side edge

After Yan Cun finished speaking in one breath, he let out a long sigh, seeming a little melancholy.

Ji Liao lowered his eyes and remained silent. Although he could understand the other party's thoughts, he still retorted hoarsely: "Your mentality...at least saved one, didn't you? — If you didn't give this order, you might not be able to save even one of them. .”

"..." Yan Cun covered his pupils, his eyes trembled inadvertently, nodded and said, "...um...I know."

"Everyone tells me that it's not my fault... I'm not so stubborn, it's indeed the result of various external factors," he smiled wryly, "but I can't bear it—I can't bear my own Being distracted by these little bugs, not being able to stand it affecting my judgment of where the case is going, not being able to...

He has been a criminal policeman for so many years, and he has never seen any weird cases, or any twisted and sickly intimate relationships—but he still can't see tragedies, such tragedies caused by a single thought, and anyone's impulsive behavior for him Regret for life.

If there is a chance to do it all over again, no matter what, he has to forcibly pull that person back a bit, and has to let the two of them sit down and communicate calmly.

"But this is only the first time." He added in a low voice.

Ji Liao's breath stagnates.

"The second time...it's more serious..." Yan Cun moved the back of his hand down a little to cover his eyes, and said in a hoarse voice, "The second time was more serious...I can't remember exactly what happened at that time Fortunately, Jianghuai stopped me that time, which didn't make my mistakes more outrageous, and didn't lead to any more serious consequences. It just left me with this scar - and I also understand that I must take strong measures to overcome this problem gone."

"Well... the third time I didn't dare to try, I just asked Jianghuai to do the field work for me, the fourth time... the fourth time I have completely recovered," he paused, "over the years, I I have been on countless field trips, solved countless cases, almost never made mistakes, and almost never made any wrong decisions... Only these three times, just these three times, this broken problem has framed me here... I am afraid I will Always limited by these things."

When he entered the detachment after his internship period, his mental state reached a normal level, and his psychological quality test results were excellent-no one, including himself, would have thought that he still had a pimple buried in his body, and no one would have thought that this problem would be so bad for him. Damn it.

Everyone thinks he's okay, so he wants to be 'okay' too.

Ji Liao sighed softly, raised his hand, fumbled in the darkness to wipe the corner of the other's eyes, and handed over a tissue.

The tip of Yan Cun's nose twitched inadvertently, he lifted his head from the opponent's shoulder slowly, grabbed the tissue, let the sweat in his palms wet it: "...why, you didn't cry."

He looked up at the ceiling, blinked, and said, "I want a drink."

Ji Liao nodded with a "yes", got up and opened the door to go outside, and returned to the room after a few minutes, and handed him a glass of warm water.

"I wish you would cry," he said.

Yan Cun almost choked on a mouthful of water: "...??"

Although he quickly understood what the other party meant, he couldn't help laughing out loud, and said, "What's wrong, I like to watch people cry."

The protagonist of the movie let out a scream at the right time, his hands shook in shock, and a few drops of water spilled out.

The corners of Ji Liao's mouth curled up a little, but he didn't laugh out loud. He took out a tissue to wipe off the water drops, took the water glass and put it on the table.

He suddenly asked: "Then have you ever thought about why you are still subconsciously afraid of rain?"

"……??ah?"

Originally, Yan Cun wanted to cover up what the movie was saying, but he was stunned by this question, and he reacted for half a minute: "...what?"

Ji Liao looked at him for a while, as if he had seen through everything, and finished his words in one breath: "You thought you let go, you thought you solved the shadow that was buried deep in your heart, it's just that you thought—you thought you put these Things are said lightly, you think that as long as you hide it deep enough, rounding it up means it’s gone, don’t you?”

Yan Cun: "..."

After coming and going, they are so familiar, he has already corrected the problem of thinking first and then thinking. After thinking about what Ji Liao said for a while, he asked a question: "Is it...?"

In the eyes of others...is this the case?

Ji Liao took a deep breath, and asked what he wanted to ask earlier like a broken jar, and said directly: "Have you checked the information about the previous fire of your parents?"

Yan Cun was stunned for several seconds, blinked, and said honestly: "Yes, I checked."

Ji Liao: "?...??"

...Why don't you follow the routine? ?Why is it different from what you said? !

"Well, I really checked..." Yan Cun repeated softly, seemingly in a daze, he pinched the corner of his clothes lightly with his fingertips, and faltered, "I checked the beginning and found that... um... the involvement is a bit deep ...I'm afraid..."

"..." After waiting for a long time, Ji Liao asked, "...afraid?"

He was first disrupted by the other party's sudden honesty, and was stunned for several seconds before he keenly noticed that something was wrong.

