"

Ji Jin's emotions that had been suppressed in his heart were aroused by his words, and his nose suddenly became sour.He turned around and beat his forehead with the back of his hand.

Shen Qingyu watched silently, feeling his entanglement.Is this entanglement because you don't want to talk to him?Still don't know where to start?

Ji Jin beat him ten times without stopping, his forehead was already slightly red.He obviously has symptoms of anxiety attacks - usually if there are outsiders present, he will bear the anxiety attacks by force, and he will feel dizzy and nauseous after a long time.But now in front of Shen Qingyu, he no longer hides it.

Shen Qingyu quickly opened his arms to wrap him in his arms, and when Ji Jin struggled, he hugged him even harder.

After this period of time, Shen Qingyu also summed up his experience.Ji Jin will have three states during the manic period, excited mania, depressed mania and anxiety mania. In short, all kinds of emotions will be amplified, especially once his anxiety is triggered, it will last for a long time. Trapped in anxiety.And when it comes to the depression period, his energy seems to be exhausted, and he will be immersed in depression and exhaustion for a long time.Shen Qingyu had no choice but to let him sleep more during his depression period.But hugging is the best antidote when he is out of control during the manic period, and hugging for a while can help him calm down.

Sure enough, within a minute or so, Ji Jin's body was visibly relaxed.

Shen Qingyu dragged him to the piano bench and sat down.The bookcase is in the piano room, because the bookcase is far away from the piano bench, and the top floor of the bookcase can barely be seen when sitting there.Although he couldn't read the whole thing, Shen Qingyu did see words like "Buddhism". It seemed that what Su An said was true.

Shen Qingyu asked Ji Jin: "Don't you want to go to your mother's birthday party?"

Ji Jin remained silent, pursing his lips tightly.Shen Qingyu seemed to understand a little bit: Ji Jin wanted to go, but he didn't want to.He was anxious because he didn't have a clear answer, which would not be the case if he had already made up his mind.

"Do you have a good relationship with your mother?" Shen Qingyu tried to open the topic, "I heard Sister An said that she is a cellist, and you will add the works she played to your own music?"

After a while, Ji Jin nodded first, then shook his head: "We have a bad relationship. I have been afraid of her since I was a child."

"Afraid of her?"

"Yes. I'm afraid of her because she's very fickle." Ji Jin frowned slowly, "When I was young, she would hug me when she was in a good mood, and tell me over and over again that she loves me the most... She would buy a lot of things Give it to me, she will play the cello for me, she will give me whatever I want..."

He knocked his teeth hard, and then said: "But when she is in a bad mood, she will become very, very fierce. If I play a wrong note on the piano, she will tear up all my piano scores and go crazy Just like smashing things at home."

Shen Qingyu frowned.The last time he heard Su An say that Ji Jin resembled his mother's personality, he had doubts.Sounds more suspicious now.He read on the Internet that bipolar disorder is a disease that may be inherited. Ji Jin's mother may also suffer from this disease, and the symptoms seem to be more serious than Ji Jin.

"Is she... the same as you?" Shen Qingyu asked cautiously.

Ji Jin let out a "ha" and raised his eyes to the ceiling with a sarcastic expression.

He didn't answer Shen Qingyu's question, and continued on his own: "I used to really hate her. I swear that when I grow up, I will never become an adult like her... When I go to middle school, I also started to be anxious and irritable, and every time I lost my temper, I would regret it... At that time, I hated her very much. I think it was because she put too much pressure on me and drove me crazy..."

Shen Qingyu frowned.Mental illness has both physical and environmental factors.There is no doubt that a person like Ji Jin's mother who is emotionally unstable is a great stimulus to Ji Jin, and it may be one of the reasons that stimulated him to get sick.

Ji Jin's Adam's apple rolled up and down, and his arms trembled slightly.Shen Qingyu quickly put his hands together in his own.

"Because I hated her, I wanted to avoid her far away, so I went abroad after finishing junior high school. I would rather go to an environment where I don't know anyone, and I don't want to stay with them..."

Shen Qingyu was slightly surprised.them?Who else?

"Until later, I was diagnosed in the hospital, and the hospital said that I had bipolar disorder..." Ji Jin pulled a very complicated smile, "At that moment, my first thought was, I don't know if she also has this kind of disease? Can't she control herself? Didn't she torture me on purpose? Shouldn't I blame her?"

"...but if I can't blame her, then who am I to blame?"

Shen Qingyu rubbed his hands distressedly.He could feel Ji Jin's pain and self-blame when he said this.

"You hate her," Shen Qingyu said softly, "but you also love her, right?"

"I don't know..." Ji Jin shook his head, "I wanted to give up music many times since I was a child, especially when she tore up my sheet music and smashed my piano, I swore that I would never learn music again in my life !"

"But when no one is around, I will secretly search for the music she plays, and I will watch the video of her concert over and over again. I saw her on the stage, the surroundings were dark, and all the spotlights were on her alone. On... I..."

Speaking of this, Ji Jin couldn't help choking for a while: "When I don't have inspiration, I will also listen to her performance. I add her works to my music, and I don't even know why I do it... "

The outside world thinks that Ji Jin adding his mother's works to his own works is a tribute to his mother and a show of love. Maybe it is true, but this kind of love is complicated, so complicated that Ji Jin himself can't explain it clearly.

Shen Qingyu understood.Su An is right, Ji Jin loves his mother, both love and hate.He is a sensitive and delicate person. These tangled emotions make his artistic talent, but at the same time make him suffer.

After a while, Shen Qingyu asked softly again: "Then what kind of person is your father? Do you have a good relationship?"

Ji Jin was in a daze for a while, then shook his head: "I don't want to mention him."

Shen Qingyu was surprised: "Why?"

