Red dust kills beauty

Chapter Hermit VI

"The dead are the big ones" can probably be called the three major passes together with "the big Chinese New Year" and "come all come".What's amazing about it is that even if Xiaobai knows it in his heart, he can't help but feel sad when facing this situation.

Of course, Xiaobai didn't like Xu Heping and his comrades in arms. For some subtle reason, the two of them could only pretend that there was no "friendly" relationship with each other. Probably only a woman who was crazy at that time would think that they could Be a good brother.

The experience of the past few years has washed away the little unhappiness in the past. Of course, Xiaobai remembers how many conflicts he had with another group of people here, but what impressed him even more was that when he passed by here, he heard the rumors from inside. Bugles coming, and occasional singing.

In front of him was a collapsed house. This was the former bird house. All the birds, including Xiaohui, hatched and bred here, and then died.

"Heping's class, apart from being responsible for guarding the place, the main job is to raise these postmen. His squad leader, I don't know if you remember, the one with a bad temper and a loud voice. Birds are like their own cubs, when I asked for Xiao Hui back then, you didn’t see his black face. I suspect that if I hadn’t promised to heal Xiao Hui’s wings, he would never have given Xiao Hui to me. "

As if catering to the woman's words, Xiao Hui spread out its withered wings, circled around its former residence and flew back, whining, and landed on the woman's shoulder again.The woman stroked its feathers gently, and Xiao Hui pecked her finger attached.

That's all the communication between them.But Xiaobai seemed to be nailed in place, and he felt that it was difficult for him to blend in.He silently followed behind his instructor, walked through the dilapidated building, and entered Shen Heping's dormitory.

This revenge started in the middle of the night, which meant that apart from the soldiers responsible for the night watch, the dormitory was the worst battlefield.

The accommodation conditions for the soldiers are not very good, it is a Datong shop, it is not difficult to imagine how crowded and sweaty it used to be.Only now it's all gone.

The corpse has been packed away, but the bloodstains and traces of struggle are still there.Xiaobai doesn't want to think about which ones are left by people he once knew.

"Heping told me that his bed is the seventh on the right hand side of the door." The woman said lightly, as if she hadn't seen them, and walked over lightly, "One, two, three...seven—you say , will he write to me?"

She stopped there, bent over and gently stroked the dark bed board with her fingers.Among the people gathered by Luo Xiaojie, one can ignite the flames, and everything here is probably the masterpiece of the other party.

"If I'm not wrong, if he really wrote it..." She said to herself, lifting the bed board, revealing the bare bottom of the bed.Just under the foot of the bed—the one with the shorter legs than the other three—was a small package wrapped in oiled paper.She bent down to take it out, opened it, and there were indeed letters inside.

"Look, what did I say?"

The woman looked up at Xiao Bai, she probably wanted to give a smug smile, but she didn't succeed.

"..." Maybe it was written for his parents.He wanted to say this, but he thought it was unreasonable, because he knew that Xu Heping had no parents.

The woman opened the first letter, and slowly finished reading it.Xiaobai slightly avoided his gaze, he didn't want to read what the other party wrote.

"..."

She finished reading the letter, her face was perfectly blank, she didn't say a word, and she didn't open the rest of the letter, she just sealed and wrapped them flatly, and put them in the handbag.By the time they stepped out of the dormitory door, she looked no different from usual.

Xiaobai can't see half of his emotions—this is what Xiaobai dislikes after she recovers her memory. She hides her emotions so well that he can't get any feedback he wants.Xiaobai remembers very clearly that when Shen He was mentioned before, the other party asked him who it was with a puzzled look on his face.

If it weren't for this incident, Xiaobai would never have discovered that, whether it was the monitor with a loud voice, or the big boy who smiled like a puppy... She remembered everything.

He's not being jealous - any way he's jealous seems ridiculous and unreasonable - he's just -

The woman had already walked in front of him, and he strode to catch up with her, reaching out and clenched her wrist tightly.She struggled twice, Xiaobai frowned and did not let go, and directly pulled him into her arms.

It was as if there was a fire burning in my heart, and it seemed to be pressed down heavily by a huge boulder.Xiao Bai took a breath. Ever since he learned of the tragedy that happened here, he had always felt breathless and dizzy, and now this feeling is even more serious.

The woman was a little surprised, and touched his face with her other free hand: "Xiao Bai, what's wrong with you?"

He's fine, he's fine, he's just—there's so much to say, it's been suffocating in his chest, it's like it's about to explode.

The young man's tightly knit eyebrows never let go, he bit his lips anxiously, and after a long while, squeezed out three words from his throat: "Don't--sad."

