There is a bend

They still slept in the same sleeping position as the night before: Bian Yue surrounded Lin Niannian from behind.

The front chest meets the back.

seamless.

But this time, because he made his mind clear, Lin Nian's mentality was very different.

He was so excited.

The rationality about "maintaining the status quo", "keeping the secret" and "continuing to be a good brother" could not calm him down.

His mind is full of: I like Bian Yue.

I actually really liked Bian Yue.

Since when?

He didn't notice it.

It's not friends and brothers, but love, how long has it been?

In addition to being hugged by Bian Yue, the two of them slept together intimately, as if they could feel the strong heartbeat in Bian Yue's chest on their backs, Lin Niannian could hardly hold himself at first—psychologically and physically.

Lin Nian subconsciously bent his legs and tried to lie on his side.

He felt that he was covering up pretty well, no matter how tightly Bian Yue hugged him, he was still behind him, so he couldn't find it.

As a result, as soon as he moved, Bian Yue's arms around him also moved.

Lin Nian stared suddenly in the dark, he!

Immediately push the hand.

Bian Yue's breath burned his ears, and his deep voice seemed to be bewitching: "Don't move, I will help you."

Lin Nian didn't want Bian Yue's help, so he continued to earn, "Don't."

Get up and get up, no matter what it does, it's not like it can't go down by itself.

Bian Yue's hand and Lin Nian's pushing hand went back and forth a few times, but he succeeded in the end.

Lin Nian took a sudden breath, a breath he had never felt before.

……

……

……

Perhaps seeing him getting better, Yue's voice behind him bewitched again:

"Don't hold back."

"Call if you want."

……

……

Lin Nian thought he was going crazy.

In the dark, in his rapid breathing, he suddenly turned around, hugged Bian Yue's shoulders face to face, pressed the person to him, and hugged him tightly.

His body and his mind, consciousness, intuition, senses, everything in him is shouting a name, Bian Yue, Bian Yue, Bian Yue.

Lin Nian completely indulged himself.

That's how it is anyway.

Anyway, Bian Yue didn't know yet.

Anyway, Bian Yue wanted to help him.

Anyway, they have always been close, he took advantage of the trend, Bian Yue would not notice.

Just right, isn't it.

"Bian Yue." He hardly used this name usually, it was too familiar, and he always said something.

But now he is hugging Bian Yue, and Bian Yue is controlling him. He can't help but want to call this name, so he repeats over and over again in the tightly hugged ear with a choked and gasping voice: "Bian Yue Yue, Bian Yue, Bian Yue..."

What Bian Yue replied to Lin Nian was a tighter hug.

In the darkness, his eyes darkened, as if something was brewing in his heart, and he forcibly suppressed it.

It's all over.

Lin Nian's chest rose and fell violently, and he was tightly attached to Bian Yue who was holding him.

The upsurge has not subsided yet.

There was silence, and no one spoke.

Lin Nian was panting, his breathing and his whole body smelled of Bian Yue.

He couldn't help it, and at the same time he was extraordinarily calm.

He thought: Bian Yue can give him a punch, can Bian Yue like him?The kind of love after bending.

He almost asked Bian Yue: You don't have a good impression of gays, why?

Can it be 'poor'?

He moved, trying to adjust his posture, when he suddenly remembered something, and reached out to touch Bian Yue.

Bian Yue thought that Lin Nian would help him in turn, so he grabbed his hand, squeezed it, "No need."

Where did Lin Nian want to help? He wanted to verify it face-to-face. He felt that if Bian Yue helped him, he would feel a little bit of reaction. Could he still have some hope?A little bit will do, even a little will do.

Being grabbed by the hand, he suddenly came back to his senses.

The edges are straight.

What unrealistic expectations is he having?

Lin Nian ushered in his sage time in the carefree aftertaste, calm and contradictory.

He likes Bian Yue, very much.

Bian Yue is a straight man, and he has a bad impression of being gay.

No, why is it gay? What happened, when?Why do you have a bad impression?

Just thinking about it, it was not too early or too late, Bian Yue's cell phone rang, it was the company's phone number.

Bian Yue leaned against the head of the bed, wiped his hands with a paper towel, opened his mobile phone, and threw it beside the pillow.

"Bian Yue, it's not good. The graduate student introduced by Professor Xiao last time had a problem with the part of the module he made."

Lin Nian was stunned for a moment, without making a sound, he raised his eyes to look at Bian Yue, who was still wiping his hands, showing no expression.

Based on his understanding of him, Lin Nian saw a few words from that expressionless face, probably: "I said I don't have a good impression of gays" and "Meeting gays really doesn't do anything good."

Lin Niannian: ...

Bian Yue and his company colleagues had a brief chat on the phone. After wiping their hands during the period, they reached into the quilt and cleaned it up for Lin Nian.

