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"..." Ji Liao asked softly, "What?"

The other party asked suddenly and without thinking, but Ji Liao instantly understood his meaning, and even noticed what the other party was thinking at the moment.

But he still asked a more serious question.

As soon as Yan Cun finished speaking, he felt a little regretful for asking outright.

After a while, he waved his hand and said "nothing".

Ji Liao: "..."

He was a little unhappy.

It was the same when I was in the criminal investigation office before, and it is the same now-if I have something to say, I will only say half of it, and I will make up a big drama in my heart without letting anyone participate.

So he asked directly for Yan Cun: "Want to ask me if I am straight? Ask me if I am homophobic?"

Yan Cun was taken aback for a moment, and then answered generously: "Yes."

In fact, he was well prepared, knowing that Ji Liao's insight was too keen, not only applicable to subtle changes in emotional state, but also applicable to changes in the external environment.

He seriously doubts that if Ji Liao gets married in the future, whether the harmony of daily family life will be severely challenged—for example, there is no need to ask whether the other half is happy...

…………Well?

? ?It seems to be more harmonious?

Thinking of this, he seemed to suddenly recall something, and added: "Ah, but strictly speaking, I've actually heard you say it yourself...it was when I was in the villa area..."

Hearing this, Ji Liao fell silent.

The two confronting each other outside the grove seemed to have reached a consensus, the volume gradually decreased and began to whisper, the surroundings suddenly became quiet, and the atmosphere became a little anxious.

Yan Cun suddenly panicked, just as he was about to speak to break the silence, Ji Liao suddenly stepped forward and grabbed his hand.

"Huh??" He felt a little painful from being gripped, "Ji..."

However, before he could finish speaking, Ji Liao had already pulled him out of the woods and said "Send Zhang Jingze back" to Xiao Zhiyu, then pushed him into the passenger seat and started the car quickly.

His movements were so smooth and smooth that no one present could react for a while.

It wasn't until he drove the car out of the parking lot of the Municipal People's Hospital that Yan Cun realized that he was in a bad mood. He glanced at Ji Liao with some fear, and tentatively uttered a syllable.

"you……"

"Six years ago," Ji Liao interrupted him directly, "about 7 o'clock in the evening on July 14th, where were you?"

Yan Cun was startled: "?"

Ji Liao asked repeatedly: "Where are you?"

Yan Cun: "???"

WTF?

"You..." He was stunned for a long time, then he frowned and said angrily, "No... I don't think there is any problem if you are accurate to a certain hour... You are accurate to a certain hour? You don't have a fever, do you?" ?! How can I remember this!"

Outrageous.

Not only outrageous but also a little weird.

Ji Liao didn't reply for a long time.

He couldn't tell what was going on in his heart, and he didn't understand why he always acted strangely.

Although he has always thought of himself as a 'straight man', in fact, he is vague about his true orientation - he has never been interested in any man, nor in women, and the only thing that makes his heart skip a beat is his college entrance examination results that moment.

And the figure I met in the grove behind the mountain of A University back then.

At that time, my father died suddenly of a cerebral infarction, and accidents swept one after another, and the atmosphere in the family became depressed, anxious and desperate.

He didn't want to stay at home, so he went out and wandered aimlessly, and finally wandered to the nearby Mingjing Lake in the back mountain of A University, and sat down in a corner at random.

After a while, he noticed that in the small woods not far away, a handsome little boy was pulling another tall and tall figure, as if talking affectionately.

He passively listened to the wall for a while, listening to the man finish reading his meticulously written [-]-word love letter, listening to him telling how much he really liked the other party word by word—and then he was ruthlessly rejected.

At that time, Ji Liao thought, this must be a very indifferent person.

After the "little man" was rejected, he did not give up and pestered that person for a while, asking himself if there was such a slight possibility - and got the answer, no.

At that time, Ji Liao thought, this person is not very indifferent, but very extremely indifferent, it seems that the word 'tactful' does not exist in that person's dictionary.

But when he was thinking this way, after the 'little man' left, he keenly found himself hiding in a corner suffering from collapse and anxiety, sat down beside him, and tried to give him warm encouragement and comfort.

He felt that this person was somewhat contradictory.

At that time, the surrounding light was dim, and he couldn't see the other person's face clearly—perhaps because of the suspension bridge effect, he firmly remembered the person's voice in his heart.

After seeing his photo on the wall of honor, and having a face-to-face fight with him in the banquet hall that day, Ji Liao's memory of the voice still hasn't been awakened.

Until that day in the criminal investigation office, when he heard Yan Cun say that he "would never like anyone", the string in his mind suddenly broke—perhaps because of his vague memory, he subconsciously connected the two people together, and the two Two voices overlapped strangely in his head.

So he made up his mind and asked, "Did you reject anyone by that lake?"