According to Su An's description, Ji Jin's father is a very "Buddhist" person, and his influence on Ji Jin should not be greater than that of his mother.But Ji Jin can even talk about the conflict with his mother, so why doesn't he want to talk about his father?

"I just don't want to mention it!" Ji Jin's tone became blunt, "I want to write a nursery rhyme, you go out first."

"..."

Shen Qingyu knew that he shouldn't be provoked at such a time, but he was even more worried about letting him leave Ji Jin alone.If Ji Jin had the ability to digest on his own, he wouldn't be sick.

Seeing Shen Qingyu not moving, Ji Jin felt a little anxious, and stretched out his hand to push him: "Get out! Can you leave me alone for a while?"

He pushed once, didn't push, then pushed a second time.Shen Qingyu grabbed his arm and pulled him into his arms, then hugged Ji Jin again.

"Don't drive me away." Shen Qingyu pressed the back of his head into his arms forcefully, "It's okay if you don't want to say it now, tell me when you want to say it, I'm willing to listen anytime! Now let me Can I stay with you for a while?"

During this period of time, he has been very careful, he was afraid of irritating Ji Jin, so he only came when Ji Jin needed him, and walked away when Ji Jin asked him to leave.It wasn't until he heard Su An's words yesterday that he realized that he didn't know Ji Jin at all.He'd been just a polite bystander, that's all.

But if Ji Jin really only told him about the disease, then Ji Jin was asking him for help!He wanted to help Ji Jin, so he couldn't go on like this.He has to get to know him more actively.Just do more for him.

Ji Jin's nose was sore again.After a while, he grabbed Shen Qingyu's skirt and choked up.

Shen Qingyu felt that his clothes were wet, and wanted to look down in surprise, but Ji Jin grabbed him as soon as he let go.

"What are you looking at!" Ji Jin cursed while wiping away tears, "I just don't want me to tell you to go when you see me crying, you, you don't give me any face! You bastard!"

Shen Qingyu: "..."

He hugged Ji Jin again, touched the back of his head, and coaxed him softly: "Okay, okay, I won't look, I didn't see anything."

Ji Jin lowered his head angrily, buried his face in his shoulder, and wiped his tears and snot on his clothes by the way.

In the end, he didn't talk about his family affairs anymore, but after making Shen Qingyu's home clothes wet and sticky, he finally regained his spirit and went to sleep peacefully.

……

On Tuesday, Ji Jin woke up early in the morning feeling restless, shuttling back and forth in several rooms non-stop.

The birthday party started in the afternoon and ended in the evening. Not long after lunch, Su An's phone call came.Today she drove to pick up Ji Jin by herself. On the phone, she told Ji Jin that she would arrive in about a quarter of an hour, and asked Ji Jin to pack up and get ready to go downstairs.

After hanging up the phone, Ji Jin sat in the living room in a daze for a few minutes, got up and went into the room.

Not long after, Ji Jin changed into a royal blue high-end suit and came out.

Seeing him like this, Shen Qingyu knew that he finally made up his mind to go.Shen Qingyu asked him, "Do you want me to go with you?" Because Ji Jin hadn't made up his mind a few days ago, he didn't ask this topic.It was Ji Jin's mother's banquet, and he didn't know if he was eligible to attend.

Ji Jin was taken aback for a moment, and then asked absurdly: "Of course! Don't you want to go?"

Shen Qingyu: "..."

He also turned around and went back to his room to change clothes.

However, Shen Qingyu doesn't have any formal clothes at all. He only has a dozen sets of clothes in all seasons of the year, which are either sportswear or casual clothes.It took him a long time to dig out a shirt that was at the bottom of the box, and after changing it, he walked out of the room.

Ji Jin was spinning around in the living room, he really wanted to find something to distract himself, so that he would not have to think about how to get along with his parents later.When he heard footsteps, he raised his head, saw Shen Qingyu's appearance clearly, and was stunned for a moment.

"You..." Ji Jin stepped forward, pulled the crumpled fabric, turned over the yellow collar, and almost laughed angrily, "Is this an antique handed down by your ancestors?"

Shen Qingyu raised his forehead: "I only have this shirt..."

Then why don't you let me buy you clothes? !Ji Jin growled silently in his heart.

But it was too late to say these things now, he grabbed Shen Qingyu's wrist and walked to the cloakroom: "I'll choose a dress for you to wear!"

As soon as he entered the cloakroom, Ji Jin's cell phone rang, and it was Su An's call.His boss picked it up impatiently: "Hello?"

"Ajin, I'm downstairs at your house, shall I come up now?"

"Don't come up! Just wait below!" Ji Jin opened the curtain of the cloakroom, and cut off the phone without waiting for Su An to react.

He rummaged through the closet, and before he had time to choose carefully, he picked up a brand new white shirt and patted it on Shen Qingyu: "Change quickly, I'll find you another suit."

Shen Qingyu knew that time was running out, so he didn't go to another place to change.He carefully put the shirt that Ji Jin handed him to the side, and took off his own torn shirt and threw it aside.Then he lowered his head to unbutton his trousers.

Ji Jin dug out another maroon suit from the closet, which seemed more suitable for Shen Qingyu.Turning around, I saw Shen Qingyu half bent over, his trousers had fallen to his knees.

Ji Jin: "!!!"

Although they live under the same roof, Shen Qingyu is more cautious in front of Ji Jin. Every time he takes a bath, he will put on pajamas and pajamas before coming out.After more than a month, the number of times Ji Jin saw him shirtless on the spot was not as many as he saw in the game video.

This is the first time, at such a close distance, Shen Qingyu's sculptural perfect and firm muscle lines hit his eyes.The impact of this picture was so powerful that his brain froze instantly.