After hanging up the phone, Bian Yue got up, took off his bathrobe and changed clothes, and looked at Lin Niannian while changing. Obviously, his colleague made the problem very serious on the phone, but he was still in the mood to joke: "It's cool for me this time. Run away."

When is it all?

Lin Nian wanted to throw him with a pillow.

Lin Nian sat up and leaned against the head of the bed. He could have been ashamed simply because "the person I like punches for me", but now he couldn't care less about the embarrassment and asked Bian Yue: "Is it serious?"

Bian Yue was dressed: "It's a little better than what you heard."

Lin Nian had a thought, and was about to lift the quilt and go with Bian Yue, but Bian Yue said no, he went back to the company by himself, and let Lin Nian go back to sleep.

Lin Nian thought about Bianyue's affairs. He didn't take part in Bianyue's company, and he didn't understand, and it was useless to follow, so he didn't move.

Bian Yue raised his gaze, met him, and said in a half-joking and half-unintelligible way: "Reluctant to let me go?"

Lin Nian looked back lazily, scratching his toes in the quilt, and his heart seemed to be scratching, "Yeah, I can't bear it."

Lin Nian dragged his tone, like he used to play tricks, and said, "Mr. Bian, don't go~ I can't bear you~"

Heart thump, thump, thump, full of truth, but it doesn't sound like it.

Bian Yue took this untruthful tune as the truth, put on all the clothes, approached the bed, reached out and touched Lin Nian's head, then shaved his face, and said: "If you can't bear it, you have to go. gone."

After speaking, he looked at the time, and told Lin Niannian that if he played outside alone tomorrow, don't play for too long and go back to school early.

Finally asked him: "Leave the car to you?"

Lin Nian waved his hand: "Go away, I'm no more convenient to take the subway than you to drive."

"Mr. Bian walk slowly, Mr. Bian will see you later."

Bian Yue glanced at his face with a smile, as if no matter how big the company's problems are, it's not a problem, it doesn't hinder him, and doesn't affect his mood.

However, just as Bian Yue was about to walk to the door, Lin Niannian suddenly threw off the quilt and ran out of bed, Bianyue turned around when he heard the movement, and Lin Niannian just rushed over and threw himself into his arms.

Bian Yue jumped back half a step, while Lin Nian hung on his neck like a monkey, with a bright expression and bright eyes, looking at Bian Yue: "Teach me how to play billiards next time."

Unexpectedly, Bian Yue accepted all the orders, put one arm around Lin Niannian's back, and the corners of his lips twitched: "Got it."

Then he raised his hand and rubbed Lin Nian's head, and said, "Go to bed early, little Bian Mu."

Bian Yue closed the door and came out, there was absolutely no urgency to rush back immediately because of a module error.

He was waiting for the elevator in the elevator hall, rubbing his fingertips together, and the face reflected on the door of the elevator hall was obviously happy.

—

many years ago.

The young Bian Yue sat on a brown leather soft chair.

Opposite him, a young doctor in a white coat raised his gaze from the record book in his hand, pushed his glasses, and said the result in a gentle voice: "Paranoid personality, has an extremely strong possessive desire for certain people."

The doctor smiled, made a trivial joke, and said, "Student, there is an evil dragon living in your heart."

Bian Yue: "Will it disappear?"

Doctor: "It takes time, and it depends on yourself."

The young man looked frank: "If it's just on my side, I don't think there's anything wrong with it, I just don't want it to hinder my friends."

The doctor closed the record book in his hand, listened to the boy's words, and nodded: "You accepted it. Can you tell me, how do you plan to 'treat' it? Let it disappear, or let it live in your heart forever."

With a composure beyond his age, the boy said confidently, "I'll try to take care of it."

The doctor reminded the teenager: "It is in your heart. Over time, it may become bigger, smaller, or very irritable. It will affect you at any time, even if you think it is nothing bad, you accept it."

Boy: "I will make it obedient."

The doctor was stunned: "Be obedient?"

The teenager is not confused, and his thinking is clear: "I will make it obedient, it will not hinder my friends, and it will not affect the relationship between me and my friends."

It lives in the bottom of his heart, and if he doesn't tell it, it will always be a secret.

—

How could Lin Nian have the mind to play outside alone.

He tossed and turned with insomnia all night on that imaginative big hotel bed with the smell of yakuza, and the next day, after breakfast, he took the subway back to school.

Meng Ran their school.

Meng Ran was studying in the classroom room by himself at the time, when suddenly a person sat down across from him, startling him.

Looking up and seeing that it was Lin Niannian who sent him a message not long ago saying he was coming, Meng Ran calmed down and asked, "So soon? I thought it would take a while for you to come over."

Lin Nian looked at him without saying a word.

Meng Ran:?

Seeing Lin Nian's expression, Meng Ran suddenly had some bad associations, gasped, and asked in a low voice, "No, why don't I take you to a gay bar, and you're not in a gay bar?" If you weigh it and sell it, can Bian Yue make you break up with me?"