It was the first time he had used his throat since his parents died.After he finished speaking, he was stunned, pinching his Adam's apple at a loss.

In the past few years, Xiaobai's control over his abilities has greatly improved, and they restarted their efforts to restore Xiaobai's ability to speak.During the period, countless methods were tried, but Xiaobai couldn't speak at all, and could only make some nasal sounds like humming occasionally. Dr. Wu only said that the vocal cords were fine, but the time was not up, maybe it was an opportunity.

Women have also threatened and lured them, but they have all failed.Who knew that just needing her expressionless face, Xiao Bai would open his throat in worry?

The blank mask that was perfectly sealed just now was taken off in an instant, and a warm, heartfelt smile bloomed on her face.

"Xiaobai." She held his face in her hands, staring at him with surprise and warmth, as if watching a miracle, "You just spoke."

She seemed really happy, and held his face and kept asking him to say a few more words, but Xiao Bai didn't.

The woman was already much shorter than him, and he had to lower his head to find her eyes.However, even if the four eyes met, he could only see a pair of eyes full of smiles.He was very confused.

"Why, why—" Why aren't you sad?

Is this when you're glad I can talk?

Why do you pretend you don't care if you're sad?

But these were not what he most wanted to ask.

What he wants to know most is, if something happens to him one day, will the woman be like this, lightly suppressing everything about him and acting as if nothing happened?

Xiaobai is a person who has been worn out by war and life. During the years when he couldn't let go of the past and be cruel to others, he wandered like a wild dog, was beaten, trafficked, numbered, and... They were naked and inspected every inch of their body, and were put in a transparent glass wall for 24-hour surveillance.

Women often joke that he has a condescending face and a cold demeanor, but they all know that he is always submissive, he is used to being humiliated, his self-esteem is almost zero, and his desire for everything is being suppressed. Repressed to the lowest level, he never dared to fight for anything for himself.

But at this moment, even though he knew he shouldn't, Xiao Bai still couldn't help wanting something, and that was women's attention.

It's not the casual feeding like Xiao Hui, or the unpredictable pampering like Shen Heping, but more, more sincere, and it's best to be unique——

He didn't dare to hope to occupy the other party's entire mind, he just wanted such a small space.A place with his name written all over it.

But how to do it.Shen Heping didn't even die so badly.

Xiao Bai held the woman's wrist tightly, and the other party was still delighted that he had spoken.

If he died like Shen Heping, would she cry for him?

He wanted her to be sad for him, to remember him forever.He would rather die than be forgotten by her.

This is Xiaobai's greatest wish.

When I came to Wuzhou, not only did I not get a way to renew Xiao Hui's life, but I also received such a bad news that the two humans were fine, but Xiao Hui's spirit suddenly weakened.

Out of some evasive psychology, after learning that the whole town had been razed to the ground, they did not visit the place where they lived.I didn't sort out the prices that I didn't take away that year, and I didn't visit the kind old couple in the grain store downstairs.

They decided to stay overnight in Wuzhou City that night, and set off to find Luo Xiaojie the next day.Although the woman already knew that Luo Xiaojie would die in the future, it was necessary to appease Xiao Hui Xiao Bai's emotions right now.

But that night, they asked for a suite as usual, a room for women alone, and a room for Xiaohui and Xiaobai.Generally speaking, after taking a shower, they will chat in the common lounge area, have a meal together, and spend some time together before going back to their rooms.

It was the same today, as usual, Xiao Hui was held in Xiao Bai's arms like a baby, he sat on the sofa where the woman narrated, and let the other party teach him to speak sentence by sentence.

It was already cold winter when they entered the country, and there was a howling wind outside the window, but the temperature inside was neither high nor low, and the atmosphere was slightly sad and gentle.Xiao Hui leaned on the young man's arm, and let out a small snoring sound, then opened his two paws slightly and then grasped tightly, gently pecked Xiao Bai's cheek with a sharp beak.Xiao Bai dodged it lightly, chuckled lightly, Xiao Hui grunted, Xiao Bai looked down at it, and then the smile froze on his face.

"..."

"........."

The woman gently took Xiao Hui from Xiao Bai's arms, wrapped it around in her arms like holding a baby, and rubbed the tuft of feathers on its forehead for the last time: "...Go to sleep."

Xiao Bai closed his eyes, leaned his head on the woman's shoulder, and the woman embraced his shoulder, not rejecting his slightly weak approach.

When leaning against her, Xiao Bai thought, his former home is gone, his "almost brother" is gone, and now... even Xiao Hui is gone.