Yan Cun was stunned when he heard the words, and he didn't notice the complex and convoluted psychological activities of the other party. He asked, "Lake? What lake??"

Ji Liao pursed his lips: "The lake in the back mountain of A."

Yan Cun: "???"

Although he didn't understand why Ji Liao suddenly mentioned that lake, but seeing the other party's serious expression, he still answered honestly: "Well, probably."

Six years ago, I was in my senior year of college. Based on his age, Ji Liao probably only entered high school.

There are quite a lot of people he rejected in the four years of college, and he has to blame himself for flirting and not marrying—but he can't just put "not in love" in the profile of his circle of friends, right?

Ji Liao: "..."

After getting the answer he wanted, he drove forward without saying a word.

Yan Cun quietly moved his eyes to the driver's seat, looked at Ji Liao's sharp side face and the flattened corners of his mouth, and suddenly felt strange emotions in his heart.

Qinjiang City People's Hospital was not far from his home. Not long after, Ji Liao parked his car in front of the corridor of his home.

He didn't move for a long time, after struggling for a while, he said softly: "Then I'm leaving?"

Ji Liao didn't respond, and took the seat belt off the passenger seat on his own initiative. Just as the other person raised his hand to open the door, he asked, "What's the reason why you don't like anyone?"

Yan Cun: "..."

His eyes trembled inadvertently, and he turned his head to meet the other's straight eyes.

He seemed to be awakened by some memory.

When it comes to feelings or other people's confessions, Yan Cun thinks that he belongs to the category of 'inexplicable'.

Seemingly gentle and smooth with a high EQ, in fact he is stubborn and stubborn—in the case of being confessed by someone, he first considers his true inner feelings, and if he is sure that it is only a "favor" rather than a "like", he does not want to be desperate and The other party's impulse and idea of ​​being together, he will directly refuse without leaving any room.

He didn't want to leave any thoughts for the other party when he couldn't give a response, and he was used to cutting messes quickly.

More than one person once said he was 'cold', and he admitted it.

But when it comes to why you don’t like anyone——

"Because I don't want to."

Ji Liao: "..."

"Because I don't think I can give my body and mind to another person without reservation, I can't be as emotional as others, and I can't completely remove the protective barrier-but this has mixed advantages and disadvantages. The advantage is that I I won't be deceived and hurt by anyone. The disadvantage is that I can't establish an intimate relationship with anyone," he finished his sentence in an orderly manner, then looked at Ji Liao from the corner of his eyes and asked, "Are you satisfied with this explanation? ?”

Ji Liao was startled, and his voice was a bit difficult: "...Understood."

"I can blend into the group normally, I can hide that indifferent 'true me' in my heart so that no one will find out, and I can also use my 'external heat' to establish intimate relationships with other people..." He did not evade his peers Liao met his gaze, and slowly uttered four words, "But I don't want to."

Ji Liao paused for a few seconds, then asked, "...why?"

He seemed to understand something in an instant.

"Because... I think it's important to be honest when getting along with people," Yan Cun said after carefully considering his words for a while, "No one wants their other half to be a false 'personal design', and I don't want to use the pretended self. Forcibly establish an intimate relationship with others, so I will not harm others."

No one would like such an indifferent self.

He hadn't told anyone about this before, even though Jiang Huai had known him for so many years, he didn't pay attention to these small details.

If it wasn't for Ji Liao, who hates children and is too sensitive, and observes his mother every day, it is estimated that no one will know his true inner thoughts in this life.

It's really a mismatch.

Ji Liao looked at him without saying a word, the emotions in his eyes were unfathomable, and it was difficult for Yan Cun to guess what the other party was thinking.

I have been fighting with others all the year round, but this time I have met my opponent.

He became inexplicably agitated-it was cool to talk to others at the moment of 'talking', and he usually regretted it in retrospect.

"Do you...do you have any questions?" Yan Cun raised his hand and glanced at the time on his watch, suppressing the urge to push the door to escape immediately, and asked, "If not...well...then I'll go Oh?"

In fact, Ji Liao didn't think about anything in his heart, what Yan Cun said just now lingered in his mind, and he didn't slow down for a long time.

He was actually a little bit dissatisfied.

But he shook his head first, indicating that he had no other questions.

Only then did Yan Cun let out a breath, opened the door and got out of the car.

After walking a few steps forward, he vaguely heard someone shouting "Yan Cun" from behind, and immediately turned his head to look at Ji Liao who was leaning against the car door.

"Good night," Ji Liao seemed to want to say only this, "Have a good dream."

Yan Cun smiled and mouthed good night to him, turned around decisively, and walked upstairs without turning his head.

The author has something to say: Will it be really fragrant ˊ_>ˋ

Tomorrow! !