Lin Nian sullenly shook his head, but what he said was: "I'm sure, I like him."

Meng Ran: "...???"

Meng Ran reacted and said "ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

When he walked outside, there was no one in the open air, Meng Ran was startled: "Is that the straight man who accidentally bent you?"

The word "straight man" stabbed Lin Niannian's heart like a knife.

Lin Niannian almost couldn't catch his breath, and gritted his teeth: "Life is so difficult, do you still give your friend a way out?"

Meng Ran: "Life is so difficult, please tell me first what you plan to do next."

Lin Nian pursed his lips and stood there, as if thinking, without making a sound.

Meng Ran started stabbing people with a knife again: "You don't want to chase him, do you?"

"My 'previous car' is not enough for you to learn from?"

"It didn't work out, really."

"Instead of wasting time on hopeless things—"

Meng Ran pointed at Lin Niannian and recommended himself: "You look at me now, why don't you think about me first..."

Lin Nian looked at him speechlessly: "Say something about the world!"

Meng Ran: All right.

Meng Ran: "Then you want to chase him?"

Lin Nian let out a sigh of relief, put on a cool look, and said what he thought of: "I didn't want to chase after him." If I like it, I like it, "I still treat him as a good brother."

After speaking, he suddenly thought, why did he come to find Meng Ran?

right.

Lin Nian asked Meng Ran: "How did you manage to continue to be friends with me without becoming a lover? What method and mental journey?"

He references.

You can't see Bian Yue's heart pounding for several hours after you have made clear your feelings for Bian Yue.

Meng Ran stayed where he was, feeling that Lin Nian was stabbing him with a knife.

Method?Mental journey?

Meng Ran asked back: "What kind of mental journey can you have if you don't catch up with the person you want to chase?" It's all a bloody failure, okay?

Meng Ran: "Don't you think 'hahahaha, I'm so good, I didn't catch up with this, and I developed into buddies, friendship will last forever, long live!', okay?"

Lin Nian said awkwardly: "I have no other intentions, just ask, for reference. You speak well."

Meng Ran said it well, told the truth, the truth is not good, but it is not bad for Lin Nian, but for himself.

Meng Ran: "You can continue to be friends with a normal heart, why else, of course, because I actually don't like you that much."

"Just because you are handsome, in line with my aesthetics, and have a good personality, so I cast a net and chase after you."

He murmured in his heart: He went to college and had no other wish, but only wanted to get out of the single.

He is so active and good-looking, he is still a zero, he has also seen a ghost, and he fails to chase anyone.

Now all the people I have chased have turned to the man, and it's fine if he hasn't left the order, and all the mental journeys have been referred to him.

tears.

After Meng Ran finished speaking, with Lin Nian's thinking expression, he asked him, "Is there anything I can refer you to?"

Lin Nian looked back: "No."

Meng Ran doesn't like him, and he doesn't like Meng Ran either.

But he likes Bian Yue, the kind he likes very much.

If you like someone, can you continue to be friends with him normally?

Lin Nian mentioned Bian Yue: "Although he doesn't like me like I like him, he has a good relationship with me."

Meng Ran didn't know what to think of, so he changed the topic: "It's good to be daring, you are curvy, he is straight, you have a good relationship, and you don't have to bear any consequences of success or failure, then you can enjoy the friendship by his side to your heart's content Those sweet moments of lightning and sparks under the shell."

Lin Niannian: "..."

what? What?

Lightning?spark?

Meng Ran: "Of course, there are also sufferings." The suffering of being friends but not being able to express your feelings in words, "But never mind him, let's talk about it first."

Cool.

Lin Nian thought about yesterday, on the bed in the suite, under the pool table, under the tablecloth in the dining room...

Seeing his expression, Meng Ran knew that he might have already "enjoyed" it. He raised his hand to cover his lips and smiled twice, and shoved Xia Lin with his shoulder for a year, "Why are you in a unilateral hurry to get clear with your first love? relationship and position."

Lin Nian blinked, first love?

Meng Ran: "Don't think so much, just take a look."

Meng Ran: "Be like ordinary friends first, get along like you used to, and don't think about you bending him straight, in case he finds out and alienates you, those things will happen in the future, and it didn't happen, and you didn't chase him , If you haven’t confessed to him, let’s do it first.”

Meng Ran: "Didn't all philosophers say, 'Life, live in the moment, don't care about him'."

Lin Nian didn't care about the rude words of any philosopher. After digesting it for a while, he was still thinking, first love...

Bian Yue, it's his first love?

Lin Nian was stunned.

It seems to be true.

first love.

Bian Yue.

The corners of Lin Nian's lips lifted unconsciously, he didn't know why he was happy, but he felt very happy to add "first love" and "his first love" before Bian Yue's identity.

Very happy.