All he has left is his teacher.

Xiaobai felt that the air was getting more and more oppressive and heavy, and the dull pain that had been burning his chest since the day came back again, the feeling of being pressed by a boulder, sweat gradually broke out on his forehead, and the woman nervously held his chest. His shoulders were calling his name, but he couldn't hear anything clearly.He's just -- he's just very, very sad.

He coughed a few times, spurted a big mouthful of blood from his mouth, pressed his heart and said "Shen" before passing out.

Before he passed out, he was still thinking in his heart, will she lose her composure for me?

"!?"

More than just a gaffe, the woman was almost scared out of her wits.She is not that elusive madwoman at this time, she is Ning Hongchen, she is Zero—countless past and future old Bai Xiaobai are spinning in her mind, and the other party's body has always been in good health, there has never been such a time , never—she never saw.

"Xiaobai—Xiaobai—damn it, wake up—Fu Baixue!"

Witnessing Xiao Hui's departure just now, and witnessing so many deaths during the day, the woman's suppressed emotions burst out at this moment. She knew that she was panicking, but she couldn't help it. Xiao Bai was fine just a moment ago. Yes, she suddenly vomited blood and fell to the ground the next moment—she was terribly afraid that she would change history, and that Fu Baixue would leave him just like that.

She didn't even bother to change into decent clothes, and rushed to Dr. Wu with Xiao Bai on her back - thank God they lived in the city tonight.

Mr. Wu slept on the second floor of his clinic. He was woken up in the middle of the night by being photographed. He was so annoyed. The old man opened the window on the second floor, fucked a Beijing film, and yelled down: "Who doesn't sleep at night?" ,ill!?",

"Isn't he sick, old man!" The woman also raised her head and yelled at him, "It's a very urgent matter, please see what's wrong with him, you can ask me to do whatever you want!"

In the past few years, they still have contact in letters. Dr. Wu squinted at her for a while, recognized who it was, softened his tone, and snorted coldly: "You lick blood with a knife, I'm a doctor. Only you use me, I don't use you."

"Anything is fine, up to you!" The woman was so anxious that she was sweating, she didn't hear what he said clearly, she just kept begging him to have a look.

Saving people is a big deal, and the old man didn't delay. Ma Liuer put the person in and did a set of examinations, because the assistant nurses had gone home, and the old man condescended to do it himself—then put on reading glasses, twisted Looking at the checklist with brows, he didn't speak for a while.

The woman panicked. In fact, she had almost calmed down on the way here with Xiaobai on her back. She guessed that Xiaobai was fine, but she was still panicking in her heart. This kind of panic cannot be controlled by reason.

"Doctor Wu, what happened to Xiaobai?"

But the old man just stared at her with a strange expression, making her a little hairy, and the other party said slowly: "Your kid is an Alpha, you know that?"

The woman didn't understand what was going on, she frowned and nodded.

Dr. Wu's expression was unpredictable, he sipped his tea and cleared his throat, and then asked, "How on earth did you become a parent? How many years has he been differentiated? Why does he have to suffer every susceptibility period, even the injections?" No inhibitors were given to him?"

"...?" The woman was dumbfounded, and for the first time this stupid look appeared on her face, she said in surprise, "You—you mean, Xiaobai..."

Dr. Wu rolled his eyes. He was woken up by such a stupid thing in the middle of the night, and he was so yin and yang at this moment.

"You understand this kid's temper better than I do. He's just a dull gourd. It's like he insisted on suppressing himself into a little dumb. He has been stagnant in his heart for a long time, his liver qi is stagnant, and his energy is not overflowing. Everything happened today. Put it all together, can he not get dizzy? He also said 'sinking', can he not sink, if he keeps holding it down, his stones can form all the way from the atrium to the kidneys, the good guy weighs it and weighs dozens of catties Bar."

The woman understood, Xiaobai was not sick at all, it was simply because he hadn't vented for a long time and was suffocated.

"..."

For some reason, facing the teasing gaze of the old man, who had been thick-skinned for decades, his face suddenly turned red.

Next chapter: The Hermit VII

"Xiaobai, close your eyes." Her voice tightened, her slender and white arms wrapped around him, covering his eyes, "This is just—this is just, a physiological guidance."

?April [-]st

I originally planned to write about the two parting ways in this chapter, but thinking about the third volume, there will be no role for Xiaobai, so let's write it in detail.

You know the reason why Laobai's attitude towards Zhaoyao is so awkward. Although Aning is replacing Zhaozhao with peace, in Laobai's eyes, it's just that Aning likes this type of boy very much, and he has a bit of PTSD.