"Yan Cun," he raised his eyebrows and asked, "Do you... know something?"

"Ah? That's right, why..." Yan Cun hadn't finished speaking, and he looked suspiciously at Ji Liao for a few seconds, then quickly came back to his senses, and said loudly, "?? You lied to me again?!"

Ji Liao frowned when he heard the words, the answer seemed to have appeared in his heart, and asked quickly, "What did you find?"

Seeing the other party's hesitation, he softened his tone: "I'm not lying to you, just say it."

"..." Yan Cun closed his eyes, and seemed to be struggling a bit. It took him a long time to squeeze out a few words, "I... only checked the beginning."

He added discouragedly: "I dare not continue to investigate."

Ji Liao narrowed his eyes and asked directly, "Fang Yushan?"

Yan Cun: "????...!?!"

Ji Liao was taken aback, but in fact, it was more like he expected it, and murmured: "... Really?"

"..." Yan Cun let out a trembling breath, stared at Ji Liao for a while with complicated emotions, and said with difficulty, "There is a high probability... um... It's just that there is a high probability that it is related to him, not necessarily related to him... "

He suddenly remembered what He Jiu said last time, lowered his eyes and said, "Actually... I'm still a little scared."

Ji Liao thought for a while in silence.

"I'm a little scared..." Yan Cun said, "If I'm really placed between 'the murderer who killed my parents' and 'the only adoptive father who cared about me'...I..."

Ji Liao let out a soft "Mmm", just now he had made a decision in his heart, and without any hesitation, he called him seriously: "Yan Cun."

"……Um?"

"Give me a chance," Ji Liao said softly, "I'll find out the truth for you, and wait for you to ask."

"..." Yan Cun was startled, a little unresponsive, "...huh?"

He focused his attention on the word "truth" in the other party's words, and then he came back to his senses, feeling a little flustered: "Ah?...What do you mean... Wait for me to ask? Give a chance? Ah? Give what a chance ?”

"Don't worry, ask one by one," Ji Liao interrupted helplessly, looking straight into his eyes, "What I mean is... I will bear the 'risk' of investigating past cases for you, and bear these 'uncertainties' for you. ’, you just need to decide whether you want to know, or whether you need to solve the problem at its root.”

Without waiting for the other party to reply, he seemed to have planted a seed in his heart, and said with lowered eyes: "Or, in fact, it doesn't matter if there are a little more defects, in fact, it's okay to rely on others a little bit - let Jianghuai make decisions for you when it rains, or else And me, I'll follow you, I'll tell you what to do, it doesn't matter if you obediently hide under the eaves to avoid the rain."

Yan Cun: "..."

He stopped breathing, raised his eyes to meet the other's fiery gaze, his heart moved for no reason, and the tip of his nose felt a little sour.

The first time someone said such words to him, he didn't know what to say for a while: "I..."

"You can just answer yes or no," Ji Liao moved closer to him, gently put his hand on the back of the other's hand, and rubbed it, "Are you okay, Yan Cun?"

"..." Yan Cun opened his mouth, "I..."

Feeling the heat coming from the back of his hand, being stared at so directly by Ji Liao, he unconsciously wanted to take a step back, but subconsciously stopped the movement, and it took a long time before he said, "I... don't know..."

He said shyly: "To be honest...it's been a long time since I checked this last time...I..."

"Trust me?" Ji Liao pressed the mute button on the remote control, the soundtrack of the movie stopped suddenly, staring at him and asked again, "Will you believe me?"

After the words fell, there was only the slight breathing sound of the two of them around for a while, and the atmosphere became a little delicate.

After a long time, he finally heard a "yes".

"Check it out...Ji Liao." Yan Cun took a breath and said with determination, "Check it out."

He seemed to think of something, and couldn't help laughing—two hours ago, he swore that 'there is nothing unbearable at this age', and he has already let out the words, so what's the matter with retreating now .

Ji Liao said "OK" softly, raised his hand and rubbed Captain Yan's head, and encouraged him: "We have to take this step."

Yan Cun suddenly felt that his face was a little hot, but he still nodded obediently, and replied: "You are right."

After confiding in such a long period of thoughts, Ji Liao let go of his hand. The two of them were a little embarrassed for being late, and each took a step back and leaned on the pillow.

Ji Liao turned on the movie volume again.

The two of them were in a state of disarray, and before they could fully withdraw from what they had just said, they suddenly heard some strange noises coming from the monitor, and they froze for a moment, looking up at the screen at the same time——in the original movie The two protagonists, one phantom and the other real, have already hugged each other and started kissing.

"????" Yan Cun was stunned, "This...how...you kissed?"